Regarding Elements ( questioning my experience)

[Ghost in the Machine]

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"When the human soul is correctly aligned, it is in the shape of an inverted cross. This is the hidden meaning of "Thor's Hammer." The cross shape of the human soul is represented by "The Four Quarters" The "Four Directions" and the Four Crowned Princes of Hell in rituals.

The front of the body/soul is the North, ruled by the element of earth.
The rear/backside of the body is the South, ruled by the element of Fire
The left side of the body is the Negative Pole. Through the left hand, we take in energy. The left side is ruled over by the element of water and is the direction west.
The right side is the Positive Pole and is ruled over by the element of air. We direct energy through our right hand.
The element of Quintessence/either is in the center, and in the aura
Fire and Air are electric
Water and Earth are magnetic" [source]

Our human soul corresponds with the cardinal directions of the planet.

* The North direction of our planet's polarity is of the Earth element, likewise the 'North' direction of our soul, the front side face is comprised of the Earth element.
* The West direction of our planet is of the water element, likewise as I clarified the left side of our soul is of the water element in the same way.
* East is Air, right or 'East' side of our soul is also Air
* South is Fire, back face or 'South' of our soul is also Fire.

South also with it's relations of fire is of the sun. When I focus on Satan's light and energy which is that of white-gold like the sun, I always feel his energy at my back or facing to me from behind. The polarities of our soul respond to the cardinal directions of the earth when we intend to match up the resonation with it, and that is how you found North while spinning, you were focused with intent on the direction North which would've resonated with exactly where you were facing on the front side of your soul, as the north side of your soul would be drawn to face it as it's natural energy signature like a magnet. This is precisely how migratory animals like geese know the directions of the planet and where to head South or North or East or West.

In regards to communication with Satan, it seemed I was directed to face North to speak with him as the magnetic of it's association to the Earth element helped centralize my grounding better, which I did find focus on him and communication more solid, there and accurate in doing such.

In regards to your dreams, I can't say for certain what's going on as I don't know precisely how you sleep or if the directions you're describing are accurate and if they really would have such a significant effect. The way you're implying however, perhaps you're doing an unintentional bandhi that is blocking a certain chakra or nadi channel, perhaps disrupting a balance of energies. Or perhaps you've associated that specific position of sleeping with nightmares and created a self-binding program of your own mind, even if you're not consciously aware of it the subconscious certainly is as it would run deeper in the soul than the level of self-awareness.

You could try doing yoga and working with calm vibrant green energies before bed, visualize yourself sleeping in a forest if you'd like. The psychic conscious of dreams is of course the upper chakras, so it likely matters more where your head is facing but that doesn't make your whole body obsolete with where it's facing in regards to lower chakras circulating energies through the soul. Quite the chemistry of cardinal energies that way in combinations.

Also East is of the Air element as I'm sure you know now from the above information.

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

Once of the things I love to watch on Netflix or other sources (almost the only one actually) are animal documentaries. Apparently what we commonly know about animals is a very faint percentage of things, as they have abilities that vastly surpass those of the average Human being.
Among these, as you have mentioned geese and it reminded me, there are sharks (especially Whale Sharks) and Giant Manta Rays.
I recently learned, and was royally shocked at the precision, that every year in Summer, for about two weeks (or two months, can't recall exactly) countless Whale Sharks and Giant Manta Rays somehow find their way in the waters West of Mexico, some 200 kilometers West of the coast. What for? Some have said they 'dance'.
There's unbelievable videos of these marine giants rolling past the surface or jumping outside of the water to land with a splash, looking like they're doing some actual dance. Or ritual? Who knows.
The thing is, they all manage to travel unimaginable distances just to reach this place, on those dates, and do what they do. Some obviously said they gather there to copulate (obviously each with the same species lol) but perhaps that happens later, in deeper water, away from prying drone cameras.

The way you described this orientation skill with the cardinal points in the Soul... fuck, Brother, it sounds absolutely legit! :O I didn't even know we had skills like these... it kinda blew me away when I read that.

Thanks for the links and explanation on the directions, I feel I'm much weaker in this department compared to things like Elements, healing and little other I guess. These sciences are something that I don't find easy to understand, hope they will make more sense when I am more open and I find it easier to see the missing parts I can't perceive now.

Speaking of links, I found almost by chance (or listening to an inner voice perhaps) that link talking about the increase in one's ability to do something by vibrating the names of specific Gods we were talking about.

https://web.archive.org/web/20150915033508/https://www.angelfire.com/hailtosatansvictory666/Chant.html

(I am incapable of having it looking like your more elegant "source" link.)

"Vibrating and chanting God names is also very powerful. We can chant the names of Satan and the Demons, visualizing their colors, and focusing on the attributes of the certain Demons, that we wish to obtain for ourselves."

I believe the person I mentioned read this back in the day and tried it with success (their attempt was with the god Raum and the ability to understand/communicate with animals). I feel this could explain why I have felt the way I did when I've been led to Dantalian.. perhaps Leraje knows this would aid me with my lacking mental ability/lack of focus and I could close that gap. It did seem to work way sooner than I'd have anticipated.
Obviously, like you stated before, this will not 'change you into a warrior' by vibrating Andras' name, but perhaps it will give you an insight of things that will lead you to become one.
I also recall that Andras is an artist, that's something I really liked about Him when I read His profile (in spite of all the slander, saying 'he kills the summoner' and all that nonsense, I always had a good feeling about Him, that He's very honorable and kind).

Perhaps you could test your artistic skill as a mean to measure your improvement while vibrating His name? Just an idea.. I know it's not one you thought very highly of, but I had a very good vibe when I read about it, maybe it's worth a try.

About the dreams, I did think that I could have subconsciously programmed myself 'to have bad dreams' when I sleep facing one direction instead of another, so I'm trying to break this cycle. Actually, I lately found out I'm surprised in the first lights of dawn if I wake up facing a direction I don't remember choosing the night before and I decided I will train myself to recognize the direction by means of 'internal compass', like I geese and marine life do. Starting magick even before I open my eyes.

And, even if I normally like to fall asleep to the sound of recorded natural phenomena and animals (wind, water, fireplace, rain is a big one, swamp life and birds, THUNDERSTORMS is a favorite) I never thought of visualizing myself sleeping in a forest... I must say I particularly like that idea. Green vegetation, chilly breeze, animal sounds, maybe gentle rain and leaves moving... it sounds like a dream, no pun intended. Not to mention it'll feel like a real forest when my cats start climbing on me lol.

Something funny about them from yesterday: I was working on my lacking Cobra Stance and one of them went to sleep on my ass lol. As if saying "I'm gonna take a nap, you need this stance more so keep working on it while I sleep".

Last thing,
remember my fascination with the green color? Yesterday I noticed it's increased.. I'm literally in awe of it, favoring light emerald looking lights (like the ones on machines where I work, got a picture of one, I'm thinking of making it into a wallpaper with Leraje's sigil on it.. Her candle and wing color seems to be strong vibrant red, but I keep perceiving Her as Emerald, like those magnificent eyes She has, the greenest I've ever seen.

Enjoy your Samhain dear Brother, best of luck with your Rituals and Magick.

Hail Father Satan Forever!

 

[Henu the Great]

Once of the things I love to watch on Netflix or other sources (almost the only one actually) are animal documentaries. Apparently what we commonly know about animals is a very faint percentage of things, as they have abilities that vastly surpass those of the average Human being.
Among these, as you have mentioned geese and it reminded me, there are sharks (especially Whale Sharks) and Giant Manta Rays.
I recently learned, and was royally shocked at the precision, that every year in Summer, for about two weeks (or two months, can't recall exactly) countless Whale Sharks and Giant Manta Rays somehow find their way in the waters West of Mexico, some 200 kilometers West of the coast. What for? Some have said they 'dance'.
There's unbelievable videos of these marine giants rolling past the surface or jumping outside of the water to land with a splash, looking like they're doing some actual dance. Or ritual? Who knows.
The thing is, they all manage to travel unimaginable distances just to reach this place, on those dates, and do what they do. Some obviously said they gather there to copulate (obviously each with the same species lol) but perhaps that happens later, in deeper water, away from prying drone cameras.

This reminded me of:

The beasts of the earth, the birds of heaven and the fish of the sea are all under the control of my hands.

- The Al Jilwah
The Black Book of Satan Chapter III

Now, is it to be taken literally? It's fascinating anyway.

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

This reminded me of: "The beasts of the earth, the birds of heaven and the fish of the sea are all under the control of my hands." The Al Jilwah
The Black Book of Satan Chapter III

Now, is it to be taken literally? It's fascinating anyway.

Personally, as someone who doesn't have a good enough grip on his astral senses, I rely on things like these, observation of the world and universe, to determine some things, almost divinating using the world I guess.
Your observation makes a lot of sense to me though.

 

[Apprentice]

Now, is it to be taken literally? It's fascinating anyway.

I took it literally. I asked Him for help in keeping all wild beasts away from the road whenever I'm driving. So far it works wonders. Before coming to Zevism, I had several accidents involving wild beasts.

 

[Apprentice]

I enjoyed your reply, Brother. Now I can get back to you.

for example, the breathing. Say you have one free hand (I DON'T suggest you do this while driving)

I actually have no problem doing it while driving. You see, I have to take quite long drives and as the truck has auto trans, I have no problem doing this. I mean, c'mon, I've done AC+AoP for my girls behind the wheel, with visualisation. I didn't know that it is called splitting your conscious, it was Brother GiTM who informed me.

I hope you're not ONLY doing very physically demanding work.

No, luckily not. It can be demanding sometimes but about 70% of the time it's only mentally stressful (doing things with time constraints, driving included).

Then think of all the exercises that you could squeeze here and there.

You know, the other day I started vibrating Munka into my throat chakra. This was first time ever for me. I did it while driving. I was doing it and saw a loaded log trailer coming in the opposite lane and a passenger car in my lane, trying to take over the log trailer. Before the situation could escalate into a head-on collision, the passenger car returned to its lane. It felt like the enemy was trying to throw a spanner into my working. 10 minutes later I saw a car with a '666' license plate in the opposing lane, still vibrating my Munka. Quite clear, isn't it?

This is also excellent to remind one NOT to bend forward too much while at the computer (it's much harder when you're typing so I'm not doing it now).

I'm actually the one who has leaned back my whole life. This is equally bad as it deforms the lower back and whatnot.

You fear not having enough time in this life to 'make it' and do all the marvelous things we know we can do and learn. I know this because it's been haunting me for long enough too, and it's not like this will simply 'go away' unless we make serious progress, isn't it?

Dear Brother, you hit the nail on the head with this one. For some reason, I always could, within present moment, feel and even see what it would be like 10 or 30 years from now if I didn't change anything, if I keep running the same rat race or wheel, chasing money, trying to get shit done in the material world.
Now, one thing is feeling it, the other thing is, what am I gonna do about it? What must I do to turn the things in my favour. But the problem is that this anxiety, this fear becomes my worst enemy. Which brings us exactly to your next paragraph quoted below.

You may have thought, like I did, that some basic meditations were not as good or rewarding as the more advanced ones where you were new, so you only used little time to experiment with them, and literally didn't give yourself the chance to learn from them, even if the lesson to learn was easy, because you didn't trust them to hold much knowledge or experience anyway... isn't it?

I made that mistake, yes. For months I've had the feeling that I really should take the basic warfare training and follow it to the T. I feel that I would gain greatly from it.

Don't know if you know from other posts, but I like to draw.

Yup, I've noticed. The horse image rocks. The last image you had was cool, too. I mentioned equine behavior to you right after you drew one. BTW, I have some horses in my household. Lovely creatures.
I totally get what you're trying to say about picking something back up and trying again. I actually did it this last weekend and I felt great afterwards. It involved an excercise, hiking in the woods with our team carrying a heavy backpack, full military gear and an assault rifle. This went 180° against one of my biggest flaws: to be lazy and cozy because it's muh day off, sitting in a comfortable recliner actually wasting valuable time. Needless to say, in addition to getting away from your routines and chores, such activities help me grow a warrior mindset. I want to be willing to get the nastiest jobs quickly done no matter how long it takes. In other words, embrace the suck. When it comes to some of my negative personal traits, I still have a lot of work to do.

Try not to stress yourself so much with everyday life, take a few breaths and focus back on what you need to do.

Sometimes it's hard to do when you see your wife struggling and you're an empath sucking it all in...
And then there are days when it seems like the chores never end (I mean things you MUST do today) but you also have to do your rituals and warfare but your sleep is shitty so the next day you feel even worse.
I wonder, maybe I've created a nasty program of sorts that actually CREATES it based on my very own expectations? But OTOH, where did those expectations come from? They were based on some reoccurring experiences. Nasty shit.

Yes, when I say in the beginning I'll try to be concise or short.. don't believe me, it's utter bullshit.

I love your posts. There's nothing long about them.

Wish you all the best, take care.

 

[Apprentice]

I'm not very orderly on present astrological matters at large, you'd have to ask someone more skilled in astrology.

Well, thanks to you pointing me in the right direction, I did my homework. I found that the best time to start a working to abolish negative planetary influences in my life is 14th November. The Moon will be in Scorpio (permanent results), waning and as close to new Moon as it can get (best possible scenario) and no VoC. Also, the Mars goes back to being direct on that day. I think I will start it during the hour of Moon to give it an extra kick. I'm guessing this will be a 90-day Munka working with ×111 reps plus ×9 for the affirmation, with each affirmation sandwitched between AUM vibes.
Affirmation would be like: In a positive and healthy way, I am now totally and eternally free from any negative planetary influences... or something along those lines.
If I may ask, what do you think, does it seem okay? Maybe the affirmation is too broad?

Take care!

Dear Brother GiTM, I'm cautiously asking your opinion on this working I came up with. Would it be feasible to tackle all of it in one working?

 

[Apprentice]

Have you ever considered reading the book "Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus" by Dr. John Gray. It may help especially the letter writing part. It takes like two or three days to read the book unless you read faster, about 280ish pages.

You two settle down at some point in your day and write a letter to each other expressing situations and then think it over and find a way to resolve it.

It's good that you talk and speak your mind, that is very healthy you should be just as open to her as she is to you. I hope your conversations are fulfilling because what your doing is something A LOT of couples don't do and fuck up their relationships either temporarily or fully and even then later on they regret losing their partner.

So very good your doing something many couples don't particularly do and that is: Work on their relationship. It doesn't just exist and poof your fine, it takes work to continue it.

Thank You for your advice. The problem is, I tend to keep my innermost self aloof from others because I hate conflicts and arguments BUT during recent years, after dedicating, I've made some progress in that department. Communication can get heated up if we have a situation. She says something that irritates me, I say something to get even, this can end in a train wreck. Usually I'm the one who demands silence and a cool-off time, irritating her even further, lol :twisted: . Then we exchange long messages and sort out the details. This way we both have ample time to think it over, to chew it down to the bone before replying. Things said in the heat of the moment actually make matters worse.
You are right, relationships demand regular maintenance and work in order to keep 'em running smoothly. I sometimes tend to forget that and take them for granted. Thank you for the reminder.

 

[Henu the Great]

I took it literally. I asked Him for help in keeping all wild beasts away from the road whenever I'm driving. So far it works wonders. Before coming to Zevism, I had several accidents involving wild beasts.

Yeah. That's awesome btw. Hail Satan!

