Re: Chaos rising

[wilsonmike904]

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---In [email protected], <[email protected] wrote:

I'm searching for help on unusal experiences I had in previous period and hope I came to the right place.
Since teenager (i'm in early 30ies now)I had tendencies toward Satanism, but this tendencies never evolved in concrete communication with Satan, as I always felt I'm strong and can do all by myself. I'm very intuitive, talented and succesful and practically independent in field I choosed to develop. I had extremly hard life and lot of luck to deal with it in best possible manner, so I became skillful survivour, resistant to fake values, almost absolutely free of norms, social conventions, concepts and steretoypes in human behaviour. Of course, all this is an ongoing process of everyday practice, and as you can imagine, not easiest one, too.
I have some weak points and believed it's normal when you're in struggle all the time on way you choosed recognizing it as your only true way. I get anxious sometimes and anxiety blocks me from moving forward, but it was never really stoping me. Now it became harder and I'm in front of great challenge to confront my sipiritual growth and freedom.
I met a man who is, as he says, follower of Satan. We know each other almost for a year and are conected through the same field of (buisness) interest. It was a genuine friendship, but I also get emotionally involved in strange way (as I get spelled or something) which started to weaken my spirit. Most of the time it went well and we enjoyed each others company, but at some point I felt he is blocking the progress of relationship for reasons I couldn't trully accept. Among other things (stuff like I'm afraid of this), he claimed he shouldn't get involved with me, becouse Satan doesn't like me and for him is important to follow his advice.
But we continued to develop relationship as close friends, until it became unberable for me. He is very charming and likes to hang out with other girls, which under usual circumstances, I could deal with. Not to mention, he is not the only man in my life that has important role in my life in longer terms, but somehow he became important in this period. I started to experience too many negative emotions, as jealousy and mistrust, so my focus was moved from important events in my life to something primitive and distractive, and I had to cut this friendship.


But now I feel strong outside force is binding me from any action, torturing my soul with pain. I can feel it doesn't come from inside, it's something external.
If I get in touch with him, it will ease the pain, but it won't solve the problem and I will not do it.
As I'm in responsible positions and my actions do count in progress of the whole fuckin society I live in, this will negatively affect on different levels and I have responsibility to be well as soon as possible.
Please, if you relate to any of this, give me advice.

 

[shantikami]

Agreed. No one gets to tell you what Satan says; either you hear it from Him yourself, or you don't. Sounds like he's using "Satan says X" to play you. Not cool.
with eternal love & devotion to Satan,Katy

---In [email protected], <wilsonmike904@... wrote:

Th[/IMG]</var>

---In [email protected], <[email protected] wrote:

I'm searching for help on unusal experiences I had in previous period and hope I came to the right place.
Since teenager (i'm in early 30ies now)I had tendencies toward Satanism, but this tendencies never evolved in concrete communication with Satan, as I always felt I'm strong and can do all by myself. I'm very intuitive, talented and succesful and practically independent in field I choosed to develop. I had extremly hard life and lot of luck to deal with it in best possible manner, so I became skillful survivour, resistant to fake values, almost absolutely free of norms, social conventions, concepts and steretoypes in human behaviour. Of course, all this is an ongoing process of everyday practice, and as you can imagine, not easiest one, too.
I have some weak points and believed it's normal when you're in struggle all the time on way you choosed recognizing it as your only true way. I get anxious sometimes and anxiety blocks me from moving forward, but it was never really stoping me. Now it became harder and I'm in front of great challenge to confront my sipiritual growth and freedom.
I met a man who is, as he says, follower of Satan. We know each other almost for a year and are conected through the same field of (buisness) interest. It was a genuine friendship, but I also get emotionally involved in strange way (as I get spelled or something) which started to weaken my spirit. Most of the time it went well and we enjoyed each others company, but at some point I felt he is blocking the progress of relationship for reasons I couldn't trully accept. Among other things (stuff like I'm afraid of this), he claimed he shouldn't get involved with me, becouse Satan doesn't like me and for him is important to follow his advice.
But we continued to develop relationship as close friends, until it became unberable for me. He is very charming and likes to hang out with other girls, which under usual circumstances, I could deal with. Not to mention, he is not the only man in my life that has important role in my life in longer terms, but somehow he became important in this period. I started to experience too many negative emotions, as jealousy and mistrust, so my focus was moved from important events in my life to something primitive and distractive, and I had to cut this friendship.


