Helping people break free of the enemy more info: The inner False person

[darkmonkey666]

I can't say I notice an energy leaving me but rather it sticks to me like glue when aroused.

It's an aching pressure around the whole chakra and it feels like it blocks a proper upwards energy flow. And yes, I only notice when I'm aroused and it gets worse until I release, but after I release I just feel bad and dirty.

It may or may not be the same other things could happen to make a person feel this way such as xtian hang ups or blocks in energy. But the fact you only really notice it when aroused someone may be stealing sexual energy from that chakra or connected to it.

Do you often have thoughts you don't think are your own outside this. Start paying attention for a little while. Do you feel like some thoughts are pressured into your mind maybe even feelings too (and maybe you'll find out some other bad stuff if this is going on)

Yea but who? I have a had plenty of negative sexual experiences in my life so I guess I can shape the affirmation to be like "I am now releasing and removing any and all negative sexual connections to past and present individuals forever." or should I do it per person?

And actually yes, ever since I was a child I have had boundary issues within my mind, for example, I can be talking to a complete stranger and all of a sudden I'll get an impulse to kiss them or something. Even though I don't find them attractive or have any romantic feelings.

Yeah that might add a wunjo working and cleansing of that chakra too to heal it. This comes from some event that happened or experience that effected you. If you don't know who it was a general working should be fine. If you had a really abusive or controlling partner ever there is your psychic vampire if this is going on. I am not sure in your case. Do a working to detach from them if this is true.

 

[Gerecht_Ror]

Yea but who? I have a had plenty of negative sexual experiences in my life so I guess I can shape the affirmation to be like "I am now releasing and removing any and all negative sexual connections to past and present individuals forever." or should I do it per person?

And actually yes, ever since I was a child I have had boundary issues within my mind, for example, I can be talking to a complete stranger and all of a sudden I'll get an impulse to kiss them or something. Even though I don't find them attractive or have any romantic feelings.

I had some disgusting thoughs about sex and pressure on my 2nd chakra weeks before my repressed memories emerged. This was linked to childhood traumas (I will not go into details here), that may be linked to sexual or psychological bad experiences. This lowers self-esteem and self-defence, of which 2nd chakra is a main generator. The enemy causes this to lower Mars energies, block 2nd chakra, and keep the Serpent down.

As soon as past memories came back, I had emotional outburst but I have been able to fix a (small) part of the blockages.
I confronted with a heavy guilt, as I was convinced what happened to me was my fault, and I did not consider myself a valuable person. This created a blockage into 2nd chakra.
Understanding it was not my fault, helped to release some guilt. Together with chakra Lunar cycle cleaning meditations.

 

[Gerecht_Ror]

I used to like the song "Invincible". Then, I looked into the band and saw they were xians and they even proclaimed themselves to be so (and very proudly).

Wow, I wasn't aware they knew anything about the occult. I thought xian bands were just stupid people. That image looks disturbing in a way.

So, in short, how do I kill the false ego? Is the freeing the soul working enough?

Removing all the causes for its appearance sounds complicated if working on other people.

Hope I am understanding this correctly.

To my experience : singers do not know barely anything about the occult. They are simply unconsciously driven by te enemy / greys or so and they think they had an "idea" for a song, while that idea has been injected into their mind by the enemy.
This is why pedophilia, sexual violence, etc. is widspread in hollywood and possibly also into the music industry. They traumatize and then mentally enslave their "chosen non-spiritualists" who manifest the power to be creative. They enslave their creativity, and leave them as remote controlled borgs at the emotional level.

Killing false ego... sort of giant task. I am working on this.
I found mine was created by my father in childhood. My father was sort of remote controlling it.
I just completely interrupted communication with him and detached from my chakras. It seems false ego is weaker now, due to lack of external stimulations to mantain it going.
Also, I changed some facts in my life, of which the false ego was feeding.
3rd I am trying to create a new ego, by new actions in completely different directions. This creates internal conflict and obstacles.
This is what I understood until now.

 

[darkmonkey666]

I can't say I notice an energy leaving me but rather it sticks to me like glue when aroused.

It's an aching pressure around the whole chakra and it feels like it blocks a proper upwards energy flow. And yes, I only notice when I'm aroused and it gets worse until I release, but after I release I just feel bad and dirty.

It may or may not be the same other things could happen to make a person feel this way such as xtian hang ups or blocks in energy. But the fact you only really notice it when aroused someone may be stealing sexual energy from that chakra or connected to it.

Do you often have thoughts you don't think are your own outside this. Start paying attention for a little while. Do you feel like some thoughts are pressured into your mind maybe even feelings too (and maybe you'll find out some other bad stuff if this is going on)

Yea but who? I have a had plenty of negative sexual experiences in my life so I guess I can shape the affirmation to be like "I am now releasing and removing any and all negative sexual connections to past and present individuals forever." or should I do it per person?

