I typed more here, but I deleted it. Any who know enough about me would know that I would reply to each and every single point, and say whatever. I deleted it. Instead, here's my reply.
It's not about me. I said the calendar - not other things in tier 1 and not other tiers, but the calendar - should be free. Some people don't like spending money online, and some people don't like giving money to - to be honest - strangers.
@May Flower
No, I was just making a point. I didn't mean that I intend to make things worse for myself. The Universe seems to do that for; rather, against, me already. It has been that things seem to be taken away from me. I can only presume that in a previous life, I did a lot of selfish things, taking away from others, so presumably I brought this on myself now with how things have been (as someone said or suggested that in the next life, one is placed somewhere where they are unable to cause the same problems or do the same thing as they did in a previous life - if that is true, I don't know). Regarding saying that I don't know what the fuck I'm doing, if I have Zeus's ear or another God or Goddess's ear, then They know what else I also mean by that. It's not just one single thing.
@Aquarius
In the last 10+ years, I have meditated and studied. I've shared some of the results I have had. The results of doing meditations here are undeniable. I didn't have any proper results in christianity. I have undeniable results here in Temple of Zeus.
@MasterJ192216
My Mind tends to freeze-up with it. I know Astrology is important and must be overcome. In other subjects that I am interested in, it doesn't sink-in, despite being into it and trying repeatedly. There have been things that have worked. There is a huge... thing that I can't seem to get across.
@Priest - Alexandros Iowno I didn't mean to sound like I must be given it/others must give me it. I meant the calendar should be free. It that sounded like a demand, then that's not how I meant it.
@BlackOnyx8 [SG]
I thought sharing links to the sites elsewhere is doing things for here. I thought my posts about copper, silver and gold coins analogy; the blatant anti-White racism in White Countries; the things about sexual abuse within christianity; how Humans are better than the abrahamic "god" and showing examples of how, for anyone who might be on the fence; etc. are all of value. Me posting those types of posts, and other things, and also promoting JoS/ToZ elsewhere is not being parasitic and valueless, I thought. Did you receive word that this is the reason I wasn't given access free, or is it because I am less-polite than most people here? Be honest. I actually haven't registered on HoO.
@fuoco blu 666
I don't know how much work goes into the calendars, but I meant they should be free to help make it easier and quicker.
@High Priestess Lydia
I don't consider the calendars to be worthless. Not at all. I don't know how to make my point clearer. I know you didn't say this, but - it's not about me, it's not self-pity, it's not demanding, it's not entitlement... I can't speak for anyone else, but buying the calendar, I would feel wrong to keep it to myself. I would have to release it to others. No, that is not spite/rebellion against having to pay for it. It wouldn't feel, seem, be fair to keep it to myself.
@Demonic
Thanks. I'll have to read through what you said later.
@616Taysha
I have read through most, if not all, of it. Numerous times. There seems to be a lock or a block or something. Maybe I overthink about it. I don't know.
@Donovandal
I disagree with "you can't teach an old dog new tricks" now that I have had undeniable experiences with meditating from the materials given here on ToZ/JoS. Perhaps - and I am only guessing - if I really applied myself properly and was under pressure for it, I might do well. I suppose I've been coasting.
What would be the point? That's
yet another coincidence. I'm not asking you the following, but I'm just making a point. Quite recently, I was really upset about something and I said to Zeus, or another God or Goddess who might have been there, that I don't think I'm supposed to be a God one day. I've also been so low that I wanted Zeus to kill me, or wait until I die, and dissipate my Soul and use the constituent Energies for His own uses... Consider, in an extreme example, if any God or Goddess was once upon a time an evil piece of shit on X Planet... reincarnated, lived a shit life, then managed to improve Themself to become Godly now... They would remember what bad, terrible, whatever things they did, but now are Godly and helpful and with status and ability. I'm not saying I've been evil or terrible or anything like that (and I speculated a bit ago about possibly having been in a previous life), but upon me being a God one day, with whatever history behind me... I'm referring to the implications of me being in a position of Godliness in real-life after whatever in the past. Can [insert extreme criminal here] be redeemed and earn a place in the Pantheon?! One day become as powerful as any particular God or Goddess is now?! Again, I'm not that bad, of course, but the point remains.
Oh, yes, again. Saturn. Since you mentioned that, I deleted a lot of my reply. I said above that I deleted most of it, but I was typing again after it, so there is more. Bloody Saturn, hey? Dang. Thanks.
@AFODO
Yeah, there's a lot free already. I meant the calendar would be easier.
@Tethys333
Without going through each thing, it's not easy to be specific off the top of my head, but it seems like an overload of information.
@Dypet Rod
Yeah...
As for selling own items for ToZ - I also had that idea. That's something I would be particularly interested in. Of course, I don't know what the mechanics would be like, but I presume ToZ would take a fair share of all profits of ToZ-related items sold; merchants and artisans (is how I imagine it) would, of course, be more-than willing. Happy New Year to you, too!
@Wotanwarrior
There is somewhere that is up and is ToZ-friendly. I did it and it was my intention. I don't want to mention it lest I manage to get my own thing cancelled... It's not huge and not busy, but I did that. It's similar to being on a blog site or Twitter or doing Pastebin pages which link to (now defunct) JoS pages and the old-old forum (the prophpbb one). I also have a Bitchute channel which used to not be shadowbanned or blocked from others finding it on the front page. To me, that's outreach and promoting ToZ and not being lazy, but I don't know what the definitions and criteria are for outreach.
To everyone else who replied but who I didn't reply back to - thanks.
Lastly.
I realised something. In fact, I've been realising this many times since I was younger. I used to be a quick learner. I could take things in better, easier, quicker. I don't know what happened, but the older I get, the more difficult it seems to retain things and learn them - even if I am interested in the topic. Insert X topic here that I am interested in, the information just falls away. Based on what I think is correct in my Natal chart, and as per the materials given here, I can only presume (as I said in a post ages ago) that I must have used narcotics in a previous life, so my Mind is frazzled somewhat now. If that's actually not the case, then... I think I can guess.
Again - some of you here who know me enough know
for certain that I most-definitely
would have replied more, and about more of the things that members replied to me. After I read Donovandal's mention of Saturn, my tone changed in this post, and I deleted other bits. The change of tone might not come through, but maybe recall how I would have responded in the past, and compare it with this post.
Having been burnt with xianity, I've had to be more-careful this time. Despite that, I have had undeniable results from meditation materials shared here. With the help for Astrology, that has helped me with some ideas and direction and learning more about myself, as well. I dipped my toe in the JoS/ToZ and it felt good, but maybe I've just been too careful here, though, too cautious.
Lastly, lastly - I can remember someone said ages ago that they quite like my hard stance on some things. I think it was about the abuses within christianity and how ridiculous "faith" is, etc., but I don't think they specified. I'm not blaming them when I say that I think that... praise, dare I say, lodged in my head and I've been holding on to it tightly. Sorry...
As I have said before, apparently I need to learn the hard way. Did I embarrass myself here? Perhaps. Does it feel uncomfortable, making me wonder what everyone who reads my posts thinks of me, which does matter because I am here? Quite. Does that discomfort and movement out of comfort because of the previous 2 points make me want, and feel obligated, as if it's not a choice, to improve? Curse the Planet Saturn. (That means yes.)