I'm so fucking Pissed off, depressed, annoyed..

[Bravera]

I'm too far lost within my dreams.
So far lost that's its become a Curse.

I cant hardly even lay my head down at night because I know of the Man I could be.

I have been betrayed so many times..
Most of all by my own Weaknesses.

But it would seem necessary and vital for my own advancements that I do rely on the Foundations and blessings of Family and Community.

However, I do not feel like a Man when I must rely on others. How many times have I heard that it is embarrassing for a Man to live with his Mother, I should be greatful and proud to support her, but I am disgusted with this lifestyle.

I did create a place for myself in this world, where I may relax and be comfortable. But, again, my dreams have become my Curse.

I recently lost the most incredible job, I should have done a better job at focusing on my Spiritual Protection, but I had decided it was more important to focus on my Work temporarily In order to advance further and carve a path away from the necessity to rely upon others.

I got sick, and I got fired...



I have decided it is best for me to accept this Outcome of my actions.

It would seem again I am further reminded, the only way to succeed in this life, is to Focus 666% on spiritual Development.

Perhaps I should thank the Chaos of the Universe for Granting Me the Wisdom of what it really takes to achieve true Strength and Independence.

 

[Hrodrik Avernus [SG]]

Do not focus so much on the negative, rather focus on how you can learn from this experience, pick yourself up and do what you have to do.

You need to find a balance between the spiritual and the physical as they are both needed.

If you haven't gotten into astrology yet, I suggest you do so, as it will help you identify these karmic patterns.

You are not cursed, you just need to take full control of your life. If you're not happy with your current circumstances, do everything in your power to create new circumstances, with magick and physical action in the material world.

Change your habits, change your routines, do what the man you'd wish to be, would do. In time you will become that man.

 

[Bravera]

Change your habits, change your routines, do what the man you'd wish to be, would do. In time you will become that man.

This is exactly what I needed to hear, I had always thought, "My future self will thank me". I will do a better job of actually Being the Man I wish to become!

 

[Aquarius]

When thinking about an action you will take, think about the outcome in the short term and the long term. How will you feel, where will that lead you? And decide if the action is worth taking.

 

[Henu the Great]

When thinking about an action you will take, think about the outcome in the short term and the long term. How will you feel, where will that lead you? And decide if the action is worth taking.

We are the consequences of our actions. When the consequences are unsatisfactory, the actions must be changed-resulting in a new set of consequences.

 

[Aquarius]

When thinking about an action you will take, think about the outcome in the short term and the long term. How will you feel, where will that lead you? And decide if the action is worth taking.

We are the consequences of our actions. When the consequences are unsatisfactory, the actions must be changed-resulting in a new set of consequences.

Yes, Brother.

 

[serpentwalker666]

I'm too far lost within my dreams.
So far lost that's its become a Curse.

I cant hardly even lay my head down at night because I know of the Man I could be.

I have been betrayed so many times..
Most of all by my own Weaknesses.

But it would seem necessary and vital for my own advancements that I do rely on the Foundations and blessings of Family and Community.

However, I do not feel like a Man when I must rely on others. How many times have I heard that it is embarrassing for a Man to live with his Mother, I should be greatful and proud to support her, but I am disgusted with this lifestyle.

I did create a place for myself in this world, where I may relax and be comfortable. But, again, my dreams have become my Curse.

I recently lost the most incredible job, I should have done a better job at focusing on my Spiritual Protection, but I had decided it was more important to focus on my Work temporarily In order to advance further and carve a path away from the necessity to rely upon others.

I got sick, and I got fired...



I have decided it is best for me to accept this Outcome of my actions.

It would seem again I am further reminded, the only way to succeed in this life, is to Focus 666% on spiritual Development.

Perhaps I should thank the Chaos of the Universe for Granting Me the Wisdom of what it really takes to achieve true Strength and Independence.

You are not the only one to struggle with this, and you will not be the last. Do not be so hard on yourself.

Their is other jobs, and perhaps even greater opportunities then you describe. Sure, you got fired from a great job. But is it really that bad?

You have an infinitely great path before you. You can continue and find an even greater advantage and I'm sure in time you'll end up somewhere that makes this missed opportunity look very small in the grand scheme of things.

I was like you. In a similar position for many years.

Difference was I was very sick, and couldn't work really. For close to 3 entire years. I had to work from home for an extremely small amount of money. I constantly came up short.

It was necessary for me at that time unfortunately. But it did give me much needed time for my advancement and making other steps forward. Which led me to the point I am now.

Keep your head up. It gets better and it may seem like the end of the road having missed something along the way.... but it is not. You have so much going for you that will be there and happen as you push forward.

Hail Satan!

 

[Priest - Alexandros Iowno]

Broaden your perspective when you feel limited and without hope. A stoic attitude will help and understanding each of our conditions of life must be accepted, for only then to change it.

Do not believe that refusing reality or negative things will make them disappear. But accepting this reality, so we can understand it, can give us the power to refuse it and change/transform it.

Without accepting things how they are, we become inherently blind and retarded where the action is concerned.

So, accept that you are lacking some qualities that are supposed to NOT be there by the laws of reality, at first. This is not defeat but the beginning. Things are deserved and there only after we get there, we build this, we create this.

The human mind disables growth by the confined limited perspective it has.

The same realization and acceptance that you are not a God, you are not a bird, must happen to the things which you are not yet, but you can become. With a raw and decisive outlook on this, you can see the distance and the things that they must happen so you get there.

This applies to illnesses as well, which if the perspective is put into motion, a sense and direction of progress then ensures. Without these vectors of reality, we are unknowingly going somewhere, bad or good.

