Munka 108x too much for a begginer and why someone is still talking to me am i insane?

[Gearshift]

I don't know how to reply.

So all I'll say is you took my information and somehow exploded into things that never occurred or never processed to my mind. This is one of the reasons why I hate speaking, talking and communicating with people. I never said any of those things or to be more specific if my intent to state such things creates such a response then obviously it proves my weltanschaang(World-View).

I don't needlessly go out of my way to socialize or a more specific statement communicating anything is a waste of time and effort cause no one understands you.

I said something it gets taken out of proportions no idea why.

I simply want to achieve something.

Physically and mentally; propaganda and education sure it's there.

But when it comes to the chief cornerstone the spiritual. It begs the question if that is real.

So I don't know why my message is so convoluted or messed up or taken the way it is. You took my information way too seriously.

In the end it's not your fault. I don't hate you for grabbing my information and replying in your own way. I simply don't understand why you would respond in such way.

I really don't know how to reply to your message. So I'm gonna end it here. IF I'm a failious Satanist then I fail and gave up a long time ago.

Also one last thing we aren't born taught these things so I don't know why I have to be crucified on the furka just for trying to understand another world that somehow everyone even religious people doubt at some point.

 

[Gearshift]

...message from Utp666...

Look Utp666.

I'll mentioned one previous run-in with mental health disorder. Back in 2005 on the bus going to school.

I posted this on Yahoo forums never got an answer turns out 2006(2007?) or so the Yahoo shoa.

I was going home all of a sudden I doze off with my head on the window of those typical plastic bus windows. I visualize or to be more specific a flash of image pops up. I see myself snorting a rock of cocaine from a prostitute's asshole in first person. I snap out awake I fall down the bench seat and black out. What woke me up is my friend and he said a joke I laughed a moment, he laughed went back to his forward position(returned back to sitting). I freak out and from about the time of the bus till like 4P.M. I was high.

The only things I recall is doing Advanced Chakra Spinning(SoL speed), MerKaBa, and one or some other thing.

After that incident I recall about 3 days later in lunch having another almost hallucinogenic freak out whereby a friend offered me chocolate milk. I declined because in my head I said "They are lacing milk with LSD"(And no I'm not trying to make a "Clockwork Orange" joke).

After that incident two maybe three incidents that occurred I stopped meditating pretty much till after high school and even then sporadically.

I don't know about this Succubus thing if it's real or not or this JoS thing of it's real or not. I simply found the JoS when I was 12 years old, liked it cause I'd literally spent since 1997 when I was 7 years old and had cable TV watching all this WW2 stuff. Like this youtube person playing Red Orchestra 2 FPS, I'm obsessed with WW2. I never saw the Axis as evil rather I believed they deserved their day in court and express themselves. Funny enough over the years the amount of WW2 stuff I've devoured even my friend who is similar like me is surprised sometimes by what rare and practically unique minute details I know.

No Utp666.

Things did not get loud. I perform the Succubus request ritual. I do it it's like 2a.m. or so and I just perform the ritual. I always kicked myself for not doing the 4-Crown ritual beforehand.

I just did it. Like yeah read it outloud to Satan and burnt it like normal ritual stuff nothing fancy no incense no nothing just boom and done.

I did something it worked or it didn't work. I don't know. And to this day I still don't know.

All I know is ever since reading GitM's reply and being depressed by it I stopped contacting Satan and this Succubus. And well whatever.

There's too much what-ifs to get a straight answer.

As for my sexuality ever since I was pretty much a toddler 3-5 years old I wanted to fuck. In other words people might see me as some little kid but in my mind it's basically sexual stuff. No I was not abused, no nothing malefic happened I simply liked this stuff and wanted it.

I have no idea how truly long I've thought sexually but it's LONG time maybe 90% of my life or more.

No idea if it's past life or present life or just simply an adult in a child's body or some sort of astrological chart aspects something plutonic, martian, solar.

In the end like the succubus thing and like the voice that identifies as Satan that I hear or spoken to. I don't know, I truly don't know.

Maybe I don't even want to know.

I appreciate your response Utp666, it was not a depressing response that questions my entire establishment but it's still kinda hard to read into it.

AS for Ritual or F-Ritual in this case while I don't do it everyday when I do, do it. I literally blast the max rep range at 5 multiplier or 9x5 or 45. I HAVE done more in the past but it burns me out.

I kinda kick myself somethings for doing 1, 3, or basic 9 rep cause I always felt you need high rep blasts. If you aren't spending an 30-45 minutes doing Ritual it's bad like in the past few years before F-Ritual. So to answer your question 45 reps probably 20ish minutes give or take for me.

 

[Gearshift]

...ping...

What if I just want to meditate as slowly as possible i.e. turtle walk. And focus solely on my third eye?

