truckstophjob
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to be back.
I had dedicated sometime in the winter of '04-'05.
I'm 19 now - catholic schooling, catholic father catholic mother (who thinks she is Italian - 1st generation Italian-American) and an abusive hateful home.
It feels so good to be back.
My dad had found the joyofsatan.org sites and the yahoo message board sites and decided to tresspass. This GREATLY influenced/curbed my FREEDOM in FATHER SATAN that I had found.
Unfortunately I was weakened throughout highschool by all family members playing the guilt card, sympathy card, and all other self-destructive methods to change ME - and I STILL graduated on time.
I now realize that it was Father Satan and Asmodeus that had come to my aid when I NEEDED it. I did many different rituals to purge my hatred, power meditation to bring myself peace and healing, invocation to Asmodeus for the death of my dad - the man who was supposed to raise and guide me but instead put my life in constant, REAL danger - while he lives today, not long after I did these things through Satan and Asmodeus did I get the MOST POSITIVE RESULT POSSIBLE: I ended up living with my tolerable enough mom whom I DO love (I won't deny my blood) throughout my high school life with my dad 700 miles away. While they only cared about their EXTREMELY unhealthy marriage (another f*cked up aspect of their religion and how it will promote abusive LIFE cycles to continue) I STILL RECEIVED THE JUSTICE AND PROPER TREATMENT I STARVED FOR IN ORDER TO GROW! THANKS TO SATAN! THANKS TO ASMODEUS!
Over time, with all the huge changes in my life and knowing that I needed to focus on school and friends, I had forgotten what I had started. While I knew all along the truth about my family's faith, I had to "fake it to make it" here today.
NOW I have taken MY LIFE back. Hail Satan and the Gods of Hell!
My main reason for posting is to give those who are currently in situations similar to what mine was the REAL hope of your situation. Focus on your life and what you need to do, live your life, have fun, be yourself even if you are all alone in doing so - your mind is resilient, perserverant, and STRONG. You have already grown through all of the pains of oppression by coming to Satan's truth, and know that your mind will NEVER abandon you and will hold this first step to reclaiming all of the parts of your Human Being, and ultimately, your love and fulfillment in your Self.
Just keep fighting,
-Michael Gabriel
I had dedicated sometime in the winter of '04-'05.
I'm 19 now - catholic schooling, catholic father catholic mother (who thinks she is Italian - 1st generation Italian-American) and an abusive hateful home.
It feels so good to be back.
My dad had found the joyofsatan.org sites and the yahoo message board sites and decided to tresspass. This GREATLY influenced/curbed my FREEDOM in FATHER SATAN that I had found.
Unfortunately I was weakened throughout highschool by all family members playing the guilt card, sympathy card, and all other self-destructive methods to change ME - and I STILL graduated on time.
I now realize that it was Father Satan and Asmodeus that had come to my aid when I NEEDED it. I did many different rituals to purge my hatred, power meditation to bring myself peace and healing, invocation to Asmodeus for the death of my dad - the man who was supposed to raise and guide me but instead put my life in constant, REAL danger - while he lives today, not long after I did these things through Satan and Asmodeus did I get the MOST POSITIVE RESULT POSSIBLE: I ended up living with my tolerable enough mom whom I DO love (I won't deny my blood) throughout my high school life with my dad 700 miles away. While they only cared about their EXTREMELY unhealthy marriage (another f*cked up aspect of their religion and how it will promote abusive LIFE cycles to continue) I STILL RECEIVED THE JUSTICE AND PROPER TREATMENT I STARVED FOR IN ORDER TO GROW! THANKS TO SATAN! THANKS TO ASMODEUS!
Over time, with all the huge changes in my life and knowing that I needed to focus on school and friends, I had forgotten what I had started. While I knew all along the truth about my family's faith, I had to "fake it to make it" here today.
NOW I have taken MY LIFE back. Hail Satan and the Gods of Hell!
My main reason for posting is to give those who are currently in situations similar to what mine was the REAL hope of your situation. Focus on your life and what you need to do, live your life, have fun, be yourself even if you are all alone in doing so - your mind is resilient, perserverant, and STRONG. You have already grown through all of the pains of oppression by coming to Satan's truth, and know that your mind will NEVER abandon you and will hold this first step to reclaiming all of the parts of your Human Being, and ultimately, your love and fulfillment in your Self.
Just keep fighting,
-Michael Gabriel
