New and overwhelmed

[acebhay]

Hi I'm new to Satanism. I've been looking at the power meditations and how to open a chakra but have a lot of visual trouble. I've established a relationship with Marchosias but I haven't been able to get further than talking in my head with her or Father Satan. I live in a Hindu family and must keep my practices secret. I've already done the dedication ritual as well. I feel alone but know that there are good people on this forum. I also struggle from a past of Bipolar disorder and substance abuse. I could really use some help in baby steps here

 

[acebhay]

Anyone able to guide me?

 

[acebhay]

Any advice?

 

[Bluestar]

Yes, some people have trouble with visualization, my dear. This is normal. It is through practice that you will get better and better at it. Just keep going on and do your best. Be consistent with meditation.
You say you are new. Okay, so just go little by little. I know how overwhelming it is. Sometimes I feel like learning and reading, going through the process is a never ending task. Guess what? it is certainly a never ending task. There is always much much work to do, a lot ahead of you and it is important that you do your journey in the correct order, that is, start with the beginners meditations, then proceed with the intermediate and finally the advanced.
When do you know that you can move forward? Just trust your common sense and do not rush anything, you will know when it is time to move onto new things. Know that everyone is individual, that is, some of us can progress faster than others, but that is something our of your reach because it comes from your previous lives, as stated in the JoS site.
Just be patient, be happy and know that Father and the Gods are with you all the way, as wonderful Marchosias is with you now.
I hope I have been of little help, my friend.
HAIL FATHER SATAN FOREVER!





  Anyone able to guide me?

 

[Louw Family]

Hi, I can totally relate and understand why you are feeling this way. I know of first hand experience. Being new is probably one of the most scariest thoughts or that's how you feel at the moment. Fear is of the enemy. Feeling alone is of the enemy. Always remember that. Father Satan does not want his children (whether they are new to Him or whether they are most advanced) to ever feel afraid or alone. NEVER... I am learning step by step every day. Small steps....Baby steps...one must first crawl before we can walk. And that is not something to feel afraid of or embarrassed about. But it can be very overwhelming. I have a HUNGER for Father Satan and His demons, The Gods, and to know more and more of Them. I respect THEM so much!!! Do what YOU feel is right for you at this time. Ask yourself what do YOU feel. Do not try to jump to Hight or take on to much. As I said before, babysteps.  Read, study and read some more. Whenever you get the chance to do so.  When you wake up during the night start reading and stydying again. The JOS site has very very valuable teachings. Never stop to empower yourself with His knowledge.  Knowledge is power.  Father Satan will guide you and you should listen to your soul and what you feel is right for you at that specific time. You are very important to our Father Satan. Always remember that. Don't let the enemy bring you down or make you feel alone, or in layman's terms dumb. You are not. If anything you are very wise because you took the first step to Spiritual  Satanism. You are part of an elite group of people. I hope this will help you. HAIL FATHER SATAN!!!

  Hi I'm new to Satanism. I've been looking at the power meditations and how to open a chakra but have a lot of visual trouble. I've established a relationship with Marchosias but I haven't been able to get further than talking in my head with her or Father Satan. I live in a Hindu family and must keep my practices secret. I've already done the dedication ritual as well. I feel alone but know that there are good people on this forum. I also struggle from a past of Bipolar disorder and substance abuse. I could really use some help in baby steps here

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[acebhay]

Thank you all for your help. I'm starting the 40 days meditation very soon. Still struggling with visualization the most right now but hopefully that improves. Father Satan and Marchosias are definitely there for me when I need them. Sometimes it's hard to sepearate them from my subconscious.  I wish I could see them already haha