Re: They are Trying to Stop the Inevitable

[Kareem Zedan]

Also, something else has come to my mind, which might be another interpretation to these experiences. I have come recently realize that I was born psychic, more in a clairsentient way than anything else, and that has caused me to be the victim of numerous psychic attacks, especially when I renounced the false jehova and his filthy associates. That is probably why I was led astray from my path in my mid teens, when I was working to grow in power during my time in Egypt, which is now part of a heavily degenerated islamic vortex. I would just like to thank the Gods, for they have helped me in numerous ways, and have prevented any kind of serious harm coming my way, as in murder or suicide. I am eternally thankful. Hail Satan!!!!http://luciferiexcelsi666.blogspot.co.uk/ On Wednesday, 23 April 2014, 15:42, Kareem Zedan <kareem335@... wrote:
I would like to share a story here with everyone of my large Satanic family. I have been going through periods of extremely intense realizations of my past and my present through my meditations. The Gods, and mainly Azazel (I feel very close to him, almost like a spiritual brother) have helped me greatly with this. They have pointed out to me that even though I feel that what I have experienced in my life may be insignificant to others and to the worlds, that that is not the case, and in the stage I am at in my life now, I will not be able to progress any further if I do not express and communicate my inner most feelings and experiences with everyone. My progression now lies in connecting and relating with the people, and sharing things at the inner most intimate level. I firstly would like to make clear a few certain things, although I do feel a bit uncomfortable doing this, I will do it anyway, since this is where I need to change and this is where my progress lies. Since I feel that we are in a time where we should express an outward movement of our own individuality and genius, this is where my example comes into play. The Sun is extremely prominent in my chart, and it lies in my twelfth house, close to my ascendant, which happens to be in Leo. From what I understand about Astrology up till now, the twelfth house is symbolic (or actually directly represents) death, since it is the last house of the zodiac, and directly comes before the first house, which I assume is the house of birth and of life. This explains the transcendence of the soul through death and rebirth. The twelfth house is also the house of 'unseen' forces, the occult, psychic ability, etc.. etc.. I have been in the spiritual path from ever since I can remember, I came to Satanism when I was thirteen, and since then I have gone through paranormal experiences and events that would be categorized as extremely abnormal (I believe Uranus has been transiting my twelfth house as well, this could explain it) and the areas of life which are ruled by the twelfth house have been of extreme and prominent focus of my entire being and soul. I believe, from what I have learnt so far, that I had gone through a phase of spiritual death, or what would be symbolized by the 1st chakra as 'hell'. Now this was a phase of extreme spiritual suffering and pain. From what I can remember from where I am now, it was as if my soul was committing suicide, skinning itself alive and destroying everything it knew of what was past, present and future. This also manifested in my everyday life, which was nothing but a series of unfortunate and self destructive events that I could not make any sense of. I was just extremely confused, and day by day I was feeling more isolated, more in my shell, and more alien than everyone else. I remember that there came a point when I couldn't discern what was real from what was unreal. The best way I can describe it, is by saying that I felt my soul was self destroying itself in a deep dark pit of abyss, where it isolated itself from the physical world so it could 'shed it's skin' so to speak, and to experience suffering and agony in solitude. With all of this happening, I do remember that deep in me was the knowledge that all of this was happening for good, I knew deep down that I was going through some kind of weird and abnormal transformation of some sorts (I believe it is going on till now, but I am starting to experience the positive aspects of this). Then there came a time when I was lying in bed, feeling totally spiritually paralyzed due to all the pain I was experiencing, which felt more real than anything physical, and then something of immense beauty happened which I will never forget. I experienced 'heaven'. This felt like my whole physical body was engulfed, along with my soul, in an intense ecstatic bubble of something the word 'bliss' would not do justice, for it was beyond the feeling of bliss, and I remember distinctly, at the climax of this experience, a voice telling me 'you are in heaven', and it did feel that way, I remember feeling utterly convinced I was in heaven. I saw all my physical surroundings transform into a wavy field of tangible energy, I remember, only at that moment, knowing that I was the God of my realm, and that I could shape my external surroundings as I wanted like plasticine. I experienced, for a brief moment, what it is like to become the ultimate magician, I experienced what it is like to become a God. In my memory this experience was followed by darkness, which I assume means that I passed out straight after this. I do not believe that I am the only one that has gone through this, since this is something that would happen, or has already happened, to anyone who is serious about spiritual transcendence, since this is one of the most significant and important phases of this. If it has not already happened to you, then I believe that it will happen sooner or later, depending on what steps you have taken towards spiritual fulfilment in this lifetime, and in past ones and how serious you are about it, and how you demonstrate that seriousness. I remember during that period of my suffering posting on these groups, I must've been fourteen or fifteen at the time, and I explained what was going on with me, when someone replied that what I was going through can be described as 'the dark knight of the soul'. I believe this label sums it up perfectly. I would also like to thank whoever replied this to me, because I believe it is someone who is still in this group. I have now come out of this, not in a constant place of bliss, but with a sense of a different type of 'grounding' so to speak. I am, thankfully, operating on higher vibration of existence. I would like to add that after my coming out of this, it has been something that has been going on the background; I did not realize how I have changed from this past experience until this was pointed out to me (The Demon working with me was able to point this out to me through my birth chart). I can sense that I now have a much deeper knowing and a sense of understanding with the universe, in other words, I now understand the universe somewhat, and the universe understands me, this is as close as I can get with explaining it in words, since this is something entirely non-physical. I am more in tune with the energies of the universe, and I feel like I am its son. This is also accompanied with a constant background feeling of well-being. I believe that this is what would be described as the process of the death and the rebirth of the soul, which is a step in achieving the Magnum Opus. I am not stating, however, that I have entirely transcended this change, I am stating that I have gone through the 'death' part of it, and I believe I am now going through the rebirth process. I do know that for this process to reach its completion, it may take lifetimes. Note that this happened to me years ago, and I have only come to realize this recently through my meditations, which shows that the mind is still recovering from this. I would also like to point out that Anubis has recently made his presence known to me. Whenever Anubis appears to me I know that death is always just round the corner. This is a wake up call for me, that if I was to waste my time and relax during this lifetime, I will suffer an unfulfilling death, which will greatly hinder my spiritual process in both this lifetime and the upcoming one. This song is a great way to sense Anubis, and a great reminder of death. Death is always nearby, and therefore we must fulfil our desires sooner rather than later, so that we do not regret this. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qFkkSDIkA4Y Hail Satan!!!!http://luciferiexclesi666.blogspot.co.uk/ 

