How do i get it back

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its two a.m. right now. but i just needed to post this. sonce this is the Hells army e-group, i felt most comfortable.

I was just ouside. it preety dark, but i enjoyed the wind and the warmth. it was 80 degrees today, tommorrow it is supposed to be 60. after i got done reading anime and this is what drives me. i want outside to meditate. as soon as i stepped out, i wanted to train and fight. whatever martial art i was doing, i mastered it today. my punches and kicks were fast and i fet it. it felt unbeleivable that iwas doing this. but istarted to questions the gods. asking them why did they accept me. i have no clue what brought this up. but i expressed myself. in the middle i stated my respects and to not take it to heart. i ask my gaurdian demon sabnack why she picked me. but i do know how that goes

well, anyways, my body felt mighty. i felt strong and empowered, my name blotted came forth as if i was the person i always percieved to be. my skills felt sharpened, and my mind was clear. never was i so aware. the energy i was feeling is the energy i created within myself i thing. red vibrant energy with gold dust particles. if this was the reason for my strength then there is no questions to ask. but what i really need help on is to who i get it back.

you guys and gals just dont understand. i feel this surge of energy many times. but only on occasions. in these time periods, it felt like my skills and form in martial art, wich i have none but feel like i do, is perfect. how can i get this back. how can i get this drive back. it felt like desire rushed to me and i wanted to fight and to battle. my body was a sharpened blade. my punches were so straight and direct, my kicks and footwork was more fluent and i felt like ther was power in each move. i faintly seen my energy over my skin. i want it to be red and gold so... but it was bigger. my energy want the smoky green energy i posted yrs ago, but it was some vibrant and masculing energy i barely feel.

if anybody has a meditation. please post. i feel that if i can be like this and feel like this everyday, it wouldnt tke me a lifetime, it would be merely years that i advance nd become what i fantasize myself to be. a warrior. with a strong will. thats another thing too. a strong wiil equals strong energy and manipulation of it. i did 100 punches left to right, horse back riding stance and the punches flew evenly and perfectly from side toside. when my legs started to hurt, i did it qicky, got lower and it was something i never done before. everything felt like i mastered it already. think i did martial arts in my past life because i feel like i can be an adept in months.

but my main question is how do i get this energy to rise everyday at all times. if this was my kundalini power and it rose. how the hell can that be. i know i am strong, but this is highly an option here. i now think it was. my kundalini energy came out and i felt my natural warrio self. but after all the exciment i laid down in the grass, which i never do, felt connected to the earht and gave my thanks and understading to the gods. not to mention i asked the same question here. but guys and gals, what can i do to get this back. i am desperetly in need to get this. this is now a goal of mine. to feel this energy everday. thats another thing to. i been feeling my energy, energy awarness now, and trying to will it to come to me, no wonder why i felt energetic and powerful, but still. i want to feel like this all the time. i think i know some ways, but my promblem is i need to be told, i need someone to tell me directly or i can help but to do something eles. i am building my confidenc and pride, and this is another thing that helped me, so how can iget it back

Hail Father Satan!!!!
Hail Sabnack!!!!
Hail all the TRUE GODS!!!!
Haail to Hells Army and our Certained Victory!!!!

 

[En Haradren Amlug]

Consistant and regular power meditation. When we do this, our vibration and bio-electricity increases, and we are able to have this 'high' state as a constant.

You most likely felt the strong energies. Energies are naturally stronger at night, and certain times in the year can evoke even stronger energies. Often I have felt what you felt, when I go outside on a nice crisp night, when the moon is bright and everything seeme illuminated. You can feel the strong energies radiating off everything. As you become more open and advanced, you will be able to feel this more and more.

Again, consistant Power Meditation. Raising your vibrations. Try performing the MerKaBah meditation if you havent before, and you will get much the same effect as what you described. Or doing a big set of meditations for over an our, focusing on raising your vibration, do a set of twin and single serpent meditations, followed by MerKaBah, followed by Advanced Chakra spin. Then see how you feel after that. (this is just an example, don't attempt these if you aren't ready for them).

