--- In [url=][/url], Hernan Teran <hernanteran@... wrote:
You might be right. But I always felt like it was nothing. I never felt much towards it. Therapists ive been to thought that caused it aswell but i could never really feel like it had a big impact on me. My sister which was 7 at the time was with me. I am afraid that she got raped. After I ran away from him I just remember crying with my sister in the bathroom. Then I just black out. But um i thank you for your help and I shall do these things. Thank you
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From: "lydia_666@..." <lydia_666@...
To: [url=][/url]
Sent: Sunday, January 22, 2012 9:40 AM
Subject: Re: I need help...please
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Sometimes things affect us more than we realize, and we need to deal with those to move on. In one sentence you said you don't know why you started feeling depressed from the age of 8, and in another you said you were raped at that age.
"I could never remember what really affected me to start feeling that way. I was raped when i was 8". You see the connection? This has affected you more than you are willing to accept, based on how you wrote (I majored in psychology). I'm just going by this post, so please excuse me if I am in error here, but this is all I have to go by.
A steady, daily power meditation program will help, as will daily yoga. If you want to tackle the issue fully, you need to deal with it head-on. You can use affirmations, or vibrate runes. Ansuz and Sowilo might be good choices (
http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Odin.html).
Hope this helps.
Hail Satan!
Hail Set!
--- In [url=][/url], "Hernan" <hernanteran@ wrote:
Last year I was new to satanism and will basically still am. I even dedicated feeling it was right to do it since i wanted to commit. But a few things happened last year that made me stop believing in anything. I developed eating disorders like Bulimia and Anorexia. My girlfriend left me (most likely was cheating on me)left me for her best friend without saying anything. And well depression. I have been depressed since I was 8. Always feelings suicidal and well i just hate life. I dont know what started it. I could never remember what really affected me to start feeling that way. I was raped when i was 8, i was bullied for being fat, my parents seperated for some time and well they fought a lot a lot, my dad wasnt there, I felt i was a failure because my mom always expected straight A's and i never got them so she always got angry and sometimes even beat me. I decided to believe in Jesus i got baptized when i was 8. But nothing ever got better. So
last year i even attempted suicide. Not just once but three times. This year im still struggling with eating disorders, depression, and the thought of that girl that is still dating her best friend. I dont want to feel like this anymore. I want to get stronger. But i dont know where to begin and what to do. I just ask for guidance. Thank you to those that respond I appreciate it very much.