 

[Ghost in the Machine]

I'm not very orderly on present astrological matters at large, you'd have to ask someone more skilled in astrology.

Well, thanks to you pointing me in the right direction, I did my homework. I found that the best time to start a working to abolish negative planetary influences in my life is 14th November. The Moon will be in Scorpio (permanent results), waning and as close to new Moon as it can get (best possible scenario) and no VoC. Also, the Mars goes back to being direct on that day. I think I will start it during the hour of Moon to give it an extra kick. I'm guessing this will be a 90-day Munka working with ×111 reps plus ×9 for the affirmation, with each affirmation sandwitched between AUM vibes.
Affirmation would be like: In a positive and healthy way, I am now totally and eternally free from any negative planetary influences... or something along those lines.
If I may ask, what do you think, does it seem okay? Maybe the affirmation is too broad?

Take care!

Dear Brother GiTM, I'm cautiously asking your opinion on this working I came up with. Would it be feasible to tackle all of it in one working?

My apologies I must not have seen your message here before.

For ending things you want the Moon to be waning (Going from Full to New) which it currently is as of 2 days ago from this post actually, so very good early starting point here.

And since you seem to be devoting to using Moon energies for this what with MUNKA, I would say the best time to start with this will be Thursday, or Nov 5th actually (Check for VoC). The Moon will be in Cancer and this is it's ruling sign where it's energies are strongest and this has to do with all matters of the Moon, including it's cleanse-by-banishment characteristic. Make sure when you're done the working to forget about it and move onto other tasks, let it do it's job. Also at other times you should balance your energies with some passive white-gold sun energy, doesn't have to be strong or potent or longer than 2 minutes, you can also do it any time anywhere with just some focus, visuals and some intent with engulfing yourself in it. This is just to help keep the Moon and Sun energies in your soul at more stable levels so you don't cause large imbalance issues. Also the Sun and Moon Nostril Breathing, very good for balancing I've been 'told' and it works effectively.

I would personally suggest x99 reps, 9 has been feeling like a Moon number to me lately for some reason, perhaps it is a number of the Moon but I don't have any evidence to back this up other than intuition, every time I 'look' at it I see silver lunar energy and feel 'Moon' from it. Regardless, 9 is a number of endings anyways so it works with reps too.

As for your affirmation, perhaps you'll find it funny that I was literally in the middle of thinking up a fresh affirmation for a new working of mine to help myself and couldn't find the proper way to go about wording it for the longest time, but then your words in your own affirmation drew me to the perfect and most effective phrasings. Anyways, always add "safe" too to the affirmation. This can be worded however befits you "In a safe, healthy and positive way for me" "In a positive, safe and healthy way for me" doesn't matter but I consider 'positive', 'safe' and 'healthy' the three rules to generally have in any affirmation.

Your affirmation though is very good and is just fine, I see no other issues. If you revamp it, you can post it here again and I can look at it. I implore people to be independent and learn to do affirmations on their own and gain confidence with this, but I myself only ever learned by looking at examples from others and tuned the foundations from there.

Hope this helps.

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

When I said I wouldn't pair breathing techniques and driving I didn't mean it because of your focusing away from the driving.. the oxygen can get to your head too heavy sometimes and your vision will become blurry/'lightheaded'/whitish. Oxygen is known as the deadliest gas in the world, too much or too little can even spell death. It's actually a very fascinating thing for an Air Elemental mage (or anyone who enjoys Air Magick), it's something that sparked my interest away from the other Air features months ago.. electricity and lightning, polarity as a way to influence telekinetically, etc.
When you do AC or AoP you only need some focus. I regularly do a quick AC+AoP on my house whenever I get off the driveway, only I mix some Elemental Magick.. cuz that's just how fucked I am lol. Elements are great. Period.

Oh, as for "splitting the conscious", I've read about splitting the Soul in the JoS but need to read it again as it's knowledge still has to really get to me. It's one of the things I feel I need to do. Strongly, I'd add. Sometimes I open up the Sorcery or Meditation link pages and see which is the first one my eyes find, and why I should follow that hint. On of the last times it was Splitting the Soul, that was immediately before Brother GitM would mention "dreams" in a post that made incredible sense to me. You should read that too, if you haven't, I think it's on this huge thread somewhere....

(Was about to send you on a wild goose hunt but, no.. here it is:
https://www.ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=35374&start=100#p197521 )

Yesterday.. well, for a few days I guess, I've strongly been prompted to move my interest back to TK.
Don't know if I ever told you but Telekinesis was the one thing leading me back to Satan in this life. I LOVE the idea of using it, I just feel so connected to this ability for some reason. I've had little success with it but on the other hand I haven't employed enough hours of the day trying to learn it, other than some times when I'm super caught again.

Now, it's been almost exclusively about Spiritual Warfare and trying to perceive the Gods, especially my recently learned of Guardian, especially since it seems She's been super patient and willing to work with me. I can see why, now, we share so many traits and interests, I don't know how I never wanted to accept this reality as it makes perfect sense now. Or, I know.. fear. Same as you lol, isn't it?
Have you noticed anything else from Furfur? Somehow I am already convinced She's your Guardian, even if you don't think so or if I'm completely wrong. Again, no great psychic here, just what I feel could be more true than it could be false. Too many things you reported makes sense, I wouldn't pair you with any other Demon.

"10 minutes later I saw a car with a '666' license plate in the opposing lane, still vibrating my Munka. Quite clear, isn't it?"

Super clear in my book. Signs like these work great for those like us who don't have the greatest astral senses, as they help us discern messages by observing the world. I became very fond of this method of divination since a couple years back but only started using it well enough last year, it's the main method that led me believing Leraje was my Guardian.. the only thing missing was me having the guts to go ahead and believe in what I saw clearly enough. (SOME messages were confusing, pointed at other Gods, so I suppose I wanted a 100% match before accepting the facts.) For me at least, one of the most successful vectors of this information were machines. They would work or stop working in order to convey the message. This really 'renewed my faith' in listening to the world itself as a divinatory tool through which the Gods may speak.

"feel and even see what it would be like 10 or 30 years from now if I didn't change anything, if I keep running the same rat race or wheel, chasing money, trying to get shit done in the material world."

We tend to look at High Priests/High Priestesses and people with greater skill than us and think "oh, they are so advanced already, they must have done a lot in the previous lives..." which is true, yes, BUT ...do not forget you ARE a Spiritual Satanist in this life, right now.
In my opinion, just 'getting here' is a good sign that you're somewhat advanced. Definitely more than any NPC getting fat on a couch under the conviction that they're 'saving lives' wearing a face diaper indoors.
I know that comparison SUCKS, neither you nor I are anything close to those lost cases... that's where the fun part come in. (I do suggest you read carefully that post from GitM I sent you, it's got some knowledge that requires going over it again to completely unlock, reading between thinner lines, so to speak I guess.)

Remember:
You're VERY protected.
Lightning seems to avoid putting you in any danger even in extreme situations.
You seem to have a very good ability to feel the Elements, meaning your Soul is easily repaired and taken care of.
The physical prowess means not only dedication and self love but increased bioelectricity.
You're VERY serious about becoming a god.
The weather listens to your willpower, clear sign of a strong aura (we often tend to dismiss this as less important, don't we Brother?).
And unlike what you initially stated, not being able to feel energy, you seem instead very inclined to work with it in a productive way, chanting mantras (like Munka) and Runes, had good "expected" sensitivity to Elemental absorption (remember the Fire you started with, how you were super energetic the first time).

You know you're powerful, Brother. Of that there isn't any doubt in my mind. What bothers you, same as I, is how you are constantly observing the effects on your daily life of your severed connection with our Gods and Father.
Not being able to see and hear hurts you. Makes you feel isolated, forgotten.
Don't.
Cuz you're not isolated NOR forgotten.

I'm not aware of what Brother GitM told you about splitting the conscious, I'll see if I can find it.. can you post that link for me please?
I do believe that our problem (both of us) is something VERY similar. We lack that ability to enter a phase in which we allow the astral itself to manifest, almost stupidly, obstinately, deny ourselves access to this phase.

Know what I'm thinking, Brother? That once you and I reach that point, we'll see our lives changing drastically, making progress at a rate so faster we'll have to jog to keep up with it. I'm pretty sure now.

One thing we can both do, that I'm sure you're already doing but we can always increase in number is, simply put, MORE Final-Rituals.
I noticed a certain "step" becoming noticeable when I don't only do 2 per day, or 3... but more.. especially when I do 4 at once, with 36 rep and one affirmation (x3 obviously) for all of them.
This "step" is something that can get pushed further, like 'raising the bar' sort of thing. I feel the effect when I'm doing enough, and I feel nothing when I'm not doing enough. The effects can be hyper energy, some kind of slight dizziness almost... I can tell it's melting the seals in my Soul.

Somehow... I can also tell that my seals are rather strong, so more work is necessary. I feel you are the same as I on this one.
The awesome thing about the Ritual is that it's either a weapon and a healing/curse-removing effect, restoring us to power through vibration. I can almost feel the yehuborim hating the crap out of us right now, they're in utter fear, like they didn't believe possible after so many centuries. This is almost pathetic to feel, honestly, like the kind of pathetic you feel right before crushing a cockroach or something that is JUST a vermin to you (and I don't normally crush bugs as I appreciate all life.. but this example fits the description. HPS Pythia herself stated in a sermon that some lifeforms are JUST parasitic, like fleas.. you don't feel sorry for killing a flea that bothered your cat).
There was something yesterday, like one of those empty new age slogan claiming to 'free the god in yourself'... I know the one who wrote that doesn't believe it at all. It's just empty words from an ignorant mind that refuses to see, but writes perhaps hoping that there's going to be a 'cheat effect' in their empty lives after writing it down.. like an affirmation, but without any back up to make it worth saying it. It made me think of how people just don't know our TRUE potential as Humans, how we are so marvelous as we descent from Satan Himself, how no matter how one VIP or model or sport celebrity or actor may 'look' cool or hot or strong, that they are just ...little eggs, nowhere near close to hatching into something that will grow into a godlike creature. I'm becoming more and more aware of this difference, don't know if you feel the same.
Also.. and I'm almost sure this is the greys' doing, I feel the 'sympathetic' feeling the Poos are TRYING to inspire in the world. Another trick to make people believe they deserve shit, that 'they suffered already', that we shouldn't look upon them and look away. And lol.. you know what? I almost feel their envy. That they want to be like us, with the potential to be Gods, but CAN'T and hate us for that, trying to make this world that is rightfully ours and of Satan their little amusement park, with statuses, with economic power imbalances, with all the lies that are necessary... maybe this is obvious, but now that they are about to be wiped I feel them as little and pathetic, squirming in fear, trying to turn around while running just to try a desperate trick after another, and every time they do their face changes to horror as more people than last time they looked are AWARE of them, AWARE of the jewish problem, and actively working to wipe the problem OUT of existence.

I feel we're about to win this war, Brother. Fuck, I can't wait. The only thing that (in my pride) would suck is to only get to know our Gods when they come back here, not being able to have a solid and rewarding astral connection with them before they are physically on Earth. Maybe you feel the same about this, wouldn't surprise me. We both want to make our Gods proud very much, possibly more than others who already have proved they can communicate easily enough.

Basic warfare and meditations...

Yeah, I feel that. I'm pretty sure there's much more to be seen in those 'elementary' exercises for newcomers. Pretty sure I underestimated them because I couldn't SEE their worth. That's why I dived into advanced stuff. I need to find the time to make all these daily efforts again, not just Rituals (more Rituals than usual) and AC+AoP etc, but daily Void, daily work on my chakras (hands and minor ones included.. maybe that's what my fascination with Green color is suggesting, connection between the chakras.. worth a better try), and I should really use some spare time (instead of drawing) to train the one skill that brought me back to Father Satan. I kind of feel it's important that I master this skill, that it will open a Helluva lot more doors than the obvious 'physical' ones. And the great thing about that, I get to keep working on my Elemental imbalance (even though I must say I don't FEEL so imbalanced right now... I feel I'm much different than the time I was born, more complete and somehow more skilled).

"BTW, I have some horses in my household. Lovely creatures."

Bro, don't know if it's of any importance but here it is, about your Guardian.
Last year during a morning shift I entered a deep trance for a few seconds and saw this gorgeous Goddess that I later though was Furfur. I'm not sure whether she was Furfur or Astaroth, because she was wearing something I wouldn't expect.. country clothes, like.. Scottish textured red blouse and jeans shorts. That's why I said 'country'. Anyway, she was blonde, pony tail, wavy hair, beautiful large eyes that I could 'sense' more than see, as she was staring away in the same direction I was staring at. I later thought of Astaroth because of the colors (red and blue) but it doesn't make much sense since I'm pretty sure I saw Astaroth later (unless I'm completely mistaken), in February right after and Ritual (I was new to Rituals) and she looked like a Greek Goddess, same hair but a VERY different energy, like a golden lightning, so dense I could see it.
This other 'country girl' I saw still felt a lot like a Demoness, I know she was one, you can tell these things, you can feel how honored you are just to see one of our Gods... the thing is, she somehow made me think of horses, strongly. Don't know why.. but there's the hint for you. Never drew a horse before now, maybe I was supposed to tell you this.
I'm pretty sure that was Furfur... she's the first one I thought of when I exited the trance. An anticipated message so I would tell you, like Brother Ghost in the Machine got hints from Leraje so he could tell me? Don't know, but I'm honored if I can help the Gods. I suggest you try summoning Her, visualize the sigil, chant Her name. By the way, recently found in the Meditations page "The Power of Chant" describes how chanting Gods' names helps in various things.. you might wanna look it up.

"I wonder, maybe I've created a nasty program of sorts that actually CREATES it based on my very own expectations? But OTOH, where did those expectations come from? They were based on some reoccurring experiences. Nasty shit."

Pretty sure you did that, like I did with some other behaviors and shit I've been repeating for too long. Dump this nasty shit. You know, in my opinion 90% of our work only fails because we do not give it the proper belief and don't 'allow' it to manifest. It's like a child trying to get a cookie from a jar in a room full of adults, he enters the jar with his hand but retracts it in fear before even touching the cookie, looking around nervously while the adults wait to see how long it takes for him to actually grab one.
Fitting example here? This is why I believe workings fail. Add more determination and conviction, be completely fearless. If you DO something then DO IT 200%, not "49% and maybe someone will hand you a cookie". That shit is not going to work. Do or do not. You're smart and strong, I know you can.

Take care and be brave, dear Brother.

Hail Father Satan Forever!

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

Something for you, Apprentice, more specifically taken from Brother GitM's post.

"In a dream if you believe you can set something on fire with pyrokinesis and actually intend the action to do so, you set it on fire. PHYSICALLY on the material plane if you're strong enough like one of the gods, if you do the exact same thing as if you were dreaming, you set something on fire on the physical plane. Because it's the same matter of directing an intent that the astral energies then very quickly manifest materially on the mirroring plane, merging the two realms very fast. So you're not wrong in that the gods can essentially live life in a way that for us we would deem very similar to a lucid dream. But this means the utmost control over your real intents and learning to turn this connection off and on."

I believe this a very important piece of information. Invaluable, I might add, especially for those like you and I who struggle with realizing how to 'feel' the astral and piecing things together in a logical way doesn't seem to help much.

