Hello
I'm not sure how things are right now in your part of the world, but in Canada times are tooooough. Supposedly the economy is worse now than it was since 2015, including the entire duration of the covid pandemic; I have no idea how that's even possible??
Mass immigration, neo-liberalism, seemingly bad-on-purpose politics and foreign wars seems to have brought this once great country into the shitter. Almost nobody can afford to buy a home, our currency is worth nothing and our buying power is genuinely close to that of an indentured servant. A run down crack house in Toronto is likely still worth over 1mil CAD.
I know putting pressure on the system is very necessary for any sort of change. I know A LOT of change is necessary for the world to actually become a place one would want to live in. I thought I had until 2030 though, for fuck sakes. I just went and spent a year to attend trade school, and now that I graduated with work experience I still can't get an apprenticeship? I'm applying for an entry position would almost pay minimum wage? I'm applying nationwide some days 8 hours of job searching and still nothing for the last month. The truth is I don't even have it that bad, but I got an african drought when expecting amazon rainforest downpour.
The situation is bullshit and feels like something entirely out of my control, which is the exact opposite way I should feel about this as a mage!
Yes, I did attempt to speak to the Demons and they did show me they genuinely had good intentions for humankind, at the very least originally. It even makes sense they would in my own personal paradigm. But it sure doesn't feel like they got my back on not being broke lol. - - - - - - - - Well actually I'm not so sure. While contemplating "blaming this on the Gods", I realized the fallacy and double checked. Maybe its not so simple.
I do have another opportunity, my friend has a company that would require me to fulfill professional level IT and "spiritual" support... two things I've really only practiced at most semiprofessionally. I'm not particularly "educated" in either of these fields btw. Their company earns a lot, in January they earned 20k USD alone. The issue is, I would be required to use my knowledge in unethical and not exactly legal ways, I already help them in legal grey areas as it is but the things they want from me moving forward is more critical.
I did tarot on these two options, and according to it this second option is actually better in the short and long term. Getting an apprenticeship is hard work at first but ultimately good, while the second option is immediately good and leads to a much better outcome. The issue however is that the second option is about as uncertain as it could be, which is immediately obvious. That uncertainty is why I've avoided investing my time into it further.
However, I'm seeing now that maybe the closed door to my first option might be a necessary blockage, to steer me towards something that is actually better. I'm being sort of forced into something I wouldn't otherwise willingly accept. I've seen other people throw out life changing opportunities foolishly, maybe this is mine??
Any thoughts would be appreciated.
I'm not sure how things are right now in your part of the world, but in Canada times are tooooough. Supposedly the economy is worse now than it was since 2015, including the entire duration of the covid pandemic; I have no idea how that's even possible??
Mass immigration, neo-liberalism, seemingly bad-on-purpose politics and foreign wars seems to have brought this once great country into the shitter. Almost nobody can afford to buy a home, our currency is worth nothing and our buying power is genuinely close to that of an indentured servant. A run down crack house in Toronto is likely still worth over 1mil CAD.
I know putting pressure on the system is very necessary for any sort of change. I know A LOT of change is necessary for the world to actually become a place one would want to live in. I thought I had until 2030 though, for fuck sakes. I just went and spent a year to attend trade school, and now that I graduated with work experience I still can't get an apprenticeship? I'm applying for an entry position would almost pay minimum wage? I'm applying nationwide some days 8 hours of job searching and still nothing for the last month. The truth is I don't even have it that bad, but I got an african drought when expecting amazon rainforest downpour.
The situation is bullshit and feels like something entirely out of my control, which is the exact opposite way I should feel about this as a mage!
Yes, I did attempt to speak to the Demons and they did show me they genuinely had good intentions for humankind, at the very least originally. It even makes sense they would in my own personal paradigm. But it sure doesn't feel like they got my back on not being broke lol. - - - - - - - - Well actually I'm not so sure. While contemplating "blaming this on the Gods", I realized the fallacy and double checked. Maybe its not so simple.
I do have another opportunity, my friend has a company that would require me to fulfill professional level IT and "spiritual" support... two things I've really only practiced at most semiprofessionally. I'm not particularly "educated" in either of these fields btw. Their company earns a lot, in January they earned 20k USD alone. The issue is, I would be required to use my knowledge in unethical and not exactly legal ways, I already help them in legal grey areas as it is but the things they want from me moving forward is more critical.
I did tarot on these two options, and according to it this second option is actually better in the short and long term. Getting an apprenticeship is hard work at first but ultimately good, while the second option is immediately good and leads to a much better outcome. The issue however is that the second option is about as uncertain as it could be, which is immediately obvious. That uncertainty is why I've avoided investing my time into it further.
However, I'm seeing now that maybe the closed door to my first option might be a necessary blockage, to steer me towards something that is actually better. I'm being sort of forced into something I wouldn't otherwise willingly accept. I've seen other people throw out life changing opportunities foolishly, maybe this is mine??
Any thoughts would be appreciated.
