Searching for answers

[Metalgod9]

Greetings to all of you JoS members...

I have spent the last 30+ years studying the evolution of religion from around this world, and I have to say that the more I study - the less I find myself believing in anything.

While I have quite a large selection of material dedicated to Satan, Lucifer, and the Devil, most of it reads with the tainted perspective that the authors bottom line is to turn you towards his or hers religious point of view rather than educate. Very frustrating.

It is fantastic that this subject is becoming more available to the masses, but I am still looking for material with substance, something that will link it all together and allow me to find faith again!

For example, as I see on the JoS site, a quote from Qu'Ret Al Yezid. When I try to find more material from that, I have only found books with small snippets from that, so is there a good book available??

Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated!!

 

[bdskiaba2017]

Hi,
I have written here but it doesn't seem to be posting so I am writhing to all you again. I just started my looking into Satan/lucifer for many reason. I am now 36 and I was raised a Christian and have been all my life. But it never seemed like there was a connection to God as the Bible promised there should be if "we have enough faith" I studied, I prayed, I did devotional after devotional, I went to Christian schools. But ever time I prayed asking for help I never had a prayer granted. I can recount 5 times in my life when my prayers were the most urgent, I was in the most pain, when my suffering seemed to great to survive. So I begged god for help and each and every time only silence came back to me. I asked people why and all said that god knows more than we do so he has better for you. I tried to accept that answer but it never really set right with me. When I was 23 I went through a horrible divorce and I remember asking god to bring my ex back even though she did inject me with insulin when I was sleeping and had multiple affairs. That wasn't answer which was good because a few years later I had grown and matured more and then met someone I truly loved and truly loved me in return. So I thought that god didn't answer my prayer because he had this in mind. He always said in the Bible how important marriage was to him, and many other things about marriage. So after 6 years of an amazing marriage I was somewhat content but still all of my prayers went unanswered and I started to notice everyone that I knew that was a Christian never had any of their prayers answered but they always said to give it time and god knows better. The normal Christian cliche responses. Then one day my wife just walked out. She never cheated, we barley fought, things were great between us but she seemed to have had a mental breakdown and blamed me for everything including things that never happened. So for the last 8 months I have begged, cried, pleaded with god to bring her back or change my heart to no longer love her. But I got no response to any of my prayers. Then I met a man than looked at me and put of the blue asked a question that I couldn't answer and floored me. He asked "what father ignores his children when they cry out in part n and suffering?" I didn't know what to say. He then told me that he was a lucifarian (sorry if my spelling is wrong) and that everything I had been taught about lucifer was a lie. That he was cast from heaven because he disagreed with god about us and he wanted us to make our own laws., that he loves us and wants us to reach our full potential and even become greater than him. He claimed that lucifer has always loved mankind and answers prayers as any loving father would. I don't remember all of it or I may have misremembered all he said as I was hurting and shocked.

So I write this post asking for clarity on what I was told. Does lucifer or Satan, I'm not sure of the difference, really love us? Was all I have been taught a lie? Does he answer prayers of those who follow him? Is he a loving father? Would he answer my prayers? And of course closest to my heart could he bring my wife and I back together? What is the cost? If there is one, again I don't know and only asked based on what I have been taught so far. What should I do? Can I ask him directly or how do I learn the truth of it all. I believe in my heart that God has lied to me and that the Bible is full of lies and promises he never intended to fulfill. So I want you to know that I am genuine here.

I have always lived a tough life and it's. It been my own fault most of the time. I don't do drugs I treat others how I would want to be treated and I am an honest person so is it that I have been following the wrong God and lucifer has been trying to get my attention all along? I don't know so I ask hoping to get the answers I seek. Of course what brought me here is the desire to get my wife back and if he did that I would be dedicated for life without question but I don't even presume to make ultimatums.

Any answer would be most appreciated

John Michael

 

[Ron Brown]

I'd advice you to read the Joy of Satan website

On Aug 10, 2017 4:46 AM, "bdskiaba2017@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:

  Hi,
I have written here but it doesn't seem to be posting so I am writhing to all you again. I just started my looking into Satan/lucifer for many reason. I am now 36 and I was raised a Christian and have been all my life. But it never seemed like there was a connection to God as the Bible promised there should be if "we have enough faith" I studied, I prayed, I did devotional after devotional, I went to Christian schools. But ever time I prayed asking for help I never had a prayer granted. I can recount 5 times in my life when my prayers were the most urgent, I was in the most pain, when my suffering seemed to great to survive. So I begged god for help and each and every time only silence came back to me. I asked people why and all said that god knows more than we do so he has better for you. I tried to accept that answer but it never really set right with me. When I was 23 I went through a horrible divorce and I remember asking god to bring my ex back even though she did inject me with insulin when I was sleeping and had multiple affairs. That wasn't answer which was good because a few years later I had grown and matured more and then met someone I truly loved and truly loved me in return. So I thought that god didn't answer my prayer because he had this in mind. He always said in the Bible how important marriage was to him, and many other things about marriage. So after 6 years of an amazing marriage I was somewhat content but still all of my prayers went unanswered and I started to notice everyone that I knew that was a Christian never had any of their prayers answered but they always said to give it time and god knows better. The normal Christian cliche responses. Then one day my wife just walked out. She never cheated, we barley fought, things were great between us but she seemed to have had a mental breakdown and blamed me for everything including things that never happened. So for the last 8 months I have begged, cried, pleaded with god to bring her back or change my heart to no longer love her. But I got no response to any of my prayers. Then I met a man than looked at me and put of the blue asked a question that I couldn't answer and floored me. He asked "what father ignores his children when they cry out in part n and suffering?" I didn't know what to say. He then told me that he was a lucifarian (sorry if my spelling is wrong) and that everything I had been taught about lucifer was a lie. That he was cast from heaven because he disagreed with god about us and he wanted us to make our own laws., that he loves us and wants us to reach our full potential and even become greater than him. He claimed that lucifer has always loved mankind and answers prayers as any loving father would. I don't remember all of it or I may have misremembered all he said as I was hurting and shocked.

So I write this post asking for clarity on what I was told. Does lucifer or Satan, I'm not sure of the difference, really love us? Was all I have been taught a lie? Does he answer prayers of those who follow him? Is he a loving father? Would he answer my prayers? And of course closest to my heart could he bring my wife and I back together? What is the cost? If there is one, again I don't know and only asked based on what I have been taught so far. What should I do? Can I ask him directly or how do I learn the truth of it all. I believe in my heart that God has lied to me and that the Bible is full of lies and promises he never intended to fulfill. So I want you to know that I am genuine here.

I have always lived a tough life and it's. It been my own fault most of the time. I don't do drugs I treat others how I would want to be treated and I am an honest person so is it that I have been following the wrong God and lucifer has been trying to get my attention all along? I don't know so I ask hoping to get the answers I seek. Of course what brought me here is the desire to get my wife back and if he did that I would be dedicated for life without question but I don't even presume to make ultimatums.

Any answer would be most appreciated

John Michael

 

[fleurde.lis]

First of he send you here, look at the name of group you are in group which is teaching newcomers about Lucifer. Read first main website, then forum, then topics in group and after that you're ready to by guided by him thru books, videos... there is huge knowledge outside the JoS but to understand what is lie and what is the truth you need to read first www.joyofsatan.org then www.josministries.prophpbb.com and after that many as you like topics in this group. First read and then decide if you will do dedication. If you do, the journey continues and you will be guided by him. Maybe he evem show himself to you right away. And maybe it will be later.