But now I feel strong outside force is binding me from any action, torturing my soul with pain. I can feel it doesn't come from inside, it's something external.
If I get in touch with him, it will ease the pain, but it won't solve the problem and I will not do it.
As I'm in responsible positions and my actions do count in progress of the whole fuckin society I live in, this will negatively affect on different levels and I have responsibility to be well as soon as possible.
Please, if you relate to any of this, give me advice.

 

[eirik lund]

Agree with wilson.

Also for me at first gland it looks from my point of view that you have the urge to get accepted and appreciated. First of all accept and love yourself and accept youre orientation.

In an friendship or what this is if the other half is effortless and leeching on ur energy you should cut him out.

Good luck and dedicate when u feel ready.

Hail Satan hail Enlil

On Sunday, October 6, 2013,  <wilsonmike904@... wrote:
 

This guy (or anyone else) does not speak on behalf of the Father. It sounds like he is a total bullshit artist who seems to be messing with you for reasons of his own. My advice is to run.

 

I would consider dedicating (from your post I got that you hadn't?) and developing your own relationship with Satan.  It seems you have many qualities that will serve you in good stead to advance spiritually. Remember that at the end of the day it is you, and you alone, that advances. You will meet many people on the path whose goals may or may not be aligned with yours. It all comes from within.

 

Mike

Hail Satan

---In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:

I'm searching for help on unusal experiences I had in previous period and hope I came to the right place.
Since teenager (i'm in early 30ies now)I had tendencies toward Satanism, but this tendencies never evolved in concrete communication with Satan, as I always felt I'm strong and can do all by myself. I'm very intuitive, talented and succesful and practically independent in field I choosed to develop. I had extremly hard life and lot of luck to deal with it in best possible manner, so I became skillful survivour, resistant to fake values, almost absolutely free of norms, social conventions, concepts and steretoypes in human behaviour. Of course, all this is an ongoing process of everyday practice, and as you can imagine, not easiest one, too.
I have some weak points and believed it's normal when you're in struggle all the time on way you choosed recognizing it as your only true way. I get anxious sometimes and anxiety blocks me from moving forward, but it was never really stoping me. Now it became harder and I'm in front of great challenge to confront my sipiritual growth and freedom.
I met a man who is, as he says, follower of Satan. We know each other almost for a year and are conected through the same field of (buisness) interest. It was a genuine friendship, but I also get emotionally involved in strange way (as I get spelled or something) which started to weaken my spirit. Most of the time it went well and we enjoyed each others company, but at some point I felt he is blocking the progress of relationship for reasons I couldn't trully accept. Among other things (stuff like I'm afraid of this), he claimed he shouldn't get involved with me, becouse Satan doesn't like me and for him is important to follow his advice.
But we continued to develop relationship as close friends, until it became unberable for me. He is very charming and likes to hang out with other girls, which under usual circumstances, I could deal with. Not to mention, he is not the only man in my life that has important role in my life in longer terms, but somehow he became important in this period. I started to experience too many negative emotions, as jealousy and mistrust, so my focus was moved from important events in my life to something primitive and distractive, and I had to cut this friendship.


But now I feel strong outside force is binding me from any action, torturing my soul with pain. I can feel it doesn't come from inside, it's something external.
If I get in touch with him, it will ease the pain, but it won't solve the problem and I will not do it.
As I'm in responsible positions and my actions do count in progress of the whole fuckin society I live in, this will negatively affect on different levels and I have responsibility to be well as soon as possible.
Please, if you relate to any of this, give me advice.

