richardlesterhailsatan11
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I been trying constantly, every day, for about two years now. In the beginning of that two years, after 5 months of doing the meditations I achieved the astral sight, but only for a couple of weeks I was seeing them, I would see the outlines of astral entities in the physical, and in the reflections of mirrors and windows I would see them as physical beings. That was also do to someone I knew that helped activate me, he (unlike me) could see them physically and even talk to them. I want to get back to that point again, I been doing the meditations like I said for about two years now and I haven't got no where close, and everytime I can I have to do drugs (meth) to even get to the point of seeing them. It's like a stimulate for me (please don't judge me fellow brothers and sisters!). I've activated my senses to an extent, but not as good as the first time around in the beginning of that two years. And everytime I do, it only lasts for a day or a couple of hours, and then I can't see nohing from the Astral anymore.
I'm at a road block brothers and sisters, I'm trying my hardest but I can't get no where. Everyday I try, I'm getting to the verge of just giving up, I think about suicide almost daily now, because if I can't progress in spirituality then what is the point of living? If I die, I will die giving my soul to Father Satan. I made that dedication, and I'm sticking with it until death. People don't even know the HATE and DISGUST I harbor for the christian "god" and his angels, let alone the people who follow them...
I even have people doing angel magick against me, and I think this might be playing a big role in why I'm feeling depressed and like I'm getting no where too. Every Monday I do a ritual to Father Satan, everyday I'm constantly praying to him to change things, to get me passed that road block where I'm stuck at, and nothing is changing, at all. I'm keeping my faith strong in him regardless though. I don't know where to turn, I'm at a loss cause. There is no fellow Satanists here in South Dakota that can help me with my problems, personally, I think I'm the only one, LOL! And everyone that does get into witchcraft is into that angel garbage. They can see the astral, they can talk to those that reside there, they can telepathically read thoughts (an ability I have never achieved), they can move objects with their minds, and ect. ect. Most of these people are Native Americans (Including myself) and they get into Native American spirituality (which I believe is corrupt and another form of angel magick). These people are undercover haters, and once they found out I'm a Satanist they been doing their bullshit angel magick against me. It's like these people won't give me a break.
I have no where to turn to, and like I said I pray to Father Satan everyday, and if it wasn't for Satan so far, I would of been dead a long time ago, and I'm atleast thankful for that. I fight for Satan all the time on Youtube, Facebook, anywhere I can I'm fighting against the ignorance of christians and for the truth, letting it be known. All i want is to advance, and it's not happening. Please help!!!!!! It feels like I'm hopeless, and sometimes I think about just hanging it up and saying fuck it to all, but I know once I do that, I reincarnate back into the same BULL yet again. I have asperger syndrome which makes it even WORSE on me.
I don't understand why people who get into angel magick can see the astral, telepathically read thoughts, and know the powers of the mind and soul, and sometiems it feels like I'm at their mercy. The shit is unfair, these people are fucking evil! And yet they know the powers of the mind and use them for their own SELFISH needs and then use it to abuse others. These people are always ending up in jail, treating people like crap, arrogant, and the list goes on and on. Why do these people get to have these powers, but people like me don't? Fucking want to kill these fuckers! Anyways... if anyone can help me, please, I would appreciate it.
Hail Satan!
I'm at a road block brothers and sisters, I'm trying my hardest but I can't get no where. Everyday I try, I'm getting to the verge of just giving up, I think about suicide almost daily now, because if I can't progress in spirituality then what is the point of living? If I die, I will die giving my soul to Father Satan. I made that dedication, and I'm sticking with it until death. People don't even know the HATE and DISGUST I harbor for the christian "god" and his angels, let alone the people who follow them...
I even have people doing angel magick against me, and I think this might be playing a big role in why I'm feeling depressed and like I'm getting no where too. Every Monday I do a ritual to Father Satan, everyday I'm constantly praying to him to change things, to get me passed that road block where I'm stuck at, and nothing is changing, at all. I'm keeping my faith strong in him regardless though. I don't know where to turn, I'm at a loss cause. There is no fellow Satanists here in South Dakota that can help me with my problems, personally, I think I'm the only one, LOL! And everyone that does get into witchcraft is into that angel garbage. They can see the astral, they can talk to those that reside there, they can telepathically read thoughts (an ability I have never achieved), they can move objects with their minds, and ect. ect. Most of these people are Native Americans (Including myself) and they get into Native American spirituality (which I believe is corrupt and another form of angel magick). These people are undercover haters, and once they found out I'm a Satanist they been doing their bullshit angel magick against me. It's like these people won't give me a break.
I don't understand why people who get into angel magick can see the astral, telepathically read thoughts, and know the powers of the mind and soul, and sometiems it feels like I'm at their mercy. The shit is unfair, these people are fucking evil! And yet they know the powers of the mind and use them for their own SELFISH needs and then use it to abuse others. These people are always ending up in jail, treating people like crap, arrogant, and the list goes on and on. Why do these people get to have these powers, but people like me don't? Fucking want to kill these fuckers! Anyways... if anyone can help me, please, I would appreciate it.
Hail Satan!