Finally I found the community once again. I'm suprised how Clergy and members changed themselves. Unfortunately....few aspects regresed drasticaly.
Mr. Cobra after few posts I read about your statements, theories I assumed something incomprehensible for my mind.
You VERY often post topics about what you currently struggle, it's visible in method how you try to explain the concept for others. It's oriented
to harvest attention, that brings you aid and sometimes the solution of a problem you currently have.
It's okay to use help of a community, because we often fall and the help we receive from our closest souls are sometimes necessary. BUT THERE IS ONE IMPORTANT "NODE"
The person who claim self masculine should try mostly relay on SELF, it's core of masculinity and if a man claim himself too much masculine as already are (because he using attention from others as a primary fuel) it makes him vulnerable and weak and it's visible in a lost of temper, insight malfuctions, weakened discipline and many many more.
Can you explain what's going on? You extremaly changed for years. YES, there are a lot of ups like better self confidence, but I think it went to far....