-En Haradren Amlug.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "shadowwolf88@..." <shadowwolf88@... wrote:

its two a.m. right now. but i just needed to post this. sonce this is the Hells army e-group, i felt most comfortable.

I was just ouside. it preety dark, but i enjoyed the wind and the warmth. it was 80 degrees today, tommorrow it is supposed to be 60. after i got done reading anime and this is what drives me. i want outside to meditate. as soon as i stepped out, i wanted to train and fight. whatever martial art i was doing, i mastered it today. my punches and kicks were fast and i fet it. it felt unbeleivable that iwas doing this. but istarted to questions the gods. asking them why did they accept me. i have no clue what brought this up. but i expressed myself. in the middle i stated my respects and to not take it to heart. i ask my gaurdian demon sabnack why she picked me. but i do know how that goes

well, anyways, my body felt mighty. i felt strong and empowered, my name blotted came forth as if i was the person i always percieved to be. my skills felt sharpened, and my mind was clear. never was i so aware. the energy i was feeling is the energy i created within myself i thing. red vibrant energy with gold dust particles. if this was the reason for my strength then there is no questions to ask. but what i really need help on is to who i get it back.

you guys and gals just dont understand. i feel this surge of energy many times. but only on occasions. in these time periods, it felt like my skills and form in martial art, wich i have none but feel like i do, is perfect. how can i get this back. how can i get this drive back. it felt like desire rushed to me and i wanted to fight and to battle. my body was a sharpened blade. my punches were so straight and direct, my kicks and footwork was more fluent and i felt like ther was power in each move. i faintly seen my energy over my skin. i want it to be red and gold so... but it was bigger. my energy want the smoky green energy i posted yrs ago, but it was some vibrant and masculing energy i barely feel.

if anybody has a meditation. please post. i feel that if i can be like this and feel like this everyday, it wouldnt tke me a lifetime, it would be merely years that i advance nd become what i fantasize myself to be. a warrior. with a strong will. thats another thing too. a strong wiil equals strong energy and manipulation of it. i did 100 punches left to right, horse back riding stance and the punches flew evenly and perfectly from side toside. when my legs started to hurt, i did it qicky, got lower and it was something i never done before. everything felt like i mastered it already. think i did martial arts in my past life because i feel like i can be an adept in months.

but my main question is how do i get this energy to rise everyday at all times. if this was my kundalini power and it rose. how the hell can that be. i know i am strong, but this is highly an option here. i now think it was. my kundalini energy came out and i felt my natural warrio self. but after all the exciment i laid down in the grass, which i never do, felt connected to the earht and gave my thanks and understading to the gods. not to mention i asked the same question here. but guys and gals, what can i do to get this back. i am desperetly in need to get this. this is now a goal of mine. to feel this energy everday. thats another thing to. i been feeling my energy, energy awarness now, and trying to will it to come to me, no wonder why i felt energetic and powerful, but still. i want to feel like this all the time. i think i know some ways, but my promblem is i need to be told, i need someone to tell me directly or i can help but to do something eles. i am building my confidenc and pride, and this is another thing that helped me, so how can iget it back

Hail Father Satan!!!!
Hail Sabnack!!!!
Hail all the TRUE GODS!!!!
Haail to Hells Army and our Certained Victory!!!!

 

[tjs4satan]

Our planets play into affect quite a bit to how much energy you feel on certain days.

I would recommend to simply continue your Martial Arts,

im sure you have not mastered it, it takes years and years to truely master one.

what brought up your questioning could be the fact you did have a lot of energy but not a strong aura of protection, what this does is make you a target to the enemy and they will do whatever they can to make you confused/miserable/fail/question

Just stay strong it is very important to keep up a strong aura of protection.

you should defeat that thoughtform of always having to be told to do something, this is a slave mindset. and simply thinking this could be the enemy or it could be indoctrination/programming of your current life or the hangups suffered from your past lifes

only you can truly figure this out.

my advice is to deprogram yourself completely

research more and more everyday

and always keep an aura of protection up for youself

if you feel its weak do it again.

the only way to keep energy is to consenstantly work with it, unlock and keep open all of your chakras. this takes years. so be patient.
its about patience. and preserverance, never give up

and Do not rush yourself, it sounds like you really are rushing yourself.

