I used to drink and smoke Marijuana. I thought it was normal. Marijuana is easy to conceal, you can pretty much do it whenever you want etc. All drugs are essentially toxins i.e. poisons. They act as both a stimulant in some quantity and a depressant in some quantity. What sets toxins apart is only the quantity required for each. Some are measured in parts per million, some in grams. For example nicotine. If you ingested real nicotine you would die instantly. It's a narcotic 10-times more powerful than heroin. You are inhaling nicotine vapor measured in parts per million. It screws up your bioelectricity and leaves you prone to psychic attack. It totally negates everything you are doing in Satanism. I know - it sucks. If I hadn't found Satan, I would of loved to both grow and smoke. The good news is, once you put that aside and focus on empowering yourself through meditation, that high you get is going to seem like a ridiculous joke. Compare the thrill you get from taking a ride on child's tricycle to that of a rocket strapped to your ass. It's really no exaggeration.