Problems with "healers"

[alexengvik]

Well... I performed the ritual to become a Satanist, and just after I was done, I felt a drag downwards in my body, earlier that day, I felt just "pain", without the pain itself, how to put it... I felt that I was "sick" all the time, without being it, I felt like crap constantly, but after the ritual, I felt like all of these feelings were gone, I was "complete". Well, then I went out of my room and to the living room, stayed there for a while to think over what I've just done, but then my mom went up to my room, and immediatly felt something wierd, so she called her "healer" friend. The healer arrived and she requested to speak with me alone, so we went to the kitchen. We sat down on each our side of the table, looking on each other. She wanted to know everything I've done, like she knew what I had done. I told her, because I trust her, known her like a friend, but I didn't quite know that she was a "healer", until recently. She took a glass of saltwater, took up a cross from her pocket and went to my room, she stood behind the door to my room, and then she opened the door and just looked infront of her. She suddenly walked into the room, put the glass of saltwater on my table, and she dipped her hand in the glass and said "Begone in Gods name." and she did this like 10 times or something, didn't really count, and then she asked me to sit down in my chair, about in the middle of the room. Then she gave me her cross, and asked me to hold it up. Then she took her hand and dipped it in the glass of saltwater, and said "Alexander (my name), be cleansed in Gods name." several times. She then asked me, "How do you feel?" and I replied, "I feel lighter, not as heavy as before". And then she said, "Good. You have now been cleansed". Then she said, "I'll let you borrow the cross for 2 days. You shall wear it at all times, even when you sleep."

That is what has happened to me, this was about a day ago. The thing is, right after I got the feeling of being heavy and "pure", I felt a huge sadness over me, and I cried for several seconds. And I went down to the living room very sad in a way, but of course I am able to hide it. Then she arrived.

I'm wondering, is it as I think it is, has she "CLEANSED" me? Did she purge Satan from me? Did she create a great wall between me and Satan? I wanna know exacly what has happened, and I want to know, if it is as I believe, is Satan still with me? Because I tried to like "call" the feeling of heaviness back, by taking of the cross and then leaning my head a little bit down, and closing my eyes and thinking, "Satan, please come to me". But nothing happened, so now I'm worried.

Most of you will probably be thinking, "Why the hell didn't you stop her?". Well... I don't quite know why, but I felt I couldn't stop her in a way, being hold back by a intense force...

Now, I just want you people, the Satanists, to tell me if Satan has left me forever or if he is still there, if he is, then please tell me how I can bring him back. Because I don't want to follow Jesus Christ and God. I want to follow Satan and his demons. So please, help me out here. Please.

 

[Ramses1]

I took out a pendulum and asked Enki if you could come back satanism
the pendulum said yes
so i assume you can

http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... dulum.html

you might wanna ask him yourself

hail satan

 

[David De Jager]

first of all. get rid of that dumb cross. then give it to the wacko when she returns. tell her what she wants to hear. satan would never leave you alone. i am not sure what happened with the emptiness you say you feel. try to give it time, meditate, try to contact father by means of trance. it does not have to be deep trance, just go into trance and tell father you are still by his side. things should sort itself out with time, although this is just my opinion and not fact so i cannot gaurentee anything.   and try telling your mum you want nothing to do with xianity...unless it would cause implications...just stay true to yourself and your beliefs and you should be fine.   hoping for the best.   HAIL SATAN!! LET HIM KNOW YOU ARE THERE FOR HIM FATHER!!!

From: alexengvik <alexengvik@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Friday, 22 May, 2009 12:48:16 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Problems with "healers"

