Repressed Rage/ Repressed emotions

[Dalacos]

So to start with this is what I can gather about myself and my background which may give some perspective. Also just wanted to say if this should go into health I am sorry I'll repost there if asked too. Anyways I grew up with a dad who can't control his temper. He jumps around screaming yelling and loves loves loves fighting. Now granted he never took his physical aggression out on me as much as he wanted but only because my mom, for all her issues, protected me from that; but he really regrets not being able to. He always says I never got spanked and put in my place enough as a kid (in regards to any of my 'rebellious nature') along with the 'fact' (in his mind it is a fact) "some 'smart' people on the internet made you not believe in god so fuck off with that bullshit they brainwashed you". Which is just funny from an outsider standpoint. However I seem to not be able to express my rage. I was always meek and preferred words to violence unless it was a game. I never liked to physically hurt someone if it was serious. Im sure that was turn the other cheek programming, but it is on such a level i cant seem to really feel rage or for that matter emotions very deeply. I am not a sociopath because I felt them very very deeply once its just now its like numb. Sorta dull even. Are there any workings that will help. I assume Satanma along with Munka will help for sure but anything else that will really help. Could it be from my throat Chakra being blocked or even a deep seeded psychological recursion loop?

 

[Ol argedco luciftias]

Final Ritual, melt through all the bindings

 

[Ol argedco luciftias]

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Click on the second link in this comment

This is the stuff of Argedco
https://mega.nz/#F!vzQ0QATD!G91quBFThyEjXpOmw4BwRw

And here is the folder with HC videos (I don't think they are all though)

https://mega.nz/#F!TyBQSQ6T!WYp4OkJPvBn20TjXcxEWBA

And watch all of those videos. Some of them will make you more angry than you can even imagine, so have the Ritual ready so you can do the Ritual when you are watching it. This will release your repressed emotions, especially anger.

 

[Azorm]

Also Munka is good if you feel that you are in some way linked to the enemy as bad emotions and dirt might tie you in some nasty enemy bullshit. Satanama too will stop some of those energies and curses that belong to the enemy from affecting you, you can also cut off harmful ties to the enemy or break apart connection to some bad people for you. I hope that something will help you that I said to you, it might take some time tho to fix your problems fully.

 

[Fuchs]

So to start with this is what I can gather about myself and my background which may give some perspective. Also just wanted to say if this should go into health I am sorry I'll repost there if asked too. Anyways I grew up with a dad who can't control his temper. He jumps around screaming yelling and loves loves loves fighting. Now granted he never took his physical aggression out on me as much as he wanted but only because my mom, for all her issues, protected me from that; but he really regrets not being able to. He always says I never got spanked and put in my place enough as a kid (in regards to any of my 'rebellious nature') along with the 'fact' (in his mind it is a fact) "some 'smart' people on the internet made you not believe in god so fuck off with that bullshit they brainwashed you". Which is just funny from an outsider standpoint. However I seem to not be able to express my rage. I was always meek and preferred words to violence unless it was a game. I never liked to physically hurt someone if it was serious. Im sure that was turn the other cheek programming, but it is on such a level i cant seem to really feel rage or for that matter emotions very deeply. I am not a sociopath because I felt them very very deeply once its just now its like numb. Sorta dull even. Are there any workings that will help. I assume Satanma along with Munka will help for sure but anything else that will really help. Could it be from my throat Chakra being blocked or even a deep seeded psychological recursion loop?

it is best not to talk with outsider about jos stuff. did you consider a binding on your dad? (ISA rune)

 

[Lunar Dance 666]

You'll have to find the answer yourself to that question.. 'why can't I get mad?'

I can't tell you the answer or give you a hint in the direction because I don't think you should associate what I may tell you with what is actually going on..

But I'll tell you this as I've been in a similar situation quite a lot of years ago by now, and back then someone told me (something along those lines):

'Its okay to be mad'. 'you are allowed to be angry'.

Emotions will return over time, meditate and start cleaning. Things will start to surface and then you can deal with them.
You could take a look at Lydia's psychological healing working with wunjo, perhaps..

As for this annoying person.. have you done a binding on them yet?

 

[Shael]

>If he approaches. Knock him the fuck out.
>Beat the shit out of him as many times as it takes

Some seriously good advice

Very bad and very dangerous advice, is what you meant to say. I'm surprised this post even went through, as it falls into the "do not give illegal advice" category for many countries.

It's a good idea to stand up to bullies and to show them that you're ready to flay them alive, but it's not a good idea to liberally go and beat people up. In many countries, you can get into serious trouble for this. Yeah sure, the dad could get timid after getting beaten up. But he could also kick you out of the house, or call the cops on you and have you locked up if you try to assault him again. Do not give out advice like this that could get people behind steel bars.

A simple binding working will solve this easily, without having to take the risk of going to jail.