Is that a fair compromise? Ignoring the 7 main and pineal or maybe some pineal work since that organ works with the 3rd eye despite being inside the Ajna center.

It's not that I doubt, I just never knew it would require such an extreme, hardcore monster of a time to advance. It's just so tiresome doing the same thing every day. It's like yoga, a few times but how can people go years doing it every day it makes no sense.

With the way I live yoga is the last thing I want to do.

So if I just focus on the third eye, what will happen?

And before you answer do realize I'm not spiritually advanced in any ways. I just think and use my mind if it seems logical I process is it and have logical responses to spiritual things. Ignoring your message whereby you said it cannot be turned into logic. Perhaps my astrological aspect that states understands very complex subjects is one reason why I understand these things. I rationally provide rational responses to supposed irrational subjects such as the spiritual realm. Maybe I'm one of those people that is so rational it's irrational or rationalizes so much it's most freak out over my ability to rationalize, irrational subjects

So anyways what if I just focus on the 3rd eye 10-15-20 minutes a day. A few thaum or whatever mantra is used for the 3rd eye that works best to help it out in my case.

Funny I recall a ATS(Above top secret) member using the Toe vibration a verbatim copy of Thoth page only with Toe as the vibration and he opened up his third eye completely. He said he touched the tail of some astral animal that released sparks. Asking how to close it.

No idea if he was trolling or being truthful not that I care just found it funny someone has a one hit shit moment.

 

[Gearshift]

These hallucinations and such are of the astral; This is what normies call schizophrenia, what it actually is - out of control psychic tuning to psychic sensations and manifestations on the astral plane overlapping the physical far too much in exuding of your own imagination and expectations.

Let me ask you a specific question on my own form of Schizophrenia. I was diagnosed with it and to this day I have never nor ever know what schizophrenia is. I literally have never seen anyone state a proper logical medical scientific property of it. Even dictionaries state "Sever mental health illness" akin to the definition of Psychosis "sever mental health issue".

What kind of Schizophrenia and Psychosis do I have that twice in 2012, once in 2013, and one more in 2014. Caused me to black out have a fugue state and lose physical control of my body. In fact I recall one time my parents didn't want to take me to the hospital cause it was really late and they were working so at like 2:30 am they forced me to eat butter crackers since I didn't eat I literally went the whole day without a meal. Then early in the morning I woke up finding myself being driven down the highway. My father WAS gonna take me but since I was not violent he said let's talk to the lady selling the car and let us take him later to the hospital A.B.U..

IF I read into what you said your basically stating a persistent and consistent effect of a mental issue that does not cause one to lose control of their physical body and black out a lot and for long periods of time. And is due to spiritual phenomena i.e. uncontrollable or hyper levels of spiritual contact with the upper realms.

Your giving me a hint it's a spiritual phenomena but I CANNOT for the life of me remember what meditations I was doing I did something I just don't recall. I do recall doing a lot of MerKaBa. Funny I didn't clean my aura and soul until just a few years ago. It didn't occur to me to clean and protect.

I know we have to work on our chakras but that is what I avoided for years. To see the opening or FCM felt daunting every day working on it and doing all these activities. I think if I had to clock in I'd probably be spending anywhere from 1:30 to 2 hours meditating.

So as you can see even with little I do burns me out. I'm just sick and tired of repeating the same groundhogs day but with spirituality. I don't want to take a break but I need a vacation funny enough meditation becomes a life of it's own in some scenarios to people talking about it and funny enough I'm not very amused with meditating especially failing to accomplish stuff. I keep trying but it's rough on me.

 

[Ghost in the Machine]

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Well, thanks i think i understand it somewhat.

I wanted to ask more exactly about the faint tightness that appears when people doubt something and thought that the pressure that is similar to thightness in my head/upper part and front part is maybe because of the doubt but noo it's not i think it's because i did the opening for the third eye and the crown chakra and 6th chakra and as it says on the JOS that there is pressure in front of the brain when i open the third eye sucesfully, there is pressure around the crown chakra too when opening it, for some people. So that's what it is.

Doubt is a blocker, it's energies confine your projection of your abilities into your 6th chakra, therefore it essentially creates a wall that the energies cannot get through in order to manifest what you're trying to manifest. Because it confines and blocks the energies it can feel like a repelling tightness in the centre of your head (where your 6th chakra is located) but you only feel this faint tightness when you're doubting. It cuts off your projection of your intents and blocks the manifestations. This is why doubt must be overcome with it's opposite energy of confidence which is produced from the sacral chakra, because doubt can completely halt manifestation of spiritual intents, thus magical ability and attaining a desired end.