Well... I performed the ritual to become a Satanist, and just after I was done, I felt a drag downwards in my body, earlier that day, I felt just "pain", without the pain itself, how to put it... I felt that I was "sick" all the time, without being it, I felt like crap constantly, but after the ritual, I felt like all of these feelings were gone, I was "complete". Well, then I went out of my room and to the living room, stayed there for a while to think over what I've just done, but then my mom went up to my room, and immediatly felt something wierd, so she called her "healer" friend. The healer arrived and she requested to speak with me alone, so we went to the kitchen. We sat down on each our side of the table, looking on each other. She wanted to know everything I've done, like she knew what I had done. I told her, because I trust her, known her like a friend, but I didn't quite know that she was a "healer", until recently. She took a glass of saltwater, took up a cross from her pocket and went to my room, she stood behind the door to my room, and then she opened the door and just looked infront of her. She suddenly walked into the room, put the glass of saltwater on my table, and she dipped her hand in the glass and said "Begone in Gods name." and she did this like 10 times or something, didn't really count, and then she asked me to sit down in my chair, about in the middle of the room. Then she gave me her cross, and asked me to hold it up. Then she took her hand and dipped it in the glass of saltwater, and said "Alexander (my name), be cleansed in Gods name." several times. She then asked me, "How do you feel?" and I replied, "I feel lighter, not as heavy as before". And then she said, "Good. You have now been cleansed". Then she said, "I'll let you borrow the cross for 2 days. You shall wear it at all times, even when you sleep."

That is what has happened to me, this was about a day ago. The thing is, right after I got the feeling of being heavy and "pure", I felt a huge sadness over me, and I cried for several seconds. And I went down to the living room very sad in a way, but of course I am able to hide it. Then she arrived.

I'm wondering, is it as I think it is, has she "CLEANSED" me? Did she purge Satan from me? Did she create a great wall between me and Satan? I wanna know exacly what has happened, and I want to know, if it is as I believe, is Satan still with me? Because I tried to like "call" the feeling of heaviness back, by taking of the cross and then leaning my head a little bit down, and closing my eyes and thinking, "Satan, please come to me". But nothing happened, so now I'm worried.

Most of you will probably be thinking, "Why the hell didn't you stop her?". Well... I don't quite know why, but I felt I couldn't stop her in a way, being hold back by a intense force...

Now, I just want you people, the Satanists, to tell me if Satan has left me forever or if he is still there, if he is, then please tell me how I can bring him back. Because I don't want to follow Jesus Christ and God. I want to follow Satan and his demons. So please, help me out here. Please.


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[kreckian_lord]

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "alexengvik" <alexengvik@... wrote:

Well... I performed the ritual to become a Satanist, and just after I was done, I felt a drag downwards in my body, earlier that day, I felt just "pain", without the pain itself, how to put it... I felt that I was "sick" all the time, without being it, I felt like crap constantly, but after the ritual, I felt like all of these feelings were gone, I was "complete". Well, then I went out of my room and to the living room, stayed there for a while to think over what I've just done, but then my mom went up to my room, and immediatly felt something wierd, so she called her "healer" friend. The healer arrived and she requested to speak with me alone, so we went to the kitchen. We sat down on each our side of the table, looking on each other. She wanted to know everything I've done, like she knew what I had done. I told her, because I trust her, known her like a friend, but I didn't quite know that she was a "healer", until recently. She took a glass of saltwater, took up a cross from her pocket and went to my room, she stood behind the door to my room, and then she opened the door and just looked infront of her. She suddenly walked into the room, put the glass of saltwater on my table, and she dipped her hand in the glass and said "Begone in Gods name." and she did this like 10 times or something, didn't really count, and then she asked me to sit down in my chair, about in the middle of the room. Then she gave me her cross, and asked me to hold it up. Then she took her hand and dipped it in the glass of saltwater, and said "Alexander (my name), be cleansed in Gods name." several times. She then asked me, "How do you feel?" and I replied, "I feel lighter, not as heavy as before". And then she said, "Good. You have now been cleansed". Then she said, "I'll let you borrow the cross for 2 days. You shall wear it at all times, even when you sleep."

That is what has happened to me, this was about a day ago. The thing is, right after I got the feeling of being heavy and "pure", I felt a huge sadness over me, and I cried for several seconds. And I went down to the living room very sad in a way, but of course I am able to hide it. Then she arrived.

I'm wondering, is it as I think it is, has she "CLEANSED" me? Did she purge Satan from me? Did she create a great wall between me and Satan? I wanna know exacly what has happened, and I want to know, if it is as I believe, is Satan still with me? Because I tried to like "call" the feeling of heaviness back, by taking of the cross and then leaning my head a little bit down, and closing my eyes and thinking, "Satan, please come to me". But nothing happened, so now I'm worried.

