Question #4198: should I kill myself?

[Ask Satya Operator]

recently, every time I would begin to meditate, my heart would feel like it's in a vice and at other times through out the day it would be in a vice again.

I feel like I'm going to die, should I kill myself to trade one death for another?

this is urgent because I feel like I might not make it alive.

I'm not advanced enough to deal with it on my own but I dedicated over a year ago.

please hurry, my heart might go out.

 

[Head Guardian Blitzkreig]

recently, every time I would begin to meditate, my heart would feel like it's in a vice and at other times through out the day it would be in a vice again.

I feel like I'm going to die, should I kill myself to trade one death for another?

this is urgent because I feel like I might not make it alive.

I'm not advanced enough to deal with it on my own but I dedicated over a year ago.

please hurry, my heart might go out.

No, this is just a health problem. Although I understand your desire to avoid the pain, killing yourself won't fix it.

Instead, try holding the Heart 7 point and schedule an appointment with a doctor, such as Centralforce666.

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[High Priestess Lydia Coventina]

In addition to JG Blitzkreig's advice, are you able to visit a crystal store or purchase online? Rose Quartz is good for calming anxiety, and it helps with all issues relating to the heart. (There are other helpful crystals too, but rose quartz is easy to obtain and inexpensive.)

Also, don't kill yourself. You don't know that you're going to drop dead so there's no point in thinking you should kill yourself anyway. Even if you were to die, live with courage and do the best that you can. This is what the Gods want. They certainly do not want you to suicide just because you think you might die anyway.

Last tip: Clean your heart chakra. There could be some sort of enemy thoughtform attached to it that affects your physical heart. Some rounds of Surya, and do the sweeping light method. Ask for help from your Guardian Demon (even if you don't know who your Guardian is).

 

[Gerecht_Ror]

Last tip: Clean your heart chakra. There could be some sort of enemy thoughtform attached to it that affects your physical heart. Some rounds of Surya, and do the sweeping light method. Ask for help from your Guardian Demon (even if you don't know who your Guardian is).

Thanks for this enlightenment, I felt heart pain too and I was convinced this is due to sort of thought form. Now I am sure this is the case.
In my case this thoughform is so strong and intelligent this is basically a "part of me" that I built discarding emotions for most life. Have you ever found this occurrence?

 

[High Priestess Lydia Coventina]

Thanks for this enlightenment, I felt heart pain too and I was convinced this is due to sort of thought form. Now I am sure this is the case.
In my case this thoughform is so strong and intelligent this is basically a "part of me" that I built discarding emotions for most life. Have you ever found this occurrence?

Remove it, ask your GD or any Demon available to help you. Do not accept that it is a part of you. Start now, waning Moon in Aquarius, or after the VoC is fine too.

 

[Gerecht_Ror]

Remove it, ask your GD or any Demon available to help you. Do not accept that it is a part of you. Start now, waning Moon in Aquarius, or after the VoC is fine too.

Thank you for your precious advice. I am working on this as it's way more complicate than it seemed before.
I know I am a bit off-topic but, I need to clarify more on this. I asked help from the Gods and partially received, but I feel I need to clarify something by myself.

I learned a new "vampiric" ability, that is exploiting this thoughtform. As I created it, it is connected to my heart chakra, but it's free to wander the astral and I found that a vampire can "call upon" my thoughform and start feeding on it, thus draining me.
If I consciously refuse this thoughtform, it remains in the hands of the vampire. If I recall it (I learned how to), it seems like I free it from vampire and I feel more energized, with clearer thoughts, and I do not feel vampire's will (this happens when the thoughtform is trapped in his astral hands).
Basically, I am not able to destroy it with my powers, the Gods I consulted did not remove it (yet? maybe). I am slowly working to "accept myself" instead so I will not feed anymore this "part of me" that I project outside. So the thoughtform will slowly vanish.

Would this work in your opinion? I feel like I am stuck in a loop-