And actually yes, ever since I was a child I have had boundary issues within my mind, for example, I can be talking to a complete stranger and all of a sudden I'll get an impulse to kiss them or something. Even though I don't find them attractive or have any romantic feelings.

A lot of people have thoughts like that I believe btw but action is probably bad especially in today's world with everyone being super sensitive. As long as you control it your fine.

 

[darkmonkey666]

I just want to add, I do not feel this "inner child" is a false self.
It may be, the false self developed after the emotions freezed at - let's say - 5 years old. So the affected person could never develop his/her true self, but followed what the abuser/vampire commanded him/her to be.
Still studying on this, those are just my feelings at now.

It's something that needs to be figured out for sure since like you said it seem to effect so many in society. It may be the vampire is artificially creating more problems than existed though with my girlfriend. The problem is this is making her associate a lot of stuff I liked about her with her traumas and past things as well as in her subconscious associate me with that so that she only listens to the vampire not me. This is a line of thinking I figured out. So I would be fucked at least so far as my relationship with her without this destruction ritual thing anyways. I will explain all this to her when it's done.

Well so far as greater society this stuff should be figured out. If this is not something totally fixable at the very least we should take away the blindly conforming stuff and enemy things with it and help the people feel better.

https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=24&t=62300&p=279047

This is what I am referencing btw I am trying to defend being innocent and pure like a child while saying being childlike in this trauma induced way is bad at the same time. I always thought that state was sacred. This sermon talks about it.

I wanted to clear up any confusion here about this I think it did confuse a few people and maybe even made some people think I was thinking these states are good. I think people suffering from this can transfer from this state to the state of being innocent and pure. In some cases people may not act that different on the surface however the person who is innocent and pure is quite mature about just about everything.

 

[darkmonkey666]

I personally believe being in control of ones emotions is the most important thing. Many people suffering from traumas are not I tried to always be but I wasn't I admit that. Especially when I first came on the groups. I was almost under complete emotional control of this vampire. I honestly believe this condition can be created artificially by others later in life. I think I proved it if anyone saw what my girlfriend became like and how it was similar to how I was when first joining the groups if anyone remembers. I was always ranting about stuff and half in Zevism half on the enemy side by always defending stuff they did. Not realizing it was not my own thoughts at all.

This is kind of the same way she became like. So yeah false ego is the vampire in this case 80 percent of the time. I am starting to realize most my life the person that is me hasn't fully even existed.

I am glad this is almost over.

 

[Gerecht_Ror]

I am starting to realize most my life the person that is me hasn't fully even existed.

Same here.

 

[Lunar Dance 666]

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Hey Sly,

Ive read the other message. I just wanted to say, that it is impossible to bring up things that have to do with trauma to the forums.

This is all due to the enemy. Opening up about such grave things would invite you to be cursed the heck out of you.

Not to mention the people that misunderstand and would rather just point fingers.

Ive done Fts in the past that had the removal of traumatic experience in the affirmation but nothing happened. Have you had the same experience?

 

[Gerecht_Ror]

And actually yes, ever since I was a child I have had boundary issues within my mind, for example, I can be talking to a complete stranger and all of a sudden I'll get an impulse to kiss them or something. Even though I don't find them attractive or have any romantic feelings.

This may come from childhood, at the emotional level, it may be the action of kissing have not been elaborated and did not evolve at the emotional level. For some reason, be it traumatic or other reasons. It happened to me too.

 

[Gerecht_Ror]

(...) This can be caused by childhood trauma as well or things dealing with that.

I think this whole "child inside" issue, is related to the Moon and 6th chakra.
Since I have started to raise from the shadows of the mind memories, emotions, etc. I have a sort of dark energy around my 6th chakra and I cannot properly feel it as it should be.
I belive the mind sees as "child" a sort of emotional part of the soul, containing the very raw emotions (that have to do with Magick also, as I see I generated events without willing, that come from those repressed emotions).
So people imagine they have a child inside, while they simply talk to their own mind at a deeper level, and use the child to visualize/imagine this. I think this is a process of cleaning and also sublimating 6th chakra energies, then Moon energies.
As Moon is linked to both childhood and emotions, this made sense to me.

 

[darkmonkey666]

...

Hey Sly,

Ive read the other message. I just wanted to say, that it is impossible to bring up things that have to do with trauma to the forums.

This is all due to the enemy. Opening up about such grave things would invite you to be cursed the heck out of you.

Not to mention the people that misunderstand and would rather just point fingers.

