Some additional info, my clairaudience/pineal gland can only hear so much, and sometimes I can only hear bits and pieces of the convos like this:
“????????. That’s why you’re unwanted.”
“Alone”
And sometimes I hear insult regarding my personal appearance.
Or I can hear incoherent mumbling followed by a completely normal sentence. I’ve told them the times I can’t hear them, and they rarely repeat what they said.
It’s been coherent for the most part.. but sometimes as I’m laying down talking to them, I guess I start falling asleep and dreaming and saying nonsense to them. I feel this gets them angry with me. (And I get angry at myself for not being able to hold concentration long enough)
A few months ago I was told (by Zeus or a God sent by him) that there’s a difficult period approaching me. I said something along the lines of “well I guess all I can do is take it one step at a time to deal with things..” and he said “I will help you, I will save you” followed by offering to send me an incubus, something I’ve been thinking about. But I rejected his offer as i felt I wasn’t ready.
A few days later I woke up to them saying that I’m alone, without….etc a complete 180!! And I done even know what I did!
This is a pattern. They offer to help, but the next day as I’m waking up they’re suddenly angry with me. It’s come to the point where they won’t even offer to help me anymore. I feel like I annoy Zeus and the Gods by talking, pleading and crying to them all the time when I’m genuinely confused and hurt.