Needing advice and help

[gaudet.nicholas]

Hi everyone, My name is Nick and I'm from south Louisisana.I came across the joy of satan site roughly about 2 years ago.I was a xian at the time but decided to read through it out of curiosity and it soon reminded me of a vivid memory wich seems like a dream but feels more like a memory of myself in spirit form speaking to father enki in his palace before coming to this life and the things in the site just connected with me espeacially when i saw the painting of father lucifer, i mean my jaw just droped.I'ts exactly how i remember him when he would talk to me.Soft spoken and comforting but stern with his wizdom and knowlegde for us to follow.Sorry if this sounds strange or crazy but its something i will never forget.I feel that xianity tore me away from being so close to him from the moment of birth and it hurts me and angers me so deeply for being torn away from him for so long.Sorry for rambling i just wanted to express my feelings a little.Anyway,i dedicated myself shortly after discovering j.o.s. but have only recently started meditation so i feel like i haven't been living up to the tittle (SS).I really don't want to mess this up,i struggle alot with depression and have a hard time finding a place with no disturbance for meditation.I come from a family of xians so i can't just explain to them how important this is to me.I've had trouble in the past keeping a job and i think it had alot to do with depression.I feel like living in my current environment is somewhat holding me back from accomplishing a stronger spiritual life for my children and i.And not to change the subject but i have four beautiful daughters and the youngest lives with me,her mother and i aren't together anymore but now she wants to baptize her (AAAAAHHHHHH)i'm not sure what to do about that.Her mother claimed in the past to be wiccan and i told her i was pagan and she agreed to let me raise her in a pagan environment but now shes going against our agreement.I really need a good job to get back on my feet so i can get my own place and vehicle.I'ts hard now because of my work history.I feel i need to be closer to father and the gods and freinds alike for support. If anyone can help me it would be greatly apreciated thank you in advance. HAIL FATHER LUCIFER AND THE GODS AND GODDESSES OF HELL!!!!!!!

 

[Brian Gibbons]

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From: gaudet.nicholas <gaudet.nicholas@...;
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Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Needing advice and help
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<td val[/IMG]   Hi everyone, My name is Nick and I'm from south Louisisana.I came across the joy of satan site roughly about 2 years ago.I was a xian at the time but decided to read through it out of curiosity and it soon reminded me of a vivid memory wich seems like a dream but feels more like a memory of myself in spirit form speaking to father enki in his palace before coming to this life and the things in the site just connected with me espeacially when i saw the painting of father lucifer, i mean my jaw just droped.I'ts exactly how i remember him when he would talk to me.Soft spoken and comforting but stern with his wizdom and knowlegde for us to follow.Sorry if this sounds strange or crazy but its something i will never forget.I feel that xianity tore me away from being so close to him from the moment of birth and it hurts me and angers me so deeply for being torn away from him for so long.Sorry for rambling i just wanted to express my feelings a little.Anyway,i dedicated myself shortly after discovering j.o.s. but have only recently started meditation so i feel like i haven't been living up to the tittle (SS).I really don't want to mess this up,i struggle alot with depression and have a hard time finding a place with no disturbance for meditation.I come from a family of xians so i can't just explain to them how important this is to me.I've had trouble in the past keeping a job and i think it had alot to do with depression.I feel like living in my current environment is somewhat holding me back from accomplishing a stronger spiritual life for my children and i.And not to change the subject but i have four beautiful daughters and the youngest lives with me,her mother and i aren't together anymore but now she wants to baptize her (AAAAAHHHHHH)i'm not sure what to do about that.Her mother claimed in the past to be wiccan and i told her i was pagan and she agreed to let me raise her in a pagan environment but now shes going against our agreement.I really need a good job to get back on my feet so i can get my own place and vehicle.I'ts hard now because of my work history.I feel i need to be closer to father and the gods and freinds alike for support. If anyone can help me it would be greatly apreciated thank you in advance. HAIL FATHER LUCIFER AND THE GODS AND GODDESSES OF HELL!!!!!!!

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[kittyahawk3@rocketmail.com]

I understand.. Ask Father Satan keep asking and speaking with Him each day he will get you closer to being on track. He seems to work around us as individuals and will give signs if you do little things for Him and Hell that is all it takes for starters. I am fairly new but I know this to be true.
Hail Agares~
Hail Asteroth~

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Hi everyone, My name is Nick and I'm from south Louisisana.I came across the joy of satan site roughly about 2 years ago.I was a xian at the time but decided to read through it out of curiosity and it soon reminded me of a vivid memory wich seems like a dream but feels more like a memory of myself in spirit form speaking to father enki in his palace before coming to this life and the things in the site just connected with me espeacially when i saw the painting of father lucifer, i mean my jaw just droped.I'ts exactly how i remember him when he would talk to me.Soft spoken and comforting but stern with his wizdom and knowlegde for us to follow.Sorry if this sounds strange or crazy but its something i will never forget.I feel that xianity tore me away from being so close to him from the moment of birth and it hurts me and angers me so deeply for being torn away from him for so long.Sorry for rambling i just wanted to express my feelings a little.Anyway,i dedicated myself shortly after discovering j.o.s. but have only recently started meditation so i feel like i haven't been living up to the tittle (SS).I really don't want to mess this up,i struggle alot with depression and have a hard time finding a place with no disturbance for meditation.I come from a family of xians so i can't just explain to them how important this is to me.I've had trouble in the past keeping a job and i think it had alot to do with depression.I feel like living in my current environment is somewhat holding me back from accomplishing a stronger spiritual life for my children and i.And not to change the subject but i have four beautiful daughters and the youngest lives with me,her mother and i aren't together anymore but now she wants to baptize her (AAAAAHHHHHH)i'm not sure what to do about that.Her mother claimed in the past to be wiccan and i told her i was pagan and she agreed to let me raise her in a pagan environment but now shes going against our agreement.I really need a good job to get back on my feet so i can get my own place and vehicle.I'ts hard now because of my work history.I feel i need to be closer to father and the gods and freinds alike for support. If anyone can help me it would be greatly apreciated thank you in advance. HAIL FATHER LUCIFER AND THE GODS AND GODDESSES OF HELL!!!!!!!