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MercuryWisdom

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I’ve been introduced to JoS when I was very young, since then and before I felt like I was a very special person and had great potential. I do. But right now at this point in my life I’m no where near special, I’m actually doing worse in life than most of my peers or normal people.

I’m not blessed with heritage, I don’t have a powerful rich family, connections, I don’t have great looks at the moment (I’m aging terribly despite being very young), I’m not very smart (academically I mean) and I’m not very skilled at an art form, I’m not spiritually powerful. At least not to the required degree.

Despite this I’m cursed with extremely large dreams and potential that I’m nowhere near.

I can’t accept even being a millionaire (I’m dead broke actually) I want and I feel destined to be a billionaire, I want to be beautiful, artistically gifted and talented, have extreme spiritual power, and build an actual empire and just have so much power, influence, and I want it to be extreme.

Recently, I’m starting to realize more and more what it takes to be extraordinary.

And I really don’t know if I have what it takes, actually it seems I don’t.

It all ties to discipline, hard work, consistency, patience, but to an extreme level tied to the level you want to succeed but 10x.

And I feel this is so suffocating to me. I have been struggling with consistency and progress since forever.

Hps Maxine was once homeless, suicidal, and depressed and she mastered and transformed all this till she became a Hero and Goddess.

I’m dealing with similar things that make me hopeless and powerless but I just don’t have it in me to turn it all around.

I keep trying and trying but trying’s not enough.

I feel and I know that I’m very unremarkable in the grand scheme of things I feel like an insect that’s going nowhere and keep getting crushed and I just don’t have it in me to turn it all around. I keep trying and I haven’t lost hope. But I have no results or anything material.

I wish I was supported, everyone tells you no one’s coming to save you but I really do need someone, I just feel like I can’t do it alone. I wish the Gods would help me a bit and help me in a material real way. I have no support from my family and I’m all alone and I don’t think I can make it alone.

I just wish I can be blessed and not have to work extremely hard for something and be patient for extremely long amount of times to get something. I’m not very good at patience and it really hurts.

At least if I have to work hard I need to at least work hard in something that makes sense to me. I need a north star. But right now I’m just very lost.
 
I’ve been introduced to JoS when I was very young, since then and before I felt like I was a very special person and had great potential. I do. But right now at this point in my life I’m no where near special, I’m actually doing worse in life than most of my peers or normal people.

I’m not blessed with heritage, I don’t have a powerful rich family, connections, I don’t have great looks at the moment (I’m aging terribly despite being very young), I’m not very smart (academically I mean) and I’m not very skilled at an art form, I’m not spiritually powerful. At least not to the required degree.

Despite this I’m cursed with extremely large dreams and potential that I’m nowhere near.

I can’t accept even being a millionaire (I’m dead broke actually) I want and I feel destined to be a billionaire, I want to be beautiful, artistically gifted and talented, have extreme spiritual power, and build an actual empire and just have so much power, influence, and I want it to be extreme.

Recently, I’m starting to realize more and more what it takes to be extraordinary.

And I really don’t know if I have what it takes, actually it seems I don’t.

It all ties to discipline, hard work, consistency, patience, but to an extreme level tied to the level you want to succeed but 10x.

And I feel this is so suffocating to me. I have been struggling with consistency and progress since forever.

Hps Maxine was once homeless, suicidal, and depressed and she mastered and transformed all this till she became a Hero and Goddess.

I’m dealing with similar things that make me hopeless and powerless but I just don’t have it in me to turn it all around.

I keep trying and trying but trying’s not enough.

I feel and I know that I’m very unremarkable in the grand scheme of things I feel like an insect that’s going nowhere and keep getting crushed and I just don’t have it in me to turn it all around. I keep trying and I haven’t lost hope. But I have no results or anything material.

I wish I was supported, everyone tells you no one’s coming to save you but I really do need someone, I just feel like I can’t do it alone. I wish the Gods would help me a bit and help me in a material real way. I have no support from my family and I’m all alone and I don’t think I can make it alone.

I just wish I can be blessed and not have to work extremely hard for something and be patient for extremely long amount of times to get something. I’m not very good at patience and it really hurts.

At least if I have to work hard I need to at least work hard in something that makes sense to me. I need a north star. But right now I’m just very lost.
One can reach the Leggendary Rank by working for ToZ, the opportunities are already here for this, and these are open to all.
 
It sounds like you have to deprogram yourself from society's bull***t my friend. You could use the rune Ansuz. It's good that you want nice things for you but It sounds like you're really underestimating the fact that you are with the Gods.Do YOU really think being successful in society (wich Is an Orwellian nightmare) it's worth more than that? Or the medias told you so?
Try to vibrate Ansuz x7 in each chakra and say: "The Energy of the rune Ansuz frees my * chakra from every external influence".
Maybe you're stuck in Life but if you're here you're obviously not some random fool. You just have to see that.
 
Well, this is actually pretty normal. You feel this way because you have allot of dreams that are grandiose, but to achieve them takes time, ALLOT of time. I like how you were 100% honest, because allot of people lie to themselves every day, saying things like “ i will do it tomorrow” or “my day will come”.