 

[Petra Urban]

Thank you for your answer.
If I dedicate I want to do it when this situation is behind me. I'm already partly there, but I want to be completely sure that I'm doing it for all the right reasons, with clear mind and when I'm trully ready.
I consider relationship with Satan as private and believe I will feel when the right time comes, as I'm open to it. But if you have any additional advice for a beginner, I will be glad to read.

Hail Satan
Petra

 

[wilsonmike904]

Th[/IMG]</var>  

---In [email protected], <[email protected] wrote:

Thank you for your answer.
If I dedicate I want to do it when this situation is behind me. I'm already partly there, but I want to be completely sure that I'm doing it for all the right reasons, with clear mind and when I'm trully ready.
I consider relationship with Satan as private and believe I will feel when the right time comes, as I'm open to it. But if you have any additional advice for a beginner, I will be glad to read.

Hail Satan
Petra

 

[call_me_something_else]

Some things can ONLY be learned of from father Satan. 

There are concepts which exceed human communication skills for those without - and even some of us, quite yet still.

Also, there are other things, which can only even be known BY genetic memory.

Hail Father Satan! My best working for You today, was an honor!

---In [email protected], <wilsonmike904@... wrote:

Th[/IMG]</var>  

---In [email protected], <[email protected] wrote:

Thank you for your answer.
If I dedicate I want to do it when this situation is behind me. I'm already partly there, but I want to be completely sure that I'm doing it for all the right reasons, with clear mind and when I'm trully ready.
I consider relationship with Satan as private and believe I will feel when the right time comes, as I'm open to it. But if you have any additional advice for a beginner, I will be glad to read.

Hail Satan
Petra

 

[call_me_something_else]

Y'know what? I wonder if that one, little point, might just be the "quantum foam focal point" of the genetic difference between we Gentiles and kikes.

As in, what if it's SINCE we Gentiles are ALL made by our Father, since they're not, it seems we might all have a way to communicate with absolutely ZERO infiltration?

We will become this machine.

hail Father Satan! Hail ALL the True Gods of Duat!
 

---In [email protected], <[email protected] wrote:

Some things can ONLY be learned of from father Satan. 

There are concepts which exceed human communication skills for those without - and even some of us, quite yet still.

Also, there are other things, which can only even be known BY genetic memory.

Hail Father Satan! My best working for You today, was an honor!


---In [email protected], <wilsonmike904@... wrote:

Th[/IMG]</var>  

---In [email protected], <[email protected] wrote:

Thank you for your answer.
If I dedicate I want to do it when this situation is behind me. I'm already partly there, but I want to be completely sure that I'm doing it for all the right reasons, with clear mind and when I'm trully ready.
I consider relationship with Satan as private and believe I will feel when the right time comes, as I'm open to it. But if you have any additional advice for a beginner, I will be glad to read.

Hail Satan
Petra

 

[call_me_something_else]

 Oh, yes, of course we already are. Silly me.

Heil Hitler! Hail Father Satan!

---In [email protected], <no.state@... wrote:

Y'know what? I wonder if that one, little point, might just be the "quantum foam focal point" of the genetic difference between we Gentiles and kikes.

As in, what if it's SINCE we Gentiles are ALL made by our Father, since they're not, it seems we might all have a way to communicate with absolutely ZERO infiltration?

We will become this machine.

hail Father Satan! Hail ALL the True Gods of Duat!
 

---In [email protected], <[email protected] wrote:

Some things can ONLY be learned of from father Satan. 

There are concepts which exceed human communication skills for those without - and even some of us, quite yet still.

Also, there are other things, which can only even be known BY genetic memory.

Hail Father Satan! My best working for You today, was an honor!


---In [email protected], <wilsonmike904@... wrote:

Th[/IMG]</var>  

---In [email protected], <[email protected] wrote:

Thank you for your answer.
If I dedicate I want to do it when this situation is behind me. I'm already partly there, but I want to be completely sure that I'm doing it for all the right reasons, with clear mind and when I'm trully ready.
I consider relationship with Satan as private and believe I will feel when the right time comes, as I'm open to it. But if you have any additional advice for a beginner, I will be glad to read.

Hail Satan
Petra