Introducing myself – My experience with Satanism

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My name is Leo and I was a Christian… born in a christian house. At the age of 8 I’ve become depressed for the first time. My parents wouldn’t allow me to have the right treatment because depression was “a devil’s thing”, and they made me pray my way out of that. But it didn’t work. As depression kept on growing, I entered even deeper into christianity. At the age 14 I was already a “prophet”, receiving messages and passing along. With the politics and money invading the church (and people saying that I was speaking in the name of the devil because of my divinations) I abandoned the practice of visiting it, but I was still a christian, now as a rebel one (the worst kind). I was constantly afraid that one day the devil would come and claim my soul, cause I always felt like I wasn’t a christian (even more because my name is composed by three names, Roman, Arabic and German – so you know how crazy christianity made me). But I was eager to learn about the occult. And so I did, in secrecy (JoS was my favorite source). Like we all know, this christian religion has nothing to offer and I grew tired of it. I was at the point of committing suicide for the second time (I tried to kill myself a few years ago) when I had a dream where I was bleeding to death and talking to a friend who is a kardecist. Next day I called this friend and entered the “Spiritism” for the first time. In 3 weeks I was free from my depression and didn’t have the death wish anymore. I started questioning the existence of this god I was serving, since I was feeling better in a place that communicates with spirits. That’s how christianity started to crumble before my eyes. One night I had another dream. But it wasn’t a dream, it felt real. It was a place with almost no light and I was being teleported to different locations in that place, talking to people. Sudden I was in the middle of that city and a man passed me by and said “There is no reward!”, and I felt terrified by that. It felt like days in one night and I was tired and scared. So I thought about praying, but I had the consciousness that the god (the god I knew) wasn’t a god. That’s when I called for Lucifer… In the same moment I pronounced His name, someone appeared behind me (a tall and strong figure) and with both arms embraced me and flew me out of there. That presence wasn’t like any other I’ve had experience before. This presence was pure energy, a very powerful being. One of His forearms covered half of my abs and chest, and the other covered my face when He grabbed me. Next thing I remember I was lying in my bed, disorientated. The mediums in the kardecist house I went want me to work for them, because they said I have a huge amount of energy and, of course, came intimidations like “it can be troubling for you if you don’t work this gift with us”. But I feel a strong and deep voice telling me not to go back. And I will obey. I’ve been meditating since my dedication and strange things are happening around me like clocks pulsing the seconds (literally like a heart), doors opening in the middle of the night, and it is peaceful when it happens. It’s like the Gods are telling me They are here for me. Those things would scare me to death in past days, but now it helps me to keep my faith in Lucifer and His Demons.   So if anyone had the patience to read this long letter (sorry for that, and  the bad english), I also want to thank you all brothers for fighting against all odds to keep this knowledge available, because it really saved my life (I mean saved this life I’m in right now). Like I heard from my guardian, my soul belongs to them for more time that I can conceive. Thanks to you all for opening my eyes to the true Gods and the true spiritual world.