Consider this possibly reality: "we are always dreaming, and our wake state is just a continuation of the dream in which we do NOT understand and realize we still have power over it."

I believe there's a reason why I got suddenly so interested in Telekinesis again, also maybe why you Brother Ghost in the Machine have decided to suddenly go back to experimenting with Elements.
While I was re-reading your post (from which this quote was taken) I realized something, perhaps elementary but who knows.

We Zevism do Power Meditations. We may feel nothing, other feel something, but in the end these meditations MAKE US MORE POWERFUL.
These powers/abilities of the Soul, like TK or Cryo... maybe it would help NOT to think of them as powers. Maybe it would help more to think of them as 'tests to see how much we have managed to connect the two realms'.

Not for nothing HPS Pythia suggests to attempt TK and other skills, like Pyrokinesis, after Power Meditation when one's aura is most radiant. The first time in forever since I have take up TK and tried it on some paper wheel, it worked BECAUSE I had just gone on a frenzy after learning of my dominant Element and increased my resistance to it (it was when Air started suggesting me all kinds of ideas on how to use it, including Polarity manipulation.. i.e. Telekinesis).

I want this brief post to be just a reminder that we should periodically check our skill growth/proficiency with powers in order to check our progress with Power Meditations, especially for those that feel less energy and have a harder time determining whether an effect is manifesting or not.

Hail Satan!

 

[Ghost in the Machine]

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More so these powers I have, as you mentioned, tested on the occasion just to see if I can do it and to figure out how the two realms worked in manifesting such things.

I know what I'm capable of mostly by accident and it is rather intense as I have 'unintentionally' sapped all heat from my body in mere seconds with cryokinesis, ending up in violent shivering so rapidly that I recall bolting for my covers to legit try and escape it as though it were a direct assault, hell it was so powerful I initially believed I was being attacked by some entity more powerful than me but I was later 'told' it was all in my own head with my own abilities. This was when I had practically no control over emotions and beliefs + fears and ended up making me lose control, so it got worse (Mind you I didn't mean to do cryokinesis on myself, I was far out of balance back when this occurred). I considered running to take a scalding hot shower even to warm up but I couldn't for the life of me bring myself to escape even what little warmth my covers provided. I ended up calling out to my guardian for help, and moments later it felt like a huge comforting inferno was switched on in the core of my body and I began warming up again and ceased shivering in seconds, managing to calm down.

I realize nowadays though that even taking a scalding hot shower back then would not have warmed me up, the freezing cold was very deeply internal at the soul affecting the body and such exterior temperatures would not have reached there without having to essentially cook me. Today I did work with the water element, actually just moments before typing this, and it is a bit more difficult to get such cold results when attempting to do so deliberately because the mind can sometimes get 'stuck' between attempts and belief, but I've been taught lately more in regards to centreing my perception on the self in that these are just natural abilities one can do like breathing or blinking, and I found viewing magic like this as just a natural 'do' ability gave far more effective results.

I was able to better actually manifest the element far more effectively with more centred realness, albeit my directing of such needs some more practice as when I try to mean 'whole body', sometimes it only focuses on just the legs, or my chest or my arms (Balance with green energy, the heart chakra and such harmonized stability of the mind and material realm is what prevents this 'scattering' of intent from happening). Not that I'm trying to freeze myself to those lengths as what happened accidentally, but simply being able to instigate the cold sensation to begin with. I managed a lot better today than I did yesterday, the coldness is very comforting in quelling my fire that has been rather out of line lately. That accidental scenario though of absolute sub-zero in seconds made me aware though of what I am fully capable of doing not just to myself but other things like items, the only matter is in doing it deliberately. I've been hoping to get my hands on a live thermometer for some time now to further experiment with but haven't yet gotten around to it.

Another power though that I actually did attempt deliberately which worked was electrokinesis. This was around the time I was working on my hand chakras and empowering them. I wanted to experiment in how to siphon energy from an electronic device, so I had my phone on the desk and charging. Normally in this state even with the screen left on, it just keeps charging and increasing in battery power. It wasn't anything special, it was at only 2% anyways and was steadily rising, but I managed to drain it like this while it was charging. It took me a while to get it right but the fact that I did it at all was intriguing. As if I needed more proof to the realness of magic though but it was just another confirmation. I hadn't been able to actually manipulate anything physical like that before.

Most of my abilities or 'powers' though are psychic. Reading people's thoughts (People tend to be surprised if I call them out for them), knowing when something is about to happen, predictions, etc. My more favoured psychic ability though is retrieving astral knowledge, knowing what time it is without a watch/phone or clock, knowing when the city bus is about to come around the corner to the near precise second (Also if I missed it or made it on time), finding out people's pincodes to their phones (I have high morality, I never do anything malicious, the gods show great disapproval in using abilities for petty and sadistic behaviour and I also find it absolutely disgusting, I have respect and only ever try such things to see if I can do it, I've never sifted through people's things), but of course the best and more meaningful bit of this is in acquiring knowledge to share here with others. Spiritual sciences, health, how things work, why and what they can do to benefit the individual, also what their issues likely are and how to solve them so they can overcome obstacles.

A reminder that I usually never touch 'powers', these abilities were casual trials of random interest, I did not train any of these abilities even in suddenly being able to enter a good trance in seconds where as when I was new I couldn't figure it out after weeks of attempts. I simply understood the foundations, basics and complexities of how energy and the mind works as I grew and developed with energies overtime. So it just goes to show the most important things you can do is focus and build the foundations of your soul and spiritual powers and develop in general skills, opening all the chakras, empowering and cleaning the chakras, soul and aura, etc. That is what gives you the 'fuel' to do these things when you're readily able to do them. You don't try to practice driving a car when it can't even go 0.5 miles per hour.

You also need to learn how to control it first before you try, what the shift does, how the pedals work, the steering wheel, etc, and a rickety broken down and weak car can hardly go anywhere, hell with such a weakened and brittle exterior, too much 'power' could have it crumbling around you. Everything slow, steady and attained in time.

It's what I've learned a lot lately, "Master yourself above all before you work to master everything else.". I know what too much power and little control over the self with it does... balance and stability is key.

 

[Apprentice]

but then your words in your own affirmation drew me to the perfect and most effective phrasings

This right there is another splendid example of how we can 'coincidentally' help each other through communication. I just love it.

Your affirmation though is very good and is just fine, I see no other issues.

I actually asked for your advice because I was a bit doubtful. In the Obliterate your Saturn thread Lydia suggested to work individually on each bad aspect but with my affirmation, I would try to banish 'em all in one working. This is what made me a bit unsure.
When reading about creating rituals I learned that an affirmation has to be unequivocal and to the point, without any excess or lenghty fluff. Just like you, I learned from the affirmations of others. With my previous workings, I used to meditate on the affirmation, selection of words and their order while composing it, trying to feel the vibe of how it would start to affect me.
One more observation. When I was done working on the date, the reps and the initial affirmation, I felt sort of a warm glow manifest around me that isolated me from what was going on outside of me. It instantly made me feel better.
This is gonna be a numbers game: 90 days, 99 reps and 9 affirmations. I'm also familiar with the alternate nostril breathing, will make it a daily habit now.
So, my final wording, translated from my native language is like this: I am in a positive, safe and healthy way totally free from any negative planetary influence, now and forever.

I appreciate your advice. The mere possibility of discussing these things here with fellow Zevism is in my opinion just priceless. Thank you so much.

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

From what you described, other than the obvious "you need to raise your Water Element in order to stand it better even in such an extreme case", this once again confirms my theory about our weak Element being the one we lack the most, NOT the one we have too much of, like the JoS suggests. I think this is the only thing with which I don't agree that the JoS website describes, can't remember where that was now, but according to the website we are the weakest against the Element that is dominant in us, having too much of it (so a further imbalance can give serious problems).

In my experience with the Elements, we are the weakest against the one we have the least of, in your case (if I recall correctly from your months old posts) it's Water, hence you have observed such a strong effect. In my case, I can easily tell it's Earth.

Air, on the other hand, is always the one I can seemingly absorb in vast quantities without the slightest discomfort (I have yet to measure this to learn my limit, I think I will do that soon enough as I'm working with Elements in good measure again).

"the mind can sometimes get 'stuck' between attempts and belief, but I've been taught lately more in regards to centreing my perception on the self in that these are just natural abilities one can do like breathing or blinking, and I found viewing magic like this as just a natural 'do' ability gave far more effective results."

I've been reading again your reply from sometime ago where you mention how everything is simpler and natural in dreams. It made me think.
To the risk of repeating my words again, I have been really noticing this.... 'far increased effect' of our magick when we don't pay much attention to the effort and the 'how' and all that. If we 'just do it' (like Satan once suggested to me) there's possibly no better way to perform magick.
After all, 'magick' and 'powers' are only things that may look extraordinary in our everyday reality because they are not normally seen, encountered, performed. If we were to see warehouse workers load entire trucks with telekinesis, or farmers grow fruits seconds since planting the seeds, we would nor think of such things as unusual or strange or even impossible.

This, as you yourself have determined, is surely why you seemed to be much more proficient with your cryokinesis when you were not trying to accomplish it, not while 'attempting' or 'training'. You

just did it.

However, as you have also stated, this is nonetheless proof of one of the things that you're capable of. If you can cause that effect to yourself, you can definitely cause it to someone else, an attacker for instance, who has no Demon to ask for help.

Another thing, and this may be just my assumption, you don't have to take it as an important observation or anything like it.
Do you not think that this occurrence with your weakest Element could be also proof that you're potentially much more proficient with another Element, one that you feel more familiar with? If you could do THIS with the weakest, imagine what you can do with the strongest one... Don't really know if that helps you in your self discovery and advancement, but if you find it to be a useful note I'm glad.

The electrokinesis experience sounds very promising indeed. Being batteries what keep a lot of wireless technology running, imagine what if you could just take the charge out of it at will, anytime you need to. I'm thinking 'rendering a drone attack completely useless' to give you just one example. The bad thing about some 'powers' is that we're so not used to them being normal to us that we can fail to see their many and various applications.
Speaking of which, have you tried to charge up your cellphone battery without the charger plugged in? I don't mean "give the cellphone YOUR bioelectricity and deprive yourself of it" of course, but you could try to gather external electricity like you would any other Element and fill the battery with it.

You could also get one of those 'potato batteries for children' and see how much you can charge the clock.. potatoes are said to have like 1.1 Volts, we can have a lot more than that.

Your honorable psychic skills seem very sharp. This is great when getting information as you can easily figure out your own mistakes and correct them right away. I'm pretty sure you'll be amazed as you use this ability and see it grow into something more capable before you can even notice it. (Yes, I did think "lottery numbers" here for a sec lol... if you did win like that you could enjoy a lot more time to just work on your advancement, that'd be great.. sometimes I think of all those idiots who have millions and waste their lives doing idiotic stuff, not a single day meditating.)

Funny how you mentioned getting back to the basics and learning them before proceeding to more advanced things. I am just now starting to learn that the hard way (the hard way being probably 'having wasted so long before realizing how to do some easy enough things' I guess). Exactly like Brother Apprentice here, I have tried the first basic meditations and things, did them for a few times, decided they weren't going to let me feel a thing and moved on to harder and more advanced stuff I wasn't ready for. To this day I probably can only say the Elements were a rewarding exercise, as there's probably no sweetening the pill while training with them unless one does only like one breath and then sits around for a week doing nothing I guess... I couldn't notice it before, but now that I have developed a certain resistance to some I understand a little more what they mean and how they act on the Soul and the body.
Nevertheless... basics. I'm heeding my own advice from that post many appreciated on how to unblock oneself. Mixing exercises seems to work faster, but I have to say it's still not a walk in the park... some exercises, like the Kundalini Yoga Spinal Series can actually end up hurting. This signifies stubborn blockage.. meaning more work is necessary.

Today, just for example, I was doing the first 3 Kundalini Yoga Basic exercises and even if the air in the room was cold I almost immediately felt so hot I had to take off some clothing (just to remain in the 'sudden temperature change' topic). This was quick and unexpected. I'm doing it again as soon as I'm done writing this, before bed. I feel Kundalini Yoga is a very effective 'dislodger', capable of unleash serious potential, but perhaps not just by itself. I have to pair it with something else. I tried with the Ritual earlier but couldn't feel much of a change, possibly because one has to match the breath with the movement perfectly and I didn't.

"It's what I've learned a lot lately, "Master yourself above all before you work to master everything else.". I know what too much power and little control over the self with it does... balance and stability is key."

Forgive the perhaps cheesy quote but... "Do or Do Not. There is no try."
I feel this strongly links to that... 'Just do it' advice. Magick done without trying to do magick is magick that comes most natural. Less mind, more feel.

Hail Satan!

 

[Apprentice]

the oxygen can get to your head too heavy sometimes and your vision will become blurry/'lightheaded'/whitish.

I've felt that several times, especially after a lousy sleep: I feel like I need more air, start inhaling it behind the wheel and then all of a sudden feel like I need to stop the vehicle because my head is on a rollercoaster. But I still feel like I need more air.

I'm not aware of what Brother GitM told you about splitting the conscious, I'll see if I can find it.. can you post that link for me please?

This is the exact quote from our thread here.

the aura cleansing meditation we do on ourselves can be done on loved ones, it might help her alleviate some issues. These kinds of meditations can be done at any time anywhere, all you require is a bit of focus and intent, you can do it while showering, doing chores, laundry, the psychic conscious 'splits', remember that. Though of course semi-focus in multitasking isn't as effective as full and total focus but whenever such time for full focus is available then you can take those moments as they come, no pressure.

Have you noticed anything else from Furfur?

Actually not. I haven't been actively trying to contact Her either. I vibrated Her name some times cautiously, asking Her to give me some sign if She's the One but that's it. I must ditch my fears and modesty and start working on it more seriously.
Your vision of this country girl and drawing horses doesn't ring a bell ATM. Maybe I can't see the connection?

What bothers you, same as I, is how you are constantly observing the effects on your daily life of your severed connection with our Gods and Father. Not being able to see and hear hurts you.

You are painfully right again. Coming out of this slumber of your material life in the middle of a war can sometimes be quite hard. I do hope that my capacity for self sabotage is about to be depleted. I do appreciate your positive words and support. Indeed, we often dismiss strong facts and signs already present. Like I've said previously, you are deep in your life with your nose in it, sometimes unable to notice the obvious. This is where the help from Brothers and Sisters can become priceless.

Know what I'm thinking, Brother? That once you and I reach that point, we'll see our lives changing drastically, making progress at a rate so faster we'll have to jog to keep up with it. I'm pretty sure now.

I've anticipated this change for a long time now. Patience and doing what needs to be done is the key here... and you know wery well who is big on patience, right?
I feel those seals you speak about and I can't help but wonder, why are we sealed so thoroughly? Was it done by the enemy? Sometimes I'm sad that I didn't find JoS way earlier. I know I wasn't ready, living my almost normie life working, drinking and doing basically nothing.

no matter how one VIP or model or sport celebrity or actor may 'look' cool or hot or strong, that they are just ...little eggs, nowhere near close to hatching into something that will grow into a godlike creature.

Mostly they are normies after all, I guess. Materially/financially blessed but still normies. Because they don't have to worry about money and making ends meet, many of them get hooked on bad habits (alcohol, drugs, enemy teachings) and away they go. I also feel they are not free in their will. There is always someone above them that they need to please in order to maintain their lifestyle/income.