Ive done Fts in the past that had the removal of traumatic experience in the affirmation but nothing happened. Have you had the same experience?

That sucks if true. I have seen a lot of people bring up various things before on here though. I didn't think of that.

That actually makes sense. When dealing with traumas you need a healing affirmation and some kind of positive energy or healing rune along with freeing. I think they can be added together. Same experience just doing freeing the soul on it. So the working needs to be a little more elaborate.

Example Wunjo Ansuz Nauthiz (of course others or different ones can be used if a person thinks it's better)
More elaborate affirmations can be done that more focus the mind on the event and healing it but in present tense. I had luck with that. About 90 to 120 days for serious traumas maybe a little longer and it's gone.

 

[darkmonkey666]

(...) This can be caused by childhood trauma as well or things dealing with that.

I think this whole "child inside" issue, is related to the Moon and 6th chakra.
Since I have started to raise from the shadows of the mind memories, emotions, etc. I have a sort of dark energy around my 6th chakra and I cannot properly feel it as it should be.
I belive the mind sees as "child" a sort of emotional part of the soul, containing the very raw emotions (that have to do with Magick also, as I see I generated events without willing, that come from those repressed emotions).
So people imagine they have a child inside, while they simply talk to their own mind at a deeper level, and use the child to visualize/imagine this. I think this is a process of cleaning and also sublimating 6th chakra energies, then Moon energies.
As Moon is linked to both childhood and emotions, this made sense to me.

Yes releasing emotions is key as well as cleansing energies from this event or whatever set this whole thing up.

 

[Gerecht_Ror]

...

Hey Sly,

Ive read the other message. I just wanted to say, that it is impossible to bring up things that have to do with trauma to the forums.

This is all due to the enemy. Opening up about such grave things would invite you to be cursed the heck out of you.

Not to mention the people that misunderstand and would rather just point fingers.

Ive done Fts in the past that had the removal of traumatic experience in the affirmation but nothing happened. Have you had the same experience?

That sucks if true. I have seen a lot of people bring up various things before on here though. I didn't think of that.

That actually makes sense. When dealing with traumas you need a healing affirmation and some kind of positive energy or healing rune along with freeing. I think they can be added together. Same experience just doing freeing the soul on it. So the working needs to be a little more elaborate.

Example Wunjo Ansuz Nauthiz (of course others or different ones can be used if a person thinks it's better)
More elaborate affirmations can be done that more focus the mind on the event and healing it but in present tense. I had luck with that. About 90 to 120 days for serious traumas maybe a little longer and it's gone.

I have to say, as I am dealing with many traumas from childhood, the enemy uses those events to enslave your mind.
I am still in the process to clarify but I'll relate what I found out until now.
Letting emotions emerge from your mind is helpful, I did, and some very intense emotions rose and manifested without me even knowing why, it was overwhelming. This happened as the mind was triggered by things I saw, and songs I listened, that pertained to my childhood. After emotions arose, and I dealt with them, I have been able to recall past events and now I can understand what happened. I am dealing with traumas.

The whole "inside child" thing is somehow true. I have - to my surprise - found that this "child" (that I believe is the emotional/Moon level of our soul, or something related to) was locked in a place where traumas happened at 5 years old. It is sort of dark room where "he" was scared, and subdued/enslaved to my father's will. He was not able to escape this room, until I put myself in deep trance and visualized him to get out and I locked the room with my father inside. I felt a very big relief and deep happiness.
This "child" does seem to exist as a thoughtform, I have perceived him moving around. I believe I simply projected a dense bunch of emotions into a form with which you can dialogue.
It is rather confusion but, it worked.
Before dealing with all of this, I had the deep feeling I was worthless, and I had to struggle even to buy decent clothes as I would unconsciously choose the less value for them and use them until worn out. Now I feel like I deserve more, and this is a big step.
I have been helped by my GD In this process, I have been said I am recalling childhood sadness in steps, as it would be too much to remember everything and may overwhelm myself.

I hope my experience, even if a bit confusing, may help others to deal with repressed bad feeling. I think many of us carry some hidden baggage, in different forms.
I also believe the enemy uses this baggage to enslave the mind. If this "child" is locked somewhere and forced to feel in a way, you are not really free. If the person who caused traumas is under the enemy influence (most likely), xian or worst, this puts a part of your mind/soul (?) under his/her influence.

 

[darkmonkey666]

Hey Sly,

Ive read the other message. I just wanted to say, that it is impossible to bring up things that have to do with trauma to the forums.

This is all due to the enemy. Opening up about such grave things would invite you to be cursed the heck out of you.

Not to mention the people that misunderstand and would rather just point fingers.