Also, being upset about something can grow and touch a more potent gravity from within you, spiritually. These two circular things of life, playfulness, and seriousness must be correctly used. So serious and important things should be treated with the according state of mind.

Do not laugh and become a daisy where your life and health is concerned. Be upset and inquisitive with your resources and actions. Leave the playfulness to its time.

 

[AFODO]

Waiting for your army to be built. Hopefully everyone will think the same, do the same, and be a total copy of your superior self, otherwise they might get punished by your unsurpassable power. The Gods definitely provides you a straight obstacle-free road, as you are the true prophet of the gods, no real followers of the gods exist yet, the JoS is just a starting point, where people can't advance to your glory, it's a gift from the gods.

Anyways, good luck.

 

[Bravera]

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Seems to me you lost by revealing your role as an Infiltrator.
My loyalties are with JOS.

Maybe you actually tried to do some meditations and you have too much imbalance in your chakras.
Try again.

Or I can laugh as the Universe wipes you from its memory xDDD

 

[sspxchud]

However, I do not feel like a Man when I must rely on others. How many times have I heard that it is embarrassing for a Man to live with his Mother, I should be greatful and proud to support her, but I am disgusted with this lifestyle.

There's nothing wrong with living with your mother, as long as you support her and help with the chores. The economy is not doing very well and the last thing you need is to feel bad because of something that a lot of young people do. It's wise to save money, specially in these concerning and chaotic times, also, I bet your mom it's happy to have her son near her.

A man has to accept that he sometimes needs help, independence is good, yes, but we're social beings, you are going to need help from other people, and that doesn't make you less of a man or an effeminate person (people are going to need your help too!). You are going to stop your progress if you keep trying to do everything by yourself.

I recently lost the most incredible job, I should have done a better job at focusing on my Spiritual Protection, but I had decided it was more important to focus on my Work temporarily In order to advance further and carve a path away from the necessity to rely upon others.

I got sick, and I got fired...

That really sucks, but maybe soon you'll find an even better job. Don't think it's over yet, keep trying and you'll be back on your feet in no time! Hope you feel better soon.

 

[Voice of Enki [SG]]

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Agreed. The presence of this person is completely worthless here on our forum.

If anything, I believe harboring them is harmful for the overall impression of our Ancient forum.

Imagine someone comes here, and the first things he sees are this schizo posting idiot? They will just leave.

Not to mention that nothing they have ever said holds any value whatsoever to anyone here or to anyone who seeks the answers from the JoS.

People like him should make their own blog.

The Ancient forums are not the personal blog of every egomaniac sociopath and other idiot out there.

 

[Ol argedco luciftias]

.....

...

I told y'all already. He's a real life MmGoodboy.


www.youtube.com/watch?v=T-3wfdJMtuI&pp=ygUUbWF0dCBzaGFuZSBtbWdvb2Rib3k%3D

 

[Kitsunebi]

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Agreed. The presence of this person is completely worthless here on our forum.

If anything, I believe harboring them is harmful for the overall impression of our Ancient forum.

Imagine someone comes here, and the first things he sees are this schizo posting idiot? They will just leave.

Not to mention that nothing they have ever said holds any value whatsoever to anyone here or to anyone who seeks the answers from the JoS.

People like him should make their own blog.

The Ancient forums are not the personal blog of every egomaniac sociopath and other idiot out there.

That's why I stopped talking about my life anymore and instead went on fixing it myself.

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...

I told y'all already. He's a real life MmGoodboy.


www.youtube.com/watch?v=T-3wfdJMtuI&pp=ygUUbWF0dCBzaGFuZSBtbWdvb2Rib3k%3D

GOD DAMN ABYSSOS IS ATE!!! :lol: :lol: :lol:

 

[Kitsunebi]

...

Agreed. The presence of this person is completely worthless here on our forum.

If anything, I believe harboring them is harmful for the overall impression of our Ancient forum.

Imagine someone comes here, and the first things he sees are this schizo posting idiot? They will just leave.

Not to mention that nothing they have ever said holds any value whatsoever to anyone here or to anyone who seeks the answers from the JoS.

People like him should make their own blog.

The Ancient forums are not the personal blog of every egomaniac sociopath and other idiot out there.

That's why I stopped talking about my life anymore and instead went on fixing it myself.

Well...this didn't age well when I posted that stupid losing will and motivation post...but that's totally over now.

 

[Matt.TheEnvoyOfSol]

Well...this didn't age well when I posted that stupid losing will and motivation post...but that's totally over now.

For what it’s worth, it’s not uncommon for Zevism to go through these sort of motions granted you did some uncommon things, but at the end of the day it’s our mistakes that make us who we are.
Not to scorned but to see how far we’ve come.
Not to be overly regretful because now you can help others in similar situations.

You seem like a cool guy if only a little Wild(fire)… okay I’ll leave :lol:
I’m glad you’re doing better, That avatar suits you.

 

[Kitsunebi]

Well...this didn't age well when I posted that stupid losing will and motivation post...but that's totally over now.

I’m glad you’re doing better, That avatar suits you.

bork...

https://youtube.com/shorts/vTUc8ePVAig?si=HN3NL_kYopoDXThf

 

[Matt.TheEnvoyOfSol]

Well...this didn't age well when I posted that stupid losing will and motivation post...but that's totally over now.

I’m glad you’re doing better, That avatar suits you.

bork...

https://youtube.com/shorts/vTUc8ePVAig?si=HN3NL_kYopoDXThf

I think I Laughed a little too hard at this. the fox literally sounds like they’re faking it :lol: