herbalhealer
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First of all let me introduce myself. I'm not Satanist, but I don't follow any religion. I grew up in Alabama right smack in the middle of the bible belt. I got disillusioned from church and Christianity at an early age. When I was 8 or so, my dad took me to a pentecostal church. They scared the living crap out of me! They were pouring oil on my head, a bunch of strangers were putting their hands all over me and they were speaking in gibberish. I didn't set foot in a church again until I was a teenager. I only went to be with a boy I liked. Again they were weirdos who spoke in tongues and thought I was possessed! I knew I wasn't, but I played along and snarled and growled for them and just had fun scaring the crap out of them. After that and a few personal experiences outside of church was enough to turn me off forever!
I became the black sheep of my family when I started taking an interest in Spiritualism, especially the healing aspect. I am studying herbalism and learning to read tarot, elder futhark runes, and pendulum work. I felt I needed some guiding hand. I got on a website that listed all the ancient gods of every pantheon. I felt a strong pull to one in particular, Airméd (Airmid/Airmeith), Celtic goddess of healing and herbalism. I started talking to her, but got no answers at first. One day I was driving down a scary stretch of interstate that had frequent accidents. I was nervous. I said, "Lady Airmed, please give me calm and keep me safe." As soon as the words left my mouth I heard a metal clink and saw a penny fall out of mid air. A wave of calm washed over me and I knew I was going to be okay. When I got home I checked for the penny, but there was none to be found.
I was searching for "leaving Christianity" and came across the JoS website. I have an open mind and read almost every thing there. I was surprised to learn that all the ancient gods and goddesses are demons! I didn't see my Lady's name on the list, but I assume she was known by other names in other cultures. I was drawn to her due to my Irish/Scottish ancestry.
The Christian god contradicts himself, for someone who's supposed to be loving, he's pretty fucking hateful. I've never felt love from him.
Point is, I'd like to hear anyone's thoughts. I'm an open minded person who wants to hear this side of the story. What is Satan all about? Is he really evil or is that a crock of shit?
I'm worn down in life. I'm trapped in a bad marriage and my husband uses the words of the Christian god to use and abuse me. I get yelled and screamed at and when I try and stand up for myself I'm called a mean and evil bitch and that god's going to get me for being bad to him. That, as a woman, it's my job to do whatever he says without talking back or raising a fuss.
Thank you for listening my long story. Much respect to all.
I became the black sheep of my family when I started taking an interest in Spiritualism, especially the healing aspect. I am studying herbalism and learning to read tarot, elder futhark runes, and pendulum work. I felt I needed some guiding hand. I got on a website that listed all the ancient gods of every pantheon. I felt a strong pull to one in particular, Airméd (Airmid/Airmeith), Celtic goddess of healing and herbalism. I started talking to her, but got no answers at first. One day I was driving down a scary stretch of interstate that had frequent accidents. I was nervous. I said, "Lady Airmed, please give me calm and keep me safe." As soon as the words left my mouth I heard a metal clink and saw a penny fall out of mid air. A wave of calm washed over me and I knew I was going to be okay. When I got home I checked for the penny, but there was none to be found.
I was searching for "leaving Christianity" and came across the JoS website. I have an open mind and read almost every thing there. I was surprised to learn that all the ancient gods and goddesses are demons! I didn't see my Lady's name on the list, but I assume she was known by other names in other cultures. I was drawn to her due to my Irish/Scottish ancestry.
The Christian god contradicts himself, for someone who's supposed to be loving, he's pretty fucking hateful. I've never felt love from him.
Point is, I'd like to hear anyone's thoughts. I'm an open minded person who wants to hear this side of the story. What is Satan all about? Is he really evil or is that a crock of shit?
I'm worn down in life. I'm trapped in a bad marriage and my husband uses the words of the Christian god to use and abuse me. I get yelled and screamed at and when I try and stand up for myself I'm called a mean and evil bitch and that god's going to get me for being bad to him. That, as a woman, it's my job to do whatever he says without talking back or raising a fuss.
Thank you for listening my long story. Much respect to all.