I many times asked my self questions or my GD and like the reflection answered me and somethimes it was perfectly acurate i didn't know about a stuff then i asked what it is and he told me the answer and i didn't know if it is true or not so i searched on the internet and it was true, more exaclty i asked Satan what the letters on the pentagram of the JOS mean and i got the voice and it said "it's cuneiform" as i said i didn't know what it was but it was true after i searched it and i saw it's true so i knew it it's true. I mean i have the clair audience centers open because i heard the celestial music in my dream when i asked Satan for help. But yeah they aren't open enought, yet.

Actually my nick name is Cătă and that is the corect pronciation also my name is Cătălin, you can hear it on google translator if you want X)

When you're psychic centres are open this doesn't mean you are always only perceiving or seeing your own projected imaginations and expectations. You can still see and hear real truths and are able to communicate with the gods as well so long as you have good grounded control and focus on them properly as well as decipher the differences between what you are projecting from your own mind and what is actually true in the reality outside of yourself.

You likely were actually speaking with Satan or your GD, but likewise the astral itself also responds, because you seek truth and expect truth, it will give you/tell you/show you truth as if it was a real person. This is how my own intuition works in reading things on the astral and the astral 'tells' me. It takes a bit of practice to discern whether you're actually speaking to Satan or a demon or if it's just the astral. When it's Satan or a demon though they will not do things you expect because they are their own separate thinking beings, so if they say things you expect them to say or want them to say each time you expect such even subtly, it's most likely not them and is the astral responding to your own thoughts and expectations, like a dream character.

People who have lucid dreams do this a lot in asking a dream character (which is the astral since dreams are in fact the astral realm itself when we're sleeping) and the dream character(which is just a perceptual manifestation of the astral) can actually tell them real truths about themselves or things they didn't know about themselves or even others, so long as they are expecting truth and aren't projecting their own expectations, wants and emotions. When communicating with the gods they can show you other signs among other things to show they are in fact really communicating with you, you can ask for them to show you real signs that they are in fact talking to you and this could vary from feeling sudden bliss in your 6th chakra, having a specific and convenient dream that same night or even a physical object in your room moving or reacting (happens very rarely). It's very likely though you have definitely communicated with them and probably many times, but trust your intuition and gut-feeling.

Regardless the answers you got were true, whether it was Satan, your GD or the Astral, it was truth and that's a good skill to have in a world filled with lies.

 

[SparkingPowerUP]

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Well, thanks i think i understand it somewhat.

I wanted to ask more exactly about the faint tightness that appears when people doubt something and thought that the pressure that is similar to thightness in my head/upper part and front part is maybe because of the doubt but noo it's not i think it's because i did the opening for the third eye and the crown chakra and 6th chakra and as it says on the JOS that there is pressure in front of the brain when i open the third eye sucesfully, there is pressure around the crown chakra too when opening it, for some people. So that's what it is.

Doubt is a blocker, it's energies confine your projection of your abilities into your 6th chakra, therefore it essentially creates a wall that the energies cannot get through in order to manifest what you're trying to manifest. Because it confines and blocks the energies it can feel like a repelling tightness in the centre of your head (where your 6th chakra is located) but you only feel this faint tightness when you're doubting. It cuts off your projection of your intents and blocks the manifestations. This is why doubt must be overcome with it's opposite energy of confidence which is produced from the sacral chakra, because doubt can completely halt manifestation of spiritual intents, thus magical ability and attaining a desired end.

I many times asked my self questions or my GD and like the reflection answered me and somethimes it was perfectly acurate i didn't know about a stuff then i asked what it is and he told me the answer and i didn't know if it is true or not so i searched on the internet and it was true, more exaclty i asked Satan what the letters on the pentagram of the JOS mean and i got the voice and it said "it's cuneiform" as i said i didn't know what it was but it was true after i searched it and i saw it's true so i knew it it's true. I mean i have the clair audience centers open because i heard the celestial music in my dream when i asked Satan for help. But yeah they aren't open enought, yet.

Actually my nick name is Cătă and that is the corect pronciation also my name is Cătălin, you can hear it on google translator if you want X)

When you're psychic centres are open this doesn't mean you are always only perceiving or seeing your own projected imaginations and expectations. You can still see and hear real truths and are able to communicate with the gods as well so long as you have good grounded control and focus on them properly as well as decipher the differences between what you are projecting from your own mind and what is actually true in the reality outside of yourself.

You likely were actually speaking with Satan or your GD, but likewise the astral itself also responds, because you seek truth and expect truth, it will give you/tell you/show you truth as if it was a real person. This is how my own intuition works in reading things on the astral and the astral 'tells' me. It takes a bit of practice to discern whether you're actually speaking to Satan or a demon or if it's just the astral. When it's Satan or a demon though they will not do things you expect because they are their own separate thinking beings, so if they say things you expect them to say or want them to say each time you expect such even subtly, it's most likely not them and is the astral responding to your own thoughts and expectations, like a dream character.