Ive done Fts in the past that had the removal of traumatic experience in the affirmation but nothing happened. Have you had the same experience?

That sucks if true. I have seen a lot of people bring up various things before on here though. I didn't think of that.

That actually makes sense. When dealing with traumas you need a healing affirmation and some kind of positive energy or healing rune along with freeing. I think they can be added together. Same experience just doing freeing the soul on it. So the working needs to be a little more elaborate.

Example Wunjo Ansuz Nauthiz (of course others or different ones can be used if a person thinks it's better)
More elaborate affirmations can be done that more focus the mind on the event and healing it but in present tense. I had luck with that. About 90 to 120 days for serious traumas maybe a little longer and it's gone.

I have to say, as I am dealing with many traumas from childhood, the enemy uses those events to enslave your mind.
I am still in the process to clarify but I'll relate what I found out until now.
Letting emotions emerge from your mind is helpful, I did, and some very intense emotions rose and manifested without me even knowing why, it was overwhelming. This happened as the mind was triggered by things I saw, and songs I listened, that pertained to my childhood. After emotions arose, and I dealt with them, I have been able to recall past events and now I can understand what happened. I am dealing with traumas.

The whole "inside child" thing is somehow true. I have - to my surprise - found that this "child" (that I believe is the emotional/Moon level of our soul, or something related to) was locked in a place where traumas happened at 5 years old. It is sort of dark room where "he" was scared, and subdued/enslaved to my father's will. He was not able to escape this room, until I put myself in deep trance and visualized him to get out and I locked the room with my father inside. I felt a very big relief and deep happiness.
This "child" does seem to exist as a thoughtform, I have perceived him moving around. I believe I simply projected a dense bunch of emotions into a form with which you can dialogue.
It is rather confusion but, it worked.
Before dealing with all of this, I had the deep feeling I was worthless, and I had to struggle even to buy decent clothes as I would unconsciously choose the less value for them and use them until worn out. Now I feel like I deserve more, and this is a big step.
I have been helped by my GD In this process, I have been said I am recalling childhood sadness in steps, as it would be too much to remember everything and may overwhelm myself.

I hope my experience, even if a bit confusing, may help others to deal with repressed bad feeling. I think many of us carry some hidden baggage, in different forms.
I also believe the enemy uses this baggage to enslave the mind. If this "child" is locked somewhere and forced to feel in a way, you are not really free. If the person who caused traumas is under the enemy influence (most likely), xian or worst, this puts a part of your mind/soul (?) under his/her influence.

Yes. The inner child thing is also influence from the person. I think it's all mostly the same cause end stage with the enemy ends in mostly the same beliefs such as be a victim hate yourself conform to everyone the world is evil or bad etc. That is just some of them but pretty sure it's common in this.

A person needs to cleanse themselves of this energy and influence and heal the traumas for this to go away. It can be a long road.

I honestly would suggest (I will not elaborate on anything you emailed me like I promised) to find someone you can talk to like a therapist or someone specialized in this. It won't take care of the spiritual part but in the physical and emotional it's good to talk this stuff out with someone.

I mean I do know how to help people out of a lot of this stuff and have done it with my girlfriend and a couple others but I will be damned if I have another one of these vampire things on me. That would create astral links so not going to do that with you.

 

[darkmonkey666]

Hey Sly,

Ive read the other message. I just wanted to say, that it is impossible to bring up things that have to do with trauma to the forums.

This is all due to the enemy. Opening up about such grave things would invite you to be cursed the heck out of you.

Not to mention the people that misunderstand and would rather just point fingers.

Ive done Fts in the past that had the removal of traumatic experience in the affirmation but nothing happened. Have you had the same experience?

That sucks if true. I have seen a lot of people bring up various things before on here though. I didn't think of that.

That actually makes sense. When dealing with traumas you need a healing affirmation and some kind of positive energy or healing rune along with freeing. I think they can be added together. Same experience just doing freeing the soul on it. So the working needs to be a little more elaborate.

Example Wunjo Ansuz Nauthiz (of course others or different ones can be used if a person thinks it's better)
More elaborate affirmations can be done that more focus the mind on the event and healing it but in present tense. I had luck with that. About 90 to 120 days for serious traumas maybe a little longer and it's gone.

I have to say, as I am dealing with many traumas from childhood, the enemy uses those events to enslave your mind.
I am still in the process to clarify but I'll relate what I found out until now.
Letting emotions emerge from your mind is helpful, I did, and some very intense emotions rose and manifested without me even knowing why, it was overwhelming. This happened as the mind was triggered by things I saw, and songs I listened, that pertained to my childhood. After emotions arose, and I dealt with them, I have been able to recall past events and now I can understand what happened. I am dealing with traumas.