Most of you will probably be thinking, "Why the hell didn't you stop her?". Well... I don't quite know why, but I felt I couldn't stop her in a way, being hold back by a intense force...

Now, I just want you people, the Satanists, to tell me if Satan has left me forever or if he is still there, if he is, then please tell me how I can bring him back. Because I don't want to follow Jesus Christ and God. I want to follow Satan and his demons. So please, help me out here. Please.

Satan is there for his follower's but WHY IN THE SAM HELL DID YOU LET!! HER DO THAT? you lost any energy within you...when Xian's 'Clense' people they remove their spiritual energy....this can stunt your chakra's i honestly don't know what to tell you if you truly turned your back on Satan when she did this then Be gone from here if not then Satan would understand.

 

[early.mary]

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "alexengvik" <alexengvik@... wrote:

Well... I performed the ritual to become a Satanist, and just after I was done, I felt a drag downwards in my body, earlier that day, I felt just "pain", without the pain itself, how to put it... I felt that I was "sick" all the time, without being it, I felt like crap constantly, but after the ritual, I felt like all of these feelings were gone, I was "complete". Well, then I went out of my room and to the living room, stayed there for a while to think over what I've just done, but then my mom went up to my room, and immediatly felt something wierd, so she called her "healer" friend. The healer arrived and she requested to speak with me alone, so we went to the kitchen. We sat down on each our side of the table, looking on each other. She wanted to know everything I've done, like she knew what I had done. I told her, because I trust her, known her like a friend, but I didn't quite know that she was a "healer", until recently. She took a glass of saltwater, took up a cross from her pocket and went to my room, she stood behind the door to my room, and then she opened the door and just looked infront of her. She suddenly walked into the room, put the glass of saltwater on my table, and she dipped her hand in the glass and said "Begone in Gods name." and she did this like 10 times or something, didn't really count, and then she asked me to sit down in my chair, about in the middle of the room. Then she gave me her cross, and asked me to hold it up. Then she took her hand and dipped it in the glass of saltwater, and said "Alexander (my name), be cleansed in Gods name." several times. She then asked me, "How do you feel?" and I replied, "I feel lighter, not as heavy as before". And then she said, "Good. You have now been cleansed". Then she said, "I'll let you borrow the cross for 2 days. You shall wear it at all times, even when you sleep."

That is what has happened to me, this was about a day ago. The thing is, right after I got the feeling of being heavy and "pure", I felt a huge sadness over me, and I cried for several seconds. And I went down to the living room very sad in a way, but of course I am able to hide it. Then she arrived.

I'm wondering, is it as I think it is, has she "CLEANSED" me? Did she purge Satan from me? Did she create a great wall between me and Satan? I wanna know exacly what has happened, and I want to know, if it is as I believe, is Satan still with me? Because I tried to like "call" the feeling of heaviness back, by taking of the cross and then leaning my head a little bit down, and closing my eyes and thinking, "Satan, please come to me". But nothing happened, so now I'm worried.

Most of you will probably be thinking, "Why the hell didn't you stop her?". Well... I don't quite know why, but I felt I couldn't stop her in a way, being hold back by a intense force...

Now, I just want you people, the Satanists, to tell me if Satan has left me forever or if he is still there, if he is, then please tell me how I can bring him back. Because I don't want to follow Jesus Christ and God. I want to follow Satan and his demons. So please, help me out here. Please.

he hasn't left you once you do the ritual you are a satanist for life if your heart is really in it-sounds like it is- also sounds like an angle has settled in your room. Do your own cleansing ritual and call-ask- the high gods of hell plus your guardian demon to help out to drive off the angel. it would help to fill the room with blue light-in your mind.

 

[Monie]

Dude, If what you say here is true, your the stupidest son of a bitch I have known on these boards for some time.

How dare you mock Satan and the other daemons?
What do you think this is pre-school?
Your not mature enough to be doing these things, and now you SAY you dedicated yourself yet you let your mother's new age white light healer friend come and say some stupid worthless prayer over you.
YOU let it happen.

