Leaving

[HailVictory88]

It's not important, and people won't care, but for purposes of closure I wanted to post this. As of tomorrow I will no longer consider myself a member of the Temple. I have no malice towards anyone here, and certainly no wish to oppose you or your mission, but I can't consider myself a true member.

Over a few years I donated a very large amount to the Temple (and I am not rich at all, just have money from working). I still may donate in the future, but the short story is that a couple years ago I developed a very bad drug addiction. While this is ultimately my fault, i suspect enemy meddling played a role. My life was basically ruined, I lost all of my cash. I mean down to the last dollar. So I couldn't continue donating, and I guess the Temple leaders didn't want anything to do with me. I don't hate any of you, I think you're good people. But you didn't have to pretend to be my friend, I would have donated anyway because I support the cause. If I get back on my feet, I will resume donating, but please don't insult my intelligence by acting like you care for me personally. I've never had any friends, it was very stupid of me to think I could fit in anywhere.

While I'm somewhat hurt emotionally (it has been a very painful few years), I don't hate any of you. I wish you success in your mission.

 

[High Priest Hooded Cobra 666]

You are listening to guilt, self-shaming yourself and you allow guilt to take over your mind, secluding yourself in a false feeling of unworthiness brother. Now you are in this situation and you are allowing yourself to fall further, because you listen to that nonsense out of the generated fear of this.

Nobody has changed any opinion of you; you have always been a most loved person. Nobody will hate you, and yes, everyone cares. At least I do personally. The situation is the more you reject this and the more you perceive things this way, the more you also feed the habit as these things have to do primarily because one experiences this isolation and they self-induce it further to feed wrong habits.

The more you distance yourself, you allow the habit to dictate who you are and now it whispers you falsely that you lost worth in the eyes of others and in yourself.

The false habit is therefore, generating a false perception of your world and yourself, and even others, for what? To drain you like quicksand until nothing remains. At this point you will understand it’s very destructive. But this is not YOU, it’s like something heaped upon you, it’s not YOU.

You are experiencing something negative such as an addiction. This does not delete your previous honorable acts. They are still there and valid. The situation is that it lies to you so you sacrifice every hope just to feed this worthless addiction, until it takes a great man down. This is how these things work. It’s like a plague that spreads in the mind and tells you, that you are worthless or that you never done anything. But you did do what you have done, there’s no erasing it.

You do not have to donate anything and nothing has to do with money in regard to this. At this point one should actually treat money as the last thing; the first priority is regaining control from this damned worthless addiction and tell yourself that you are a great man, who deserves BETTER than this worthless vacuum that tries to pull you in like quicksand.

Feel free to mail me directly for anything. Regardless of what you do, real bonds in this world do not change. Mine stands true as I told you before and that will never change. Pull the brakes on this downward spiral, because of all people I have known, you deserve this the least.

There is also no word that can change this, you simply have to pull the breaks, go in relapse, take it like a man, or seek professional help to detach from this drug induced soul enemy of you. If this was someone else, you would pull the brakes to save them, think of yourself as a man you must save. Stay strong and do it.

 

[AFODO]

I would listen completely to the great words of our High Priest if I were you.