You know, in my opinion 90% of our work only fails because we do not give it the proper belief and don't 'allow' it to manifest.

You are right again, Brother.
In my post, I was talking about my physical reality and how I sense it. There are mental blockages/thought patterns that make any change basically impossible. Your life moves like a train on tracks. You want change? Demolish those tracks and be free.

I feel we're about to win this war, Brother. Fuck, I can't wait.

My sentiments exactly. There's still a lot of daily grinding and warfare to be done so let's carry on.

I loved reading your post, it reminded me some important, positive details that I tend to forget and made me feel optimistic again. Thank You. I wish you all the best, Brother.

 

[Ghost in the Machine]

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Your regards to the weakest element and what I can do with it, in all honesty water is also strong with psychic matters, I could potentially find it so easy not because I'm naturally tied to the element, but naturally tied to a rulership of it which is psychic regards. But I've taken this as a note for other factors. If I find it easy to do one thing, there are so many other factors I could apply the same means of focus and directive too with similar effectiveness.

I never considered testing voltage, it would have to be some sort of meter giving live results and very sensitive, sounds interesting though and on par with the thermometer idea.

Your heated result from yoga had also been the case with me the other day. Trying to figure out my new routine I focused on Satan's energy to consult any available demon that might be able to assist or guide me in the right direction in regards to the frustration and how to go forward with it because I didn't know what specifically was causing it. I heard someone say "Water" so I used it on myself. The water element was definitely needed because in trying to do yoga for my heart chakra as of late I too experienced the molten heat that would cause frustration and a 'stuck' feeling of anger, it was just shy of unbearable, using water and blue energy all over myself and with focus to the lower half of my soul to quell the fire from rising really helped immensely and I've been able to go forward with no such issues at all with this.

This only happens when working with the lower body and the spine, what I'm perceiving is that this is honestly what I for some reason didn't remember to take into account. Yoga stimulates the kundalini serpent, the fiery serpent that resides in the lower base, it's energies are very hot and heated, when it's stimulated the fire rises and circulates throughout the body. Using water before doing yoga if this happens for you in stimulating it creates an internal 'shield' enveloping your soul to protect you from this because it can become a bit intense.

"Do or Do Not. There is no try." I like this a lot too.

 

[Ghost in the Machine]

but then your words in your own affirmation drew me to the perfect and most effective phrasings

This right there is another splendid example of how we can 'coincidentally' help each other through communication. I just love it.

Your affirmation though is very good and is just fine, I see no other issues.

I actually asked for your advice because I was a bit doubtful. In the Obliterate your Saturn thread Lydia suggested to work individually on each bad aspect but with my affirmation, I would try to banish 'em all in one working. This is what made me a bit unsure.
When reading about creating rituals I learned that an affirmation has to be unequivocal and to the point, without any excess or lenghty fluff. Just like you, I learned from the affirmations of others. With my previous workings, I used to meditate on the affirmation, selection of words and their order while composing it, trying to feel the vibe of how it would start to affect me.
One more observation. When I was done working on the date, the reps and the initial affirmation, I felt sort of a warm glow manifest around me that isolated me from what was going on outside of me. It instantly made me feel better.
This is gonna be a numbers game: 90 days, 99 reps and 9 affirmations. I'm also familiar with the alternate nostril breathing, will make it a daily habit now.
So, my final wording, translated from my native language is like this: I am in a positive, safe and healthy way totally free from any negative planetary influence, now and forever.

I appreciate your advice. The mere possibility of discussing these things here with fellow Zevism is in my opinion just priceless. Thank you so much.

Your affirmation is perfectly fine and looks effective. An affirmation guides our intent and desire, the more simply constructed it is, the less scattered our mind and directing of the energy is in the intent of it. If you write a paragraph for an affirmation one may stress subconsciously all the details without being aware, complexity is synonymous with difficulty and this goes for the coursed path of the energy's intent as well with affirmations that will respond to the emotional reactions of your mind. Looking at a single sentence makes you read and perceive it far more easily with complete focus as opposed to your eyes befalling upon an overwhelming wall of test; It's in the mind and the mind is where power is directed.

So for affirmations, simple is better, but if I need too much or too many details to simplify into an affirmation then I split my affirmations and will have two separate sets for the same singular working simplified for their designated focus towards my ultimate goal. Both utilize the same risen and directed energy and both program it, the whole of the input programming of the affirmations is kept into the whole working and energies by the fact that I will it as not actually complete or done until I say "So mote it be" and then vibrate AUM. I do all of my reps for the first affirmation and then all of my reps for the second affirmation. The second affirmation acts like a 'follow-up' that flows with the first one.

It's a bit messy to explain. I wish you the best of luck and you're welcome.

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

"I've felt that several times, especially after a lousy sleep: I feel like I need more air, start inhaling it behind the wheel and then all of a sudden feel like I need to stop the vehicle because my head is on a rollercoaster. But I still feel like I need more air."

Exactly what I meant when I suggested not to pair breathing techniques and driving, even more because you're more Air, like me. To tell you the truth, I don't like the idea of 'holding back' an Element just because I have already much of it. I also don't see too much of a problem with knowing I and others have got a completely lacking Element in our chart, like this is supposed to mean we're somehow disabled or something. Call it an immature thought perhaps, but I feel if we are more capable than others to stand an Element, dominant one or not, it's only a success and we can use that ability to stand more of it as an advantage. We obviously HAVE to work on the missing/lacking Element as well, the Soul NEEDS to be balanced... but I don't think the dominant/"best" one should be avoided not to create over imbalance.
Besides, I think what I've done (if you've read my other post to Brother GitM) finding the cardinal North by listening to energy alone, North being Earth, somehow proves I'm not a complete inept at working with this Element and Elemental energies in general. If I could do my natal chart again, considering this life's current developments, I think I'd find at least SOME Earth in there now.

Got the part about the splitting conscious. Forgot I had read it.
It actually reminded me of this latest observation between me and Ghost in the Machine, on how magick apparently works best when you're doing it "casually", not focusing on it like something you HAVE to cause to happen through a precise set of rules and happenings, but as something that 'just happens naturally', that you shouldn't stress yourself about, just use it instead, as naturally as one possibly can.
When you drive, I'm not referring to completely doing this in an absent minded manner.. by keep driving and doing these simple energy works and affirmations like their any less important, but just more relaxed, always knowing your magick is definitely always going to work, even on your worst day.

Just want to share this right away...
This... observation, knowledge, understanding, along with a couple other thoughts, has finally made me realize I need to practice and learn Telekinesis everyday. I have just started, but I can see my energy causes some effect on the lightest things, like paper, just to get started again after I haven't done this in forever. I have seen effects even the same day I felt finally confident about my Element, knowing my Element, wanting it more, wanting to learn more about it. It was ultimately our dear Brother GitM to allow me to understand something very important to me about Air, how it 'creates' telekinetic effects, which later made me realize polarity was the key to accomplishing it.
I've very recently had VERY strong signs from the Universe saying I am on the right track. Stronger than this, I can only pretend Satan Himself teleports here and tells me "Yes, this is it, now keep it up until you master it, there's no going back", this is how confident I am about this 'power'. I think I never was ready for TK before... I've seen so many idiots who can 'make objects fall' or 'move' and they don't even know what they're doing, proof enough the fact that they can't seem to move larger or heavier objects, completely lacking knowledge on how to increase one's own bioelectricity and potential. They'll be stuck doing the same shit over and over again, exposing themselves in videos until some of them go 'mysteriously' missing.
I intend to master this in every aspect. I've always known this was 'my favorite ability' for a reason... now that reason is becoming more obvious than ever to me. This world will change drastically.. we need to 'grind level', as you'd probably put it, as much as we can.

I can feel your distress for now being yet able to perform some things and inability to determine some knowledge for yourself.. and I do understand how your hectic lifestyle is indeed the cause of this for starters. Not going to lie, I think you need more time for yourself before anything, off work, off things that stress you so much and disrupt your sleep patterns. When it comes to stronger energies, especially those that you didn't use much in forever perhaps, like when you did use Fire months ago for the first time, you can feel them. You're strong, active, physically fit and capable, so I don't think at all that this is a problem you have at an energetic level. You've got the brawns for sure. The problem, mostly I think, derives from stress, making you more tired than you should normally be daily, making you 'lose hope' quicker by having to lead a seemingly NPC life for many hours of the day before you can get back to your true Satanic life. This is why I suggested you try merging meditation and exercises while you're working in a relaxed enough way that you can actually focus on both. I think you just need to incorporate this routine in your day for a period of time and see if you don't notice any slight change.
If you don't, as it's more probable than not that changes WILL occur and you will not see them, change your routine a bit, focus less on the grinding your way up and test yourself through 'powers'. Try them all, cryo, pyro, TK, whatever you can. Record your results in a journal, any effect, whatever you notice of sudden thought you might have. Use your own experience and power training as a divination tool. ADAPT. I feel you need to change the way you do things, you're probably being too much of a Fire type of person.. Earth too. Try using Water element. GitM rightfully suggested to me that Air Element 'unbinds' chakras, so focus on Air spiralling up from your base to crown chakras, feel your third eye tingling at this as a sign it's working. THEN use Water to break barricades and establish a flow of energy.

I don't particularly suggest you use Fire on this, but IF you feel comfortable with it, IF Fire sounds to you like a good call, by all means, go for it.

As for my 'country girl' vision, don't think about it too much, it doesn't necessarily mean much and I didn't know you back then so it's probably something I have to figure out in the future. I'm not even sure who She was.. only know She felt like a Demoness.

"I feel those seals you speak about and I can't help but wonder, why are we sealed so thoroughly? Was it done by the enemy? Sometimes I'm sad that I didn't find JoS way earlier. I know I wasn't ready, living my almost normie life working, drinking and doing basically nothing."

I have a feeling some people are being more 'bound' than others, possibly an effect of being noticed by the enemy in our previous life, being put on the 'high priority list', so to speak. So they attack in a stronger way. You can probably easily see this by how much your otherwise normal life may seem suddenly much harder in the first years, especially when after you learn about the existence of magick as a child and feel inevitably and strongly attracted to that path. That's when shit starts hitting the fan, parents split, abusive people, and so on and on, just as a way to make it slower and harder for you to get back to Father Satan.
This, in my opinion, also has a lot to do with energy binding. They know you're a dangerous one, know you're not going to be on their side, so they use your temporary ignorance and blindness to the Gods against you, trying to stop you in your tracks.
Honestly, I think this is the HARDEST phase to go through, the unbinding phase. Doubt, confusion, and later depression and all sorts of psychic attacks (especially through NPCs that weigh you down emotionally) become your everyday normal life with the sole purpose of binding your more, of 'keeping you in check'.
From what you told me, Brother, you've got nothing less of a deadly aura, and this is obviously not liked by the enemy.
Hence, all the attacks and your current 'feeling bound off the astral' condition.

My suggestion is probably stupid, but I feel it necessary: go over all the Meditations and Sorcery JoS pages and see what you missed, something that you may not have done enough, entirely skipped, try it all again if you must, but BELIEVE in yourself.

Like I said, and I know this from personal experience, 90% of the time we are the only obstacle to our own growth. So remove the obstacle and grow freely.

"The worst foe lies within the self."

People occasionally keep telling me not to be hard on myself. Now I repeat this to you, Brother. You have the knowledge. Now persevere. Don't hold back.

Ave Zeus!

Hail Father Satan Forever!

 

[Apprentice]

Your affirmation is perfectly fine and looks effective.

Thank you for brotherly confirmation. I do appreciate our conversation.

It's a bit messy to explain.

It's easy to comprehend, one Air person to another. You basically program and nudge the energy through multiple affirmations and finally seal it with the AUM. This is exactly like printing: to get a clear image, colors (CMYK) are not applied simultaneously but in a certain order.

Take care, Brother.

 

[Apprentice]

magick apparently works best when you're doing it "casually", not focusing on it like something you HAVE to cause to happen through a precise set of rules and happenings

I know exactly what you're talking about, I've experienced it. If I want to bring about a change in my life in an area I'm really anxious about, can this then be defined as having a hangup? I mean, for example, if you're royally fed up with having not enough free money and feeling hopeless about it, does this indicate a hangup?

I feel brotherly care, encouragement and love from your post. I'm grateful for that.

It's the material/financial aspect of my family life that's keeping me anguished at the moment because the material part of my mind sees no way out of this. This has been going on for years already. I have this internal discord in that I'm not willing to work like a slave especially when I realize that I've been doing this for many, many years and it has gotten me nearly nowhere. However, some aspects have really improved to be honest but I still feel like a goy with a yoke.

It's my job to find a solution to this, to realize something I haven't yet realized. That's exactly why I'm starting a Munka working. There are certain planetary placements that I believe are causing this in my life and thus need to be neutralized.

"The worst foe lies within the self."

Damn right you are. There's nothing stupid about your suggestions, stop selling yourself short, FFS.

TK, cryo, pyro - I haven't yet been interested in these areas but your enthusiasm is contagious. Actually, I found myself thinking about the Elements and the possibilities of using them in black magick.

On friday I was harassed, yet again. It was the worst and strongest attack so far. In addition to inreasing my contribution, I recently changed the way I visualize the destruction during Ritual and obviously some fucktards didn't exactly like it. The attack felt like I'm about to lose it. I was already tired but still had stuff to do. The only solution to escape it I could think of while being under siege was to fix me a drink and take the dog for a walk, in moonlight under the stars. I then started talking to Satan and figure of the past, getting my attention off these artificially injected emotions, feeling relieved by the minute. Maybe this was a stupid solution because in retrospect, I really should have performed a fiery Returning Curses, AoP and Void after that. The problem was that all the suitable rooms in my household were occupied so this was the only solution I was able to see at that moment. I did the RC and AoP later that night.
The next day I felt okay. However, I learned a lesson from this incident: the importance of Void Meditation is never to be underestimated.

Wish you all the best, dear Brother.

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

When thinking Elements one usually has a pretty clear idea of the main/basic feature of each Element. As for Water, I do tend to think 'cooling down', 'cryokinesis' and 'emotions' but there's the psychic aspect as well, psychic openness and all that which you know very well. Same as with Fire, for instance, and how I initially thought of it 'just burning/scorching' before I would be prompted to use it on myself for healing. To me, the 'serpent of Fire' is among the main things a symbol of utmost Health and wellbeing (maybe this is another aspect that ties me to Leraje, who has lots of healing features in her description).

About the cooling down the heated up sensation through Yoga... I'd say this is also useful to actually feel your progress while it happens. The more you get heated up (let's ignore the possible discomfort I've read about from people who raised their Kundalini and report it burning hot and painful) the more you notice this 'something' happening. In this case, if it feels hot as fuck, using Water to cool it down will probably have a stronger effect (be more noticeable) than if you just used Water on yourself another time when you're not feeling that warmth.

I'm thinking this is very analogous to my experience with Earth and Air and how they react to each other. When getting a lot of Air (or I guess 'too much and too sudden' of any Element), after a day or two I just want to dwell and bathe in its complete opposite, to sooth myself with what opposes that imbalance.
I've always believed this to be merely because Air is balanced with Earth, as it's its opposite, but last week I thought differently: what if what I seek is simply the missing.. well, the other 'aspect'? Let me clarify this: talking about cardinal directions and Elements you said (if I'm not mistaken) there are two directions that are magnetic (West and North, Water and Earth) and two that are electric (South and East, Fire and Air).

