I thought this was a Scientology thing.
I would tell you not to give up, and stay strong.
Bad things always happen.
In my case, money, deaths, me getting away from my family...yet you have to really feel into it, because if you're weak, the first misfortune that occurs, you're going to blame it on Satan.
And when things are the worst, that's the time you can make your love deeper, have a laugh, use your skills, maybe even try to feel a Demon.
And if you don't feel Him/Her: a reason more to do power meditations.
This is for making you strong if you tend to be weak in your bond:
https://www.templeofzeus.org/Meditation_on_Satan.html
There are many things you can do to stop this downfall:
For hearing Them:https://www.templeofzeus.org/Psychic_Centers.html
For seeing them: https://www.templeofzeus.org/Clairvoyance_Points.html
Before that, there are steps. You can't move a table or burn an object with your mind if no preparation or advancement has been done before in order to work on what will take you there.
As you're older than me, you can master Void Meditation better than I do. Just that might help a bit.
Work on these, but please, know that for working on your psychic centers there are steps to be done before.
Just dwell in Satan, as truly as you can, and you'll never be lonely.
This may be too abstract for you, but we're different.
It's 29th, so I hope you started War Against Our Civilization when the time was right:
If so, that only means that you're not alone.
If not, join us for one day, make a little present to yourself:
Tomorrow we have Ritual which now always involves the Tetragrammaon ritual, then Jos Protection Ritual, and Wealth For Satanists, here:
first... https://www.satanisgod.org/JOS_Protection.html and second.... https://tozrituals.org/rituals/blessing/wealth-prosperity
Dare everything opposing your rise.