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[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Nathan" <nathanbathory@... wrote:
I have a few pointers that may help. Some of the advice that's been given here is amazing, but there's also something that helped me that I had to do a looot of soul searching and praying to Father for. I have an issue with sexual hangups as well- I never look good enough, I'm too fat, I'm not confident enough, I don't fit in, I'm too weird, I'm different from everyone else, I'm not normal, nobody could possibly like me, etc. This has manifested in my love life due to my thoughts and needless to say what romantic trysts I've had have resulted in disaster. Ninety percent of it comes from my doing. (Here recently an ill-thought out spell resulted in an on and off-again boyfriend stealing my wallet.)
Because we have power, our auras manifest our thoughts and feelings- how we feel acts as if a rock thrown into a lake. The emotions we have make ripples in our auras and our auras make ripples in the background energy of reality. This causes disaster and heartache.
I did a lot of searching. I mean, some of it could be psychological- but thinking things over never helped, and neither did going to a councilor. I had to totally reorient and destroy my point of view on things. I combed over my natal astrology wheel to see maybe if it was a planetary influence and then suddenly I found it, two specific things that stood out. My Mars was positioned in such a place that boded calamity. It caused a T-square directly opposite my house of partnership that drained a lot of energy towards Pluto and also caused a bad Mars/Venus square, which can cause aggression towards romantic partners.
Both of those I could plainly see. The problem was, what to do about it? I could potentially strengthen my Mars via Chakra Breathing and hope that it was a debilitated chakra, but I had a sneaking suspicion that the very root of my Mars was corrupt. It was in a bad angle through and through. I still wanted a lot of energy through my mars, but I wanted to somehow destroy the square and eliminate the T-square that funneled all that energy to Pluto in opposition to my house of partnership.
So I had a crazy idea. Mars was transitting Leo. Mars and Leo had similar energies- what if I did a Mars-node transfer that gave me the energies of a Mars in Leo? That would create some even more interesting aspects but it would change the house it was in. Mars would no longer be in my Second house, but in my ninth, possibly my eighth. I wasn't sure about the aspects.
So I did it. I did the transit during the hours of Mars on a day associated with Mars with Mars in Leo, and invoked the power of the planet and its sign. It totally overwrote the previous mars node; I awoke feeling fresh, dapper, and totally changed.
Of course the effects have been subtle. No longer do I have the urge to blow all of my money as soon as payday arrives. I've actually been able to save some up, believe it or not. I can't say I have as much energy but I do have a bit more flair at my job. I haven't done a whole lot of other work with the chakra, but looking into this may be an idea. It certainly helped me.
And the anger I used to feel at partners, past and present? Gone.
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[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "omniquintess" <omniquintess@ wrote:
I noticed that throughout the group messages that there are a few posts about sexual hang-ups and how they are detrimental to spiritual growth.
I believe I am having this problem and came on to ask if anyone had any answers on how to eliminate these hang-ups. I don't really know where the source originated, but for years now I have detested intimate relationship between humans. I distance myself from the opposite sex (yes, I am heterosexual) and often have a tendency to lash out in my head how horrible love and lust is.
I have a deep-rooted problem with intimacy and can't seem to fix it, as if its become my nature now. I even went looking up how to stop my sex drive and become as asexual (figuratively speaking) as possible. I have also noticed that when topics about couples come up, I feel a little sick (literally) and there is an ache in my heart.
Any help/wisdom is highly appreciated and needed.
Please and thank you
-Omniquintess
(if more information is needed to assist me, please don't hesitate to ask)