 

[Shael]

>If he approaches. Knock him the fuck out.
>Beat the shit out of him as many times as it takes

Some seriously good advice

Very bad and very dangerous advice, is what you meant to say. I'm surprised this post even went through, as it falls into the "do not give illegal advice" category for many countries.

It's a good idea to stand up to bullies and to show them that you're ready to flay them alive, but it's not a good idea to liberally go and beat people up. In many countries, you can get into serious trouble for this. Yeah sure, the dad could get timid after getting beaten up. But he could also kick you out of the house, or call the cops on you and have you locked up if you try to assault him again. Do not give out advice like this that could get people behind steel bars.

A simple binding working will solve this easily, without having to take the risk of going to jail.

 

[ToZ Forum Contributions]

Its seriously foolish advice. Starting a fight with your father is not going to help anything. If you physically assault people you might kill them or harm them and in general be arrested and also taken to court for lawsuits.

Stay away from toxic people and heal the samskaras with cleaning the soul and create a positive self esteem. Just ignore your father you can also program your aura.

Also just working out in the gym does not make one good at hand to hand combat or self defense especially in a world where people carry weapons. It also will not heal the samskaras of a life time.

 

[Aldrick Strickland]

Its seriously foolish advice. Starting a fight with your father is not going to help anything. If you physically assault people you might kill them or harm them and in general be arrested and also taken to court for lawsuits.

Stay away from toxic people and heal the samskaras with cleaning the soul and create a positive self esteem. Just ignore your father you can also program your aura.

Also just working out in the gym does not make one good at hand to hand combat or self defense especially in a world where people carry weapons. It also will not heal the samskaras of a life time.

Oh please. This was coming from a story of his father wanting to beat the shit out of him. I thought it was a step dad. I had someone whos step dad, pulled a gun on them and wanted to kill them.

Oh we can go to jail. Boo hoo. If someone is trying to do harm to you or kill you. Its high time to defend yourself. Where I come from you hit the bully in the face.

Seriously, fucking pansies. Now you can scold me about superior you are to me. What a fuckin joke.

 

[Jack]

>If he approaches. Knock him the fuck out.
>Beat the shit out of him as many times as it takes

Some seriously good advice

Very bad and very dangerous advice, is what you meant to say. I'm surprised this post even went through, as it falls into the "do not give illegal advice" category for many countries.

It's a good idea to stand up to bullies and to show them that you're ready to flay them alive, but it's not a good idea to liberally go and beat people up. In many countries, you can get into serious trouble for this. Yeah sure, the dad could get timid after getting beaten up. But he could also kick you out of the house, or call the cops on you and have you locked up if you try to assault him again. Do not give out advice like this that could get people behind steel bars.

A simple binding working will solve this easily, without having to take the risk of going to jail.

I was obviously being sarcastic. Should have worded it like "Finally! Some good advice. LOL".

 

[Aldrick Strickland]

>If he approaches. Knock him the fuck out.
>Beat the shit out of him as many times as it takes

Some seriously good advice

Very bad and very dangerous advice, is what you meant to say. I'm surprised this post even went through, as it falls into the "do not give illegal advice" category for many countries.

It's a good idea to stand up to bullies and to show them that you're ready to flay them alive, but it's not a good idea to liberally go and beat people up. In many countries, you can get into serious trouble for this. Yeah sure, the dad could get timid after getting beaten up. But he could also kick you out of the house, or call the cops on you and have you locked up if you try to assault him again. Do not give out advice like this that could get people behind steel bars.

A simple binding working will solve this easily, without having to take the risk of going to jail.

Sits down. Crosses my fingers. So self defense is now illegal? If you have a raging step dead trying to hurt you. You use confidence first and fist second to defend yourself against him.

So Lets say I wear a gun. Someone comes up to me to hurt me. I pull it out. Shoot him dead. Thats illegal to even talk about huh? Just suppose to let him kill you.

I will give ya a bit to really process what youre saying.

 

[Seby]

Bullies are almost always cowards, if you show you're not afraid he'll stop because of fear you'll react.
If you hurt him he'll understand better, but to do it you have to be cautious. Do it out of self defence to not get in legal trouble.

 

[Shael]

I was obviously being sarcastic. Should have worded it like "Finally! Some good advice. LOL".

I guess a sarcastic tone is sometimes hard to convey through text alone. It sounded to me like you were being completely serious.

 

[Aldrick Strickland]

Some seriously good advice

Very bad and very dangerous advice, is what you meant to say. I'm surprised this post even went through, as it falls into the "do not give illegal advice" category for many countries.

It's a good idea to stand up to bullies and to show them that you're ready to flay them alive, but it's not a good idea to liberally go and beat people up. In many countries, you can get into serious trouble for this. Yeah sure, the dad could get timid after getting beaten up. But he could also kick you out of the house, or call the cops on you and have you locked up if you try to assault him again. Do not give out advice like this that could get people behind steel bars.

