kidnickels17
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i understand that by some of Fathers teachings we are supposed to be secretive about our views. to an extent. but... i just cant do it. after dedicating myself ive had more energy and just felt so ALIVE! i walk down the halls in my school, in a great mood for once. i see a friend, place a hand on their shoulder and say "isnt this a glorious day? given to us by the Glorious One. Praise Satan...praise him" and continue on. i have 2 friends that are also Satanist and ones open about it but the other only likes to talk about it in private, if at all. so far no dirty non believers have had anything bad to say at least not to my face. i only get looks, and i shoot the look right back. during the pledge of allegiance i stop when '...under 'god' comes up. because i know it isnt our True God, it is a vile false one. i want to scream HAIL SATAN during, and just slap someone. out of excitement and a small portion of anger to the poor misguided ones...
thinking saying and doing this feels good, yet... i also feel as though i'm doing something wrong... should i try harder to surpress my outbursts? only Hail Satan when i'm alone in my room sitting in silence? i understand to tone it down around my folks, especially when thanksgiving rolls around...while they are saying grace im going to balls deep in meditation begging Lucifer for forgiveness for saying 'amen'...and am i waiting for grace to eat? Hell no. and what about christmas?!?! i dont wanna celebrate the birth of jesus! but my family sure does. i know He will be understanding. but i jsut cant help but feel dirty, like i should be doing more. i should be tearing down reefs... something! don't get me wrong, i'm all about free presents. but SHYIT! xmas' roots are tainted.. am i doing something wrong? or when harm isnt around (just people too afraid to challenge my beliefs) am i allowed to scream it out loud? I've never been that spiritual until accepting Satan into my life.. but now its as if i can see everything much more clearly. i don't want to push my beliefs on people..i know how that feels and its not good. but i feel everyone should know the warmth and glory of Him. know theyr not alone in the world, or that theyve been LIED to their entire lives..oh sigh, ive been ranting. theres so much to type, so little space.so many commas... My Brothers and Sisters, Thoughts, comments, or questions? LEMME HEAR 'EM!!
!!HAIL SATAN!!
thinking saying and doing this feels good, yet... i also feel as though i'm doing something wrong... should i try harder to surpress my outbursts? only Hail Satan when i'm alone in my room sitting in silence? i understand to tone it down around my folks, especially when thanksgiving rolls around...while they are saying grace im going to balls deep in meditation begging Lucifer for forgiveness for saying 'amen'...and am i waiting for grace to eat? Hell no. and what about christmas?!?! i dont wanna celebrate the birth of jesus! but my family sure does. i know He will be understanding. but i jsut cant help but feel dirty, like i should be doing more. i should be tearing down reefs... something! don't get me wrong, i'm all about free presents. but SHYIT! xmas' roots are tainted.. am i doing something wrong? or when harm isnt around (just people too afraid to challenge my beliefs) am i allowed to scream it out loud? I've never been that spiritual until accepting Satan into my life.. but now its as if i can see everything much more clearly. i don't want to push my beliefs on people..i know how that feels and its not good. but i feel everyone should know the warmth and glory of Him. know theyr not alone in the world, or that theyve been LIED to their entire lives..oh sigh, ive been ranting. theres so much to type, so little space.so many commas... My Brothers and Sisters, Thoughts, comments, or questions? LEMME HEAR 'EM!!
!!HAIL SATAN!!