sangambhuyan
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Hello every body. I am new to this & ask your forgiveness if there is some thing wrong by me. i am from India & by religion i am a Hinduism.
prior to joining this site i used to meditate at night just before a month. i feel a pressure at the middle of my brow center like some one pressing finger at that point. some time it gives me pain, some time the area starts fluctuating, some time i feel a movement just like the motion of candle fire from brow center to the top of my head vertically & in some time i feel some thing moving horizontally inside my head. all it feels like the motion of a water drop over the leaf of a lily. some time it is so intense that my head starts spinning from inside i am not able to do any work. during meditation i feel intense warm, currently here winter is running & the amount of cold never felt before here but still in such cold during meditation there is sweat in my body. now all the above i mentioned i feel it every time. i meditate on blank & dark. at some point i don't feel my self but there is dark & blank nothing else come to me. when i gaze my brow through mirror after 5-10 seconds latter my face appeared horrific to me like it is burnt out i see it only at night but never at day time. some time there is flickering of my flesh at my toes, at my thighs, at my arms, some time i feel etching at various places,also pinning feeling.some times i feel shock & most of time my leg pull up.
before joining this site i don't know any thing about satanism & till now i have just a very little knowledge about it. then why should i start meditation? fortunately i found a book of Donald Tyson's sexual alchemy & interested in succubus love. i prefer meditation as safer side than any ritual work. that's why i start meditation to get my succubus love Day by day i get more attracted towards succubus. one day i feel during meditation that some thing is moving at the back side of my head against the direction of my hairs. some thing is trying to forcefully enter in to my ear. imagine the sound when some one slapped you heavily just bellow your ear. i hear this sound every time.
10 years before i get a book of swami sivananda which is a kundalini yoga practice book. i do yoga & meditation, tratak for this for a period of 1 year. also d breathing exercise with a ratio of 1:4:2:8 thrice in a day i.e morning, afternoon, evening. one day i have a dream that there is a huge big black snake perhaps more than 20 ft long & a diameter of a big coconut tree following me & i am running before the snake in fear to save my life. suddenly the snake came to my front & changed to lord siva, who said me you are in a right direction & carry on through your way. there is another dream also when i feel i am flying from one roof to another roof initially & then trying to fly for far more distance. i remember the feel of nervousness in my body & mind while dreaming like some thing is falling from my heart. till now i never fall in ill from my child hood.
Can any one help me to find out what are these signs mean?
prior to joining this site i used to meditate at night just before a month. i feel a pressure at the middle of my brow center like some one pressing finger at that point. some time it gives me pain, some time the area starts fluctuating, some time i feel a movement just like the motion of candle fire from brow center to the top of my head vertically & in some time i feel some thing moving horizontally inside my head. all it feels like the motion of a water drop over the leaf of a lily. some time it is so intense that my head starts spinning from inside i am not able to do any work. during meditation i feel intense warm, currently here winter is running & the amount of cold never felt before here but still in such cold during meditation there is sweat in my body. now all the above i mentioned i feel it every time. i meditate on blank & dark. at some point i don't feel my self but there is dark & blank nothing else come to me. when i gaze my brow through mirror after 5-10 seconds latter my face appeared horrific to me like it is burnt out i see it only at night but never at day time. some time there is flickering of my flesh at my toes, at my thighs, at my arms, some time i feel etching at various places,also pinning feeling.some times i feel shock & most of time my leg pull up.
before joining this site i don't know any thing about satanism & till now i have just a very little knowledge about it. then why should i start meditation? fortunately i found a book of Donald Tyson's sexual alchemy & interested in succubus love. i prefer meditation as safer side than any ritual work. that's why i start meditation to get my succubus love Day by day i get more attracted towards succubus. one day i feel during meditation that some thing is moving at the back side of my head against the direction of my hairs. some thing is trying to forcefully enter in to my ear. imagine the sound when some one slapped you heavily just bellow your ear. i hear this sound every time.
10 years before i get a book of swami sivananda which is a kundalini yoga practice book. i do yoga & meditation, tratak for this for a period of 1 year. also d breathing exercise with a ratio of 1:4:2:8 thrice in a day i.e morning, afternoon, evening. one day i have a dream that there is a huge big black snake perhaps more than 20 ft long & a diameter of a big coconut tree following me & i am running before the snake in fear to save my life. suddenly the snake came to my front & changed to lord siva, who said me you are in a right direction & carry on through your way. there is another dream also when i feel i am flying from one roof to another roof initially & then trying to fly for far more distance. i remember the feel of nervousness in my body & mind while dreaming like some thing is falling from my heart. till now i never fall in ill from my child hood.
Can any one help me to find out what are these signs mean?
