christinanaybam
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Hi. I am about to dedicate to Satan. I am a follower of Goddess but when I found sites speaking of spiritual satanism, it fit me like a missing piece to a puzzle. I do not question that this is where I belong.
I love the Goddesses I work with. How do they fit into Spiritual Satanism? Would Enki be offended if I kept my relationship with the mothers I have found to be so kind and open toward me? When one dedicates, does your relationship with Goddess cease? I keep hearing that they are 1 and the same. I'm not sure about this. I feel as though there will be no conflict, though. Any thoughts would be highly helpful. I work with the Dark Goddess as well as 3 other greek Goddesses and love them very much.
.. Just Fyi, Here is my story, "The joy of Satan," website is a golden jewel. I have been glued to it for days and can't seem to get enough of it. I grew up Christian and have experienced things that left me feeling angry, spited, neglected and abused. I turned away from the Christian faith certain that he was a hoax. I've searched and searched for what I knew was out there. I have seen satanists and felt them within my core. I've know that I wanted what they had and had no way of knowing how to get there. I have been relentlessly attacked by so called "demons" that I am now seeing were sent directly from christ to confuse me and scare the crap out of me. There is not a question as to wether this is what I want or not. Satan used to come to me as a child and tell me he loved me. My church told me that I had a generational curse that I was property of Satan. They prayed and prayed over me, only for me to get attacked in my sleep. I went through an exorcist at the age of 27, denying multiple spirits within me. They then baptized me, only for me to litterally melt. (Lmao but really) I got really hot and for an entire week, I saw demons, I breathed demons, I was awakened at night, my kids were shaken in their beds and tormented by a child with vampire teeth. I told my mother that bamptism what the worst thing anyone could have ever done to me! She is a devout christian and just laughed. "Oh honey, you will be fine soon enough."
Christ has tormened me, he's lied to me, he's laughed at me while I cried and yelled for him to help me. He abandoned me when I would need him most. Everytime I think back to when I actually felt a pressence holding me or loving me, I realize that it wasn't christ. I grew up a psychic/ medium with natural gifts that supposedly were marks of the devil and I constantly denied that every day, believing that I was just special. Baaaaaaaaaa. The Xtian church was right about 1 thing. I was property of Satans and I AM PROUD OF IT.
Please let me know your thoughts on the Goddess thing. I've tried to key in through meditation but I am so excited about how perfect this is, that I can't relax enough. I just keep hearing from "Hecate," you are bold and strong. Follow your heart. ........
Thank you in Advance.
Christina ----------- Ughhh, I've always hated that name. Now I know why. I know what I'll do. I'll now sign my name,
"X-TINA"...
Hell yea!
Be blessed.
I love the Goddesses I work with. How do they fit into Spiritual Satanism? Would Enki be offended if I kept my relationship with the mothers I have found to be so kind and open toward me? When one dedicates, does your relationship with Goddess cease? I keep hearing that they are 1 and the same. I'm not sure about this. I feel as though there will be no conflict, though. Any thoughts would be highly helpful. I work with the Dark Goddess as well as 3 other greek Goddesses and love them very much.
.. Just Fyi, Here is my story, "The joy of Satan," website is a golden jewel. I have been glued to it for days and can't seem to get enough of it. I grew up Christian and have experienced things that left me feeling angry, spited, neglected and abused. I turned away from the Christian faith certain that he was a hoax. I've searched and searched for what I knew was out there. I have seen satanists and felt them within my core. I've know that I wanted what they had and had no way of knowing how to get there. I have been relentlessly attacked by so called "demons" that I am now seeing were sent directly from christ to confuse me and scare the crap out of me. There is not a question as to wether this is what I want or not. Satan used to come to me as a child and tell me he loved me. My church told me that I had a generational curse that I was property of Satan. They prayed and prayed over me, only for me to get attacked in my sleep. I went through an exorcist at the age of 27, denying multiple spirits within me. They then baptized me, only for me to litterally melt. (Lmao but really) I got really hot and for an entire week, I saw demons, I breathed demons, I was awakened at night, my kids were shaken in their beds and tormented by a child with vampire teeth. I told my mother that bamptism what the worst thing anyone could have ever done to me! She is a devout christian and just laughed. "Oh honey, you will be fine soon enough."
Christ has tormened me, he's lied to me, he's laughed at me while I cried and yelled for him to help me. He abandoned me when I would need him most. Everytime I think back to when I actually felt a pressence holding me or loving me, I realize that it wasn't christ. I grew up a psychic/ medium with natural gifts that supposedly were marks of the devil and I constantly denied that every day, believing that I was just special. Baaaaaaaaaa. The Xtian church was right about 1 thing. I was property of Satans and I AM PROUD OF IT.
Please let me know your thoughts on the Goddess thing. I've tried to key in through meditation but I am so excited about how perfect this is, that I can't relax enough. I just keep hearing from "Hecate," you are bold and strong. Follow your heart. ........
Thank you in Advance.
Christina ----------- Ughhh, I've always hated that name. Now I know why. I know what I'll do. I'll now sign my name,
"X-TINA"...
Hell yea!Be blessed.