 

[reimerwesley]

Very touching, and inspirational. I'm not very good at astrology quite yet. It seems to be one of my weak my weak points at the moment, but I have always been very interested in it. Whenever I am going through unexplainable rough times though, I always try and just acknowledge that it's the enemy, or bad planets. Ill try and focus on Satan and feel his energy. It always helps and makes me feel better and gives me confidence. I long for the day I hear his voice, let alone meet him face to face. Luckily for me though, being alone is something I have always looked forward to in my life. When I come home from school, or wherever the fuck, I always can't wait to sit back, and enjoy the peace and quiet and the privacy I'm fortunate to have enough to have. I don't enjoy people much as I used to. Even before I was a Satanist, I just never thought in the same patterns as anyone surrounding me. They've come close, but no cigar. When I did really start to enjoy company, it is of the Gods and higher dimensional beings. But even so, I need to be alone. Isolation, as weird as it sounds, is a virtue to me. There has to be a balance of between the two. I have to be alone as equal as I need the company of others, however I feel this characteristic changing. I think this is the Gods influence. I guess they've given me more of a social hope because they are not simple minded beings like most people I know. Like you, I was born more with clairsentience. I cannot hear or see the gods or spirits, demons etc. But the ability to feel when another conciousness is near has always been a present sense of mine. This probably came with being alone for such a majority of my life that I subconciously grew the ability to feel. Anyway I don't really know where I'm going with this anymore but I felt I should share this with you. Hail Satan!

 

[Light Yagami]