A simple binding working will solve this easily, without having to take the risk of going to jail.

I was obviously being sarcastic. Should have worded it like "Finally! Some good advice. LOL".

We have picked out the ass kisser. Oh better change your story because someone withHP in their signature didnt agree.

 

[Orpheus]

Its seriously foolish advice. Starting a fight with your father is not going to help anything. If you physically assault people you might kill them or harm them and in general be arrested and also taken to court for lawsuits.

Stay away from toxic people and heal the samskaras with cleaning the soul and create a positive self esteem. Just ignore your father you can also program your aura.

Also just working out in the gym does not make one good at hand to hand combat or self defense especially in a world where people carry weapons. It also will not heal the samskaras of a life time.

Please Mageson, could you give us advices on how to destroy the samskaras and clean the chakras to get the psyche to the original perfect state? Mantras and how to use them. I'm talking about cleaning exercises on the chakras (not the freeing the soul workings' method).

 

[ToZ Forum Contributions]

He stated his father is not physically violent towards him and asked for advice with cleaning the soul of psychic imprints from the results of living in the environment and its effects.

He never stated his life was threatened or at risk. People have the right to self defense most laws also recognize these. Smart people understand this and understand how to protect themselves. Knowing how to deal with difficult people by avoiding the situation and using psychic power is the highest level of personal protection.

You seem to have some issues with people disagreeing with you and feel the need to become pointlessly insulting. Why are you attempting to make conflicts? It seems your venting over other things. All your posts seem over emotional are you doing alright?

Oh please. This was coming from a story of his father wanting to beat the shit out of him. I thought it was a step dad. I had someone whos step dad, pulled a gun on them and wanted to kill them.

Oh we can go to jail. Boo hoo. If someone is trying to do harm to you or kill you. Its high time to defend yourself. Where I come from you hit the bully in the face.

Seriously, fucking pansies. Now you can scold me about superior you are to me. What a fuckin joke.

 

[Aldrick Strickland]

He stated his father is not physically violent towards him and asked for advice with cleaning the soul of psychic imprints from the results of living in the environment and its effects.

He never stated his life was threatened or at risk. People have the right to self defense most laws also recognize these. Smart people understand this and understand how to protect themselves. Knowing how to deal with difficult people by avoiding the situation and using psychic power is the highest level of personal protection.

You seem to have some issues with people disagreeing with you and feel the need to become pointlessly insulting. Why are you attempting to make conflicts? It seems your venting over other things. All your posts seem over emotional are you doing alright?

Oh please. This was coming from a story of his father wanting to beat the shit out of him. I thought it was a step dad. I had someone whos step dad, pulled a gun on them and wanted to kill them.

Oh we can go to jail. Boo hoo. If someone is trying to do harm to you or kill you. Its high time to defend yourself. Where I come from you hit the bully in the face.

Seriously, fucking pansies. Now you can scold me about superior you are to me. What a fuckin joke.

OH. Thats uh. Thats really strange. I thought he said his step dad tried to kill him and if not for his mother, he wouldnt be here... Well I guess I am having false memories. Yeah that changes the dialouge a little.

Well I dont mean to Insult someone as to make them feel bad. It feels like to me people always carry this Haughty Attitude. Like watch me be so Dominant and tear this person down. So I like to throw words around a little. Let them fight for their little control and superiority.

Till they realize it doesnt work and frustrates them. Because thats what eveyone wants, control. Then you step on a roller coaster ride and you lose all control. To some fear sinks in and takes hold. To others they arms back and say the Hell with it and feel exhilerated.

I am just trying to hold a hand out. Say the Hell with your control. It will never bring you what you want. You will always be a little slave to it.

If someone were to merely reply in such away that they stop trying to be in control of everything. I would Laugh with them. We could brace for the ride together. But theyre not satisfied with that. They have to feel they have Dominated someone and made them submit.

Have you ever watched it? Its quite Hilarious. Then they Hold these grudges against me for years. Because I took their little control away for a fleeting moment.

But control is a shackle. If they would only see how freeing it could be. When I worked at a Home for juvinle boys that was a sight to see. 17 year old males all trying to one up each other.

Be left alone with 16 of em at a time. They already have criminal records. Fights bust out. I took a few hits. Thankfully nothing serious. One tried to stab me one time.

You dont play their game. You play a different game. I mean what is with people and getting hurt over some guy they know nothing about words? Isnt that kinda silly. Words on a screen that are nothing if any serious matter. Im not saying I know where youre family is, im coming for you. That could be a little worrying. But just empty words.

As for me being alright. I dont really know how to answer that. I feel refreshed and have overcome the crushing depression. Now I feel Drunk all the time and I dont drink. Emotions and thoughts that just swirl and go where they want.

