Is the enemy attacking me?

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I don't know if what I'm going through is normal or not, but I really need help and advice from everyone who can give it. So, some background: I've been doing the 40 day meditation for awhile now; I've just finished my 11th day. But, things are different now as opposed to when I started. For example, when I started I experienced euphoria, extreme relaxation, positivity, and so on. I could meditate and just let go. I could concentrate on what I was visualizing. But, more recently, these things have begun to turn into constant worry, anxiety, negativity, inability to focus, etc. Even in void meditation, there are always thoughts racing around in my head to the point that I feel I'm going crazy. It takes me a loooong time in void meditation to even begin to clear my mind, and in some meditation sessions I can only get close to that point. Obviously it's not meditation itself that's causing it, as some Christians would try to have me believe, but I know it has to be either the enemy, my personal mental illnesses, or a combination of both. As a result of PTSD, I tend to dissociate a lot and live inside my head instead of being present to the world around me, so that could be a reason for my difficulties.. Or maybe this is a normal thing that happens as one progresses. I really wouldn't know but that's why I'm turning to all you. What do you personally think the problem is, and how can I fix it?

 

[sorcerersmagick]

Our progress is different for every one - no two are exactly the same. I think you have already answered your own questions.

Just stick with your empowerment program and things should settle down.

This is just me , but I started out with good results but certain 'strange' phenomena started happening...sounds when I went to bed, a presence of something and a slight sense of foreboding. I still don't know if it was real or just imaginings, but things settled down.

Just trust in Satan and you might consider doing a ritual asking about your Guardian Demon AFTER you finish your empowerment program - I always say you've got to learn to walk before you run!

I hope this helped!

HAIL SATAN!

 

[donotfearthetruth666]

This will explain to you fully
www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Clearing_Out.html

 

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As always, thank all of you so much. You're really helping me through this a lot and I appreciate it so much.