Iiiiinteresting... :O
Well, I am definitely not in the stage that you're currently into but I have made some... quite intense realizations about myself and my past lives; and how they've affected my way of thinking etc.I am currently doing the Moon Square for material purposes (instinct, understanding my own soul and subconscious etc) and I've also been doing the Munka meditation... and yeah, it's a great combination if one wants to know more things about themselves.
I had also great help from my Guardian about some  burdens my soul's been carrying and I've felt light; I've felt free, you know? Of course there are still maaaaany things I need to work on; many things I'll discover about myself, there's no doubt.
Thank you for sharing your experiences with us. I can not be that open about my own experiences though haha. However, if I ever realize something that will help others as well, I'll definitely post a long-ass message about it. xD Στις 10:32 π.μ. Σάββατο, 26 Απριλίου 2014, ο/η "reimerwesley@..." <reimerwesley@... έγραψε:
  Very touching, and inspirational. I'm not very good at astrology quite yet. It seems to be one of my weak my weak points at the moment, but I have always been very interested in it. Whenever I am going through unexplainable rough times though, I always try and just acknowledge that it's the enemy, or bad planets. Ill try and focus on Satan and feel his energy. It always helps and makes me feel better and gives me confidence. I long for the day I hear his voice, let alone meet him face to face. Luckily for me though, being alone is something I have always looked forward to in my life. When I come home from school, or wherever the fuck, I always can't wait to sit back, and enjoy the peace and quiet and the privacy I'm fortunate to have enough to have. I don't enjoy people much as I used to. Even before I was a Satanist, I just never thought in the same patterns as anyone surrounding me. They've come close, but no cigar. When I did really start to enjoy company, it is of the Gods and higher dimensional beings. But even so, I need to be alone. Isolation, as weird as it sounds, is a virtue to me. There has to be a balance of between the two. I have to be alone as equal as I need the company of others, however I feel this characteristic changing. I think this is the Gods influence. I guess they've given me more of a social hope because they are not simple minded beings like most people I know. Like you, I was born more with clairsentience. I cannot hear or see the gods or spirits, demons etc. But the ability to feel when another conciousness is near has always been a present sense of mine. This probably came with being alone for such a majority of my life that I subconciously grew the ability to feel. Anyway I don't really know where I'm going with this anymore but I felt I should share this with you. Hail Satan!

 

[Kareem Zedan]

Thanks for sharing. I believe this is also one of the effects of Kundalini Yoga and power meditation. The more we strengthen our soul, psyche and chakras, the more we tend to move onto a higher plane of existence and vibration, and with that happening the soul tends to obliterate and leave behind all enforced conditionings and beliefs that may prevent it from doing so, including the beliefs we had acquired from past lives. I believe this is the process of the soul burning its Karma seeds. This is a time when one starts facing the depths of his subconscious mind, and confronting all his memories and supressed emotions that were not dealt with properly either during this lifetime or in previous ones, this is the soul cleansing itself and 'paying its last dues' so to speak before being able to move onto the higher vibrational frequency. I can see it now, it happens through death and rebirth, death as in the death of the previous lower frequency vibrational self, and the birth of the higher vibrational one. I believe that the death part is only symbolic, and it symbolizes the death of the dependency on the material and the birth of the soul as the master of both the material and the spiritual (they're both part of the same thing in the end). I can now see that this is the true interpretation of the Temple of Solomon which the jews corrupted. So it's highly probably that the want for a person to retreat and to confront his own self is an effect of the Kundalini cleansing the soul. Death is an illusion in the sense that the soul does not die, rather what dies is all past conditioning and inner most beliefs that may be detrimental to growth, which prevent the soul from untying itself from its prison (the curse), and rising to embrace the body as its temple. Hail Satan!!!!http://luciferiexcelsi666.blogspot.co.uk/  On Saturday, 26 April 2014, 8:32, "reimerwesley@..." <reimerwesley@... wrote:
  Very touching, and inspirational. I'm not very good at astrology quite yet. It seems to be one of my weak my weak points at the moment, but I have always been very interested in it. Whenever I am going through unexplainable rough times though, I always try and just acknowledge that it's the enemy, or bad planets. Ill try and focus on Satan and feel his energy. It always helps and makes me feel better and gives me confidence. I long for the day I hear his voice, let alone meet him face to face. Luckily for me though, being alone is something I have always looked forward to in my life. When I come home from school, or wherever the fuck, I always can't wait to sit back, and enjoy the peace and quiet and the privacy I'm fortunate to have enough to have. I don't enjoy people much as I used to. Even before I was a Satanist, I just never thought in the same patterns as anyone surrounding me. They've come close, but no cigar. When I did really start to enjoy company, it is of the Gods and higher dimensional beings. But even so, I need to be alone. Isolation, as weird as it sounds, is a virtue to me. There has to be a balance of between the two. I have to be alone as equal as I need the company of others, however I feel this characteristic changing. I think this is the Gods influence. I guess they've given me more of a social hope because they are not simple minded beings like most people I know. Like you, I was born more with clairsentience. I cannot hear or see the gods or spirits, demons etc. But the ability to feel when another conciousness is near has always been a present sense of mine. This probably came with being alone for such a majority of my life that I subconciously grew the ability to feel. Anyway I don't really know where I'm going with this anymore but I felt I should share this with you. Hail Satan!