Strange

[mookinki_6]

Hi, I'm new here...

You know, I did the ritual of dedication for Satan, but things ain't good enough...
After I did it, I started to feel more confortable in darkness, feeling as if someone was following me or like if someone was watching me all the time... I didn't feel fear, also I felt really happy and free... but then I started to talk with Satan, about things that I want to change and I didn't have an answer at that time, but after a few weeks everythings seems to be perfect... my relationship with my family is better and also my frienships...
But then... a couple of weeks the feeling of being followed and watched desapeared so suddenly, I have searched for a reazon... and also sometimes I fear darkness or feel alone...
I thought it was because I will having an important surgery in one or two weeks... but... I miss all sensation I used to have at the begining... it's so strange for me... not to feel that...

I don't know what was that... but I really like to believe that it was something related with Demos or Satan... but I don't know what to think now...

I need some opinions...

 

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What you felt IMO is the daemons, particularly a guardian. How open you are with them depends on you. Meditate and trance to communicate. Have an altar talk to them there. Good luck.
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From: "mookinki_6" <mookinki_6@...
Date: Wed, 12 May 2010 04:21:43
To: <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Subject: [Satanicgaycommunity] Strange

Hi, I'm new here...

You know, I did the ritual of dedication for Satan, but things ain't good enough...
After I did it, I started to feel more confortable in darkness, feeling as if someone was following me or like if someone was watching me all the time... I didn't feel fear, also I felt really happy and free... but then I started to talk with Satan, about things that I want to change and I didn't have an answer at that time, but after a few weeks everythings seems to be perfect... my relationship with my family is better and also my frienships...
But then... a couple of weeks the feeling of being followed and watched desapeared so suddenly, I have searched for a reazon... and also sometimes I fear darkness or feel alone...
I thought it was because I will having an important surgery in one or two weeks... but... I miss all sensation I used to have at the begining... it's so strange for me... not to feel that...

I don't know what was that... but I really like to believe that it was something related with Demos or Satan... but I don't know what to think now...

I need some opinions...



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[Justin Weeks]

I would suggest not to worrie about it. Keep doing your meditations and stay focused on whatever task or goal you have set. Weather it be your surgery or something else that needs to be done. In time all thing will become clear, Satan and his demons haven't left you if you haven't turned your back on them. Dont set limitations for yourself either set one goal at a time, than when one is done set another and move foward. Just small steps one at a time.    The best of luck to you! Hail Satan!

From: mookinki_6 <mookinki_6@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Wed, May 12, 2010 12:21:43 AM
Subject: [Satanicgaycommunity] Strange

Hi, I'm new here...

You know, I did the ritual of dedication for Satan, but things ain't good enough...
After I did it, I started to feel more confortable in darkness, feeling as if someone was following me or like if someone was watching me all the time... I didn't feel fear, also I felt really happy and free... but then I started to talk with Satan, about things that I want to change and I didn't have an answer at that time, but after a few weeks everythings seems to be perfect... my relationship with my family is better and also my frienships...
But then... a couple of weeks the feeling of being followed and watched desapeared so suddenly, I have searched for a reazon... and also sometimes I fear darkness or feel alone...
I thought it was because I will having an important surgery in one or two weeks... but... I miss all sensation I used to have at the begining... it's so strange for me... not to feel that...

I don't know what was that... but I really like to believe that it was something related with Demos or Satan... but I don't know what to think now...

I need some opinions...



