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The one thing that has helped me get through this world is questioning everything. When my s/o showed me JoS I read through everything that I could, I got a good feel for it and everything and started implicating it into my life. I did meditations to try and achieve things and from what I could see it seemed to work. Now regardless of how deep I got into it, I couldn't shake this feeling that this feels exactly like Christianity. All hail "The One" regardless of who that may be, follow a certain way of living, set yourself to someone else code. How do I know that Satanism isn't there to catch the smarter ones who see through things? Are Aliens just here as a fake distraction? So instead of actually going out and trying to change the world the higher ups trick everyone into sitting inside their house's humming to themselves. You have all these people trying to figure something out, so why not just give them something? I'm looking answers here.
When I was getting really into following the moon, I started feeling funny as I planned my days and life in accordance to moon, when I would avoid doing something out of fear of it not working. When I stopped and just started living life again I found nothing changed.
Whos in control of our lives? Is it really us or is it just people behind computer screens?
Is Enki real? Are the Terra Papers real? Are Past lives real? How can I know when I meditate its not just the government talking to me? (Like Seriously!?!? If the government is reading my thoughts and I'm sitting thinking hard about invoking Satan they can totally just beam some stuff into your head, vibrate your body and make you see/ hear stuff and then your satisfied and not asking questions.) Are we just monkeys? Is Satanism just a different level of control?
I'm looking for truth here. I'm so done feeling fucked with.
When I was getting really into following the moon, I started feeling funny as I planned my days and life in accordance to moon, when I would avoid doing something out of fear of it not working. When I stopped and just started living life again I found nothing changed.
Whos in control of our lives? Is it really us or is it just people behind computer screens?
Is Enki real? Are the Terra Papers real? Are Past lives real? How can I know when I meditate its not just the government talking to me? (Like Seriously!?!? If the government is reading my thoughts and I'm sitting thinking hard about invoking Satan they can totally just beam some stuff into your head, vibrate your body and make you see/ hear stuff and then your satisfied and not asking questions.) Are we just monkeys? Is Satanism just a different level of control?
I'm looking for truth here. I'm so done feeling fucked with.