The whole "inside child" thing is somehow true. I have - to my surprise - found that this "child" (that I believe is the emotional/Moon level of our soul, or something related to) was locked in a place where traumas happened at 5 years old. It is sort of dark room where "he" was scared, and subdued/enslaved to my father's will. He was not able to escape this room, until I put myself in deep trance and visualized him to get out and I locked the room with my father inside. I felt a very big relief and deep happiness.
This "child" does seem to exist as a thoughtform, I have perceived him moving around. I believe I simply projected a dense bunch of emotions into a form with which you can dialogue.
It is rather confusion but, it worked.
Before dealing with all of this, I had the deep feeling I was worthless, and I had to struggle even to buy decent clothes as I would unconsciously choose the less value for them and use them until worn out. Now I feel like I deserve more, and this is a big step.
I have been helped by my GD In this process, I have been said I am recalling childhood sadness in steps, as it would be too much to remember everything and may overwhelm myself.

I hope my experience, even if a bit confusing, may help others to deal with repressed bad feeling. I think many of us carry some hidden baggage, in different forms.
I also believe the enemy uses this baggage to enslave the mind. If this "child" is locked somewhere and forced to feel in a way, you are not really free. If the person who caused traumas is under the enemy influence (most likely), xian or worst, this puts a part of your mind/soul (?) under his/her influence.

The approach that worked for me is 1. Having someone to talk too about all this. And 2. Healing workings and 3 freeing the soul.

Along with this. Some unrelated programming if it comes up during this you can work on in adding separate workings. A couple years of this and your good it's almost as if it didn't happen for some people.

Just sharing.

 

[Lucius Invictus [NG]]

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Hey Sly,

Ive read the other message. I just wanted to say, that it is impossible to bring up things that have to do with trauma to the forums.

This is all due to the enemy. Opening up about such grave things would invite you to be cursed the heck out of you.

Not to mention the people that misunderstand and would rather just point fingers.

Ive done Fts in the past that had the removal of traumatic experience in the affirmation but nothing happened. Have you had the same experience?

I too tried a working similar to that and the effects were more like surface issues and not the root of things. It still offered relief tho.

I notice the more specific the better, and also to think outside the box.

For example, I tried to remove sexual trauma with both a square and a runic Waunyo working but to no avail. However, I have had more success with purification workings and freedom workings.

I am using UR on my sacral chakra to separate all past and present life sexual connections to ALL other beings. Only 3 days in but it feels good as I do it.

 

[darkmonkey666]

Hey Sly,

Ive read the other message. I just wanted to say, that it is impossible to bring up things that have to do with trauma to the forums.

This is all due to the enemy. Opening up about such grave things would invite you to be cursed the heck out of you.

Not to mention the people that misunderstand and would rather just point fingers.

Ive done Fts in the past that had the removal of traumatic experience in the affirmation but nothing happened. Have you had the same experience?

That sucks if true. I have seen a lot of people bring up various things before on here though. I didn't think of that.

That actually makes sense. When dealing with traumas you need a healing affirmation and some kind of positive energy or healing rune along with freeing. I think they can be added together. Same experience just doing freeing the soul on it. So the working needs to be a little more elaborate.

Example Wunjo Ansuz Nauthiz (of course others or different ones can be used if a person thinks it's better)
More elaborate affirmations can be done that more focus the mind on the event and healing it but in present tense. I had luck with that. About 90 to 120 days for serious traumas maybe a little longer and it's gone.

I have to say, as I am dealing with many traumas from childhood, the enemy uses those events to enslave your mind.
I am still in the process to clarify but I'll relate what I found out until now.
Letting emotions emerge from your mind is helpful, I did, and some very intense emotions rose and manifested without me even knowing why, it was overwhelming. This happened as the mind was triggered by things I saw, and songs I listened, that pertained to my childhood. After emotions arose, and I dealt with them, I have been able to recall past events and now I can understand what happened. I am dealing with traumas.

The whole "inside child" thing is somehow true. I have - to my surprise - found that this "child" (that I believe is the emotional/Moon level of our soul, or something related to) was locked in a place where traumas happened at 5 years old. It is sort of dark room where "he" was scared, and subdued/enslaved to my father's will. He was not able to escape this room, until I put myself in deep trance and visualized him to get out and I locked the room with my father inside. I felt a very big relief and deep happiness.
This "child" does seem to exist as a thoughtform, I have perceived him moving around. I believe I simply projected a dense bunch of emotions into a form with which you can dialogue.
It is rather confusion but, it worked.
Before dealing with all of this, I had the deep feeling I was worthless, and I had to struggle even to buy decent clothes as I would unconsciously choose the less value for them and use them until worn out. Now I feel like I deserve more, and this is a big step.
I have been helped by my GD In this process, I have been said I am recalling childhood sadness in steps, as it would be too much to remember everything and may overwhelm myself.

