Please Help... I Feel Lost and Don't Know Where to Begin

hayateSaturday at 3:00 PM2 min to read

Saturday at 3:00 PM

Hello everyone,

Thank you for taking the time to read this.

I'm writing because I honestly don't know where to begin anymore.

At the end of 2021, I slowly fell back into drugs, pornography, and other ways of escaping reality. Before that, around 2020, I had started turning my life around. I practiced meditation, yoga, daily aura cleansing, old rituals of that time, and other spiritual practices. For the first time in a long while, I truly felt like I was moving in the right direction.

Looking back, I still don't know exactly what happened. Maybe it was curiosity. Maybe I became overconfident. I told myself, "I'll only do it a couple of times, and then I'll return to my spiritual path." But instead, everything spiraled out of control.

I even took out a €20,000 loan, which I wasted on prostitutes, clubs, drugs, and other things that promised happiness but only left me feeling empty.

When I think about these past few years, the emotions that come up the most are shame, sadness, self-hatred, and the feeling that I have turned away from Gods and disappointed them..

At the moment, I'm in a rehabilitation program, and thankfully I'm making progress. I'm grateful for that. But deep inside, I feel a strong desire to reconnect with my spiritual path and with the practices that once brought peace and meaning into my life.

I would really appreciate your advice.

Where would you recommend I begin?

How can I start healing my habit of escaping reality through pornography?

For those of you who have walked a similar path, what helped you recover from addiction while rebuilding your spiritual life?

Thank you from the bottom of my heart to everyone who reads this and shares their thoughts. It truly means a lot to me...

Last edited: Saturday at 4:19 PM

Hello everyone,

Thank you for taking the time to read this.

I'm writing because I honestly don't know where to begin anymore.

I even took out a €20,000 loan, which I wasted on prostitutes, clubs, drugs, and other things that promised happiness but only left me feeling empty.

When I think about these past few years, the emotions that come up the most are shame, sadness, self-hatred, and the feeling that I have turned away from Gods and disappointed them..

I would really appreciate your advice.

Where would you recommend I begin?

How can I start healing my habit of escaping reality through pornography?

For those of you who have walked a similar path, what helped you recover from addiction while rebuilding your spiritual life?

Thank you from the bottom of my heart to everyone who reads this and shares their thoughts. It truly means a lot to me...

Saturday at 4:04 PM#1

Hello.

It is very good that you have decided to apply and follow a rehabilitation program. They offer concrete help with these kinds of issues. You must stick with it to the end and be very diligent.

For the spiritual part, keep praying to the Gods and seek their help. It is no use for us to turn away from them. Pray to the Gods when you wake up and before sleep, and ask them to guide you in overcoming this problem.

I would also suggest that you start doing some purification workings. You can start either with Munka or Vissuddhi, 40 days, and affirm that you are now completely and permanently free from any kind of addiction to pornography. It will require more than one session, given the severity you described. Don't get discouraged or disappointed if, for any reason, you go back and watch it again. Stay strong on the path.

Pornography is a cancer in this era, as it has devastating effects on people, and it is very accessible and free.

To conclude, find a girlfriend with whom you can experience love and true sexuality.

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Hello.

It is very good that you have decided to apply and follow a rehabilitation program. They offer concrete help with these kinds of issues. You must stick with it to the end and be very diligent.

Pornography is a cancer in this era, as it has devastating effects on people, and it is very accessible and free.

To conclude, find a girlfriend with whom you can experience love and true sexuality.

Yesterday at 7:58 AM#2

Hello, Brother, and welcome back.

It is a great thing that you have understood the problem and want to help yourself. 🙏

Sometimes, we fall so deeply in negativity and self- destructive habits, we forget we can always get out of the mud if we want to.

To start with, since many changes have happened since you were last here, I would advise you to start reading our website. Let yourself be filled with our Gods and Goddesses love and light. Be immersed in the knowledge and feel happy for being here and understanding the importance of your soul and your path. Be proud for coming back and realize just how great your potential is.

At the same time, since drugs damage the spiritual body and the aura, I would advice you to start with doing aura and chakras cleaning and building a strong aura of protection that can help you physically, spiritually and mentally. Following the 40 days meditation program by our High Priest is a good start to also gain some control over your mind (for example, practicing void can help with uncontrolled thoughts).

I wish you the best of luck. Remember that we are here for anything you want to ask. Don't let self-guilt consume your beautiful soul. Heal, and let the Gods and Goddesses light shine through you.