Hey obey3213,
You have to remember to keep yourself anonymous here... It's for your own protection. I understand how your feeling, especially being new. It would be nice to be able to do that but sadly because of the jooish religions and their lies about Satan, it's best to keep it to yourself. This is something that has to be done on your own. Read the Joy of Satan website and keep studying it and start meditating. There is a 40 day meditation program by HP Hooded Cobra for starts. If you have any questions, feel free to ask. That's why we're here.
Hail Father Satan!