Motivations

[littlesttitan]

Well, through my years as a Satanist ive grown. My growth was slow, but sure and powerful. Whenever i get time to think it helps me and changes me. Sexual frustrations have held me back way too much, but now im getting better at controling my long lasting urges that can't be helped. Only with a small amount of void i've determined myself to use the huge desire to fly as a motivation for getting stronger both for my bio electricity/energy use and storage and my mind to have much stronger will and determination with desire to only become stronger. The goal might be dumb, but it helps AND ive learned to never doubt my limits and powers. If theres anything any of you could take from this is to be strong willed. This was really more of a personal thing for me but i just want to help in some way still^-^. The lesson for me is to have a goal that i ACTUALLY REALLY want that will be useful and helpful, then work my best at it. Idk why my desire for sex doesnt outweigh that to fly, i think its because im trying to get rid of intense sexual lust cuz it takes away all the time i have to be doing something useful to help it, to help myself and others. ? well, now that ive come to this conclusion and have the weekend free to meditate at my pleasure ill "finaly" use my time wisely and as much as i can. Ive had many of falling outs but once i can get something to "stand on firmly" i can carry on with full power, pride, and determination. (I really need to learn more english words ?) Another tiny little thing i thought of yesterday that i found a bit useful- Do as much RTRs with as much passion as you can because the chance of us failing and humanities "death" is only made by weakness, lazyness, and carelessness, one decision can weigh heavily and negatively for centuries maybe. So PLEASE keep up the RTRs with all your strength and fight on becoming stronger every single day forever!!!? LOVE YOU ALL!!!!