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[Gerald Sylva]

Welcome!
If it is like it was for me, the "feel good" and sucesses phase was Father demonstrating His ability and willingness to incorporate you to the family. As you speak with Father, you raise the bar with requests for knowledge. To feel the pullback (for me) turned out to be a "soft test" likely meant to see what my reaction would be; would I seek him still, or would I pull away merely because the feel good disappeared for a time.   Let it also serve as common-sense, if you will, perhaps Father is also looking to see what the newfound comforts you found did in terms of strengthening you for periods that you really do find yourself "alone", not that you are, but the feeling is exactly the same.   You say you fear the darkness again. Of course, the question is, "why?" Because Father moved a distance away, or are there other human issues that have come up which may have "distanced" you from Father, making it no action of Father at all, but rather a "nagging conscience" if you will.   It may also mean that (part of) the answers you seek can only be found in the purely corporeal world of ours, and He may have deemed it less important whether you are comfortable rather than to give you the answers you seek.   Do not rush. Things are as they should be, whether immediately evident or not. I see far more of Father "behind me" than in front of me (nowadays). I get the feelings you get even still to these days - if I am not mistaken, the major difference between you and I is I cognize what the "aloneness" means, after many cycles of it.   It is not whether He has left you, it is whether He has ever been with you.   Hail Baphomet! Hail Satan!
From: mookinki_6 Subject: Strange Hi, I'm new here...

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[jim garland]

Gerald,   You are very wise. I wish we were to meet, and speak.   James

From: Gerald Sylva <gs75081@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Thu, May 20, 2010 8:08:28 PM
Subject: Re: [Satanicgaycommunity] Strange

  Welcome!
If it is like it was for me, the "feel good" and sucesses phase was Father demonstrating His ability and willingness to incorporate you to the family. As you speak with Father, you raise the bar with requests for knowledge. To feel the pullback (for me) turned out to be a "soft test" likely meant to see what my reaction would be; would I seek him still, or would I pull away merely because the feel good disappeared for a time.   Let it also serve as common-sense, if you will, perhaps Father is also looking to see what the newfound comforts you found did in terms of strengthening you for periods that you really do find yourself "alone", not that you are, but the feeling is exactly the same.   You say you fear the darkness again. Of course, the question is, "why?" Because Father moved a distance away, or are there other human issues that have come up which may have "distanced" you from Father, making it no action of Father at all, but rather a "nagging conscience" if you will.   It may also mean that (part of) the answers you seek can only be found in the purely corporeal world of ours, and He may have deemed it less important whether you are comfortable rather than to give you the answers you seek.   Do not rush. Things are as they should be, whether immediately evident or not. I see far more of Father "behind me" than in front of me (nowadays). I get the feelings you get even still to these days - if I am not mistaken, the major difference between you and I is I cognize what the "aloneness" means, after many cycles of it.   It is not whether He has left you, it is whether He has ever been with you.   Hail Baphomet! Hail Satan!
From: mookinki_6 Subject: Strange Hi, I'm new here...

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[Joe]

Hello!

Gerald, this is one of the few comments worthy of recognition for such eloquent explanation. Thanks!

Hail Satan!
Joe

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Gerald Sylva <gs75081@... wrote:

Welcome!

If it is like it was for me, the "feel good" and sucesses phase was Father demonstrating His ability and willingness to incorporate you to the family. As you speak with Father, you raise the bar with requests for knowledge. To feel the pullback (for me) turned out to be a "soft test" likely meant to see what my reaction would be; would I seek him still, or would I pull away merely because the feel good disappeared for a time.

Let it also serve as common-sense, if you will, perhaps Father is also looking to see what the newfound comforts you found did in terms of strengthening you for periods that you really do find yourself "alone", not that you are, but the feeling is exactly the same.

You say you fear the darkness again. Of course, the question is, "why?" Because Father moved a distance away, or are there other human issues that have come up which may have "distanced" you from Father, making it no action of Father at all, but rather a "nagging conscience" if you will.

It may also mean that (part of) the answers you seek can only be found in the purely corporeal world of ours, and He may have deemed it less important whether you are comfortable rather than to give you the answers you seek.

Do not rush. Things are as they should be, whether immediately evident or not. I see far more of Father "behind me" than in front of me (nowadays). I get the feelings you get even still to these days - if I am not mistaken, the major difference between you and I is I cognize what the "aloneness" means, after many cycles of it.

It is not whether He has left you, it is whether He has ever been with you.

Hail Baphomet!
Hail Satan!


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From: mookinki_6
Subject: Strange
Hi, I'm new here...

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