Yes Raven, Xians cloying and insatiable compulsion to force their 'religion' onto others is sickening. I can't really tell you what to do as it's your life but, If it were me, the first thing I would do is find a new physical activity that I can do that will get me out of the house and away from them.
For example maybe working out at the local gym...something that you enjoy. Maybe biking. Whatever it is, a strong body is helpful. If you can, go to yoga classes. Basically good for you things that give you an excuse they won't question to get the hell away from them. The benefits are several because, as an Zevism, its not enough to do meditations alone. You HAVE to do yoga and things that strengthen your body as if the kundalini tries to rise and you are all unfit and have blocked chakras (yoga clears the stuck energy), it can actually be very bad. When your body is fit you can handle greater amounts of bio electricity. Also, regular exercise will give you a positive boost in mood and lower your depression. Improved self-esteem is also a key psychological benefit of regular physical activity. When you exercise, your body releases chemicals called endorphins. These endorphins interact with the receptors in your brain that reduce your perception of pain. Endorphins trigger a positive feeling in the body.
I would set about to make some new friends, ones who AREN'T Xians and in this way find someone you might be able to live with that way. Moving in with another Xian is hardly going to be helpful. Their presence is poison. You want to get away from them.
Take your rosary and find a quiet spot outside and do your meditations there, where you won't be suddenly walked in on. Hell, if you have to, find a good tree, climb it and meditate up there, where nobody can interrupt or overhear you. Where there is a will there is always a way. No Xian is stronger than a real Satanist. She's just an annoying fanatic. Merely a buzzing fly. Annoying, yes, but hardly something that can overpower you. If you allow yourself to think she is stronger, then you have conceded defeat, you see. Don't do that. This Jesus character is a thought form. Keep up a strong aura of protection.
step one Blast your aura clean:108 (full rosary) Suraye.
say this Hear me oh Great and Mighty Satan. I ask your help in returning these curses, amplified to the senders who have attacked us for doing your work. You know who they are. They will know your wrath. I ask that you send a Demon to me to take and deliver the curses and thoughtforms that I have cleaned from my aura and soul directly to those who have sent them. O Mighty Satan, fill me with truth, wisdom and understanding, keep me strong in my faith and service, that I may abide always in Thee with Praise, Honor, and Glory be given Thee forever and ever.
1. see the ball of light over your head and say: "The light is cleaning and removing any and all negative energy, thoughtforms, and curses on or connected to my soul that have been directed to me, and is returning them to the senders.”
2. Visualize this Sun descending down into your head and pushing down any dirt, filth, thoughtforms [thoughtforms can appear as chunks of filth or for those who are advanced, you can see them as they may be shapes, symbols, like elementals, or otherwise]. This will be grey or black energy [as it collects], and will get darker as it descends.
3. Visualize the brilliant light descending through your throat, down through your shoulders, chest, then stomach area, hips and all the way down through your feet, pushing out all of the dirt from your aura and soul.
4. Move the filth beside you, in a pile.
5. DO THIS THREE TIMES, steps 1 through 4. Keep piling the dirt.
6. When you are finished, your aura and soul should be much brighter and cleaner. You can either ask for a Demon to take the energy and to return it to the senders [especially if you’re new], OR, you can visualize it shooting away from you, directing it to the senders.
then affirm into the light in your aura Affirm 18 times: “My aura is constantly deflecting and repelling any and all negative energies, ill will, spite, curses, bindings, hatred and destructive energy directed to me and is immediately returning these directly back to the senders.”
This will help you resist the influence of the Xians. Let me be clear though: I'm recommending passive quiet resistance. Not screaming in their faces Hail Satan (as good as that might feel) since you are still dependent on them. Merely do a strategic withdrawal, live to fight another day, pick and choose your battles...Satan has said
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Now, then, all ye who have followed my commandments and my teachings, reject all the teachings and sayings of such as are without. I have not taught these teachings, nor do they proceed from me. Do not mention my name nor my attributes, lest ye regret it; for ye do not know what those who are without may do.”
I assume you are Dedicated. I would definitely be asking my GD to help me find a way to eventually win free of these people. Theres no reason to fear they will find out you are a Satanist, so long as you DON'T tell them. If they can't respect your personal privacy at home, then keep anything Satanic in your locker at school in a backpack, where only YOU can access it. Pay lip service if you are forced to (like if they are dragging you to church) while in your heart knowing you are merely doing this to maintain the facade. Use the time in church to do meditations in your head. Satan will understand. It's a hard situation. I get you love your Dad. Thats natural. And its hard. Don't give up. You'll get through it
Best of luck, Raven.
Hail Satan!