NOw you feel sad??? Tough shit. Grow up you little piece of turd....lol.....thats all I can really think of at this moment.
Go play your baby games some place else.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "alexengvik" <alexengvik@... wrote:

Well... I performed the ritual to become a Satanist, and just after I was done, I felt a drag downwards in my body, earlier that day, I felt just "pain", without the pain itself, how to put it... I felt that I was "sick" all the time, without being it, I felt like crap constantly, but after the ritual, I felt like all of these feelings were gone, I was "complete". Well, then I went out of my room and to the living room, stayed there for a while to think over what I've just done, but then my mom went up to my room, and immediatly felt something wierd, so she called her "healer" friend. The healer arrived and she requested to speak with me alone, so we went to the kitchen. We sat down on each our side of the table, looking on each other. She wanted to know everything I've done, like she knew what I had done. I told her, because I trust her, known her like a friend, but I didn't quite know that she was a "healer", until recently. She took a glass of saltwater, took up a cross from her pocket and went to my room, she stood behind the door to my room, and then she opened the door and just looked infront of her. She suddenly walked into the room, put the glass of saltwater on my table, and she dipped her hand in the glass and said "Begone in Gods name." and she did this like 10 times or something, didn't really count, and then she asked me to sit down in my chair, about in the middle of the room. Then she gave me her cross, and asked me to hold it up. Then she took her hand and dipped it in the glass of saltwater, and said "Alexander (my name), be cleansed in Gods name." several times. She then asked me, "How do you feel?" and I replied, "I feel lighter, not as heavy as before". And then she said, "Good. You have now been cleansed". Then she said, "I'll let you borrow the cross for 2 days. You shall wear it at all times, even when you sleep."

That is what has happened to me, this was about a day ago. The thing is, right after I got the feeling of being heavy and "pure", I felt a huge sadness over me, and I cried for several seconds. And I went down to the living room very sad in a way, but of course I am able to hide it. Then she arrived.

I'm wondering, is it as I think it is, has she "CLEANSED" me? Did she purge Satan from me? Did she create a great wall between me and Satan? I wanna know exacly what has happened, and I want to know, if it is as I believe, is Satan still with me? Because I tried to like "call" the feeling of heaviness back, by taking of the cross and then leaning my head a little bit down, and closing my eyes and thinking, "Satan, please come to me". But nothing happened, so now I'm worried.

Most of you will probably be thinking, "Why the hell didn't you stop her?". Well... I don't quite know why, but I felt I couldn't stop her in a way, being hold back by a intense force...

Now, I just want you people, the Satanists, to tell me if Satan has left me forever or if he is still there, if he is, then please tell me how I can bring him back. Because I don't want to follow Jesus Christ and God. I want to follow Satan and his demons. So please, help me out here. Please.

 

[chalchiuhnenetzin]

We all make mistakes, and in retrospect some of them can be pretty stupid sometimes, but this one really takes the proverbial cake! That new age crap is no better than xtianity, so why invite it into one's life!?

Rightly or wrongly (it's hard sometimes to 'advise' people solely on the basis of an email), I have almost always encouraged people to thoroughly study the JoS site and do some serious soul searching BEFORE dedicating themselves. I think sometimes we're so excited that we jump right in. It took me about 3-4 months before I actually did the dedication rite (that was years ago)--and I was no newbie to the occult or Satanism (albeit LaVeyan, although I never accepted their atheistic stance) before that and so-called "supernatural" experiences (both good and bad) have been part of my life since early childhood.

In other words, take some time to learn what you're doing first. The consequences of impulsiveness can be serious, obviously. When we dedicate ourselves to Satan, we SEVER ALL TIES with this judeo/xtian/new-age filth! We do not go running back because we're feeling "off".

And why the fuck would you trust in or even want the 'services' of a so-called, self-styled new age 'healer'? We learn to heal ourselves! All the info you need to get started is ont he JoS website. "...you are cleansed," this person says asd part of her hocus-pocus. How does she know?! Their so-called 'healing' is of the same brand as that touted by the nazarene: they supposedly 'heal' but they do not teach how to heal, thereby keeping you in slavery, as well as themselves because such dubious 'healing' often comes through an angel, who is only doing it to serve it's own foul agenda.