I hope my experience, even if a bit confusing, may help others to deal with repressed bad feeling. I think many of us carry some hidden baggage, in different forms.
I also believe the enemy uses this baggage to enslave the mind. If this "child" is locked somewhere and forced to feel in a way, you are not really free. If the person who caused traumas is under the enemy influence (most likely), xian or worst, this puts a part of your mind/soul (?) under his/her influence.

This also is why this is so difficult to get off you partly that thoughtform. I can tell from your writing sometimes in the way you write a few things sounds like the older generation in general.

Hmm remove the influence. If you end up cursing him still not going to solve all this even without mind control. You need to remove the energy and influence.

 

[darkmonkey666]

That sucks if true. I have seen a lot of people bring up various things before on here though. I didn't think of that.

That actually makes sense. When dealing with traumas you need a healing affirmation and some kind of positive energy or healing rune along with freeing. I think they can be added together. Same experience just doing freeing the soul on it. So the working needs to be a little more elaborate.

Example Wunjo Ansuz Nauthiz (of course others or different ones can be used if a person thinks it's better)
More elaborate affirmations can be done that more focus the mind on the event and healing it but in present tense. I had luck with that. About 90 to 120 days for serious traumas maybe a little longer and it's gone.

I have to say, as I am dealing with many traumas from childhood, the enemy uses those events to enslave your mind.
I am still in the process to clarify but I'll relate what I found out until now.
Letting emotions emerge from your mind is helpful, I did, and some very intense emotions rose and manifested without me even knowing why, it was overwhelming. This happened as the mind was triggered by things I saw, and songs I listened, that pertained to my childhood. After emotions arose, and I dealt with them, I have been able to recall past events and now I can understand what happened. I am dealing with traumas.

The whole "inside child" thing is somehow true. I have - to my surprise - found that this "child" (that I believe is the emotional/Moon level of our soul, or something related to) was locked in a place where traumas happened at 5 years old. It is sort of dark room where "he" was scared, and subdued/enslaved to my father's will. He was not able to escape this room, until I put myself in deep trance and visualized him to get out and I locked the room with my father inside. I felt a very big relief and deep happiness.
This "child" does seem to exist as a thoughtform, I have perceived him moving around. I believe I simply projected a dense bunch of emotions into a form with which you can dialogue.
It is rather confusion but, it worked.
Before dealing with all of this, I had the deep feeling I was worthless, and I had to struggle even to buy decent clothes as I would unconsciously choose the less value for them and use them until worn out. Now I feel like I deserve more, and this is a big step.
I have been helped by my GD In this process, I have been said I am recalling childhood sadness in steps, as it would be too much to remember everything and may overwhelm myself.

I hope my experience, even if a bit confusing, may help others to deal with repressed bad feeling. I think many of us carry some hidden baggage, in different forms.
I also believe the enemy uses this baggage to enslave the mind. If this "child" is locked somewhere and forced to feel in a way, you are not really free. If the person who caused traumas is under the enemy influence (most likely), xian or worst, this puts a part of your mind/soul (?) under his/her influence.

This also is why this is so difficult to get off you partly that thoughtform. I can tell from your writing sometimes in the way you write a few things sounds like the older generation in general.

Hmm remove the influence. If you end up cursing him still not going to solve all this even without mind control. You need to remove the energy and influence.

And no I am not saying everything is bad about the older generation or anything some of their ideas are better just that this is how I can tell you still have deep attachment to his ideas somehow.

 

[Gerecht_Ror]

A person needs to cleanse themselves of this energy and influence and heal the traumas for this to go away. It can be a long road.

I honestly would suggest (I will not elaborate on anything you emailed me like I promised) to find someone you can talk to like a therapist or someone specialized in this. It won't take care of the spiritual part but in the physical and emotional it's good to talk this stuff out with someone.

I mean I do know how to help people out of a lot of this stuff and have done it with my girlfriend and a couple others but I will be damned if I have another one of these vampire things on me. That would create astral links so not going to do that with you.

Thanks, this is valuable input again.
Chakra cleaning seems to work very well for me, I am doing this for every new Moon, it seems beneficial.
About psychological help, this is not easy as many yehuborim and Yehuborim influence are involved, however this may be a further step at some level I will evaluate.

Also, yes, I have older generation influences - but also struggling to advance on the physical/mind level. Not to say it is bad but this comes with influence from the vampire, and the "older ways"; there are some century-old influences that want to invade my life that I always repelled. Good spot.