But I feel so guilty for how depressive I was there for a bit. Such a downer to others morale. That just.. Urks me. No I will remain strong for this Family. For this House of Satan.

I dont want my family hurt, no never that isnt it. But I dont wanna have to walk around going sorry sorry, did that hurt your feelings, did that offend you? Do you need your safe place?

I would rather someone say. Aldrick Shut the Hell up before I come over there and kick your fucking ass. I suppose that would be fighting words to some. But I would Laugh my ass off. I mean come on be a warrior. Show me you dont care. That youre a fighter.

I have a few placements that are do or die to the extreme. That its either accomplish this or to Hell we go. Ive never just lived life. Enjoyment, friends, love ect. It was meditate hours a day get to Godhead. Organize a Coven and fight.

On days off I would get up 5 am and do Rituals till 12:30 or later. Stopping for food and the bathroom. Between losing every friend I thought I had to feeling like no matter what I hit a wall.

If I cant make things better, then retreat is the only option. I have too much to give of this Satan Blessing of a body and life to give away. So for the time being I can escape in my mind.

 

[Jack]

I was obviously being sarcastic. Should have worded it like "Finally! Some good advice. LOL".

I guess a sarcastic tone is sometimes hard to convey through text alone. It sounded to me like you were being completely serious.

I can't imagine someone's knocking out their dad for being mean,like wtf.

 

[luis]

Its seriously foolish advice. Starting a fight with your father is not going to help anything. If you physically assault people you might kill them or harm them and in general be arrested and also taken to court for lawsuits.

Stay away from toxic people and heal the samskaras with cleaning the soul and create a positive self esteem. Just ignore your father you can also program your aura.

Also just working out in the gym does not make one good at hand to hand combat or self defense especially in a world where people carry weapons. It also will not heal the samskaras of a life time.

Please Mageson, could you give us advices on how to destroy the samskaras and clean the chakras to get the psyche to the original perfect state? Mantras and how to use them. I'm talking about cleaning exercises on the chakras (not the freeing the soul workings' method).

Cleaning your aura and chakras with a mantra like Surya or Raum like it's stated on the Jos does exactly what you asked (After you used the mantra of course you have to use an affirmation). The Freeing the soul working it's for more specific cases but it does help.

 

[Ol argedco luciftias]

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Well I still like you, and I'm a human.

 

[Shael]

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Well I still like you, and I'm a human.

Most people here actually care about him, even though he sees everything as an attack and everyone as an enemy.

 

[Aldrick Strickland]

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Well I still like you, and I'm a human.

Oh I like peeps. Youre one of my fav.

 

[Aldrick Strickland]

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Well I still like you, and I'm a human.

Most people here actually care about him, even though he sees everything as an attack and everyone as an enemy.

I care alot. I really care about you Shael. You are a sweet friend. Love you.

 

[High Priest Zevios Metathronos]

Aldric I believe at this point all the same card after an endless time of constant repeats are running out. Everytime it goes like, why are you aggressive and a hazard?

"Well because I am a hurt and very sensitive sweetheart". Then the shit repeats again. Now let's make friends. And the whole haphazard repeats again and again. Why you do this crap? "Cause I love Satan and I'm a hurt sweetheart of course".

Do not wear one badge of being around for a long time if you do not uphold it, shoving it in people's faces to get "friends" and "trust", and keep the e-drama going. Seriously.

Forgiveness and understanding is constantly given without a point at all. All that's received from that is more problems.

If you did not create and participate in circus you would not have circus problems.

The fact that this theme plays around with members who just leave or discontinue Satanism because of being overly exposed or seeing and considering "Strong Satanists" nutty shit like this, pray it does not become Satan's problem in which case I will not deal with it anymore with any forgiveness. It will be dealt with as an illness.

 

[Shael]

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If someone sticks around for a long long time and does meditations, MerKaBa and what have you, while ignoring some dirt and hangups, then these will start to merge in and become more and more deeply routed inside the person's being. After a while it can seem as if that dirt is part of yourself, and once such a point has been reached it can be difficult to remove it, because in many cases it wont even appear as dirt in the first place. I believe that this is what has happened with Aldrick here.

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Aldrick, I wont waste your time here with any fancy eloquent talk. A while ago I took a look at your chakras let's just say it doesn't look very pretty. I wont share specifics here as info like this could make it easier for enemies to curse you and hit you at your weak spots. I'll send you the details I saw as an e-mail.
Take those weak spots and accept that they're there, instead of trying to fuse them with yourself. Address each spot individually one by one with some cleaning working and blast away that dirt with whatever mantra you want to use. Probably Suryae or Visuddhi will work best. It wont be pretty and it wont be fun, but it'll let you finally move beyond this shit if you go through with it relentlessly.