HP ShannonOutlaw you had asked me to update you

[zolaluckystar1]

Hi, this is to HP Shannon Outlaw, you said to update you on this woman I gave the links to all the sites, JOS etc...
I have only seen her four times since: First time she said she hadn't yet looked at anything but that she would probably have opinions and would ask me stuff later. Second time she avoided me like I had the plague and her friendliness (when I made a point of saying hello) was forced. She was scared of me. Third time she brought a friend and (while of course I could be paranoid) I swear she pointed me out and had a little conversation about me with her right before the yoga class. The fourth time (yesterday) she seemed cautiously friendly again and wanting to speak to me! She asked me to wait for her. I did, she wanted to talk about her human rights work. I don't want to be the pushy fuck proselytizing so I did not ask if she has been reading JOS. I feel she DID look at it and was frightened, by JOS and possibly by me but has been getting over it. I know it floored me to learn the God I sought all my life's name was Satan. I had absorbed the lie that Satan hates me and so I was really afraid of Him. I took two weeks to think it over before I went back to JOS and began to study. Anyhow, it felt like it was a good thing to just simply stand out there in the dark with her and let her speak, give her an active ear, to let her know I actually AM a safe person. A Satanist is a safe/decent/caring person. Of course we are. We are Humanity's Champions. Does that make sense? Perhaps eventually she'll come around? I don't know. I'm not pushing anything. I'm just quietly there if she ever wants to ask. So that's where that's at.

This theme of do I give people who have seen my face the links has come up again: I was at a private meeting last night and listening to this speaker. Some of her thoughts were good, some not and some downright inaccurate and insulting. At some point she was asked if she believed Aliens were here on Earth, and behind the worlds problems. She said something to the effect that if there are any, its no wonder they don't come out into the open, because look at all the evil WE have done! We are all Satanists! she said. My ears perked up. I thought: WTF? She goes on: what else can you call all the Evil we do on this planet? It is Satanic! Well, I was furious. But there you go, the idea that WE as the human races are the problem. Thats a big fucking jewish lie. WE aren't the problem, THEY are. That really gets me boiling. Probably because I felt a lot of shame for years over that one, being made to feel ashamed to even be a human. And then to call it Satanic in the context of Total Evil on top of it!
My head started to pound. The center of my forehead in particular. It literally started to hurt. I kept silent – don't reveal yourself as a Satanist - Damn I wanted to! - I wanted so bad to jump up in front of that audience  and say you don't know SHIT about what a Satanist is, HOW DARE YOU?! But it would be revealing myself. But It makes me feel like I am letting Satan down, though, when I don't stand up and defend him in situations like this. And they keep happening, like they never did before I dedicated. And I get really torn up in this regard. I feel it as real pain in my heart. I am getting tears just writing about it! I HATE having to be silent!
But as the talk went on I just HAD to say something. So I stuck up my hand and she didn't want to let me speak (I guess I looked like trouble)! She tried to talk over me and deflect me! But I insisted to speak – I talked over HER - and I said: You don't want to let me speak but I'm going to have my say. You have danced all around this subject tonight so let me just say this: Lets not pretend we don't know all about the 1% who rule this earth right now, who owns the media, the governments, education, medical, entertainment, etc etc. So now to the big elephant in the room: They are all JEWS. And they follow a racial segregation policy in regards to who gets into their Israel that would blow you away. While at the same time they push this multiculturalism upon the rest of us! And do you know why? Because its genocide! Our cultures are under attack at the roots! A tree will die without its roots! We are in an undeclared WAR! This is mass genocide, what is happening in Europe!
Well, most of them just looked at me with saucer eyes and open mouths (I rarely speak and I was uncharacteristically, totally furious, almost yelling), but one white male (as it turns out a human rights lawyer) He jumped in and said: She is absolutely right! And picking up my ball he ran with it with facts and so on!
I spoke with him at length after and he is very informed, he said the white race is an endangered species, even mentioned how the Jews were a major problem in Rome and elsewhere in the ancient world! It was so great to speak with someone of this mental caliber. Super articulate and informed. If he's not a Satanist he ought to be. I'll be seeing him again next time hes back in town in a few weeks. I am thinking I will send him a link to Satan's Library to all the work there on Hitler. I think he'd find it pretty interesting and edifying.
I was pleased when I went into the hosts bedroom to grab my coat off the bed, he has a large Nazi banner hanging. I was talking to him after too. He said: I do think there are aliens here. I said well of course there are, hello! There are two camps, the anti human camp and the Nordics. Well, the good Nordics that is – some of them aren't good. He says, the Reptilians and the greys...the bad Nordics...and the Jews? They are the anti-human faction? I go: Now, you're getting it! Sound the bell – school is in!
So the Nordics – he says - the good ones – they are real too? I said: Oh, YES. VERY REAL. He said: Oh, how I would LOVE to meet one of them and speak to them! And I thought: Yes, and his name is Satan! And I would love to help hook you up, too.
I have been sending him links over the last couple of months, you know, not admitting to anything just going: Hey, this is interesting: and a link. Check this essay out! And another link. He is SO close, but not quite there. I seem to keep getting into this situation...
I am glad you wanted an update and are willing to speak to me. It gives me a chance to say how I feel about how torn up I am. It really hurts. If I think I am letting Him down. If you care to share any thoughts I would be grateful. Thanks.

