<td val[/IMG]Your depressed and want to kill yourself
because
you
don't
have a meaning or purpose for life, not the other way around. Satan has said that
"The meaning of life is to better yourself and the universe"
this is what Satanism is about, it is our core and guiding principle, bettering ourselves and bettering the universe. You can't do any of this if your dead. YOU are the one who is pushing YOURSELF toward death, not some "God" not some "flooting energy" it's YOU. Why is this? Because of enemy programming and because you have no direction or purpose or drive in your life.
So you've created a mental idea that God or something like that created you so you could die,
This is NOT the case. Satan created you (as he did all of humanity) for the purpose of reaching Godhood/Imortality, to become Gods in our own right. Wake the fuck up out of your mentally conditioned funk (because really that's what it is, you've thought yourself into a depression) and start preceding on the path you were meant to take:
http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... TANIC.html
http://webzoom.freewebs.com/satanismgr/ ... stries.pdf
"We become what we think"
If your looking for something to "finish you" then you WONT find it here, xtianity, islam ect ect is where you'll find that, most people who commit suacide come from a background of one of this sick programs they call religions.
Satanism on the otherhand is a life loving religion
. So that's it man, maybe your too 'skeptical' or 'logical' to even understand what I've said so far, like I've said that's what you've done, you've *thinked* yourself into a depression. Or maybe for once you'll trust you gut.
In anycase, you won't find "smth" (whatever the fuck that means) or something that will "finish" you here.
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my story is kinda diffrent, I used to avod telling about myself but now... .So, since I was kid I prayed the christian god evryday, I was walking into chruch, not every sunday but you know. I defended him , if someone tried to deny it, I always tried imagining him always behind my back defending me too.I always thought he will lead me. With christian god i felt only downs, there were no ups ( I'm not sure if it is becasue of the christian god tho). q
Seven years ago I started to loose touch with evrything , My enthusiasm in all things started to fade away , I started to loose evrything. Dont get me wrong i still had a place to live, money to survive. I started to feel theese energies floating into me, in my mind i could control them and change the picture i see , I always asked myself am I going mad? But the idea that I understood smth wrong was with me, made me feel *normal*. It always got worse. I started to expierience personality changes, i stopped seeing future ahead of me, when i tried to imagine myself happy ,I never seen the way it happens. After that, slowly I started *realising* my purpose in this life given by *somekind* god is nothing but death. I denied it, but that idea that i was going to die soon always visited me. First it was once in month , now I expierience it evryday. I used to be afraid of anything releated to me with dying, I no longer feel anything like that, I accepted it as my fait , I no longer run from it. I lost all my fealings for fear. I always feel someones pushing me towards sucide. I used to ask myself , Maibie I'm just in need for attention like those other cases I was told about when i was younger. Still i felt nothing like it , I stopped carying about friends, family members. I no longer fight it, I know now, it's only matter of time it is going to happen. My life turned into lving hell that i got used to.
Before I die , I decided to look for smth I missed, satanism one of those things. I'm just looking for smth that can cure me or just finish me...
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i understand how you're interested in it yet still apprehensive, you probably prayed one too many times to a god that never answered, right? me too, and take it from me, being skeptical is only going to make it worse. Also, its apparently taboo to ask for others personal experiences with just about anything, i learned the hard way and got a lot of negative reactions. Although there is merit to the point they're trying to make, which is the importance of making your own experiences, even if several people are straight up snarky about it. Once in a while you can get some of your questions answered here, which is what i think one of the purposes of a fucking community is about, you'll understand the frustration soon enough.The dedication ritual is where it starts, do that and i guess you could call yourself a satanist, but you have to put your heart into it, really want it. I know, its a big life decision, well LIVES decision. Now, i cant force you to because thats not what we're about and i dont want to psychologically convince you into it, the concept of rewards here are quite the opposite of the christianity you're used to, im still getting the hang of it myself. Still, i highly recommend dedicating, and take it from one skeptical to another, even i felt something the next couple of days i dedicated, it was different, a good different though. Its something that im not able to put into words really, its something you have to feel out from your individual perspective. The feeling is sort of settled for the most part, but yeah, i think the best way to describe it is half of this has a system to it, in the loosest sesne and the other half is more of feeling it out. I mean, it is a way of life.Anyway, really think about if satanism is for you, i suggest meditating until you come to an answer. In the event that you decide not to, meditation is good for you in general and in the even that you do decide to, you've already spent a good deal of time centering yourself for your dedication ritual so that your mind is a little more opened. So i hope you make the right choice, or whatever you feel is good for you at least because in either case scenario im gonna see you on the other side of your journey, just depends on what side you choose to be one.WELCOME TO FUCKING SHOW
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