Reckoned666
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There are quite a lot of those. They have literally no intention of reciprocating or going out but they don't have the strength in them and dignity to just straight out refuse (or explain that it won't go past the platonic state of relationship) and tell the reasoning behind it. It's just straight out NPC mentality. Especially popular in my country, as well.
Jack said:A girl who can't say no. This is a first for me. LolPrismalayam said:I'm in an odd position of having to reject someone after being courteous to them and accepting an offer of going out to grab a bite.The thing is, they are of a different race and the thought of mixing disgusts me a lot. I also never went on date before, so when I allowed this event to be ok in my mind, like I might have fun and get to eat good food with someone who wanted company with me.
I have a strong feeling of illness in the stomach worrying about what would happen if I don't learn to be rude/prompt and say no to this person in particular if this (my intention - platonic) date advances anything beyond that. But also there's a part of me that wants to befriend someone for business relation and just having a contact because times can be lonely/difficult and I'm branching out for expanding opportunity, and making reasonable connections.
I don't feel good :/ It's been a long time since I have been worrying so badly about something. Like the warnings the HPs give about yehuborim wanting to kill us and world affair in general but thankfully Ritual's are go-to countermeasure for that situation and I feel better everytime for the future when I do them. This too is pressure since my mind is tested in another area.
Usually I have no problem because I ignore/block people so there is no misunderstanding or misinterpretation and I don't have to deal with it. Am I coward in this? I don't know what I was thinking really. Having someone's reality interfering with mine is not something I want to stupidly play around with, I try to be smart about who I'm friends to. Now I'm planning on doing binding ritual with IS rune, and affirming along this, "He has (no / lost any) sexual and romantic interest in me, completely and permanently."
Now, because I accepted offer of going out for once in my life, what is in my mind now, is that I should follow through, and go enjoy eating something besides oatmeal and rice. lol
Wish this would be over soon though. Going through life's lessons one by one.