Hail Satan Forever!
PS:
Something very odd and weirdly symbolic happened the other day in relation to this topic of hiding. I'm sitting in a restaurant eating lunch and brooding about how the fucking Xians can push their filth openly while we have to hide, how much this hiding as if I have something to be ashamed of pisses me off! I had tears of rage in my eyes. When as if in response, a NUN in full regalia comes walking into the place! To see one of these is VERY rare where I live. It almost never happens. So for it to happen NOW was beyond coincidence. Peddling her filthy religion too, just as if in response to my brooding. As if to say: That's right, and there's NOTHING you can do about it! They were calendars featuring the jew on a stick. And so certain of no interference was she/it she left it on the counter and went to the washroom, probably to shit, how apropos.
I couldn't control myself. The owners back was turned. I saw my opportunity. I HAD to do something! So I leaped silently up, crossed the room to it, grabbed it, returned to my table and hid it under my newspaper, picked up my fork and resumed eating calmly as though nothing had happened. So she returns and the calendar is vanished. Of course she suspects me, any fool would, she and I are the only customers in the joint! I'm watching intently with my peripheral vision. She shot me a truly evil glare! So much for love! She tried to get the owner to join his energy to hers so the two of them could approach my side of the room and confront me. But he was indifferent. She would have to confront me alone. And I sat there thinking: Come on, come on, I fucking DARE you...
It was a weird tableau, the suddenly empty restaurant (it had been bustling before she/it came walking in), kind of like high noon at the OK Corral and all the townies have dived for cover. And there's this weird electricity in the air: It's just the two opposite sides left in the open to duke it out:

The Satanist versus the Nun. But she didn't have the guts and left. Of course later I tore that thing up. I just felt this was significant, she was the enemy’s version of a HP, in a way (not that I wish to denigrate you or any of the others with that comparison), but I mean, this wasn't a civilian, you know what I mean? And it did feel like she was sent to taunt me.
I don't know what is going on, but something is. You have lots of experience and I don't. So anything you say would be welcome. Thanks very much.

 

[Shannon Outlaw]

I am most certainly not downsizing myself but we all have different talents, perceptions and experiences. I know other members here can also give you their wisdom and advice. Just use your judgement and know when to react and when to not. You also want to keep your safety in mind, as you already know. Don't feel as if Satan will be upset at you if you choose to remain silent during certain situations.
These 'coincidences' sometimes are tests of character from the gods and many times these experiences and occurrences related to our path in satanism are partially due to a reticular activating system among other things. What I am saying is, in Satanism we become aware of and experience the things we open ourselves up to mentally. This is how the brain works, with association and it is also is one factor in how magick works. 
I remember in the past, I did some research on the Rastafarian movement. I was very determined to understand and debunk it and about an hour later while going home on the train a man who followed that movement came on the train. It was so blatant and such a coincidence that it made sense to me. He was there, not even 3 feet from me. You can see that he very much wanted to show off his faith because he was wearing all the colors and symbolism and even down to the silly music he played pertaining to his beliefs,and  even though it is illegal to play music loudly in public on the train. It was ridiculous to say the least...
As for the women you spoke of, if I read your post correctly, seems as if the truth blew her mind and perhaps the majority of the material on the JoS website was too much for her to comprehend. Ignorance is bliss(?) It happens.
But it seems you found someone else who is more open especially with the understanding of the situation with the white race and the jews, so there is already the common ground you and him have. I hope it goes well. 
You are doing good though in your approach to not not pressure those you relay the SS information too. That shows freedom and comfortability.