So.....

What if I look for Earth after I dwell in Air because my 'electric' needs some 'magnetic' instead?

Unless I said something very, very obvious here, this is what I assume happens when you use the opposite Element after getting too much of one: in other words, you have a natural need to achieve 'electromagnetism'. Makes sense?

In my case, I came to this conclusion while studying Telekinesis. Electromagnetism is probably something heard very often when speaking of this ability, even NPCs read this in WikiBullshit on some videogame that makes these Soul powers look merely virtual and impossible... but I'm thinking, even if TK has become pretty clear to me only when I thought of it in terms of Air and Polarity (and ionization I suppose), what if TK needs both Elements to properly function? Air AND Earth?

Also..

Doesn't that suggest it's possible that Cryokinesis, or Pyro, work the same way? With both Fire and Water each?

Here I'm not too sure about how I would explain this, other than assume that electromagnetism (from Fire + Water) is a necessity in making the whole phenomenon occur, but I guess you catch my meaning by now.
This is very theoretic, though, so don't give me too much credit if you think it makes sense... I'm still experimenting with Air and Earth and TK and it's going to take me a while before I am absolutely sure of something. I can only imagine you will notice this effect in action when you dwell more into extremes of temperature related skills.

Personally, I did try either Pyro and Cryo before and somehow ended up quitting before I'd get too hot or too cold... I always thought that these skills would naturally belong to Elemental beings, but then again.. the JoS speaks of Elementals and how they only have one Element of two.. meaning they don't have 4 (excluding their Akashic matrix for a moment)... meaning, then, that they probably don't have the ability to counter that stronger/singular Element that confers their related abilities, while WE do and must use both to achieve a 'power'.

...Does any of that make sense?

Regarding the lower half of the Soul, and assuming you mean the spine between the 1st and 3rd or 4th chakra (including the heart), I'd just advice to exercise caution.
I'm not particularly sure of how an Element behaves when limited to an area of the Soul and Body. I do suppose that it would make it easier to feel that area and compare it to the rest, learning more about the effects of the Element.. yes, but just be careful. I've only absorbed Elements 'like a sponge' so far, involving all the body and Soul, so I wouldn't know specifically how that manifests.

As a random note: lately I felt how natural stones/crystals are alive. I don't know how 'alive' is a word that fits what I'm trying to describe, but let's just say that I'm feeling natural stones/crystals (those with a bright, vibrant, young color at least) are definitely not dead matter.
I guess my TK training is responsible for making me perceive that much. It would be pretty cool if I could freely move stones because I feel them as living 'things' lol... just to put some enthusiastic/immature tone to this scientific and blocky response.

No, but seriously.. this reminds me of how as a child I was freakishly obsessed with finding natural stones/crystals/quartz on the ground. Even now I pick up every quartz I see, it's one of the reasons I believed I was dominant in Earth at some point.

Hail Father Satan Forever!

 

[Ghost in the Machine]

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I can't say much of magnetism and electricity yet in my knowledge or experience, but I'm intrigued by your idea once again with the fire element for healing.

My theory is that perhaps with directing fiery kundalini energies to the heart chakra specifically either via yoga or otherwise, this could promote the healing aspect of the heart chakra which is tied to Venus (I believe the website says Mercury which may also be true but Venus is a definitive through experience and understanding on my end, the heart chakra is in fact ruling of the inner state of love and connections and bonds too which is ruled by Venus).

The fiery energies are power and healing via lifeforce and the Sun, so it can also be important in regards to the solar chakra which also promotes healing from the sun, both the Sun and Venus are vital for healing. What's got me confused though is one would think this would promote inflammation or a rise in the fire element of the soul, but my focus is on the heart chakra here. In regards before to a situation of healing something from myself, at the time I was told to direct orgasmic energy to my heart chakra instead of just releasing it or sending it to Satan as per usual. I'm thinking that perhaps the heart chakra which rules over balance and it's green energies and of Venus what with their anti-inflammatory properties might be able to counter such negative aspects and stabilizing the element in the soul.

But this doesn't exactly explain how it precisely would prevent the fire element from being risen in the soul creating an elemental imbalance. Just because the heart chakra rules balance I don't know how it would facilitate this with an increased element? Perhaps venting off excess somewhere? This also isn't the first time I've suspected that the heart chakra could be the key to having high bio-electricity without it messing up your physical body or it's nerves. It seems the heart chakra has some kind of greater significance in some area here in stability of energies.

I still don't know yet if fire is good at all for the heart chakra, it doesn't sound good at all, but in regards to circulating related energies as such, it might not be a bad idea when it comes to healing, coupled with the heart chakra mudra that is to stabilize the circulation of energy in balance, but I don't have much knowledge on such at the moment yet.

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

I understand your confusion and somehow share it too..

When you think of "Fire in the heart chakra" I'm almost sure what you picture (as you're used to, most likely) is a fiery, hot, flaming substance that raises temperature and movement. Which also means, something very unstable, dangerous, that has all the right features to create more imbalance than it can restore, correct? I may be wrong, but hear me out.

When I think of Elements for Magick use, this is very much a fitting image. Pyrokinesis deals with heat, hot, extreme of temperature and re-balancing something's molecular movement to favor more movement and so ignition. How on Earth could that balance the energy, in our heart chakra least of all?

This is when I recall an 'image' I had one of the first times I read about Kundalini.. I don't know if I visualized this or if someone suggested it to me and I kept thinking of that as such, but when I picture Kundalini as something visible, it's something like a bright white snake of pure Light that is either hot and constantly healing; moving almost like what Water looks like in zero gravity, 'plasmic', just not staying in a ball shaped mass but elongated with a brighter 'center' that is a little below the physical center (where the Solar chakra is), and it has either magnetic and electric properties which lead to accomplishing every ability of the Soul it was created to develop.

So it's 'Fire like', but it's not exactly Fire, it's plasmic and Water like, but not really Water (and least of all is it cold), it's magnetic but it's not blocky or solid, and it's not shallow and it has great stability but it's highly electric too. And who knows what else it is.

Me personally, I don't know if I'll be able to raise my Kundalini in this life. I'm not being pessimistic, I'm just stating how I really don't understand what triggers it, how much of that triggers it to raise is needed to trigger its rising, and I don't think my chakras are ready for something so powerful as I can barely feel them... you know me, I feel like a just newborn Satanist. This year was my year but I'm still very inexperienced compared to some who come to Satan and somehow manage to get 40-50% of the basic meditations and energy exercises right and feel them easily.

I know someone here (maybe you, maybe Lydia, I can't recall) said that the chakra awakenings aren't a one time deal... they very often have to be tried again after some time, after the person has had more experience, has opened more, has got more proficient with energy in the slightest, and then maybe the chakras are at least going to feel like something. I know a lot of people who come to Spiritual Satanism don't stay on the path for long because of how difficult this path is. I'm never leaving Satan no matter what happens, I know this is THE path and I trust Satan completely, as either my creator and the Father I never had, but there HAVE been moments in which I just thought.... what the fuck am I doing wrong?

Then again.. attacks from the enemy are never disappointing as a way to suggest we ARE a threat, and that they would like to see us gone. A old saying goes "Many enemies, much honor", I believe this is analogous to this situation. I still feel them sometimes trying to attack my heart chakra like they did two years ago when I was weakened and idiotic, and let this all happen to myself. But now, being stronger and realizing things better, I know how to easily ward this off and smile at their incompetence. It was even great, I must say, to see my grey-infested-ex completely astonished when I gave her up completely. Like she thought I would fight for that nothing she gave me, thinking I was not strong enough by myself perhaps lol. Fuck weaklings.

As for how does one pair 'heart chakra' and 'inflammations'... other than the theoretic logic that states the Fire in the heart is safe, as it's not the physical heart but the chakra, and chakras are safe to put Elements into.... I'd probably respond that, looking at this theory, one would think that WHEN you feel your heart chakra well enough to put energy only into it, not the physical part of your body, it is safe to do so BECAUSE you're not touching your body at all, no matter if the heart chakra is contained within the space occupied by your body, as we are talking about two different dimensions onto which different things occur.

IF, however, the dimension in which the heart chakra exists is stimulated with the Fire and your heart chakra grows in power, this, as we know, reflects on your physical self and your body in that area (and the features that the heart chakra dwells into) become stronger and more capable to stand stronger bioelectricity and, eventually, Elements.

Sorry for the seemingly complicated explanation. To be honest this isn't even an explanation, it's just the way I perceive how this happens basing my understanding on what I've known.. if you can drain some knowledge from this, or a hint on how to proceed and be better at this, then this post has a purpose.

About the Fire healing, before I forget...

I'm glad you had this experience already. Three years ago I had a cyst on my leg, something I never thought I'd get before (I was VERRRY stressed because of some family troubles) and although it didn't hurt or anything my pride as I-DON'T-GET-SICK-EVER got hurt, so I thought.. fuck it, I'm using the Elements. Which Elements? Mmm... ok, let's burn it.
So I applied half an hour of Fire through my hand and irrorated the area with it, burning anything that had no permission to be there. The day after it was gone and I knew that Fire is probably the best Healing Element of the four.

I wanted to ask you something.. this may be passing the border of synesthesia and multiple senses overlapping. The heart chakra is green in energy. This 'green' that I'm lately strongly fascinated with has a VERY vibrant wave. It's so vibrant it's almost impossible to look at it, or think of it, and not feeling it being absorbed by the Soul, feeling it really needs this color.

To give you a weird description of it, it's like a living emerald that smells like mentol, mint and pine tree, glowing a vibrant energy.

Do you ever smell colors?

I'm asking because I don't normally do, but this green is becoming something pretty noticeable. Just to give you an idea, I was picturing it before, when I read your post and was thinking of my reply, when I felt a 'tingle' in my pineal gland area. I can't say for sure whether or not it was exactly the gland, but I've felt something similar before when I created a Kundalini/eel/snake shaped thoughtform to help me unlock chakras a while back (wrote a post on it if you want to read it). I was naming the thoughtform when I felt this in my pineal gland, like it already knew where to go next...

Perhaps I should really heed my own advice and use this color on my pineal area. Or try it in different other areas as well and see where this leads.

Nevertheless, the strong vibrant green is DEFINITELY proving to be something important in my development. I might just try to make another thoughtform but with only this green color and for once I want to try and impress the thoughtform with a scent.. Last time I gave up after a few days and destroyed it, I should make something longer lasting to work with in a constructive way.

Actually.. what do you think on charging a thoughtform with a Ritual daily? If the effect can be 'recorded/imprinted' into a thoughtform I'd say it'd make a kickass helper in removing the jewish curse from the sealed chakras... this is all very experimental though, so I can't say it's definitely going to work as I imagine it, that's why I'm asking for your opinion.

Hail Father Satan Forever!

 

[Ghost in the Machine]

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Coming back to this as I came around to (conveniently enough) the whole electric and magnetic polarity you mentioned. Perhaps it was just on my mind and popped up in the moment in remembrance as I was trying to centre my stability in focus today and with elements. It got me to recalling what you said and I kind of discovered some kind of clarity that seems to make sense.

Our perception, our actual personalized perception in the angles and sides that we view and even do things seems to be influenced by these polarities in our soul regarding balance. If you recall, at least I think it was you I said this to, I mentioned how with pronounced fire (this actually could've been the air element as the air is the right side but one of the 3 main nadi channels on the right side is of sun/fire too so both could've contributed) in my soul all of my visualizations in my mind kept catering off to the right hand side, a few inches from the center of my 'view' or perception or the centre of my forehead or third-eye even, it did this by default. How I came to know the cause was actually from scrutinizing something I kept doing while jogging on the treadmill or even powerwalking for my exercising and was trying to figure out how to stop it.

I would naturally and without deliberation keep putting emphasis on my right leg or the right side of my body, like my body weight in my gait and stride would keep being more pronounced on the right than to the left, putting more strain on my right leg and hip which would keep being sore and in pain after because of this. I couldn't figure out why I kept doing this and I tried so many physical things to stop this realizing I wasn't centreing myself properly, and it drove me nuts because it was something I had kept on doing for years when exercising or jogging, since I was a kid even.

I've always had a pronounced air element (along with fire) which is on the right side throughout my life and by experimenting with this stability I finally found out the answer when I decided mid-jog to focus on the moon and water element. Almost immediately my perception was correcting itself and I felt a counterweight on the left side of my soul balancing my stride, everything seemed to just straighten out and so long as I kept it properly I was actually able to run in proper gait synchronization instead of over emphasizing on the one side, my perception was no longer being pulled towards it. But this balance needed to be worked at, nurtured and empowered properly in stabilization, which meant I needed to figure out why it worked. Lo and behold of course I was guided to multiple things that explained it and answered all of my questions. It had to do with the elemental sides of the soul... and possibly the ida and pingala as whichever the heck the one of the sun/fire is is on the right and of course that is one of my prominent elements, in that was overpowered. Doing the moon nostril breath (doing the moon portion only of the sun and moon nostril breathing for 3 or 4 rounds) stabilized this.

The right side polarity was over powered and emphasized, pulling my perception to that side while the left side polarity was weakened. Now the funny thing is, I had no idea this was the explanation for my strange habits of the left side. All my life I just called myself 'left minded' in that I kept doing things 'left'. I would place things on the left side of my desk, I would sit on the left side of a couch, I would grab, hold and handle things with my left hand even though I'm right handed, in video games or detours during a walk with the options of going either left or right for anything I would always pick left first, no exceptions. I didn't realize that what I was doing was compensating in my perception for the overpowered right polarity of my soul. By having objects, performing motions, perceptions and actions teetered to the left side I was unknowingly subconsciously trying to balance out that polarity. I always thought it was the weirdest thing but it took me becoming a decently advanced Satanist to finally figure out something so trivial.

I've found the proper balance and centralization of all these polarities gives a pinpointed focus in our mental coordination like an arrow, everything balanced and then facilitated further in detail by things like yoga, green energy, sun and moon nostril breathing and the heart chakra is what helps bring total focused harmony in the soul to exact the highest potential of control and discipline of the mind that is several times easier to train. I've never had such ease in performing meditations and cleanings, etc than when this centralization of balance is on point and this has to include the front and back polarities of the soul of fire and earth as well.

So Fire and Air are electric, Water and Earth are magnetic, this is in regards to the 'pull' of gravitation in the soul relatively, I used Water to balance out the opposite polarity of my right side Air element even though it's Earth that is the opposite of Air... so this doesn't exactly seem to cater to the specific elements themselves in regards to this but actually in regards to the 'pull' of their gravitation in the soul. In this sense Water and Air are also in fact opposites of each other, not just Earth and Air which is interesting to think about. They're like a specified pole but I can't think of a physical analogy for this, it's a little unorthodox. So essentially Fire can oppose Earth then... I wonder how this works and can be explained better on the deeper scientific level, I'm always exploring how energy and magic works scientifically but all I have is my intuition and psychic/astral reading siddhis, it's not like I have any equipment like an aura camera to work with, hell even a damn kinect could have a lot of potential, I've seen youtubers use that gaming tool to capture full ghost figures as it's meant to pick up on the electrical signatures of the human body(actually soul) with infrared lights (electromagnetism, which is what the soul is made of).


