magus.immortalis1
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First off, despite the title of this post, I am NOT promoting drug use. I simply want to tell others of my experience and if it makes them think twice about their own drug use, then this post would have done it's job.
It's a long post, but I think sometimes the Greys and Nordics influence things a bit in our lives to affect us. It seems that way now, looking back at what transpired. But we always have a choice.
Back in January 2013, I got together in person with two other people from the Kundalini Awakening group on Facebook. I know, we shouldn't meet people off the Net. But I guess you could say I was lonely. I have no friends outside of FB. That's the only reason I have an account; to keep in touch with my two best friends who live in the USA, amongst others. I have two "buddies" in real life but whenever I make plans with them, they cancel or ignore me. The ball's in their court, I don't want to push them to make plans with me if they are not that interested.
I told my parents where these people lived, left their names and phone numbers (in case anything happened to me) and went out.
One of them is a new-ager. The other is 2 years younger then me, and a Freemason. I learned later on, that they both worked with angels in channelling and with Enochian magick. The guy (the Freemason) kept pushing this on me, to which I staunchly refused. They know of my allegiance with Lord Satan. We had a conversation on FB, and the Greys and angel thoughtforms were influencing him strongly. He reeked of it, even through the little chat box.
So the second time I got together with them, at the girl's apartment downtown (the new-ager) we smoke some weed. I guess once an addict, the risk is too high and it's always possible to fall back into it. I did a lot of drugs ten years ago. I stopped, but relasped a few times.
I didn't want to write about my experiences with marijuana until HPS Maxine wrote her last sermon:
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/JoyofSata ... sage/89261
because I got the nudge and remembered what happened to me, and I think my Guardians have been nudging at me for the past few days to type it out for all to read.
To be honest, I felt sheepish and a bit ashamed. That's what took me so long to write about this.
I follow most of the posts on this group and have read what the JOS clergy and what other members have written about marijuana use. But still, knowing all that, I went out and smoked it, like a fucking idiot.
Needless to say, I got really high. Laura's apartment had a lot of astral beings and movement in that place. I saw lots of cats, larger pumas and a lynx. It was all nice at first but it escalated badly, quickly. The three of us went out to the balcony for a smoke. I had one too. Then the tall Greys came, and the mind power of these fuckers is staggering.
They surrounded me and kept telling me to jump off the balcony, telling me to kill myself, again and again, without rest. They even pushed emotions into me that were not my own, making it seem like it was the best idea in the world. And it did seem like a good idea. All I heard was a voice, neither male nor female, just repeating itself, pushing emotions into me.
I gripped the cold cement slab of the balcony to ground myself, and turned my body away from it (the balcony "wall" that keeps you from falling to the ground) while I listened to Laura and Neven talk.
This is where the importance of Void meditation (as on the JoS Power Meditations page) comes in real handy. I ignored my fear. I ignored the voices. I didn't think. I just stayed in Void.
They kept crowding around me, and it got to be too much. I felt guilty, ashamed, and I didn't want to cry out to Lord Satan for hel. Not for this. Suck it up and deal with it: you did this to yourself. You brought this on yourself.
It got to be too much. I mentally imagined the Messenger Demons flying in a hoard to the balcony, landing on the sofa there, and on the outside furniture, chasing the Greys away.
Instead, my Guardian Lady Marchosias came. She chased all the Greys away, except for one, and that one was at a far distance, fearful and still trying to get to me like before. Even they stopped.
She hollered at me "DON'T SMOKE ANY MORE!" to which I didn't.
Later the next day, I consulted my oracle deck, asking if I should hang out with these two people anymore.
I strongly believe that what we read, what we watch, and who we hang around with influences us greatly, shaping us to be who we will eventually become. I was lonely and desperate, but not willing to put myself at risk to be tempted to smoke more cigarettes (I had quit but did not refuse when asked if I wanted one) and weed. These two smoked a lot of weed, and thought it was a "spiritual" experience.
The oracle deck told me to let them go, only confirming what I believed was best for me. So I have not seen them since. Even though we talked once more on FB since getting together.
So it is. I will have to do without friends in the time being. The loneliness and sadness comes at times, but I keep myself busy by studying and distracting myself.
I know I am not the only one to be psychically harassed by the Greys, Reptilians and Nordics. There are others here fighting their own battles daily. Newbies and advanced Satanists have to deal with this.
I guess what I wanted to sum up was, that when I was high on that marijuana, THE ASTRAL AND THE PHYSICAL BECAME AS ONE TO ME.
It was frightening. The power of the Greys' minds working together was overpowering. But through keeping my mind in void, and keeping my emotions in check, and with Lady Marchosias' intervention, I was okay.
Thanks be to Her!
As we advance, and seek to advance, obviously we get the attention of the enemies of Lord Satan. They will seek any way to bring us down, or to harm us through others or by making/suggesting that we harm ourselves. Or frighten us away from Lord Satan, away from meditating, and impede us in our path.
Drug use is one of them. I fucked up, I knew I fucked up when the Greys came onto me, I made a mistake by smoking marijuana and that left a doorway WIDE open for the Greys to come in and fuck with me.