HAIL SATAN!!!!!!!!!!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "shadowwolf88@..." <shadowwolf88@... wrote:

its two a.m. right now. but i just needed to post this. sonce this is the Hells army e-group, i felt most comfortable.

I was just ouside. it preety dark, but i enjoyed the wind and the warmth. it was 80 degrees today, tommorrow it is supposed to be 60. after i got done reading anime and this is what drives me. i want outside to meditate. as soon as i stepped out, i wanted to train and fight. whatever martial art i was doing, i mastered it today. my punches and kicks were fast and i fet it. it felt unbeleivable that iwas doing this. but istarted to questions the gods. asking them why did they accept me. i have no clue what brought this up. but i expressed myself. in the middle i stated my respects and to not take it to heart. i ask my gaurdian demon sabnack why she picked me. but i do know how that goes

well, anyways, my body felt mighty. i felt strong and empowered, my name blotted came forth as if i was the person i always percieved to be. my skills felt sharpened, and my mind was clear. never was i so aware. the energy i was feeling is the energy i created within myself i thing. red vibrant energy with gold dust particles. if this was the reason for my strength then there is no questions to ask. but what i really need help on is to who i get it back.

you guys and gals just dont understand. i feel this surge of energy many times. but only on occasions. in these time periods, it felt like my skills and form in martial art, wich i have none but feel like i do, is perfect. how can i get this back. how can i get this drive back. it felt like desire rushed to me and i wanted to fight and to battle. my body was a sharpened blade. my punches were so straight and direct, my kicks and footwork was more fluent and i felt like ther was power in each move. i faintly seen my energy over my skin. i want it to be red and gold so... but it was bigger. my energy want the smoky green energy i posted yrs ago, but it was some vibrant and masculing energy i barely feel.

if anybody has a meditation. please post. i feel that if i can be like this and feel like this everyday, it wouldnt tke me a lifetime, it would be merely years that i advance nd become what i fantasize myself to be. a warrior. with a strong will. thats another thing too. a strong wiil equals strong energy and manipulation of it. i did 100 punches left to right, horse back riding stance and the punches flew evenly and perfectly from side toside. when my legs started to hurt, i did it qicky, got lower and it was something i never done before. everything felt like i mastered it already. think i did martial arts in my past life because i feel like i can be an adept in months.

but my main question is how do i get this energy to rise everyday at all times. if this was my kundalini power and it rose. how the hell can that be. i know i am strong, but this is highly an option here. i now think it was. my kundalini energy came out and i felt my natural warrio self. but after all the exciment i laid down in the grass, which i never do, felt connected to the earht and gave my thanks and understading to the gods. not to mention i asked the same question here. but guys and gals, what can i do to get this back. i am desperetly in need to get this. this is now a goal of mine. to feel this energy everday. thats another thing to. i been feeling my energy, energy awarness now, and trying to will it to come to me, no wonder why i felt energetic and powerful, but still. i want to feel like this all the time. i think i know some ways, but my promblem is i need to be told, i need someone to tell me directly or i can help but to do something eles. i am building my confidenc and pride, and this is another thing that helped me, so how can iget it back

Hail Father Satan!!!!
Hail Sabnack!!!!
Hail all the TRUE GODS!!!!
Haail to Hells Army and our Certained Victory!!!!

 

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Thanks to the both of you guys. Your answers really helped me out. I also found another meditation on the jos website that can help me. Also, was rushing a bit. trying to advance at a quicker rate. but now i realize going slow is the bet way to do things. i did the circulating energy meditation after te kundalin yoga, and it felt nice, not to mention this is the meditation i found that can help me. controlling energy at will whenever i want to is most of what i was looking for. the other stuff is my ow experience. thanks again guys

Hail Father Satan and all the Gods of Hell!!!!
Hail Sabnack!!!!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "tjs4satan" <tjs4satan@... wrote:

Our planets play into affect quite a bit to how much energy you feel on certain days.