As a side note on the polarity thing... I wonder if the elements of the cardinal directions has some effect on the soul. Like if you face your back (Fire) to the West (Water) in that you're looking to the East (Air), would the water element of the West counter that fire polarity of your back that is facing it in actually quelling the element in your soul if it's too high?

Anyways, thought you'd find all this interesting.

 

[Apprentice]

the more the person feels a stronger grip around their neck and will want less and less to do with the spiritual side of life, tending to believe it unnecessary and unable to solve the material problems.
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stuck in a circle of thoughts that lead to the same point, depression, tendency to lose hope
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It's almost like, you're trying so hard that you're not going to make it... see what I mean here?

Wow, Brother. You were able to word, what were only hunches and vaguely formed ideas in my mind. You really help me in disentangling myself. This is so important to me, you probably have no idea. I hope to meet you in person when the world is safe enough for this.

The funny thing is that I didn't start out exactly like this. In retrospect, yes, I was always obsessed with making it in the material realm, I guess. My dream was to find a job I like doing, for a salary that enables me to afford all the essentials: a home, a car, hobbies and food. Didn't exactly happen. Then, years ago, in addition to my desk job, we bought a household. Back then, I was as spiritual as a wooden club. The place needed lots of love and attention but we couldn't afford a contractor. So we had to DIY... but you can do only so much if you feel tired after a days work (plus the constant tiredness caused by bad sleep). My missus became discontented and started to give me sudden outbursts of anger (as I learned now, it's all in her chart, BTW). In an attempt to be the Man, I went all in. As a result, the effort was the only thing I felt, in addition to becoming a mess internally, like you so eloquently put it (there's nothing harsh about your description, BTW). Thinking about it every now and then I felt that I would have to work very productively some 12 to 14 hours every day OR find a money tree. Sadly I'm not a machine and on top of that, women are by nature much better at multitasking than men.
Needless to say, I burned out trying to make it at home AND at my desk job, quit the desk job and got engaged in the family business full time.
She is psychic to some extent but hard-working. According to her chart, she can work like a machine. That's why I can't help but feel myself mediocre in comparison. 'Only hard work will lead us to prosperity'. This is also in her chart. Meditation is nice and all but how are we going to pay the bills? Forget spirituality, goy. Fuck that. I've been feeding her wake-up related reading material since forever. Lately we spoke about Satan and the spiritual. She said that she doesn't feel drawn towards Father, she thinks there is some other high power or being that helps her. She also said on several occasions that she will get into Satanic meditations and practices after she witnesses positive effects on me. Needless to say, she reads articles in the media written by the jew age/wicca muppets. This material is diluted and misleading to put it mildly.

I'm on the way to disentangling my soul. I'm even not worried about the magick and spiritual side of things because I have seen and felt the proof and I KNOW things work. Even this situation right now may very well be a result of a working I did months ago with the intent of freeing my soul. It appears that in this realm, things just take time because it has to be organic, with enough time to become adjusted. Magic works, rituals work. I know it, I've seen it. It's just that my current mental configuration can be an obstacle on the way. There is still garbage to be cleaned.

You said you do lots of rituals and exercises each day.

That's an overstatement. So far it has been 2 to 4 Ritual, AC+AoP, hatha yoga when possible (once a week or so) and some breathing excercises lately. Group offensives, of course! Because there is always something that needs to be done in a household, even at odd hours, I started doing some excercises (breathing, mantras) while working, just like you and many others have suggested.
My main problem seems to be the fact that I'm almost always tense like a violin string. It's also in my chart. I tried the Isa rune but it really made me forget things (like when you run your errands in the city, you drive past a place you intended to visit).
Missing social life is also a contributing factor. With the exception of JoS now, I don't have any friends in the true meaning of this word. I guess there aren't many genuinely Satanic people in my neighbourhood .
The roots of all this mess are in the childhood, I guess. Parents are the ones that sculpt you. "You are too slow, get on with it, WTF you doing, you forgot this you fool" etc. Some souls can take it, some are just too delicate and impressionable. As a result, I become tense whenever I feel there's a possibility that I may be berated for what I've been doing (or not doing) by, including but not limited to, the ones I feel close to.

When it says how you can initially only reach mental silence for a few seconds... I strongly struggle with even that.

I actually tried to Void myself for 5 minutes on several occasions. Set the timer on my phone and deliberately shut off my brain. A couple of times I had to repel some thoughts appearing but that was it. No biggie. Intent is the key here, I guess. Perhaps, in this case, you are the one trying too hard? It works for me like this: just relax, take your time, let some thoughts run through you, close the folder with affairs of the current day on your mental desktop so to speak and then try, with intent. Just like it says on the JoS: don't become discouraged, try again and again. You will succeed.

did you already try to do a Final Ritual on yourself?

Yup, I tried to channel the vibration into my own body and aura. I haven't tried it with the chakras yet.

I never spoke with the 1930s figure, would be delighted to meet him.

I have liked Him since I was a child. I feel something comforting even if it is a monologue.

I'm glad it got contagious and you thought about using the Elements in black Magick.

Hell yes. I have yet to find some reading material related to the application of the Elements in black magick. I trust nothing outside of JoS.

I'm deeply grateful to you, Brother. Take care.

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

I have to admit it took me forever to read your post today lol.. I just couldn't focus. I'm going to shamelessly blame the whole "I had just woke up" as I really have no other excuse.

Back to topic..

Not sure if you suddenly just became aware of the electric/magnetic features I mentioned because I mentioned them or not. Chances are, the information I spoke of made it to the back of your mind and when you found yourself in a similar situation your brain was readier to recognize this occurrence because you had read about it and thought about it, giving it some weight and importance. I noticed myself how, some rare times I guess, I would be simply better at something because I would remember what a Brother or Sister had done and chose to follow the advice/emulate what they did.

Like I said, my theory was just a theory, and (like "conspiracy" theory) it's only a theory until someone can prove it as real for themselves and/or others. Which means, I'm glad you found this hunch I had made sense at last.

As for the whole... visualizing something "on the right", jogging "on the right" and so on (yes, I was the one you told this to, regarding how you managed to center the image by using the Element that fixed this imbalance), these ways to notice things are always important, and in my opinion too often overlooked and underestimated.
If I think now, in hindsight, about how Leraje had tried to make me notice, attracting me in various ways, the signs She left for me to find... I feel like an idiot for not seeing. Same with the Air Element and how it was CLEARLY my dominant one.. the literally only reason for which I haven't known/understood/accepted this and other realities that belonged in my existence is that I just kept looking for different solutions, even after I had found the solution.

As Air people, you know how often we may lose ourselves in thought and rethink things that we have already declared "to be so, and that's it" just to see if we missed something the last time we checked. This is being Air. If you're noticing these changes, if you're becoming aware of these things your did or used to do as a child and so on, and are managing to fix them because you understand, through observation and insight, what they mean and how you're getting them sorted.. this is called Evolution in my book, mate.

Last thing for now..

I decided I'll spare you from reading today's entry on my black journal, I'll just quickly (enough) report what happened.

I had a little time to dedicate to something I want to learn so I decided 'Telekinesis it is'. I prepared my little psi-wheel (I know some call it a bullshit method but it was all I had on me, a screw and a piece of paper, that I could use without anyone noticing and annoying me) and waited a bit to see how it reacted to whatever air currents and present energy. When it finally stopped, I aimed with my hand and started to focus.
Initially, nothing. I looked for some contact without realizing I was just thinking about ways to do it, not doing it.

After that, I decided to - I just felt like doing this - use my heart chakra. The moment I did, I felt the 'heart fluttering' like when you feel some unexpected pleasurable emotion and I felt this was the way. I focused on the paper and it moved exactly the direction I wanted it to.

Air-headed that I am, I decided it was either 1) the wind and 2) worth putting this down in my journal, so I made a note on using the heart chakra (as the one that extends more directly to the hand chakras, from what I seem to understand from the JoS) as a way to use TK.
I immediately remembered of how HPS Pythia said that she found it easier to heal animals by holding them against her chest, rather than simply using her hands, and thought this was a similar case. (I do know that the Telekinesis page suggests to use hands OR the third eye, but I never noticed success with the third eye, yet at least, so this technique felt ..more suitable).

Second round after I wrote that down..

I did the same thing, this time trying to feel my heart chakra and commanding it to cause the thing to move the direction I wanted. Nothing at first, so I added the famous "emerald vibrant green" I mentioned a few times before, as not only I sense it as a strong and powerful color, but it's also the color of the heart chakra, so it was a perfect call in my opinion.

And it was.. I managed to push the paper thing again when I did this, with a little more force. So (as you imagine) I blamed the wind again and told myself "fuck pessimism, if it's not the wind then I want to make this paper thing FALL off the screw"... I gave it more force, focused (this time I also imagined my serpent being green and vibrant and exiting the third eye - like the Single Serpent Meditation.. I love that one as it reminds me of Asclepius' Staff) and the paper turned with more force and fell off the screw.

I was almost unable to believe it lol.

Oh, the last part, when I prepared myself to make it fall off... I had my legs raised, and I felt I should have put my feet on the ground, to ground myself, to use the Earth as well and add force to my willpower. I do understand now how Air is great for understanding TK, but I also always thought Earth was a very linked Element to this skill. This very probably refers to this all... electric/magnetic polarity and directions being balanced.
I'm really positive about it (no pun lol).

I'm going to practice more with this. But I'm going to also give serious training to my hands chakras, as I never really did much with them in training. Think I'm getting to something.

"As a side note on the polarity thing... I wonder if the elements of the cardinal directions has some effect on the soul. Like if you face your back (Fire) to the West (Water) in that you're looking to the East (Air), would the water element of the West counter that fire polarity of your back that is facing it in actually quelling the element in your soul if it's too high?"

And about this...
I don't really know if the Element and the directions would react the way you're suggesting... I believe it's possible... or maybe when I found the correct North it was right because of this reason, because the Elements counter themselves and each other.

Shit.. Animals truly are evolved.

Hail Satan!

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

(I'm gonna try to use this freaking 'quoting' thing like a pro today lol. Hope I don't fuck it all up in the attempt.)

Let's see here...

I'm on the way to disentangling my soul. I'm even not worried about the magick and spiritual side of things because I have seen and felt the proof and I KNOW things work
Magic works, rituals work. I know it, I've seen it. It's just that my current mental configuration can be an obstacle on the way. There is still garbage to be cleaned.

Consider this: you are already WAY ahead of all those morons who don't even believe Magick is real (it's been a while since I refuse to spell the word as 'magic', as it reminds me of mere tricks and shit like that.. the archaic version sounds better and overall more honorable).
You know it works, you know it's a very real thing, and that it can manipulate reality and change it to your will. Ask yourself what's REALLY stopping you. Is there something that's stopping you in your track? Fear? Of failure? Or of success? I'll tell you something stupid but true: for the longest time I have feared trying to learn things like TK, no matter how I always felt it was something I SHOULD have learned no matter what. Why? Because I always felt terrified at the thought of hurting someone I love with it.
Needless for you to say it perhaps, this fear is most likely a byproduct of something like the media junctioned with fucking xianity. Subtle and bastard, it makes sure you're not a threat to them by threatening your loved ones. Years and years spent thinking I should have merely helped others, healed, cured, whatever, and all while I silently craved a power so devastating I could have wiped out all the filth that populates this planet.. that was always something I wanted. Only then I read Satan's famous phrase, quoted in Brother GitM's signature. Made a world of sense to me.

Speaking of powers, do read that part on TK I just wrote to Brother Ghost when it gets approved. I had some success with it, and I must say it's kind of strange... I'm not lifting a car off the floor, but even the nothing I've done.. it feels like I'm more proficient at it than I thought I could be.. or rather, than I always have been before. Could it be because now I finally decided to let myself go and don't fear my power anymore? I'm also pretty sure it's got to do with the effects from the Final Ritual, it's been a couple days I feel this 'disturbance in the force', so to speak, but positive.. like there's less yehuborim on the Planet, know what I mean?

The roots of all this mess are in the childhood, I guess. Parents are the ones that sculpt you. "You are too slow, get on with it, WTF you doing, you forgot this you fool" etc. Some souls can take it, some are just too delicate and impressionable. As a result, I become tense whenever I feel there's a possibility that I may be berated for what I've been doing (or not doing) by, including but not limited to, the ones I feel close to.

I know what you mean, and that's something I think you should meditate about, find your locks and undo them ASAP. Chances are you're still holding yourself back because you actually believe that 'programming information' that was forced into your younger mind.

I'm gonna mention something that has been popping back in my mind for the second time in days: do you have any particular phobia? Something that since your childhood scared the shit out of you? I mean something also common, like clowns and sharks and whatnot.. there's probably lists of 'phobias' on the internet, we probably all have one or two in there.
Obviously, don't write it down here for prying eyes to see.. just think about it.
My suggestion is (paradoxically) something that was suggested to me by the one that I recall as the most DAMAGED and DAMAGING person I ever met, a number one narcissist and complete sociopath, but that (this is why I say paradoxically) happened to also give me an absurd and proved to be valuable hint: meditating on the fear and pain.

The point of this 'process' (as the damaged one called it, in truth she stole this from some couple's psychiatrist I read about) is basically to focus on whatever either pains you or frightens you the most and look for the source of it inside yourself. Once you find it, you merge with it, and while this may feel like it's the worst thing to ever willingly try, it also causes this pain or fear to appear as merely a mass of energy, something that's been simply buried within, and when you're feeling it full force you also slowly end up not feeling it anymore.

Yeah, I know, batshit crazy. I haven't done it since that awful year, 2018 (also the first death in the family we've ever had, and a very bad time), but I can tell this crazy shit happened to help. I had a serious fucking phobia of the sea depths, to the point I couldn't even look at this in a picture. Videos of the Titanic wreck evoked a terror like I didn't know others. So I chose this fear as a tool to work with. I 'went within' myself (you can translate this as "medium/deep trance", but I have to say that 'going within' has been an amazing trance inducing way for me compared to trying to force an altered state of consciousness, and I even accomplished deep trance with this), and I basically went to sit (visualized) with crossed legs in front of the Titanic wreck, assuming that little else would have frightened me more than that. Fuck, I had had nightmares about that.
Long story short, that was the very first time I actually 'felt a machine'. You know when we communicate with machinery? Yeah, pretty much the same, even if it was 'practically dead', it was still pretty much alive from where I was seeing it. I merged with it, witnessed the night it sunk, felt all the fear and despair... fuck.... at some point, however, the fear.. I realized I wasn't even thinking of how scared I was supposed to be at the thought. I was more like 'concerned' for the Titanic. Yes, crazy, I know lol. People here told me machinery and objects don't have feelings, that it's just like residual energy from the owners or the people that travelled on them and so on. Honestly, I don't know.