Anyway, I have found the core of the problems. Now I am starting a long work towards freeom of the Soul, I perceive this is possible.

 

[Gerecht_Ror]

The whole "inside child" thing is somehow true. I have - to my surprise - found that this "child" (that I believe is the emotional/Moon level of our soul, or something related to) was locked in a place where traumas happened at 5 years old. It is sort of dark room where "he" was scared, and subdued/enslaved to my father's will.

I just wanted to update. With meditation and visualization while in trance, I have been able to let this "child" come out from the dark room that is now lit, revealing facts to me. Still a long way to walk to re-establish emotional balance, as this child (be it a thoughtform or a representation of an inner level of the soul, cannot figure this out yet) is full of negative emotions that need to be cleaned. I will use 1. Sowilo rune with Lunar cleaning meditation from New Moon 2. Wunjo rune to fix traumas 3. Inner talking while in trance, sort of self-hypnosis (as per ToZ technique) to adjust thing.
This seems to go in parallel with cleaning of 6th chakra from past or karmic dross.

I will be silent for a while. Should I find new noticeable thinks, I will update.

 

[Adhiti666]

To my experience : singers do not know barely anything about the occult. They are simply unconsciously driven by te enemy / greys or so and they think they had an "idea" for a song, while that idea has been injected into their mind by the enemy.
This is why pedophilia, sexual violence, etc. is widspread in hollywood and possibly also into the music industry. They traumatize and then mentally enslave their "chosen non-spiritualists" who manifest the power to be creative. They enslave their creativity, and leave them as remote controlled borgs at the emotional level.

Killing false ego... sort of giant task. I am working on this.
I found mine was created by my father in childhood. My father was sort of remote controlling it.
I just completely interrupted communication with him and detached from my chakras. It seems false ego is weaker now, due to lack of external stimulations to mantain it going.
Also, I changed some facts in my life, of which the false ego was feeding.
3rd I am trying to create a new ego, by new actions in completely different directions. This creates internal conflict and obstacles.
This is what I understood until now.

Well, that makes sense.


Perfect, I get it. Then maybe I haven't completely destroyed it yet, as I haven't completely detached. But it's so much weaker. I feel it has quite less influence over my life in general, so that I can advance and feel myself.

Also changed a lot.

Not sure about the new ego in myself. I have always had this idea that I had a core unchangeable self, with the essence of who I am.

Basically, I just wanted to be more like myself and then develop from there and not like this other person.

Thanks.

 

[Gerecht_Ror]

Basically, I just wanted to be more like myself and then develop from there and not like this other person.

This is also what I thought, I am building on myself according to my natal chart and soul, and not according to other's will, expectations or desires (that were, to be a clone of him).

 

[Gerecht_Ror]

I just want to write a final post, resuming what I understood about inner problems, traumas, false ego and how they can steer life to the wrong direction. Hope this will help people to fix any similar problem.
Also I will not use this account anymore, both because I do want to transform myself from a traumatized persona to a self-sufficient persona, healed and health, and also because I revealed much about me so I will leave the yehuborim tracking me with nothing (ahah).