I suggest you do do some basic meditation focused on 'cleansing' yourself of that new age crap and getting your head straight. While you're at it, perhaps you might want to see if you can communicate with a demon to help you over this stage in your life and FOLLOW HIS/HER ADVICE.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Monie" <hecatemother@... wrote:

Dude, If what you say here is true, your the stupidest son of a bitch I have known on these boards for some time.

How dare you mock Satan and the other daemons?
What do you think this is pre-school?
Your not mature enough to be doing these things, and now you SAY you dedicated yourself yet you let your mother's new age white light healer friend come and say some stupid worthless prayer over you.
YOU let it happen.

NOw you feel sad??? Tough shit. Grow up you little piece of turd....lol.....thats all I can really think of at this moment.
Go play your baby games some place else.




--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "alexengvik" <alexengvik@ wrote:

Well... I performed the ritual to become a Satanist, and just after I was done, I felt a drag downwards in my body, earlier that day, I felt just "pain", without the pain itself, how to put it... I felt that I was "sick" all the time, without being it, I felt like crap constantly, but after the ritual, I felt like all of these feelings were gone, I was "complete". Well, then I went out of my room and to the living room, stayed there for a while to think over what I've just done, but then my mom went up to my room, and immediatly felt something wierd, so she called her "healer" friend. The healer arrived and she requested to speak with me alone, so we went to the kitchen. We sat down on each our side of the table, looking on each other. She wanted to know everything I've done, like she knew what I had done. I told her, because I trust her, known her like a friend, but I didn't quite know that she was a "healer", until recently. She took a glass of saltwater, took up a cross from her pocket and went to my room, she stood behind the door to my room, and then she opened the door and just looked infront of her. She suddenly walked into the room, put the glass of saltwater on my table, and she dipped her hand in the glass and said "Begone in Gods name." and she did this like 10 times or something, didn't really count, and then she asked me to sit down in my chair, about in the middle of the room. Then she gave me her cross, and asked me to hold it up. Then she took her hand and dipped it in the glass of saltwater, and said "Alexander (my name), be cleansed in Gods name." several times. She then asked me, "How do you feel?" and I replied, "I feel lighter, not as heavy as before". And then she said, "Good. You have now been cleansed". Then she said, "I'll let you borrow the cross for 2 days. You shall wear it at all times, even when you sleep."

That is what has happened to me, this was about a day ago. The thing is, right after I got the feeling of being heavy and "pure", I felt a huge sadness over me, and I cried for several seconds. And I went down to the living room very sad in a way, but of course I am able to hide it. Then she arrived.

I'm wondering, is it as I think it is, has she "CLEANSED" me? Did she purge Satan from me? Did she create a great wall between me and Satan? I wanna know exacly what has happened, and I want to know, if it is as I believe, is Satan still with me? Because I tried to like "call" the feeling of heaviness back, by taking of the cross and then leaning my head a little bit down, and closing my eyes and thinking, "Satan, please come to me". But nothing happened, so now I'm worried.

Most of you will probably be thinking, "Why the hell didn't you stop her?". Well... I don't quite know why, but I felt I couldn't stop her in a way, being hold back by a intense force...

Now, I just want you people, the Satanists, to tell me if Satan has left me forever or if he is still there, if he is, then please tell me how I can bring him back. Because I don't want to follow Jesus Christ and God. I want to follow Satan and his demons. So please, help me out here. Please.

 

[Monie]

Hi Jaguar....

Hey EVERYONE.

I apologize for my last post to alex.

I don't know, I feel strongly about what I posted and I am not apologizing for THAT.
Nor the disrespect shown to Daemons.

But I apologize for being so brutal, so nasty in my language.

AVE SATAN!!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "chalchiuhnenetzin" <jaguarcat2002@... wrote:

We all make mistakes, and in retrospect some of them can be pretty stupid sometimes, but this one really takes the proverbial cake! That new age crap is no better than xtianity, so why invite it into one's life!?