It's a long post, but I think sometimes the Greys and Nordics influence things a bit in our lives to affect us. It seems that way now, looking back at what transpired. But we always have a choice.
Back in January 2013, I got together in person with two other people from the Kundalini Awakening group on Facebook. I know, we shouldn't meet people off the Net. But I guess you could say I was lonely. I have no friends outside of FB. That's the only reason I have an account; to keep in touch with my two best friends who live in the USA, amongst others. I have two "buddies" in real life but whenever I make plans with them, they cancel or ignore me. The ball's in their court, I don't want to push them to make plans with me if they are not that interested.
I told my parents where these people lived, left their names and phone numbers (in case anything happened to me) and went out.
One of them is a new-ager. The other is 2 years younger then me, and a Freemason. I learned later on, that they both worked with angels in channelling and with Enochian magick. The guy (the Freemason) kept pushing this on me, to which I staunchly refused. They know of my allegiance with Lord Satan. We had a conversation on FB, and the Greys and angel thoughtforms were influencing him strongly. He reeked of it, even through the little chat box.
So the second time I got together with them, at the girl's apartment downtown (the new-ager) we smoke some weed. I guess once an addict, the risk is too high and it's always possible to fall back into it. I did a lot of drugs ten years ago. I stopped, but relasped a few times.
I didn't want to write about my experiences with marijuana until HPS Maxine wrote her last sermon:
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/JoyofSata ... sage/89261
because I got the nudge and remembered what happened to me, and I think my Guardians have been nudging at me for the past few days to type it out for all to read.
To be honest, I felt sheepish and a bit ashamed. That's what took me so long to write about this.
I follow most of the posts on this group and have read what the JOS clergy and what other members have written about marijuana use. But still, knowing all that, I went out and smoked it, like a fucking idiot.
Needless to say, I got really high. Laura's apartment had a lot of astral beings and movement in that place. I saw lots of cats, larger pumas and a lynx. It was all nice at first but it escalated badly, quickly. The three of us went out to the balcony for a smoke. I had one too. Then the tall Greys came, and the mind power of these fuckers is staggering.
They surrounded me and kept telling me to jump off the balcony, telling me to kill myself, again and again, without rest. They even pushed emotions into me that were not my own, making it seem like it was the best idea in the world. And it did seem like a good idea. All I heard was a voice, neither male nor female, just repeating itself, pushing emotions into me.
I gripped the cold cement slab of the balcony to ground myself, and turned my body away from it (the balcony "wall" that keeps you from falling to the ground) while I listened to Laura and Neven talk.
This is where the importance of Void meditation (as on the JoS Power Meditations page) comes in real handy. I ignored my fear. I ignored the voices. I didn't think. I just stayed in Void.
They kept crowding around me, and it got to be too much. I felt guilty, ashamed, and I didn't want to cry out to Lord Satan for hel. Not for this. Suck it up and deal with it: you did this to yourself. You brought this on yourself.
It got to be too much. I mentally imagined the Messenger Demons flying in a hoard to the balcony, landing on the sofa there, and on the outside furniture, chasing the Greys away.
Instead, my Guardian Lady Marchosias came. She chased all the Greys away, except for one, and that one was at a far distance, fearful and still trying to get to me like before. Even they stopped.
She hollered at me "DON'T SMOKE ANY MORE!" to which I didn't.
Later the next day, I consulted my oracle deck, asking if I should hang out with these two people anymore.
I strongly believe that what we read, what we watch, and who we hang around with influences us greatly, shaping us to be who we will eventually become. I was lonely and desperate, but not willing to put myself at risk to be tempted to smoke more cigarettes (I had quit but did not refuse when asked if I wanted one) and weed. These two smoked a lot of weed, and thought it was a "spiritual" experience.
The oracle deck told me to let them go, only confirming what I believed was best for me. So I have not seen them since. Even though we talked once more on FB since getting together.
So it is. I will have to do without friends in the time being. The loneliness and sadness comes at times, but I keep myself busy by studying and distracting myself.
I know I am not the only one to be psychically harassed by the Greys, Reptilians and Nordics. There are others here fighting their own battles daily. Newbies and advanced Satanists have to deal with this.
I guess what I wanted to sum up was, that when I was high on that marijuana, THE ASTRAL AND THE PHYSICAL BECAME AS ONE TO ME.
It was frightening. The power of the Greys' minds working together was overpowering. But through keeping my mind in void, and keeping my emotions in check, and with Lady Marchosias' intervention, I was okay.
Thanks be to Her!
As we advance, and seek to advance, obviously we get the attention of the enemies of Lord Satan. They will seek any way to bring us down, or to harm us through others or by making/suggesting that we harm ourselves. Or frighten us away from Lord Satan, away from meditating, and impede us in our path.
Drug use is one of them. I fucked up, I knew I fucked up when the Greys came onto me, I made a mistake by smoking marijuana and that left a doorway WIDE open for the Greys to come in and fuck with me.