Long story short, I realized I wasn't afraid of sharks, or of abyssal fish, or of shipwrecks... it was something related to my fear of isolation and abandonment. I don't know about the cold (water down there is pretty cold) cuz my favorite seasons are the coldest ones, Winter above all others.
Technically, according to the original description of this 'technique' you can apply it to anything that causes discomfort, pain, fear, anything negative.. Personally, I kind of see it also (to put it blatantly) as a way to "toughen up in record time". You face the worst you can think of, imagine you're facing it for real, and your mind at some point gets so used to it you no longer fear. I assume this works the best with things that you're more than likely NEVER going to do lol.. like I'll NEVER go in a bathysphere down to see the Titanic or dive who knows how deep with sharks and other starving animals... the point is not to be afraid of something that will in someway stop you from being free of fear.
Well, this was a crazy suggestion.. feel free not to follow it at all lol, not gonna be mad at you for that. I just find it weird how this thing (which now I understand to work because fear and pain are excellent things to focus on.. in that, you 'cannot look away'... there's even an astral projection method call the Fear technique.. lmao, I imagine no one has ever used it, not even its inventor) managed to trigger my trance so well and so easily compared to everything else I'd tried for years.... I suppose this is why that psycho ended up with so much of a grip on me, because I was basically kissing the ground she walked on after proving to me I could do something I was beginning to think impossible.

The mind is such a hard thing to use, eh? :/

Anyway.. back on the subject...

I actually tried to Void myself for 5 minutes on several occasions. Set the timer on my phone and deliberately shut off my brain. A couple of times I had to repel some thoughts appearing but that was it. No biggie. Intent is the key here, I guess. Perhaps, in this case, you are the one trying too hard? It works for me like this: just relax, take your time, let some thoughts run through you, close the folder with affairs of the current day on your mental desktop so to speak and then try, with intent. Just like it says on the JoS: don't become discouraged, try again and again. You will succeed.

figure of the past, fuck... this reply just gets me back to the "trance success" I just told you about! XD
But yeah.. you're right too, I'm definitely trying too hard here. I guess when some things like trances and this kind of stuff that belongs in the part of our brain we understand the least comes into play, the logical explanations and guidelines can't be trusted 'to the letter'... if it all worked like that we'd have probably figured out how to accomplish any Magick by tomorrow morning, Brother, and it isn't so. The subconscious mind needs some keys that we have to find for ourselves in order to open it. There's probably only the first two or three steps in every meditation with can read.. the other ten we have to discover for ourselves by trial and error, isn't it?

Nevertheless, excellent job getting your mind that trained... I'm surprised you don't see and hear more than you do with that skill.

I have liked Him since I was a child. I feel something comforting even if it is a monologue.

I tried a bit of what you did, today, talking with Him a little. It feels a little strange to by talking to a god who was a man decades ago.. but I have to say it's also unbelievable, to actually realize how we can become Gods, how figure of the past has accomplished this. After that, maybe it was just a case (ha ha) I had the 555 numbers on a monitor at work before I left. Thought it was astonishing how he gets to leave Universe signs like the other Gods, like Leraje did with the machines too... I so admire that man.. I mean.. god.
Heil figure of the past!

PS.. lol this is something possibly idiotic but I feel like sharing it. My grandpa, who just passed last September, has been thinking very highly of figure of the past all his life.. when I was a child I remember him saying "figure of the past is GOD" ...Fuck me, how right he was.....

Hell yes. I have yet to find some reading material related to the application of the Elements in black magick. I trust nothing outside of JoS.

I'm getting your enthusiasm backfiring on me now.. between this talk of Black Magick and Ghost explaining about Water I kinda feel against drawn to cryokinesis. The really only reason (ok, two reasons, I'm trying to focus on TK now) I would give this up is basically that I have equal Fire and Water in my chart and wouldn't want to muck up the balance... then again, I'm not going to always have exactly the same amounts of each Element, balanced with their opposite or not... mmm.

I'll focus on TK for now, by cryokinesis HAS been a long time favorite of mine. Every kid loved the idea of throwing fireballs, I was the loner who wanted to freeze them solid instead.

Whatever the case, I do need to keep practicing as much as I can with my hand chakras. It's been more than once that I have felt them begging to be used for something like TK. I guess I'll see what I'm more talented with.

Just out of curiosity.. do we have any Demon that specialized with Cryo?

I'm deeply grateful to you, Brother. Take care.

You too Brother, it would kickass if we met and trained together, wouldn't it?

Hail Father Satan Forever! Ave Zeus!

 

[Ghost in the Machine]

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The reason your telekinesis worked more affectively by utilizing the heart chakra is you emphasized the connecting energies of all your soul's chakras with it as it is the connector that makes the upper and lower chakras work together. Remember the upper chakras are the creative director of our intents that shape our desires and goals, the lower chakras are the material manifestors that make those same desire's and goals actually happen. By using the heart chakra you better emphasized and amplified this 'working together' factor to tie the upper and lower chakras together with these aspects to make your desire and intents manifest better in actuality, because that is one of the heart chakras functions as the bridge between these two sides.

I remember playing around with this with the electrokinesis and it was only with that combined grounding and merging of the upper and lower chakras with the heart chakra combining both their powers together that my desire and intents more groundedly manifested for real. Remember how I said perhaps in some other post or even to someone else that when I balanced myself with better stability and yoga, utilizing the heart chakra and harmony with green energy that my meditations were more immediate, exact and powerfully real? My shielding's, my cleanings, my directive of energy, my objectivity in being able to evoke, move and work with astral materials and more realness and truth with psychic matters.

Combined in balance, your desires manifest with realness and solidity, the heart chakra is what facilitates this as the merging connector of these two sides that work together to shape our goals and intentions and then actually manifest them.

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

The reason your telekinesis worked more affectively by utilizing the heart chakra is you emphasized the connecting energies of all your soul's chakras with it as it is the connector that makes the upper and lower chakras work together.

:O ...mindblown here.
I did not think of this at all to be honest, even if I used the green instinctively as I felt it was going to help a bunch. I guess in the end 'connection with everything in the Soul' is the thing that makes it all possible. That is priceless advice, Brother.

Beautiful explanation. I think it should belong in the JoS, at least as a reminder or among other helpful 'hints' at the end of the TK page. No doubt this works for all other abilities as well. I always wondered if there was even going to be a Cryokinesis page in the Satanic Sorcery list.. (there are still a few minor things to correct in the JoS, mostly regarding the Gods' identities, like how it nowhere mentions Zeus and Bacchus as Father's other names/aspects.. I remember looking into this a while ago and finding very little.. but I suppose this isn't the best time to go fixing minor things in the middle of the ending part of a thousands of years old spiritual war).

Combined in balance, your desires manifest with realness and solidity, the heart chakra is what facilitates this as the merging connector of these two sides that work together to shape our goals and intentions and then actually manifest them.

To be honest, I almost can't believe that I never discovered this before. I'm sure glad that I did bump into this now, I feel this is very possibly one of the most important step stones in my development.

Brother, I've made so much progress this year, I hardly recognize myself as the old Satanist who couldn't feel anything at all and failed constantly... and I know I owe you a lot of this, as your support and continuous help have allowed me to learn faster and better and understand some of my mistakes that I've carried on for too many years.
Thank you, seriously.

Hail Father Satan Forever! Ave Zeus!

 

[Apprentice]

PING

This profile picture of yours, did you draw it?

Oh boy, big changes during these last 4 or some days. Thanks to You and Brother GiTM, I managed to release some serious internal garbage that was weighing me down. As a result, I feel more free than ever, more connected and at peace with myself.

Is there something that's stopping you in your track? Fear? Of failure?

Actually it was this pure resistance to a packed schedule plus my wife acting like I'm never good enough. I have a feeling that certain Powers intercepted because she had some tough hardships lately. As a result, she cooled off. She is much more mellow now because I was there for her when the shit in her department happened. At the same time I worked on our connection to be less susceptible to her emotions/reactions.
You know, for some reason, I prefer to meditate and do warfare after my daily tasks are completed. Then I can close the file for that day on my mental desktop so to speak and start doing really important work. One could say that this preference right there shows lack of flexibility. Maybe.
The thing is, if it's already 8 p.m. and I'm already tired but still got shit to do, I just get anxious. I want my time with Satan! I want my meditations, my warfare and some time to just chill and read the Forums. Hope you get what I'm sayin'.
For example, today I did the first day of our group offensive. It took me about 1 h 20 minutes to do just these, not including a personal working plus personal hygiene (AC+AoP). See where I'm getting at? I love to do these. I don't love mundane chores.

I don't have any phobias, at least nothing I'm aware of. However, some days ago a fear was brought into my attention. I dealt with it. Your suggestion about merging with this fear sounds reasonable. Confronting your fears can be scary as hell (depending on the psyche and the fear) but then again liberating.

PS.. lol this is something possibly idiotic but I feel like sharing it.

Now you have some explaining to do, Brother. How on Satans green Earth can this be idiotic what you shared?

I'm getting your enthusiasm backfiring on me now.. between this talk of Black Magick and Ghost explaining about Water I kinda feel against drawn to cryokinesis.

I wouldn't consider the things ending in kinesis black magick. I remember reading a warning that you shouldn't invoke Fire into your physical heart or how you could draw all Air out of someones lungs. I had that kind of Magick in mind. Are there certain defined techniques/methods or is it like Brother GiTM wrote: if you can imagine it in a dream, you can do it IRL, just need to be powerful and evolved/open enough.

Thank you for being there for me, Brother.

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

This profile picture of yours, did you draw it?

I wish lol.. no, that is just an image I really liked. Found it by looking for Asclepius after HP HC's post on Magnum Opus Levels, apparently Asclepius (the 'god of medicine' in mythology) finished the top level of the Magnus Opus, same as our beloved Antichrist. This drawing style ("illustration" or "engraving" apparently) is something that I'm drawn to, but I'm nowhere near that good yet. At the moment I indefinitely postponed drawing and art, however, as it's not going to make me any better as a Zevism, not giving me any true advantage spiritually, and when I draw I seem to fast forward time, so it's really not such a helpful thing to do in the middle of a Spiritual war, especially since I still have so much to learn, many things being the very basics of our path.
Besides.. this last period's offensive take up quite a bit of time and as I'm not very adept at rituals I prefer to focus more time than needed on them.. especially this last batch, with words I haven't memorized like the Ritual.

I'm glad you managed to catch a breather at last. The partner situation sounds finally decent and hopefully it's staying that way, with her seeing you as the valuable companion, not just a venting target, allowing you to feel less stressed and accomplish more.

You know, for some reason, I prefer to meditate and do warfare after my daily tasks are completed. Then I can close the file for that day on my mental desktop so to speak and start doing really important work.

I would rather be able to slowly dose the Rituals and meditations calmly throughout the day, but because of my family situation I have no choice but to compress everything in the evening, after the daily tasks are finally dealt with. The morning, I should really use it better as now I do have more time to sleep, and when I oversleep I end up in a circle of stressful dreams that really don't help me at all. Last night, for instance, there was one of the worst of all... communism and technocracy were the daily routine, it looked like a VERY dystopian world, straight out of Orwell's book.
Truth be told, I thought more times than I can count about giving a serious effort to lucid dreaming... it would be a tremendous help in my spiritual life, but I lack the constancy of remembering to do the 'mental techniques' suggested around the web. Don't really know whether they work, honestly.. some feel like they have a scientifically solid-er basis, others sound too farfetched.. truth is, Brother, I feel I haven't even mastered my mind at 20%, easily letting thoughts in, focusing on wrong thoughts and ideas, letting the only few good moments be lost in logical consciousness.

Yesterday night, after finding out the last offensive had been posted and somehow didn't refresh my inbox until bedtime, I also found (not immediately) how my computer changed the date on its own, setting it on the day after, making me believe I had missed the very first day of this offensive and making me pissed. It was already past midnight and I had only done Rituals, so I said.. fuck it, let's do it all now. I finished around 2am. During the last of the 3 rituals (before the last Ritual) I eventually lost count of the repetitions and decided to do five more to be sure I wouldn't do any less, and while I couldn't wait to sleep some I refrained from doing a quicker 3x reps Ritual. Was already at it.. fuck sleep, I only get shitty dreams anyway.

I'm just thinking of starting a different sleep routine, cutting off a couple hours, maximizing meditation instead, sitting up obviously as I will fall asleep otherwise. The first time I felt confident enough with WILLINGLY opening my astral eyes and see whatever I could see I was doing an early morning shift nearly everyday for a month and then some.. that's when I saw the one I now believe to have been Astarte for the very first time (this is the time I thought she was Furfur for some reason, roughly the same couple of months in which I understood the Goddess I saw years before was actually Leraje and was contemplating the idea that she might be my Guardian...).
I was so freaking sleepy I just had to take advantage of every two minutes I had no people coming in to take a flash quick nap, like a few seconds, sitting on a chair, brutally waking up only to remember I was at work.... fuck morning shifts. Never again. But hey.. at least I met Astarte and came up with a decent enough mental exercise to trigger my astral sight.

Confronting fears...
Two years ago I was convinced this was THE single best technique ever. Fear (or pain) certainly aren't things one can ignore easily, are they? So that should use up the person's focus as much as possible.. or at least a person whose focus sucks enough that other common techniques just won't give results.
I've been thinking of using it again. Lately, so much is making me lose focus I feel I should use whatever method, regardless of how pleasant or unpleasant it is. My success as a Zevism comes before my comfort. I need to push myself, but also to learn how to relax and calm down. This is very probably a lesson I'm about to learn while reading of Brother GitM's experience.

Now you have some explaining to do, Brother. How on Satans green Earth can this be idiotic what you shared?

Oh, that about what my grandpa used to say about figure of the past? Just something that came to mind... I just realized a couple days ago that even without knowing figure of the past became a god, he was right in saying so, whatever the reason was for him to believe that (jewish hate indeed). The things you forget and then suddenly make sense many years later...

I wouldn't consider the things ending in kinesis black magick. I remember reading a warning that you shouldn't invoke Fire into your physical heart or how you could draw all Air out of someones lungs. I had that kind of Magick in mind. Are there certain defined techniques/methods or is it like Brother GiTM wrote: if you can imagine it in a dream, you can do it IRL, just need to be powerful and evolved/open enough.

Don't know much about the nomenclature here, I always thought of 'kinesises' as Black Magick for experts. Elemental Magick strongly has to do with it from what I read, yes. Fire in the physical heart (or brain) can kill a victim... I don't really know about the Air from the lungs example (link?), but it sounds extremely advanced. Hence why I never really felt Aerokinesis (Air) would make a great 'kinesis'.. too complicated, or weak effect at a weaker level. Fire more easily indicates destruction in my opinion.. just think of how a strong fever (4 mere Celsius degrees above the normal body temperature) can make a person completely unfit for fighting or wanting to even stand up. Imagine 10 degrees, or 20 more. Even if it won't kill someone it will severely incapacitate them. Same for ice Element, that's why I thought of it.. somehow I'm more capable of standing that than Fire, but it's all theory of course.

Thank you for being there for me, Brother.

Likewise, Brother. Enjoy the offensive!

Hail Satan!

PS. Almost forgot. I remembered about how you said you felt better about speaking with figure of the past (even without being able to hear anything at the time) and I decided to give it a go with Leraje. I haven't made a good contact yet (literally had just 30 minutes at best so far) but I can tell the whole... 'focus on your speech' can be a good focusing tool, able to open up telepathic paths that are otherwise silent/unnoticed... I think I'll give this a more serious try. It also makes sense that I felt attracted to Dantalian as this sounds like it belongs to his office. We'll see where it leads me to.

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

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Since this is a thread 'regarding Elements' I want to say something, I don't know how much this may be of importance or helpful, but as always, if there's a hint here and there that can help others, so be it.

