Should I stop doing the God's rituals? (Urgent!)

[WoadWarrior]

I am currently having an extremely annoying problem that when I do the rituals to the Gods I get intrusive thoughts, they are often disrespectful and in some cases are just a reverse of the specific affirmation, I of course dismiss these thoughts and they only seem to happen when doing power rituals to the gods, I am of course working on this but my question is in the meantime should I continue doing these rituals, I hate the idea of these thoughts slandering the gods and some of these rituals are designed to literally curse those who do so, but I want to continue to do my duty as a Satanist and grow closer to the gods, after these rituals I always feel the energy of the God in question which I take as a positive sign to continue, but man it makes me feel like shit when I get these intrusive thoughts thats its really discouraged me from continuing and I have started feeling these energies less and less after the ritual as time has gone by, so im not sure if thats a sign the gods want me to get control over my thoughts, or if its the worry about these thoughts dampening my connection to the Gods and I should push on regardless to strengthen my connection.

I have discussed the matter with GD and he reassured me that the Gods aren't insulted by these thoughts or at least they understand that I dont mean it however I cannot get more detail as I can only get yes no answers currently due to my low level of advancement, but I feel stuck between a rock and a hard place I was making such absurdly fast progress just a month ago when doing these rituals and the less I do them the slower I progress but the more I do them the harder these thoughts get to control and dismiss, I have no idea if its an enemy attack or my own personal psychological weakness, should I wait to get a handle on these things or should I soldier on regardless and just hope these intrusive thoughts arent causing negative energy to enter the ritual as im trying to help the cause not hinder it.

I am already doing workings to solve the issue my question more pertains to what I should do before I have solved it as I hate not doing any God's rituals as I still need to repay Valefor for healing me of an "incurable" condition and so when slanderous thoughts arise during my ritual to him I feel such an overwhelming shame after what hes done for me but if I do nothing then I feel like he wasted his time with me and I am not fulfilling my obligation which I did in fact promise to do.

Apologies if this is posted twice the first time I posted the page crashed so I don't know if it worked.

AVE SATANAS!

 

[Head Guardian Blitzkreig]

I have no idea if its an enemy attack or my own personal psychological weakness, should I wait to get a handle on these things or should I soldier on regardless and just hope these intrusive thoughts arent causing negative energy to enter the ritual as im trying to help the cause not hinder it.

It is no coincidence that it happens when you are doing Gods' rituals, as this enemy attack is designed to make you associate negative outcomes with their rituals and therefore want to stop doing them.

No, a few impulsive thoughts do not destroy the ritual or anything. Focus on the positive feeling of the energies involved.
Our affirmations and words of our thoughts are guides for our will and therefore only have as much power as we actually give them.

Even if the ritual was 10% less effective due to this attack, it is still much better than nothing, and therefore should be done regardless.

 

[Dragonheart666]

I am currently having an extremely annoying problem that when I do the rituals to the Gods I get intrusive thoughts, they are often disrespectful and in some cases are just a reverse of the specific affirmation, I of course dismiss these thoughts and they only seem to happen when doing power rituals to the gods, I am of course working on this but my question is in the meantime should I continue doing these rituals, I hate the idea of these thoughts slandering the gods and some of these rituals are designed to literally curse those who do so, but I want to continue to do my duty as a Satanist and grow closer to the gods, after these rituals I always feel the energy of the God in question which I take as a positive sign to continue, but man it makes me feel like shit when I get these intrusive thoughts thats its really discouraged me from continuing and I have started feeling these energies less and less after the ritual as time has gone by, so im not sure if thats a sign the gods want me to get control over my thoughts, or if its the worry about these thoughts dampening my connection to the Gods and I should push on regardless to strengthen my connection.

I have discussed the matter with GD and he reassured me that the Gods aren't insulted by these thoughts or at least they understand that I dont mean it however I cannot get more detail as I can only get yes no answers currently due to my low level of advancement, but I feel stuck between a rock and a hard place I was making such absurdly fast progress just a month ago when doing these rituals and the less I do them the slower I progress but the more I do them the harder these thoughts get to control and dismiss, I have no idea if its an enemy attack or my own personal psychological weakness, should I wait to get a handle on these things or should I soldier on regardless and just hope these intrusive thoughts arent causing negative energy to enter the ritual as im trying to help the cause not hinder it.

I am already doing workings to solve the issue my question more pertains to what I should do before I have solved it as I hate not doing any God's rituals as I still need to repay Valefor for healing me of an "incurable" condition and so when slanderous thoughts arise during my ritual to him I feel such an overwhelming shame after what hes done for me but if I do nothing then I feel like he wasted his time with me and I am not fulfilling my obligation which I did in fact promise to do.

Apologies if this is posted twice the first time I posted the page crashed so I don't know if it worked.

AVE SATANAS!

Sometimes it's nit easy to control our minds thoughts. I had that problem too. And I would often feel guilty after.. and felt like I was making a fool of myself. I had to learn to really relax for a bit. Then try again after awhile.
We are surround with a lot of enemy influence. And that is why it's important to clean our Aura and our chakra system

 

[Dragonheart666]

Lol... I am no stranger to that situation. I've experienced this myself from time to time.. you just have to learn to control your mind.
And I know it's not easy with some people. You have just got to learn to look at it like it's a television set and turn it off and walk away and picture yourself doing that! And make a habit out of doing that and let your mind know that you're in control. Also to write down your frustrations? And have Satan help you. Do an aura cleansing and a chakra cleansing before or after you start doing your power rituals to the gods and see if that works?