Hail our Creator God Satan.

High Priestess Shannonhttps://groups.yahoo.com/BlacksforSatanhttps://groups.yahoo.com/SSHealth


On Wednesday, November 11, 2015 10:19 AM, "zolaluckystar@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[email protected] wrote:


 
Hi, this is to HP Shannon Outlaw, you said to update you on this woman I gave the links to all the sites, JOS etc...
I have only seen her four times since: First time she said she hadn't yet looked at anything but that she would probably have opinions and would ask me stuff later. Second time she avoided me like I had the plague and her friendliness (when I made a point of saying hello) was forced. She was scared of me. Third time she brought a friend and (while of course I could be paranoid) I swear she pointed me out and had a little conversation about me with her right before the yoga class. The fourth time (yesterday) she seemed cautiously friendly again and wanting to speak to me! She asked me to wait for her. I did, she wanted to talk about her human rights work. I don't want to be the pushy fuck proselytizing so I did not ask if she has been reading JOS. I feel she DID look at it and was frightened, by JOS and possibly by me but has been getting over it. I know it floored me to learn the God I sought all my life's name was Satan. I had absorbed the lie that Satan hates me and so I was really afraid of Him. I took two weeks to think it over before I went back to JOS and began to study. Anyhow, it felt like it was a good thing to just simply stand out there in the dark with her and let her speak, give her an active ear, to let her know I actually AM a safe person. A Satanist is a safe/decent/caring person. Of course we are. We are Humanity's Champions. Does that make sense? Perhaps eventually she'll come around? I don't know. I'm not pushing anything. I'm just quietly there if she ever wants to ask. So that's where that's at.

This theme of do I give people who have seen my face the links has come up again: I was at a private meeting last night and listening to this speaker. Some of her thoughts were good, some not and some downright inaccurate and insulting. At some point she was asked if she believed Aliens were here on Earth, and behind the worlds problems. She said something to the effect that if there are any, its no wonder they don't come out into the open, because look at all the evil WE have done! We are all Satanists! she said. My ears perked up. I thought: WTF? She goes on: what else can you call all the Evil we do on this planet? It is Satanic! Well, I was furious. But there you go, the idea that WE as the human races are the problem. Thats a big fucking jewish lie. WE aren't the problem, THEY are. That really gets me boiling. Probably because I felt a lot of shame for years over that one, being made to feel ashamed to even be a human. And then to call it Satanic in the context of Total Evil on top of it!
My head started to pound. The center of my forehead in particular. It literally started to hurt. I kept silent – don't reveal yourself as a Satanist - Damn I wanted to! - I wanted so bad to jump up in front of that audience  and say you don't know SHIT about what a Satanist is, HOW DARE YOU?! But it would be revealing myself. But It makes me feel like I am letting Satan down, though, when I don't stand up and defend him in situations like this. And they keep happening, like they never did before I dedicated. And I get really torn up in this regard. I feel it as real pain in my heart. I am getting tears just writing about it! I HATE having to be silent!
But as the talk went on I just HAD to say something. So I stuck up my hand and she didn't want to let me speak (I guess I looked like trouble)! She tried to talk over me and deflect me! But I insisted to speak – I talked over HER - and I said: You don't want to let me speak but I'm going to have my say. You have danced all around this subject tonight so let me just say this: Lets not pretend we don't know all about the 1% who rule this earth right now, who owns the media, the governments, education, medical, entertainment, etc etc. So now to the big elephant in the room: They are all JEWS. And they follow a racial segregation policy in regards to who gets into their Israel that would blow you away. While at the same time they push this multiculturalism upon the rest of us! And do you know why? Because its genocide! Our cultures are under attack at the roots! A tree will die without its roots! We are in an undeclared WAR! This is mass genocide, what is happening in Europe!
Well, most of them just looked at me with saucer eyes and open mouths (I rarely speak and I was uncharacteristically, totally furious, almost yelling), but one white male (as it turns out a human rights lawyer) He jumped in and said: She is absolutely right! And picking up my ball he ran with it with facts and so on!
I spoke with him at length after and he is very informed, he said the white race is an endangered species, even mentioned how the Jews were a major problem in Rome and elsewhere in the ancient world! It was so great to speak with someone of this mental caliber. Super articulate and informed. If he's not a Satanist he ought to be. I'll be seeing him again next time hes back in town in a few weeks. I am thinking I will send him a link to Satan's Library to all the work there on Hitler. I think he'd find it pretty interesting and edifying.
I was pleased when I went into the hosts bedroom to grab my coat off the bed, he has a large Nazi banner hanging. I was talking to him after too. He said: I do think there are aliens here. I said well of course there are, hello! There are two camps, the anti human camp and the Nordics. Well, the good Nordics that is – some of them aren't good. He says, the Reptilians and the greys...the bad Nordics...and the Jews? They are the anti-human faction? I go: Now, you're getting it! Sound the bell – school is in!
So the Nordics – he says - the good ones – they are real too? I said: Oh, YES. VERY REAL. He said: Oh, how I would LOVE to meet one of them and speak to them! And I thought: Yes, and his name is Satan! And I would love to help hook you up, too.
I have been sending him links over the last couple of months, you know, not admitting to anything just going: Hey, this is interesting: and a link. Check this essay out! And another link. He is SO close, but not quite there. I seem to keep getting into this situation...
I am glad you wanted an update and are willing to speak to me. It gives me a chance to say how I feel about how torn up I am. It really hurts. If I think I am letting Him down. If you care to share any thoughts I would be grateful. Thanks.

