saixkosmos
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I wanted to share this...
A month ago I fell in one of the worst bouts of depression I've ever had, I was losing what little hope I had and I was neglecting everything I used to like, I didn't wanted to paint and I started to toss away every drawing I could get my hands on and I either burned them or throw them into the trash can. It went on like that for almost two weeks until one night as I was sitting on my bed crying and almost out of breath saying that "I was nothing" and that "I didn't deserved to be happy or either be alive" mentally I said more than once "please help me" and after that there was some noise coming from headboard of my bed, it was faint at first and then it got louder. I stopped moving and got off the bed to check what it was and the noise continued it was going like someone was knocking the wood of the headboard "tic, tic, tic, toc" it went on for a while until I noticed that the little knocking noises were forming a melody that sounded a lot like one of my favorite songs. I stood in front of the bed staring at the place where the noise was coming from and when the noise stopped i felt a hand on my head and all I could do was bow my head and say "Thank you"
All I can say is that the presence I felt didn't left the room after I gave my thanks, it left after I went to bed and fell a sleep. After that everything has been better, I'm finally catching up with meditation and I am able to draw again.
Thanks Father Lucifer.
A month ago I fell in one of the worst bouts of depression I've ever had, I was losing what little hope I had and I was neglecting everything I used to like, I didn't wanted to paint and I started to toss away every drawing I could get my hands on and I either burned them or throw them into the trash can. It went on like that for almost two weeks until one night as I was sitting on my bed crying and almost out of breath saying that "I was nothing" and that "I didn't deserved to be happy or either be alive" mentally I said more than once "please help me" and after that there was some noise coming from headboard of my bed, it was faint at first and then it got louder. I stopped moving and got off the bed to check what it was and the noise continued it was going like someone was knocking the wood of the headboard "tic, tic, tic, toc" it went on for a while until I noticed that the little knocking noises were forming a melody that sounded a lot like one of my favorite songs. I stood in front of the bed staring at the place where the noise was coming from and when the noise stopped i felt a hand on my head and all I could do was bow my head and say "Thank you"
All I can say is that the presence I felt didn't left the room after I gave my thanks, it left after I went to bed and fell a sleep. After that everything has been better, I'm finally catching up with meditation and I am able to draw again.
Thanks Father Lucifer.