- I have struggled since all my life with my father as a strong vampire, controlling my thoughts and life, both consciously and unconsciously. As he is a strong xian this created any sort of problems, conflicts, and prevented quick acdvancement in Zevism.
- I recently acknowledged I have been sexually abused since I was 5 years old, by my father, for years. Memories came up 45+ years later when the vampire/abuser started to weaken (I fight magickally against him) and I detached him from my chakras with ToZ meditation (TH mantra). This let the mind emerge with repressed memories. I have studied much and I have personal proofs, the mind CAN delete very negative memories to allow the self to survive. I would have killed myself years ago, if I knew about those facts. Now thanks to Satan I am strong enough to understand and fix this. The mind prevents damages by repressing memories. According to my research, many people remember between 40-60 years old or so; just keep this in mind if you have heavy problems buried inside.
- The mind fractures, like a mable slab : it is intact, but fractured, and the separate sections cannot communicate correctly. Normally this creates an ego (we can call false ego) that is working to survive, completely detached from buried emotion (fracture). The emotional part is stored into the subconscious as a "kid" (as childohood traumas create fractures, when you were a kid) that lives in darkness, without time. This part of the mind lives repeating the trauma, and has no knowledge of present times. He can only act due to stimulations: if you meet a men, alone in a lonely place, recalling some of the past abuses, your emotional detached part may act and create fears, uncontrolled emotions, as this "kid" is trying to escape a potential danger, that he perceives happening at time of abuses. Many people with those problems, often lack emotions and are very cold (outside).
- I am firmly convinced that the yehuborim use those technique, to control people. When your mind fractures, the inside emotional part is still attached to the abuser as a vampire. When you meet the abuser (or a person recalling him, for some facts like smell, voice, actions, places similar... etc) , your emotional repressed side is both scared and servile. You cannot escape the will of the abuser (or perceived abuser). I see, this is how the yehuborim control hollywood stars, as the recent pedophile scandals showed us.
- Working to reduce the false ego influence will allow perceiving the inner repressed emotional side. When you act to repress and worn out the false ego (possibly with the help of Pluto transiting your Sun as I did) to rebuild it with a new ego, closer to the Gods and better - as I intend to do - you can reach a moment where the inner suppressed emotions arise (if any). Many traumas can lead to personality fracture, not only sexual abuse: beating, non-care, verbal abuse, psychological violence, etc.
When this happens, it may be overwhelming, my GD helped me to keep the balance and filtered my memories giving me only what I could sustain without a breakdown.
- Many traumatized people may perceive themselves as low-value unworthy persons. This happens because a kid, when is abused and betrayed by an adult he trusts, does not understand why the adult is harming him. So, his mind says, he must be bad and unworthy as the only possible cause. Satan and the Gods did not treat me as a waste but helped me with the greatest love and care, so there is hope, even for heavily abused people. Working to increase your self esteem highly helps to fix all the stuff.
- Key points (in my case) : 2nd chakra. Sexual abuse destroys self esteem and attach a powerful link to 2nd chakra. I am working to remove it, it is very deep, so this may require multiple 40-90 days workings.
- Also, I now know that childhood abuse is a giant vortex of energies. This has been obviously created by the yehuborim. Once you are caught in is (through abuse), via the 2nd chakra link, it is hard to escape without knowledge. Most people will repeat abuses on others (NOT my case!) if they are weak inside to the point they will accept harming kids. Many if not all will deny their abuses even to themselves. Many will fight all their life to live a "normal" life and will oppose to this vortex. There is a powerful will (the yehuborim?) behind this, secrecy is the key point. Breaking free of the secrecy surrounding abuses requires a lot of power. I still wander between denial and acknowledging my abuses, when I am stronger and meditate hard, I stand firmly against abusers and I see the truth. In bad days, I do not want to believe what happened to me. This is a protection from the conscious mind, it's slowly fading away.

So, please, keep in mind there are people who suffered the worst from the yehuborim or corrupted/enslaved Potential people of the Gods, but they are not aware of this. Some people will remember, and have a chance to fix their soul, some will not remember and suffer.
This may lead to emotional outburst, suicidal thoughts, attacking others for no reason (perceived as dangers, while they are not), hypervigilance, sexual problems and/or hypersexuality, depression, drug abuse.

In case someone have been catched in this horrible monster of violence, please be kind to yourself.
The hardest thing to do, is understanding all of this is NOT your fault; when done, other stuff will emerge by itself.

I hope my words will stay alive here, in case someone needs to face this stuff (I truly hope, very few people, if any).
I am on my way to fixing myself and arise with a new self, in time due.

 

[GoldenSky]

Actually, this is something I have been struggling for years now, and a few days ago I had a breakdown because of it. I had no idea what the actual causes were, I always used a psychological approach without knowing that this can be connected to the enemy. I spent my previous days searching on this forum and the website, I discovered that even thought I wasn't raised in a xian family, the programming itself had effected me greatly. Which is something I never thought of before as a possibility, but here we are. I'm somewhat happy about this discovery, because I can finally work on it
I don't think I'II write too much on the forums, but I just wanted to say thank you for explaining this, and helping me find my way. The fact that I managed to understand is a big thing in itself

 

[Gerecht_Ror]

Actually, this is something I have been struggling for years now, and a few days ago I had a breakdown because of it. I had no idea what the actual causes were, I always used a psychological approach without knowing that this can be connected to the enemy. I spent my previous days searching on this forum and the website, I discovered that even thought I wasn't raised in a xian family, the programming itself had effected me greatly. Which is something I never thought of before as a possibility, but here we are. I'm somewhat happy about this discovery, because I can finally work on it
I don't think I'II write too much on the forums, but I just wanted to say thank you for explaining this, and helping me find my way. The fact that I managed to understand is a big thing in itself

I am glad I have been of help.
I had a breakdown too years ago without knowing why; now I understood this was due to buried self-hate that manifested during a bad Saturn transit.

 

[Gerecht_Ror]

I forgot to mention, I noticed an increase of recent awakening to the buried abused, for normal people.
The web shows that - people remembers, some psychologists started to specialize in this kind f healing (some, does not seems yehuborim).
I take this as a positive sign, the Yehuborim abuse vortex of energy is weakening, as a consequence of the enemy gradually loosing power.