Hail Satan Forever!
PS:
Something very odd and weirdly symbolic happened the other day in relation to this topic of hiding. I'm sitting in a restaurant eating lunch and brooding about how the fucking Xians can push their filth openly while we have to hide, how much this hiding as if I have something to be ashamed of pisses me off! I had tears of rage in my eyes. When as if in response, a NUN in full regalia comes walking into the place! To see one of these is VERY rare where I live. It almost never happens. So for it to happen NOW was beyond coincidence. Peddling her filthy religion too, just as if in response to my brooding. As if to say: That's right, and there's NOTHING you can do about it! They were calendars featuring the jew on a stick. And so certain of no interference was she/it she left it on the counter and went to the washroom, probably to shit, how apropos.
I couldn't control myself. The owners back was turned. I saw my opportunity. I HAD to do something! So I leaped silently up, crossed the room to it, grabbed it, returned to my table and hid it under my newspaper, picked up my fork and resumed eating calmly as though nothing had happened. So she returns and the calendar is vanished. Of course she suspects me, any fool would, she and I are the only customers in the joint! I'm watching intently with my peripheral vision. She shot me a truly evil glare! So much for love! She tried to get the owner to join his energy to hers so the two of them could approach my side of the room and confront me. But he was indifferent. She would have to confront me alone. And I sat there thinking: Come on, come on, I fucking DARE you...
It was a weird tableau, the suddenly empty restaurant (it had been bustling before she/it came walking in), kind of like high noon at the OK Corral and all the townies have dived for cover. And there's this weird electricity in the air: It's just the two opposite sides left in the open to duke it out:

The Satanist versus the Nun. But she didn't have the guts and left. Of course later I tore that thing up. I just felt this was significant, she was the enemy’s version of a HP, in a way (not that I wish to denigrate you or any of the others with that comparison), but I mean, this wasn't a civilian, you know what I mean? And it did feel like she was sent to taunt me.
I don't know what is going on, but something is. You have lots of experience and I don't. So anything you say would be welcome. Thanks very much.

 

[Shannon Outlaw]

To not* Hail our Creator God Satan.
High Priestess Shannonhttps://groups.yahoo.com/BlacksforSatanhttps://groups.yahoo.com/SSHealth


On Wednesday, November 11, 2015 2:42 PM, "Shannon Outlaw soutlaw92@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[email protected] wrote:


  I am most certainly not downsizing myself but we all have different talents, perceptions and experiences. I know other members here can also give you their wisdom and advice. Just use your judgement and know when to react and when to not. You also want to keep your safety in mind, as you already know. Don't feel as if Satan will be upset at you if you choose to remain silent during certain situations.
These 'coincidences' sometimes are tests of character from the gods and many times these experiences and occurrences related to our path in satanism are partially due to a reticular activating system among other things. What I am saying is, in Satanism we become aware of and experience the things we open ourselves up to mentally. This is how the brain works, with association and it is also is one factor in how magick works. 
I remember in the past, I did some research on the Rastafarian movement. I was very determined to understand and debunk it and about an hour later while going home on the train a man who followed that movement came on the train. It was so blatant and such a coincidence that it made sense to me. He was there, not even 3 feet from me. You can see that he very much wanted to show off his faith because he was wearing all the colors and symbolism and even down to the silly music he played pertaining to his beliefs,and  even though it is illegal to play music loudly in public on the train. It was ridiculous to say the least...
As for the women you spoke of, if I read your post correctly, seems as if the truth blew her mind and perhaps the majority of the material on the JoS website was too much for her to comprehend. Ignorance is bliss(?) It happens.
But it seems you found someone else who is more open especially with the understanding of the situation with the white race and the jews, so there is already the common ground you and him have. I hope it goes well. 
You are doing good though in your approach to not not pressure those you relay the SS information too. That shows freedom and comfortability.


