Greetings and well being to all.
I have a lot to talk about, and I have decided not to post this as an anonymous question because I want to be honest with all of you, the Gods, and myself about my failures, and my willingness to grow from past mistakes. For a while now, it has probably been obvious to any reading my profile, that I have been someone who is on-and-off on the forums, not because I do not have faith and understanding, but because I was simply not good enough as a person to organize my life (I am younger than a man with a life fully in place). I believe I still have a lot to mature and grow, but for now, I would like to mention a few things. Firstly, the fact that in the past as a child, I was brainwashed by someone close to me for a very long time, and it took me a while to move on and heal mentally, but I feel that sometimes it still impacts me in some areas of life. On this, I would like to request any advice on what to use for healings, and if anybody has any suggestions on which meditations I should check out.
Apart from that.. I would like to state to all of you, brothers and sisters, and to the Gods, that I am truly ashamed for any past actions I may have committed, for example lack of initiative, and unhealthy habits that have been destructive to me, that may have disappointed the Gods, although I am sure they were not always watching over all of them, because either they have had bigger things to focus on, or simply they knew I would understand I have to do better on the path and do what I can for it. With that being said, I would like to request advice from you all on what things I should check out as a returning member? What meditations or plans should I take a look at, if I wish to simply grow as if I was a "beginner", if general growth is what I am seeking?
Should anyone respond, I am thankful.
Hail Father Zeus and the Gods.