Thanks for your concern to the OP, but even if this were my real name, it's way too late by now.
For the record, the name "Lydia" came to me as a child. A relative bought me a comic book, and a character had the name Lydia. I had a full-blown spiritual experience, I was in a trance for hours, just amazed at what a unique (I had never heard of the name before) and beautiful name it was. I wrote it everywhere, kept saying it in my mind. I vowed to legally change my name to it as soon as I was legally old enough to do so (I didn't do that).
I forgot about the name until I found the JoS. As I was thinking of a username to join the yahoo groups, I remembered this name, and typed it in. Perhaps the trance was the Gods telling me to remember the name to use it when the time came....