But the reality here is that you can’t get anything without putting the work in yourself. I struggle with this too and many others, but its all part of a greater process.

You have a huge problem of doubting yourself, which is something you should absolutely not do. Every beginning is hard, every first step is hard, but the more you push forward the easier it gets and it becomes routine.

You can always practice to be “smarter” or to learn a certain skill, nobody’s capabilities are limited and when you realize that there’s really nothing stopping you.

Everything is a struggle if you want it to be, but there is beauty in that struggle. Struggling means you’re fighting, and when it comes to achieving your dreams the only way you lose the fight is if you quit yourself.

Please don’t restrict yourself and degrade yourself for no reason, there’s endless possibilities out there, and yes it may be a handful at first, but as time goes on everything will fall into place.
 
Do YOU really think being successful in society (wich Is an Orwellian nightmare) it's worth more than that? Or the medias told you so?
This mindset is the xian/communist shit pushed for people, then wow how did you get the jews at the top I wonder?

Yes you should and you actually must strive as a strong SS to be successful in this society. Having our people successful in business, politics, academics, media, acting, the arts, the sciences is how we get back father Satan’s empire. This has also been emphasized by our High Priestess Maxine and HP HC.

Not by shunning and “deprogramming” external influences and living as a weird monk.
 
Well, this is actually pretty normal. You feel this way because you have allot of dreams that are grandiose, but to achieve them takes time, ALLOT of time. I like how you were 100% honest, because allot of people lie to themselves every day, saying things like “ i will do it tomorrow” or “my day will come”.

But the reality here is that you can’t get anything without putting the work in yourself. I struggle with this too and many others, but its all part of a greater process.

You have a huge problem of doubting yourself, which is something you should absolutely not do. Every beginning is hard, every first step is hard, but the more you push forward the easier it gets and it becomes routine.

You can always practice to be “smarter” or to learn a certain skill, nobody’s capabilities are limited and when you realize that there’s really nothing stopping you.

Everything is a struggle if you want it to be, but there is beauty in that struggle. Struggling means you’re fighting, and when it comes to achieving your dreams the only way you lose the fight is if you quit yourself.

Please don’t restrict yourself and degrade yourself for no reason, there’s endless possibilities out there, and yes it may be a handful at first, but as time goes on everything will fall into place.
I just feel that I’m not enough or that what I’m doing is not enough and it kills me. Despite this I don’t think I can do more at the moment, at least do more and be consistent with it.
 
I’ve been introduced to JoS when I was very young, since then and before I felt like I was a very special person and had great potential. I do. But right now at this point in my life I’m no where near special, I’m actually doing worse in life than most of my peers or normal people.

I’m not blessed with heritage, I don’t have a powerful rich family, connections, I don’t have great looks at the moment (I’m aging terribly despite being very young), I’m not very smart (academically I mean) and I’m not very skilled at an art form, I’m not spiritually powerful. At least not to the required degree.

Despite this I’m cursed with extremely large dreams and potential that I’m nowhere near.

I can’t accept even being a millionaire (I’m dead broke actually) I want and I feel destined to be a billionaire, I want to be beautiful, artistically gifted and talented, have extreme spiritual power, and build an actual empire and just have so much power, influence, and I want it to be extreme.

Recently, I’m starting to realize more and more what it takes to be extraordinary.

And I really don’t know if I have what it takes, actually it seems I don’t.

It all ties to discipline, hard work, consistency, patience, but to an extreme level tied to the level you want to succeed but 10x.

And I feel this is so suffocating to me. I have been struggling with consistency and progress since forever.

Hps Maxine was once homeless, suicidal, and depressed and she mastered and transformed all this till she became a Hero and Goddess.

I’m dealing with similar things that make me hopeless and powerless but I just don’t have it in me to turn it all around.

I keep trying and trying but trying’s not enough.

I feel and I know that I’m very unremarkable in the grand scheme of things I feel like an insect that’s going nowhere and keep getting crushed and I just don’t have it in me to turn it all around. I keep trying and I haven’t lost hope. But I have no results or anything material.

I wish I was supported, everyone tells you no one’s coming to save you but I really do need someone, I just feel like I can’t do it alone. I wish the Gods would help me a bit and help me in a material real way. I have no support from my family and I’m all alone and I don’t think I can make it alone.

I just wish I can be blessed and not have to work extremely hard for something and be patient for extremely long amount of times to get something. I’m not very good at patience and it really hurts.

At least if I have to work hard I need to at least work hard in something that makes sense to me. I need a north star. But right now I’m just very lost.
Also, you need to see things in the proper way.

As you are a Zevist, and also a Translator, you are above all the rest of non-Zevists, or above any arrogant claim of superiority based on accademics.

There are many achievements that aren't considered here. For example, completing a God Ritual is an achievement to be proud of, being a Dedicated Zevist is another, having a Badge and being Active is another major one.

The rest are just problems that need to be solved, there is not really a problem out of your reach, this as been said Marcus Aurelius. You just need to understand things for what they really are, and act.

I hope to see you also in other projects of ToZ, like the Outreach Wing or related.
 

Al Jilwah: Chapter IV

"It is my desire that all my followers unite in a bond of unity, lest those who are without prevail against them." - Shaitan

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