Today, for some reason, I caught myself thinking of skills like pyro and cryo, rather than TK which just recently gave me some unexpected results.
I thought of my own personal imbalance, and how for the last few months I made these two Elements the centre of my attention, focusing much more on Air than I ever had. I learned how TK is caused (for the main part, speaking of Elemental features) by Air, possibly only needing Earth Element to add that magnetic nature to Air's electric one, and allowing electromagnetism to manifest and cause the telekinetic phenomenon.

While this is great and all, I strongly felt attracted (again) the the two Elements that I have always favored, the hot and cold duality that in my opinion always managed to describe Destruction best.

Fire, especially, has more than other Elements taught me of another duality, its destructive AND healing factors. I mentioned the healing part before as I used it to rid myself of a physical problem quickly.

Long story short, I remembered what was said in the JoS about not overdoing dominant Elements and being careful with the balance. This, somehow, led me to believe it would be safer and perhaps just more productive to use the Elements that are mostly balanced.
I have not much experience with these but perhaps it's time I trust my guts and my balanced Elements to unless Destruction in a world that seems very inclined to cause it.

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Can't wait for this war to be over, People.

HAIL FATHER SATAN FOREVER! Ave Zeus!

 

[Apprentice]

At the moment I indefinitely postponed drawing and art, however, as it's not going to make me any better as a Zevism

IMO, in addition to work/job, you have to do something earthly but pleasant to keep you in balance. I just want to make sure you don't forget that. You have a talent for drawing.
As a side note: I have some talent in photography. About 16 years ago it was a very exciting hobby for me. Then I made the mistake of taking a job that revolved around everything photography related, including taking product images in a studio... and now I hardly find myself holding a camera. The idea is to keep balance.

and when I oversleep I end up in a circle of stressful dreams that really don't help me at all

Today I finally enjoyed some oversleeping after breakfast. It felt like a dreamworld that I could shape. My brain was partly awake and it didn't feel like deep, restful sleep. I usually don't see dreams that feel real when you're in them for many years already. I don't know why it is so.

I feel I haven't even mastered my mind at 20%, easily letting thoughts in, focusing on wrong thoughts and ideas, letting the only few good moments be lost in logical consciousness

Welcome to the club. I try to relax about it and not worry. Do what you have to do but follow your gut feelings. The most important thing is intent. It's like a powerful spotlight in the dark. You just have to point it in the right direction. Here is an analogy for you: you and I are currently living on a 2nd floor of a high-rise building. Imagine, if you were living in a penthouse of that building, the view from your windows would be absolutely different, right? This is what we both can accomplish with our intent and daily Zevism work. One day you'll look back at all this in retrospect and wonder, wow, what a journey it's been.
The other big thing is to trust the Gods and let it flow. Don't try to be overly controlling and/or obsessed.

during the last of the 3 rituals (before the last Ritual) I eventually lost count of the repetitions and decided to do five more to be sure I wouldn't do any less... fuck sleep, I only get shitty dreams anyway.

I use a tally counter on my phone. Set the lowest screen brightness and click away. Keeps track of repetitions (as long as you remember to actually touch it after each rep).
Have you tried to pre-program the quality of your sleep with some rune/mantra/affirmation combo?
BTW, results are in from the doc. I don't have OSA. The feeling of tiredness must be originating from elsewhere. Lower chakras, perhaps? Brother GiTM made a lenghty post about it. My mistake with my full body gym regime a year back was that I went all in. That's the way I am, I can't do a half-assed job. I loved being in the gym, physical work felt easy after a workout, life finally had some colors to it. Then I guess I overtrained, overexerted, started feeling tired. I lost motivation. I suspect, it may have something to do with the hopes I had placed on our family business. I saw myself as the builder, creator, helper and not as the one to do boring daily routines but that's exactly what I ended up doing when all the creating was over. Add some financial setbacks to that and no wonder I felt my motivation was gone. I see the jewedness of the business world, low buying power of my people and I just can't help it (at least immediately not).

I remembered what was said in the JoS about not overdoing dominant Elements and being careful with the balance.

Have you started working with Quintessence yet? I invoked it daily until I felt like it, now I do it whenever I feel the need.

Ciao, stammi bene!

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

Well, Hell yeah, you finally found it and felt it! I'm feeling totally different thanks to Quintessence. Yes there was all kinds of doom and gloom in my life during the recent weeks BUT AT THE SAME TIME I felt I'm getting stronger and more immune to the shit the enemy throws at me.
It also seems that I figured out how to actually use my intent, inner energy and focus simultaneously and in unison. This is powerful, next level shit for me. Also, I just fucking love the sound of reversed hebrew in the darkness. Since I first tried it (with the erdin lok ritual, IIRC), I feel some serious inner power while doing these.

I guess I simply wasn't ready for the Quintessence before. I tend to be more materialistic when I think of the Elements.. Fire is hot and burns, Water is cold and Ice is freezing cold, Earth is solid and strong, and Air is electrifying movement.. but how do I feel something that I can barely imagine? That's what held me back every time I wanted to give it another shot and see what's what. Now it's just .."eloquent", if you know what mean. It's like the Elements are 4 tongues and the Quintessence is a mother language that includes all the dialects and derivations, it has all of the peculiarity of the other Elements so.. yeah fuck, no shit it's the one that contains all the Elements! I can tell now! I'm trying to experiment more but time has really been little lately. It's past midnight and I just finished today's offensive.. I was half thinking of doing only three reps but fuck it.. I did 9x anyway and, the first one especially the Nations Ritual felt GREAT... I shit you not, I was at the 4th rep of the affirmations when I just felt uncontrollable laughter ahahah! I HAD to laugh out loud.. I wasn't expecting that one lol. The thing that triggered it was "The yehuborim have totally and completely lost all power" ahahah... Brother, just saying it it feels so fucking awesome! XD I couldn't help but picture them the way HP Zevios nicely put it, as panicking monkeys, lol.. a priceless image, mate, let me tell you. Especially after this weeks pain in the ass at work and the stress for restrictions and feeling this 'grip' on our lives.. I sure needed a good laugh.

And yeah fuck.. the sound of reversed hebrew is honestly fantastic. When I get confident with the pronunciation before the start I just know I'll love speaking it, knowing what it does to them.

I'm already thinking, what I'm gonna do. I can't stand breathing in my own warm and humid exhaust.

I had to wear them (I agree to do this nonsense ONLY when someone entered the room at work, I won't keep it on otherwise, told them straight away if they're not happy with that I can go home and they can find someone else for the day) at work the other day and a colleague suggested a better 'freer' way, but you need one of those black fabric (with white dots texture inside I think) that some workplace give you instead of the bullshit diapers that break every two minutes. I found if you only put one rubber band/threat around your head and leave the other one under, you can probably create an 'open space' under the mask so you can still get enough oxygen and more importantly you can expel CO2, not keep it there to nourish bacteria causing pneumonia (this is one of the main causes of death during the Spanish Flu after they made people wear masks and a lot of them got bacterial pneumonia and died from it.. Dr. Fauci wrote a book on this it seems, he knows exactly this happens, so he suggested the masks non stop obviously).
(Never knew a diploma in biology would help me protect my rights and, ultimately, myself. No wonder these things are getting eliminated from the average school teachings, people that know their shit are dangerous. I also think there's a relation between me ending up studying these things and Leraje having medicine and causing wounds to become infected as abilities of her office. I wonder how I could "weaponize" this.. you know.. using microorganisms? I don't know but I had this 'hint' a while ago. I keep cycling back to it sometimes, not wanting to ignore this much. As 'ultimate healing' is the one thing I seem to have excelled at it only makes sense that I assume I should learn some related ability, even if it's the other face of the medal, the 'biological harm'. I don't know about it.. any thoughts on this skill? :/

I actually don't know how to describe it any better, Brother.

I'm guessing the real thing I lack to do this is practice, I have been running from almost everything for years, even the Gods' help as I 'always do things myself'. I wonder how much I could have accomplished if I did go to them right away instead of postponing to another time when I would have felt better.. it was really never going to happen unless I decided to trust them some and when I did I started to have some visions here and there. It was a start. Now I just need to let go and truly open myself like I should have done.

Just a hunch. Have you tried to do alternate nostril breathing daily? Especially in the evening...?

I've only done it sometimes lately, mostly as a test to my current ability to feel energy and I must say it's relaxing. Haven't explored this well yet, so there's still plenty of good surprises that are waiting to be found. I'll start today. (Nearly falling asleep here lol)

Because my mind was fragmented and scattered all around the place, I focused on the issue that my wife described: my breathing stops during sleep. Now I know that you just have to let all shit go. The best advice (at least for me) contains four words: not my fucking problem. Enforcing it every single day is another problem. I will not use the Isa rune anymore on myself. It only made me slow and stupid, didn't help with my tense feeling at all.

Best advice indeed. Stress is very often a reaction to our own response to things and events, not necessarily caused by something else alone. If you could finally let go of what bothers you, the thoughts of not being good enough or productive enough or whatever else, that's wisdom, Brother. Things will keep happening one way or another, and if that bother you then it's probably going to be a rough ride, but if you can shut it off and leave your life more peacefully nothing has the potential to harm you.
As for the Isa Rune, I feel pretty much the same about it. Did it for a while but it didn't give me a good vibe.. I was only feeling more materialistic and disappointed I still couldn't focus like I want to. Perhaps we're just not that ready yet, like it happened with the Quintessence after years of not feeling it as anything.

Yes, you are overreacting, dear Brother. It has already been discussed a number of times, I guess. You cut off one head and guess what? A new one pops right out. It is way more efficient to deal with the real root of this whole shitshow. This is exactly what we are currently doing with the Rituals.

Yeah, you're right there. Probably overreacting due to all the shit I see in other countries. Coming to think of it, it's probably 'leaked' on purpose sometime in order to scare the masses of another country. Making pigs in uniform look like heroes and pacific people like whatever they are not. I saw this today again but regarding vaccines. Someone said in UK they want to 'shoot a vaccine mist' to infect everyone. I can hardly imagine people sitting quietly and smiling inside their stupid looking masks, ready to be utterly poisoned. There's too many protests that never make it to the social media and such, as they would easily inspire others to emulate good examples. But I feel more people will even just half awake and join our ranks instead of fighting those that speak the truth. It may just be too soon to try and talk someone, even if very open, into accepting our sight of Satan instead of the corrupted view they have.. other than SOME people. One just managed to surprise me as she has been wondering about things like aliens and such... we'll see.

On that note: I REALLY don't understand why we don't have an Asian Race Awakening Ritual. No offense to any Asian that reads this here of course, but of all the people I spoke with and tried to talk some sense into, the Asians are probably the 'slowest' of them all. The Whites, being the majority here, have some good ones, some so and so, and the rest is just made up with working ants that won't even run away from the lens flare. The Blacks actually seem smarter and understood how they're being abused with masks that don't make things safer at all. Asians... let's just say that if all the others in the world are like the ones where I work, we REALLY need a Ritual to Awake them too. Never understood why there isn't one. All the three races should do it, there's always a moron who needs to wake up so badly that he makes the others look bad.

As for your wife's dreams of aliens, it sounds like they're possibly harassing her because they can't get to you, like it seems to happen a lot with loved ones when we are already out of their reach.

Do try that "Fire Ritual" I mentioned, if you want. I used Fire as it's easy to visualize destruction through it but you can use anything you feel like. Right now I'm trying to focus on the Quintessence as I need to develop more sensitivity to it.

Wow.. managed to do the rituals and reply to you too. Now I'm kinda starving so sleep will be slightly postponed.

Hail Father Satan Forever!

 

[Satan_is_our_Father666]

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Just a quick something on Dantalian, who seems to be particularly close to me for some reason lately. Kind of like I felt always under Haures' wing (figure of speech as she is said not to appear with wings, she had none when I met her in 2012), I would see references to her and signs at every step I took.

It's been since yesterday I was thinking about what skills I should try other than TK (after the success by making sure the heart chakra would connect the male and female chakras), as I came to think of 'powers' not so much as abilities to do something but as a 'test' to see how much progress one's made. Like with TK, I figured it out as I've been strongly attracted with the green/emerald color, suggesting I'm not using enough heart to connect the upper and lower.

I've been thinking about various thinks, cryokinesis as Brother GitM made me wonder about it again, pyro as it's always something useful, and then I temporarily 'settled' for the well known healing and its opposite, using basically one's biology against themselves and leading to damage and death (a little like Leraje can do by preventing wounds to heal and making them get infected and worsen the victim's health, which is one of the things I've always felt I could do.. haven't, but I haven't given it a good training yet).

Then I ended up on the JoS again. Felt like I was going to check the Satanic Sorcery page and see what tickled my interest the most.
I ended up clicking on Hypnosis, Evil Eye and such skills that belong to the Mind/Telepathic department. All strongly linked to Dantalian.
On an important note here... I NEVER (you read that right) believed I would be any good at these skills. The mind is a very difficult thing to master, I am Air headed, fail at Void meditation regularly and rarely get visions unless I'm on a good streak. So, reading about this particular kind of skills is a little like masturbation: you wonder about it but know you can't get it lol.

Thing is, I felt like I was instead 'going to be very gifted in this'... I just felt this wasn't anymore out of my league, that I might as well have tried this sometime, and I will as soon as I got myself a good enough 'piercing stare' (if you read about the Hypnosis pages you'll what I mean, unless you already have).

Later today I was driving and thought of you seeing '666' plates, only this one was a number that I ended up associating with Dantalian. I ignore the kabbalistic meaning (the number is '444' and I read somewhere it was related to 'Yehubor's leader', but for me that means nothing at all) as this number first got to me when a cat jumped on my keyboard and left me the message. Knowing the Gods, I kept in the back of my mind. I saw it again when I was first caught by Dantalian and was feeling this Demon had something to teach me: I ended up looking for a necklace with a sigil and I found His, the price was 4.44 dollars, the only one in the selection of sigils. I immediately bought it online but then forgot about it.

Today, I get home from my grocery trip, not even 30 minutes after seeing the number and thinking of Him, that I find a package in my letterbox and it's the necklace with Dantalian's sigil.....

I know this Demon means serious business. The signs are just absurdly numerous and specific, plus I have found Him by following a 'symbol' that looked familiar all my life. I'm not sure whether or not Hiepacht (the one with the super familiar symbol) is another aspect of Dantalian (like other Gods with different names in the JoS are sometimes the same one with different names and aspects) but I can feel this Demon wants me to pay attention.

I'm thinking I'm going to learn all I can on these subjects, and try them out on people and even animals as it's mentioned in the JoS. I just have to learn how to be concise as I assume the best message to deliver would be a to-the-point and simple one, with just a couple/few words in it, making it easier to focus the intention.

Speaking of intention.... I think you'll like this.

I just finished the daily rituals and during the affirmations I decided to memorize a few (the not too long ones at least) and try to speak them with my eyes closed by visualizing myself surrounded by Akasha color, and SPEAKING directly INTO the Quintessence.
To be honest, this felt more powerful than mere reading them out loud. It felt like I was commanding the Universe, through the Quintessence, to destroy the letters and demolish the yehuborim and awake every Gentile at once. It felt powerful. Competent...

Thought you might wanna try this.

Take your time answering, Brother, I know you're very busy. Always here. Take care!

Hail Father Satan Forever! Hail Leraje! Hail Dantalian! Hail Haures!