missy i totally agree with you, Father decides when our time comes because quite simply HE IS OUR FATHER. we that have found him have quite a bright future in front of us...its only question of time
HAIL SATAN!
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Inviato: Mar 5 ottobre 2010, 12:58:15
Oggetto: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Suicide
I can attest to the same thing that shereewarne just said. Last xmas I felt so alone, some call it the Absinthe, I think its all the fake smiles, lies and gluttony that caused it. I proclaimed that "if god exists they will take me to a place where people understand me" and cut myself deep. Not deep enough apparently. I'm still here, I am now thankful for.
When I 1st found my man and we had our 1st conversation about Satan I asked him how he found him and he said that when he tried to kill himself father saved him and wouldn't let him bleed. Let me honestly tell you that without father HE WOULD BE DEAD. Anyone who sees his scars can see that. They are long and wide, straight down his forearm. More than I can count.
Father wouldn't dislike you if you try, but if he doesn't want it to happen it won't.
I can not begin to tell you how thankful I am that I have done all that I have in the last year, but this life is the tortuous place that people should fear, and if we get through it and fight for father Satan we will be rewarded.
Suicidal thoughts occur on a daily for me, but there is a reason I am able to send this message to you all.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL KHIL!
Hail the Gods of Elysium!!!! Sent via BlackBerry by AT&T <hr>
From: "shereewarne" <shereewarne@...
Sender: Date: Mon, 04 Oct 2010 11:32:25 -0000
To: ReplyTo: Subject: Re: Suicide
Wait...
I have been through this before.
I know exactly how you feel and I have *tried* countless times to commit suicide. I have meditated, asked Satan for help and done everything expected of me in order to get out of a suicidal depression.
My only problem was the following: In the Al Jilwah Satan states "none shall live on this earth longer than the time set by me" - that means Satan decides when you die, not you.
So you can by all means try to commit suicide, I have (I tried drugs, I tried drain cleaner, I tried Rattex, sleeping pills even faked a suicide once so I could get anti-depressants - which don't work)
Unless Satan decides He wants you to die, then He will do so. It's His decision not yours.
It is a pretty insensitive stance towards your own emotions.
The reason I wanted to commit suicide was because I felt no one loved me, no one cared, so why should I care? Everything I do is wrong in the eyes of others as well as my own - however, the quicker I realised that no matter how many times I try to end my own life, Satan will force me to love and force me to suffer this life - or that is how I saw it at first, so no way out - can't commit suicide until I stopped and saw that even though I want to end my life I have no choice.
I think Satan loves us too much to let us commit suicide - well that was my opinion anyway
--- In , "devildude0666" <accbunt1994@... wrote:
You didn't fuck everything up, the world is already fucked up. Don't feel that nobody else knows how you feel.
--- In , "Way_Seeker666" <way_seeker666@ wrote:
What does Satan think of this?
What do you think he would do if I were to off myself?
I see no other way out of the mess I'm in, I can't live for myself and just lost the last thing keeping me hanging on. I feel this is all I can do to finish off my 24 years of fucking everything up.