People who have lucid dreams do this a lot in asking a dream character (which is the astral since dreams are in fact the astral realm itself when we're sleeping) and the dream character(which is just a perceptual manifestation of the astral) can actually tell them real truths about themselves or things they didn't know about themselves or even others, so long as they are expecting truth and aren't projecting their own expectations, wants and emotions. When communicating with the gods they can show you other signs among other things to show they are in fact really communicating with you, you can ask for them to show you real signs that they are in fact talking to you and this could vary from feeling sudden bliss in your 6th chakra, having a specific and convenient dream that same night or even a physical object in your room moving or reacting (happens very rarely). It's very likely though you have definitely communicated with them and probably many times, but trust your intuition and gut-feeling.

Regardless the answers you got were true, whether it was Satan, your GD or the Astral, it was truth and that's a good skill to have in a world filled with lies.

Ooooohhh yeahhh XDD i can use this to know everything i want, so it takes practice but the key is expectation but, as i've read on JOS is that the ether or aether has all the knowledge in existence and, the ether is also in the astral?

 

[Gearshift]

I take medications because I want to not by law. Even if forced by law I would not take them or take them because I feel like it but not wanting to do it even if by law.

First I take two meditations, the medication for psychosis/schizophrenia and the counter-agent.

Smallest dose of Prolixin/Fluphenzine 5mg. Counter-Agent: Cogentin/Benztropine 2mg.

According to my psychiatrist I take the lowest dose known to provide reasonable effects. This medication was produced decades ago.

Also you kinda are a story-teller(might you have some Leo in your astro chart?). You express me to such a high degree and I have to ask you what meditation or meditations did I do to open my astral counterpart organs(chakras). For example in the last few months I hardly meditate at all. Clean, protect, EZ chakra spin, some breath rituals such as the survival guide for acquiring stuff and that is it.

How can I be so spiritually advanced if I hardly did anything at all?

Lets put it like this you state I worked or activated my lesser astral chakras. How do you know that when in all the times I focused on the chakras of those areas is like 4-6 times in my life.

Your literally exaggerating my spiritual phenomenas or tell me that somehow I'm very spiritually advanced.

If I could provide you with my astral chart maybe naturally you would understand. I take medications, hardly spiritually advanced, hardly do anything.

Also about emotions you said Prozac made you a robot, ice cold killer. Well funny enough one website states my emotional side is like non-existant to my astro chart. I'm an emotional person but I feel no emotions nor have desires for anything.

I think GitM I'm gonna stop posting on this thread and other threads because your kinda stating I do stuff. I do Zevism;DD same shit; different day. I have absolutely nothing going on. If I was some extremist I'd probably be meditation 4+ hours a day that's how nothing my days are.

I think in my personal opinion your reading too much into. Those things that I describe and experience are just fancy flights of mental intellectual/emotional thoughts. Yes I experienced a break down a schizophrenic or whatever happened. But non-the less how does that make me spiritually advanced.

The succubus thing I performed a ritual I asked for one nothing came. Your implying I created something or a being interfered and used me. Well funny enough how do I know that. I don't know I'm not open to no spiritual world I see the World in front of me.

I live in my head all the time. All these things are just my intellect I intellectualize the spiritual with a mercurian flavor. Like the astrological chart that I have states on my mercury and aspects a blending of emotion and logic.

Anyways GitM I think you are talking to me as if I seen the Gods and never have I seen or encountered or done anything. It's not doubt just when you don't know how to meditate and do the proper meditations.

I have no hope nor no training nor no education on meditation even the 40 day guide isn't special. I'm just sick and tired of wasting my time, effort, and life. It's like the old saying goes "religion is just a lifelong preoccupation to make individuals not destroy but to just live normally".

Well what can I say that's my preoccupation all day. And any time I talk about this stuff everyone shuts me up because it's like the saying goes "Your in a cult, so don't mess with my cult". Apparently it's desirable for people to be in cults that do nothing and not do anything. Well what can I say I'm in a cult that apparently somehow has the World of the enemy on it's knees collapsing each day.

I really don't know. Honestly GitM I have no fucking clue on anything, no experience, education or anything to that matter. I'm 30 years old currently and I have not a single clue on anything. I just live for the sake of living because two stupid people fucked.

I'm just lost and that is it.

I guess when I speak everyone creates "Pink elephants" due to my side of the story. I really don't know why, I truly hate this World. It seems like I cannot speak or process or communicate. Why would beings of higher power help a civilization that cannot transcribe their mind, thoughts, emotions, and feelings into text. Apparently humanity and such as myself is more fucked up than what can possibly be believed.