Hinduism and my family

[ohnomnom_666]

Hello there. I'm Jessica, from South Africa and I'm new to Satanism Spirituality. A few things have come up in my household, I would like advise on what to do.

I'm currently 15 years old, and my parents "know" I believe in Father Satan. I wear a Pentagram around my neck, and my mother has found it.
My family is Hindu, but due to the fact of me growing up, and "changing" my family have resulted taking me to a church. My mother thinks she can take whatever it is that's harming me to thinking "dark" thoughts away, by sending me to a place where nobody gets justice, or do they get true happiness and freedom.

The first time I went there, they put some sort of oil on my hands, symboling the cross, or whatever. Then the bugger who runs the church pushed someone on the floor, because that's how he "heals" them. Then, he came up to me, and starts telling me to say, "Father jesus forgive me for all my sins" and crap like that. I had to say it out loud, because they didn't want to leave me alone. In my head, I'm chanting, hoping Father Satan can forgive me for being in a place like that. Anyways,  that oil that they were using... Yeah, it turns out they stole that belief that it could heal and calm people down from Hinduism. I've got that proof.

My mother then took me again to that church (after I threw a fit and tried to talk both, my father and her out of taking me there) with my sister and my cousin. There, they put that oil on my sisters tattoos, and the red strings on her wrists. When it came to me, they put the oil on my hands and my neck, as well as my peircings.
And yet, they have peircings and tattoos, they smoke, drink and do drugs, and they don't redeem themselves for that? Pathetic.

After that bugger "blessed" me, and threw me on the floor, he said that I was fine, that there's no Demon in me anymore.
Seriously? And, before we went to the church, I told my mother I am fine. She didn't believe me, and when that bugger of that stupid 'religion' said I was fine, yeah, of course she'd believe him.


My question is, how can I convince my parents that I'm fine, and that I'm not a Devil Worshiper. (I put it in that form, because that's how they describe my beliefs)

I do believe in Father Satan, and all the other Orginal Demon Gods, and I hope they can understand why and for what reason I'm doing this.

It has come to the point where, I'm extremely unhappy and my mother doesn't want to listen to my side of the story, she believes whatever the xians have to say, and she's now forcing my father and sister to do whatever the shit she wants them to do.

PLEASE HELP ME!

(sorry for the really long message, I got dragged away <img>)

-Jessica

 

[Magus Immortalis]

My opinion is that you should stop showing it in front of them. Because the more you show it, the more trouble they will give you, and the more likely they will go through your room and personal belongings to find evidence to use against you, to confirm whatever allegations they have against your practice and religion; whatever is their assumptions.Just tell them you were going through a phase and don't want to do it anymore. It will give you peace and less harassment.
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Sent: Monday, September 30, 2013 5:41:52 AM
Subject: [HellsArmy666] Hinduism and my family

  Hello there. I'm Jessica, from South Africa and I'm new to Satanism Spirituality. A few things have come up in my household, I would like advise on what to do.

I'm currently 15 years old, and my parents "know" I believe in Father Satan. I wear a Pentagram around my neck, and my mother has found it.
My family is Hindu, but due to the fact of me growing up, and "changing" my family have resulted taking me to a church. My mother thinks she can take whatever it is that's harming me to thinking "dark" thoughts away, by sending me to a place where nobody gets justice, or do they get true happiness and freedom.

The first time I went there, they put some sort of oil on my hands, symboling the cross, or whatever. Then the bugger who runs the church pushed someone on the floor, because that's how he "heals" them. Then, he came up to me, and starts telling me to say, "Father jesus forgive me for all my sins" and crap like that. I had to say it out loud, because they didn't want to leave me alone. In my head, I'm chanting, hoping Father Satan can forgive me for being in a place like that. Anyways,  that oil that they were using... Yeah, it turns out they stole that belief that it could heal and calm people down from Hinduism. I've got that proof.

My mother then took me again to that church (after I threw a fit and tried to talk both, my father and her out of taking me there) with my sister and my cousin. There, they put that oil on my sisters tattoos, and the red strings on her wrists. When it came to me, they put the oil on my hands and my neck, as well as my peircings.
And yet, they have peircings and tattoos, they smoke, drink and do drugs, and they don't redeem themselves for that? Pathetic.

After that bugger "blessed" me, and threw me on the floor, he said that I was fine, that there's no Demon in me anymore.
Seriously? And, before we went to the church, I told my mother I am fine. She didn't believe me, and when that bugger of that stupid 'religion' said I was fine, yeah, of course she'd believe him.


My question is, how can I convince my parents that I'm fine, and that I'm not a Devil Worshiper. (I put it in that form, because that's how they describe my beliefs)

I do believe in Father Satan, and all the other Orginal Demon Gods, and I hope they can understand why and for what reason I'm doing this.

It has come to the point where, I'm extremely unhappy and my mother doesn't want to listen to my side of the story, she believes whatever the xians have to say, and she's now forcing my father and sister to do whatever the shit she wants them to do.

PLEASE HELP ME!

(sorry for the really long message, I got dragged away <img>)

-Jessica