I would recommend to simply continue your Martial Arts,

im sure you have not mastered it, it takes years and years to truely master one.

what brought up your questioning could be the fact you did have a lot of energy but not a strong aura of protection, what this does is make you a target to the enemy and they will do whatever they can to make you confused/miserable/fail/question

Just stay strong it is very important to keep up a strong aura of protection.

you should defeat that thoughtform of always having to be told to do something, this is a slave mindset. and simply thinking this could be the enemy or it could be indoctrination/programming of your current life or the hangups suffered from your past lifes

only you can truly figure this out.

my advice is to deprogram yourself completely

research more and more everyday

and always keep an aura of protection up for youself

if you feel its weak do it again.

the only way to keep energy is to consenstantly work with it, unlock and keep open all of your chakras. this takes years. so be patient.
its about patience. and preserverance, never give up

and Do not rush yourself, it sounds like you really are rushing yourself.

HAIL SATAN!!!!!!!!!!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "shadowwolf88@" <shadowwolf88@ wrote:

its two a.m. right now. but i just needed to post this. sonce this is the Hells army e-group, i felt most comfortable.

I was just ouside. it preety dark, but i enjoyed the wind and the warmth. it was 80 degrees today, tommorrow it is supposed to be 60. after i got done reading anime and this is what drives me. i want outside to meditate. as soon as i stepped out, i wanted to train and fight. whatever martial art i was doing, i mastered it today. my punches and kicks were fast and i fet it. it felt unbeleivable that iwas doing this. but istarted to questions the gods. asking them why did they accept me. i have no clue what brought this up. but i expressed myself. in the middle i stated my respects and to not take it to heart. i ask my gaurdian demon sabnack why she picked me. but i do know how that goes

well, anyways, my body felt mighty. i felt strong and empowered, my name blotted came forth as if i was the person i always percieved to be. my skills felt sharpened, and my mind was clear. never was i so aware. the energy i was feeling is the energy i created within myself i thing. red vibrant energy with gold dust particles. if this was the reason for my strength then there is no questions to ask. but what i really need help on is to who i get it back.

you guys and gals just dont understand. i feel this surge of energy many times. but only on occasions. in these time periods, it felt like my skills and form in martial art, wich i have none but feel like i do, is perfect. how can i get this back. how can i get this drive back. it felt like desire rushed to me and i wanted to fight and to battle. my body was a sharpened blade. my punches were so straight and direct, my kicks and footwork was more fluent and i felt like ther was power in each move. i faintly seen my energy over my skin. i want it to be red and gold so... but it was bigger. my energy want the smoky green energy i posted yrs ago, but it was some vibrant and masculing energy i barely feel.

if anybody has a meditation. please post. i feel that if i can be like this and feel like this everyday, it wouldnt tke me a lifetime, it would be merely years that i advance nd become what i fantasize myself to be. a warrior. with a strong will. thats another thing too. a strong wiil equals strong energy and manipulation of it. i did 100 punches left to right, horse back riding stance and the punches flew evenly and perfectly from side toside. when my legs started to hurt, i did it qicky, got lower and it was something i never done before. everything felt like i mastered it already. think i did martial arts in my past life because i feel like i can be an adept in months.

but my main question is how do i get this energy to rise everyday at all times. if this was my kundalini power and it rose. how the hell can that be. i know i am strong, but this is highly an option here. i now think it was. my kundalini energy came out and i felt my natural warrio self. but after all the exciment i laid down in the grass, which i never do, felt connected to the earht and gave my thanks and understading to the gods. not to mention i asked the same question here. but guys and gals, what can i do to get this back. i am desperetly in need to get this. this is now a goal of mine. to feel this energy everday. thats another thing to. i been feeling my energy, energy awarness now, and trying to will it to come to me, no wonder why i felt energetic and powerful, but still. i want to feel like this all the time. i think i know some ways, but my promblem is i need to be told, i need someone to tell me directly or i can help but to do something eles. i am building my confidenc and pride, and this is another thing that helped me, so how can iget it back

Hail Father Satan!!!!
Hail Sabnack!!!!
Hail all the TRUE GODS!!!!
Haail to Hells Army and our Certained Victory!!!!