Rightly or wrongly (it's hard sometimes to 'advise' people solely on the basis of an email), I have almost always encouraged people to thoroughly study the JoS site and do some serious soul searching BEFORE dedicating themselves. I think sometimes we're so excited that we jump right in. It took me about 3-4 months before I actually did the dedication rite (that was years ago)--and I was no newbie to the occult or Satanism (albeit LaVeyan, although I never accepted their atheistic stance) before that and so-called "supernatural" experiences (both good and bad) have been part of my life since early childhood.

In other words, take some time to learn what you're doing first. The consequences of impulsiveness can be serious, obviously. When we dedicate ourselves to Satan, we SEVER ALL TIES with this judeo/xtian/new-age filth! We do not go running back because we're feeling "off".

And why the fuck would you trust in or even want the 'services' of a so-called, self-styled new age 'healer'? We learn to heal ourselves! All the info you need to get started is ont he JoS website. "...you are cleansed," this person says asd part of her hocus-pocus. How does she know?! Their so-called 'healing' is of the same brand as that touted by the nazarene: they supposedly 'heal' but they do not teach how to heal, thereby keeping you in slavery, as well as themselves because such dubious 'healing' often comes through an angel, who is only doing it to serve it's own foul agenda.

I suggest you do do some basic meditation focused on 'cleansing' yourself of that new age crap and getting your head straight. While you're at it, perhaps you might want to see if you can communicate with a demon to help you over this stage in your life and FOLLOW HIS/HER ADVICE.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Monie" <hecatemother@ wrote:

Dude, If what you say here is true, your the stupidest son of a bitch I have known on these boards for some time.

How dare you mock Satan and the other daemons?
What do you think this is pre-school?
Your not mature enough to be doing these things, and now you SAY you dedicated yourself yet you let your mother's new age white light healer friend come and say some stupid worthless prayer over you.
YOU let it happen.

NOw you feel sad??? Tough shit. Grow up you little piece of turd....lol.....thats all I can really think of at this moment.
Go play your baby games some place else.




--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "alexengvik" <alexengvik@ wrote:

Well... I performed the ritual to become a Satanist, and just after I was done, I felt a drag downwards in my body, earlier that day, I felt just "pain", without the pain itself, how to put it... I felt that I was "sick" all the time, without being it, I felt like crap constantly, but after the ritual, I felt like all of these feelings were gone, I was "complete". Well, then I went out of my room and to the living room, stayed there for a while to think over what I've just done, but then my mom went up to my room, and immediatly felt something wierd, so she called her "healer" friend. The healer arrived and she requested to speak with me alone, so we went to the kitchen. We sat down on each our side of the table, looking on each other. She wanted to know everything I've done, like she knew what I had done. I told her, because I trust her, known her like a friend, but I didn't quite know that she was a "healer", until recently. She took a glass of saltwater, took up a cross from her pocket and went to my room, she stood behind the door to my room, and then she opened the door and just looked infront of her. She suddenly walked into the room, put the glass of saltwater on my table, and she dipped her hand in the glass and said "Begone in Gods name." and she did this like 10 times or something, didn't really count, and then she asked me to sit down in my chair, about in the middle of the room. Then she gave me her cross, and asked me to hold it up. Then she took her hand and dipped it in the glass of saltwater, and said "Alexander (my name), be cleansed in Gods name." several times. She then asked me, "How do you feel?" and I replied, "I feel lighter, not as heavy as before". And then she said, "Good. You have now been cleansed". Then she said, "I'll let you borrow the cross for 2 days. You shall wear it at all times, even when you sleep."

That is what has happened to me, this was about a day ago. The thing is, right after I got the feeling of being heavy and "pure", I felt a huge sadness over me, and I cried for several seconds. And I went down to the living room very sad in a way, but of course I am able to hide it. Then she arrived.

I'm wondering, is it as I think it is, has she "CLEANSED" me? Did she purge Satan from me? Did she create a great wall between me and Satan? I wanna know exacly what has happened, and I want to know, if it is as I believe, is Satan still with me? Because I tried to like "call" the feeling of heaviness back, by taking of the cross and then leaning my head a little bit down, and closing my eyes and thinking, "Satan, please come to me". But nothing happened, so now I'm worried.

