Hi CMSE, So its normal then? Good to know! I was wondering WTF is wrong with me? What is with this bloody f'ing twitching?!? I am doing the forty day bootcamp and feel that till I can do this DT - its so fucking basic I feel I ought to have no problem WTF - I am stuck at this beginning and cannot move on, my feeling is that rather than seven days spent on DT it could turn into a month...when I was doing dream yoga I reached a point where I could leave as the body slept, go out and about, come back in maintaining consciousness the while, yet I am having trouble with DT?!? I find this hard to understand. I guess because I am ten years out of practice and as you say, my muscles need to get used to it again. An idea I had: to try slipping into the astral maintaining lucidity and then doing the DT there.
Yes fake name, I am finding that the best time for me to meditate whatever it be, the void, empowering my aura, charging chakra's, forming a ball of the energy raised in the process and sending it to Satan for his use (I like the idea of sending the excess energy to him as a regular part of the daily practice), working on my pineal gland, etc...it all works for me a hundred times better doing the yoga stances at the same time. There is something about combining the physicality of that with the spirituality of the other that works so well in tandem....in class doing these visualizations/feeling/manipulating energies I have far less problems....I saw the exercise you tried and plan to try it soon though right now I am focusing on DT. That is not something one can do in a yoga class. The physical part is great but the love stuff a lot of the teachers spout at the end I blank out. Every time they say love I say in my head: Hate. When they say feel gratitude to God I think: Thank you Satan. When they vibrate Omm I vibrate Raum, stuff like that. Trying to adapt it to what I need.
I tried till five AM last night for DT and two more hours this AM. Finally I asked father Satan WTF do I do now? Yes, I have reached DT a couple times but it is not easy for me while I feel it ought to be and so I am pissed. I was given a suggestion when I asked WTF do I do now? for another way to approach this DT tonight. While I am furious about this stumbling block I won't quit, I'll try the suggested approach as what I am doing right now ain't working too well.
Thank you Satan