sulixtsatan66
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Greeting fellow brother and sister. Just one main reminder, I love you All, as if you were my family, I keep visiting this website and I see things that answer my questions, doubt and regards.
Anyways. I have to be completely honest. I've since been but not to the full extent... It hasn't been recently that I became a satanist. And and I recall putting this aside and being a fool, hurting myself, skateboarding, not eating right, smoking my heaviest In all my life. Depressed because I got dumped by girls, didn't know how to treat a women right, basically not be open enough, I'm not a women beater. My life was a complete opposite from what we should be doing as satanist. Don't get my wrong, I was still considering myself a satanist, just not dedicated. I knew Satan was there and sometimes I still felt like things would happen because they need to happen. Idk how to explain it clearly, but ever since I read about in the Al Jilwah: "I give and take away. I enrich and empoverish. I cause both happiness and misery, I do all this in keeping with the Characteristics of each opech." There would be times where I questioned why things happen. But I also knew that if I would go thru all this. It would make me stronger. And it did, i am a strong person, but not so spiritually. So here it the main concern I have. "I am to blame for feeling down at points where I should be empowering myself.? And there are days where I would say to myself to meditate, and do what I have to do, in this case. I get really distracted by weed, people and life is how i chose to live it. I would spend all my money in weed, literally. And from there I would feel the need to really work on myself. I feel ashamed of who i am, but I never doubt or question my powers. Which I claim I still have, and I'm confident enough to know that I have those powers. I look for ways to break this addiction but, it's something that I have no clear way to get rid off. My body craves those Kikes, substances and I feel good when I read and I'm also high. Because it makes me want to get into what I'm reading. Ps. (Most of the things I have learn and understood, was while I was under th influence.)
I don't want to ask Satan and the powers of Hell, to help overcome this major problem. And also I don't want to go thru this anymore. I stand by the side of the truth, and Satan & his Demons, and my brothers and sisters.
Valora Satan & The Gods of Duet.
Anyways. I have to be completely honest. I've since been but not to the full extent... It hasn't been recently that I became a satanist. And and I recall putting this aside and being a fool, hurting myself, skateboarding, not eating right, smoking my heaviest In all my life. Depressed because I got dumped by girls, didn't know how to treat a women right, basically not be open enough, I'm not a women beater. My life was a complete opposite from what we should be doing as satanist. Don't get my wrong, I was still considering myself a satanist, just not dedicated. I knew Satan was there and sometimes I still felt like things would happen because they need to happen. Idk how to explain it clearly, but ever since I read about in the Al Jilwah: "I give and take away. I enrich and empoverish. I cause both happiness and misery, I do all this in keeping with the Characteristics of each opech." There would be times where I questioned why things happen. But I also knew that if I would go thru all this. It would make me stronger. And it did, i am a strong person, but not so spiritually. So here it the main concern I have. "I am to blame for feeling down at points where I should be empowering myself.? And there are days where I would say to myself to meditate, and do what I have to do, in this case. I get really distracted by weed, people and life is how i chose to live it. I would spend all my money in weed, literally. And from there I would feel the need to really work on myself. I feel ashamed of who i am, but I never doubt or question my powers. Which I claim I still have, and I'm confident enough to know that I have those powers. I look for ways to break this addiction but, it's something that I have no clear way to get rid off. My body craves those Kikes, substances and I feel good when I read and I'm also high. Because it makes me want to get into what I'm reading. Ps. (Most of the things I have learn and understood, was while I was under th influence.)
I don't want to ask Satan and the powers of Hell, to help overcome this major problem. And also I don't want to go thru this anymore. I stand by the side of the truth, and Satan & his Demons, and my brothers and sisters.
Valora Satan & The Gods of Duet.