Most of you will probably be thinking, "Why the hell didn't you stop her?". Well... I don't quite know why, but I felt I couldn't stop her in a way, being hold back by a intense force...

Now, I just want you people, the Satanists, to tell me if Satan has left me forever or if he is still there, if he is, then please tell me how I can bring him back. Because I don't want to follow Jesus Christ and God. I want to follow Satan and his demons. So please, help me out here. Please.

 

[shon_hensem]

Hi im Shon
Hey people stop being so brutal and start scolding any1 at least he felt guilty for what he has done. Sometimes this so called angels can go into people and make us do funny stuff without our knowledge. So try a little understanding we r not born perfect or anything. As we make a mistake we learn from our mistakes.Im new here so im speaking through logic but i know a thing or two about spirits because i am born with an ability to sense and see this stuff and i feel your pain. For the one affected better buck up on some protection because this things can easily attack you.

 

[blackshadowstallion]

Why the FUCK would you TELL that piece of SHIT, little so-called "healing" DECEITFUL BITCH, a GODDAMN THING!?

I can understand if you felt you couldn't stop her. Even if it was just because you didn't want your mom to become suspicious and fuck you over. But you didn't have to HELP them, either.

No, xianity has no power over Satan. It is no threat to Him. Or the Gods of Hell. However, it can and clearly DOES have an effect on YOU. You may now have to work even harder to advance your soul.

Very Foolish.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "alexengvik" <alexengvik@... wrote:

Well... I performed the ritual to become a Satanist, and just after I was done, I felt a drag downwards in my body, earlier that day, I felt just "pain", without the pain itself, how to put it... I felt that I was "sick" all the time, without being it, I felt like crap constantly, but after the ritual, I felt like all of these feelings were gone, I was "complete". Well, then I went out of my room and to the living room, stayed there for a while to think over what I've just done, but then my mom went up to my room, and immediatly felt something wierd, so she called her "healer" friend. The healer arrived and she requested to speak with me alone, so we went to the kitchen. We sat down on each our side of the table, looking on each other. She wanted to know everything I've done, like she knew what I had done. I told her, because I trust her, known her like a friend, but I didn't quite know that she was a "healer", until recently. She took a glass of saltwater, took up a cross from her pocket and went to my room, she stood behind the door to my room, and then she opened the door and just looked infront of her. She suddenly walked into the room, put the glass of saltwater on my table, and she dipped her hand in the glass and said "Begone in Gods name." and she did this like 10 times or something, didn't really count, and then she asked me to sit down in my chair, about in the middle of the room. Then she gave me her cross, and asked me to hold it up. Then she took her hand and dipped it in the glass of saltwater, and said "Alexander (my name), be cleansed in Gods name." several times. She then asked me, "How do you feel?" and I replied, "I feel lighter, not as heavy as before". And then she said, "Good. You have now been cleansed". Then she said, "I'll let you borrow the cross for 2 days. You shall wear it at all times, even when you sleep."

That is what has happened to me, this was about a day ago. The thing is, right after I got the feeling of being heavy and "pure", I felt a huge sadness over me, and I cried for several seconds. And I went down to the living room very sad in a way, but of course I am able to hide it. Then she arrived.

I'm wondering, is it as I think it is, has she "CLEANSED" me? Did she purge Satan from me? Did she create a great wall between me and Satan? I wanna know exacly what has happened, and I want to know, if it is as I believe, is Satan still with me? Because I tried to like "call" the feeling of heaviness back, by taking of the cross and then leaning my head a little bit down, and closing my eyes and thinking, "Satan, please come to me". But nothing happened, so now I'm worried.

Most of you will probably be thinking, "Why the hell didn't you stop her?". Well... I don't quite know why, but I felt I couldn't stop her in a way, being hold back by a intense force...

Now, I just want you people, the Satanists, to tell me if Satan has left me forever or if he is still there, if he is, then please tell me how I can bring him back. Because I don't want to follow Jesus Christ and God. I want to follow Satan and his demons. So please, help me out here. Please.