Hail our Creator God Satan.

High Priestess Shannonhttps://groups.yahoo.com/BlacksforSatanhttps://groups.yahoo.com/SSHealth


On Wednesday, November 11, 2015 10:19 AM, "zolaluckystar@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[email protected] wrote:


 
Hi, this is to HP Shannon Outlaw, you said to update you on this woman I gave the links to all the sites, JOS etc...
I have only seen her four times since: First time she said she hadn't yet looked at anything but that she would probably have opinions and would ask me stuff later. Second time she avoided me like I had the plague and her friendliness (when I made a point of saying hello) was forced. She was scared of me. Third time she brought a friend and (while of course I could be paranoid) I swear she pointed me out and had a little conversation about me with her right before the yoga class. The fourth time (yesterday) she seemed cautiously friendly again and wanting to speak to me! She asked me to wait for her. I did, she wanted to talk about her human rights work. I don't want to be the pushy fuck proselytizing so I did not ask if she has been reading JOS. I feel she DID look at it and was frightened, by JOS and possibly by me but has been getting over it. I know it floored me to learn the God I sought all my life's name was Satan. I had absorbed the lie that Satan hates me and so I was really afraid of Him. I took two weeks to think it over before I went back to JOS and began to study. Anyhow, it felt like it was a good thing to just simply stand out there in the dark with her and let her speak, give her an active ear, to let her know I actually AM a safe person. A Satanist is a safe/decent/caring person. Of course we are. We are Humanity's Champions. Does that make sense? Perhaps eventually she'll come around? I don't know. I'm not pushing anything. I'm just quietly there if she ever wants to ask. So that's where that's at.

This theme of do I give people who have seen my face the links has come up again: I was at a private meeting last night and listening to this speaker. Some of her thoughts were good, some not and some downright inaccurate and insulting. At some point she was asked if she believed Aliens were here on Earth, and behind the worlds problems. She said something to the effect that if there are any, its no wonder they don't come out into the open, because look at all the evil WE have done! We are all Satanists! she said. My ears perked up. I thought: WTF? She goes on: what else can you call all the Evil we do on this planet? It is Satanic! Well, I was furious. But there you go, the idea that WE as the human races are the problem. Thats a big fucking jewish lie. WE aren't the problem, THEY are. That really gets me boiling. Probably because I felt a lot of shame for years over that one, being made to feel ashamed to even be a human. And then to call it Satanic in the context of Total Evil on top of it!
My head started to pound. The center of my forehead in particular. It literally started to hurt. I kept silent – don't reveal yourself as a Satanist - Damn I wanted to! - I wanted so bad to jump up in front of that audience  and say you don't know SHIT about what a Satanist is, HOW DARE YOU?! But it would be revealing myself. But It makes me feel like I am letting Satan down, though, when I don't stand up and defend him in situations like this. And they keep happening, like they never did before I dedicated. And I get really torn up in this regard. I feel it as real pain in my heart. I am getting tears just writing about it! I HATE having to be silent!
But as the talk went on I just HAD to say something. So I stuck up my hand and she didn't want to let me speak (I guess I looked like trouble)! She tried to talk over me and deflect me! But I insisted to speak – I talked over HER - and I said: You don't want to let me speak but I'm going to have my say. You have danced all around this subject tonight so let me just say this: Lets not pretend we don't know all about the 1% who rule this earth right now, who owns the media, the governments, education, medical, entertainment, etc etc. So now to the big elephant in the room: They are all JEWS. And they follow a racial segregation policy in regards to who gets into their Israel that would blow you away. While at the same time they push this multiculturalism upon the rest of us! And do you know why? Because its genocide! Our cultures are under attack at the roots! A tree will die without its roots! We are in an undeclared WAR! This is mass genocide, what is happening in Europe!
Well, most of them just looked at me with saucer eyes and open mouths (I rarely speak and I was uncharacteristically, totally furious, almost yelling), but one white male (as it turns out a human rights lawyer) He jumped in and said: She is absolutely right! And picking up my ball he ran with it with facts and so on!
I spoke with him at length after and he is very informed, he said the white race is an endangered species, even mentioned how the Jews were a major problem in Rome and elsewhere in the ancient world! It was so great to speak with someone of this mental caliber. Super articulate and informed. If he's not a Satanist he ought to be. I'll be seeing him again next time hes back in town in a few weeks. I am thinking I will send him a link to Satan's Library to all the work there on Hitler. I think he'd find it pretty interesting and edifying.
I was pleased when I went into the hosts bedroom to grab my coat off the bed, he has a large Nazi banner hanging. I was talking to him after too. He said: I do think there are aliens here. I said well of course there are, hello! There are two camps, the anti human camp and the Nordics. Well, the good Nordics that is – some of them aren't good. He says, the Reptilians and the greys...the bad Nordics...and the Jews? They are the anti-human faction? I go: Now, you're getting it! Sound the bell – school is in!
So the Nordics – he says - the good ones – they are real too? I said: Oh, YES. VERY REAL. He said: Oh, how I would LOVE to meet one of them and speak to them! And I thought: Yes, and his name is Satan! And I would love to help hook you up, too.
I have been sending him links over the last couple of months, you know, not admitting to anything just going: Hey, this is interesting: and a link. Check this essay out! And another link. He is SO close, but not quite there. I seem to keep getting into this situation...
I am glad you wanted an update and are willing to speak to me. It gives me a chance to say how I feel about how torn up I am. It really hurts. If I think I am letting Him down. If you care to share any thoughts I would be grateful. Thanks.

