Hello. I am new to the group. I am new to Satanism as well. I have only been dedicated to Satan for about a month now. I was raised Christian. Then when my mom died when I was 13, I lost all faith in that crap as I actually started to read the Bible and saw what was really in it. I am a witch and have been studying witchcraft for years, but have found that it lacks the power it boasts of. That power I have found in Satanism. I have found the place where I belong finally after years of searching and questioning.
2012 has been a time of loss for me. My husband walked out on me and our son in January. My grandmother, whom I am the Caregiver of and has Alzheimers, had a stroke a week before that. I watched my dad slowly die over the course of 5 months from the last stage of COPD. I found out my husband is living with another woman, whom is a lot older than I am. My grandmother, son, and I ended up having to move in with my sister, whom is paranoid and a Fundamentalist Christian. Apparently she finds out everything that happens on her internet, so I am now banned from it. She now knows that I worship Satan and would have kicked me out if it wasn't for the fact that I am unemployed from being a caregiver for the past 13 years, and I have a son to support. She wants me out, and so do I. But finding a job is not easy, nor is it really something that I truly want, as I don't want to spend all my time struggling to make ends meet to pay for a crappy place to live and not get to spend time with my son. I desire, and have desired for several years now, to win the lottery jackpot so that I will become financially independent and free, as well as be able to devote my time to taking care of my son, going back to college, and empowering my soul. And I have also been kicked out of this cyber coven I was in because I "bashed" Christianity. So much for perfect love and perfect trust and come rant all you want, we are here to support each other. What I said wasn't even bashin Christianity, it was bashing my sister. I said I hated her because she was a fanatical sheeple that couldn't think for herself. I mean, she made her kids stop playing a video game because her pastor said it would lead them to Satan. It was Fable 2. Stupidity at its finest.
Since my sister found out, I am having a hard time getting to do a daily meditation. I find that I just cant focus, no matter what I try, at least there at her house. And I am seldom able to go anywhere. I feel like I am in prison for being me, and I hate it!
So, after all this negativity and loss and rejection, I decided I needed to find somewhere with people that believe as I do and will hopefully be supportive. So here I am. Hello.
Witch Nyte
2012 has been a time of loss for me. My husband walked out on me and our son in January. My grandmother, whom I am the Caregiver of and has Alzheimers, had a stroke a week before that. I watched my dad slowly die over the course of 5 months from the last stage of COPD. I found out my husband is living with another woman, whom is a lot older than I am. My grandmother, son, and I ended up having to move in with my sister, whom is paranoid and a Fundamentalist Christian. Apparently she finds out everything that happens on her internet, so I am now banned from it. She now knows that I worship Satan and would have kicked me out if it wasn't for the fact that I am unemployed from being a caregiver for the past 13 years, and I have a son to support. She wants me out, and so do I. But finding a job is not easy, nor is it really something that I truly want, as I don't want to spend all my time struggling to make ends meet to pay for a crappy place to live and not get to spend time with my son. I desire, and have desired for several years now, to win the lottery jackpot so that I will become financially independent and free, as well as be able to devote my time to taking care of my son, going back to college, and empowering my soul. And I have also been kicked out of this cyber coven I was in because I "bashed" Christianity. So much for perfect love and perfect trust and come rant all you want, we are here to support each other. What I said wasn't even bashin Christianity, it was bashing my sister. I said I hated her because she was a fanatical sheeple that couldn't think for herself. I mean, she made her kids stop playing a video game because her pastor said it would lead them to Satan. It was Fable 2. Stupidity at its finest.
Since my sister found out, I am having a hard time getting to do a daily meditation. I find that I just cant focus, no matter what I try, at least there at her house. And I am seldom able to go anywhere. I feel like I am in prison for being me, and I hate it!
So, after all this negativity and loss and rejection, I decided I needed to find somewhere with people that believe as I do and will hopefully be supportive. So here I am. Hello.
Witch Nyte
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