Hail Satan Forever!
PS:
Something very odd and weirdly symbolic happened the other day in relation to this topic of hiding. I'm sitting in a restaurant eating lunch and brooding about how the fucking Xians can push their filth openly while we have to hide, how much this hiding as if I have something to be ashamed of pisses me off! I had tears of rage in my eyes. When as if in response, a NUN in full regalia comes walking into the place! To see one of these is VERY rare where I live. It almost never happens. So for it to happen NOW was beyond coincidence. Peddling her filthy religion too, just as if in response to my brooding. As if to say: That's right, and there's NOTHING you can do about it! They were calendars featuring the jew on a stick. And so certain of no interference was she/it she left it on the counter and went to the washroom, probably to shit, how apropos.
I couldn't control myself. The owners back was turned. I saw my opportunity. I HAD to do something! So I leaped silently up, crossed the room to it, grabbed it, returned to my table and hid it under my newspaper, picked up my fork and resumed eating calmly as though nothing had happened. So she returns and the calendar is vanished. Of course she suspects me, any fool would, she and I are the only customers in the joint! I'm watching intently with my peripheral vision. She shot me a truly evil glare! So much for love! She tried to get the owner to join his energy to hers so the two of them could approach my side of the room and confront me. But he was indifferent. She would have to confront me alone. And I sat there thinking: Come on, come on, I fucking DARE you...
It was a weird tableau, the suddenly empty restaurant (it had been bustling before she/it came walking in), kind of like high noon at the OK Corral and all the townies have dived for cover. And there's this weird electricity in the air: It's just the two opposite sides left in the open to duke it out:

The Satanist versus the Nun. But she didn't have the guts and left. Of course later I tore that thing up. I just felt this was significant, she was the enemy’s version of a HP, in a way (not that I wish to denigrate you or any of the others with that comparison), but I mean, this wasn't a civilian, you know what I mean? And it did feel like she was sent to taunt me.
I don't know what is going on, but something is. You have lots of experience and I don't. So anything you say would be welcome. Thanks very much.

 

[zolaluckystar1]

Thanks, I worry a lot about if I let Satan down or piss him off when I keep silent sometimes. I just felt like asking you since I was updating you anyways....I don't mean to intimate others on the site don't have wisdom too. Though perhaps there was some unconscious programming happening where I thought I ought to ask a real authority - when we are all supposed to be our own authority's, no mediators....ahem. (red cheeks). Still I appreciate what you have to say.

I was saddened that she wasn't able to grasp the truth. Ahh well as you say. It happens.

Hail Satan